The slender jade fingers were placed on the keyboard, and they moved slightly, as if they wanted to tap. However, after moving, they calmly placed them on the keyboard without tapping.
Li Miaoyu sat cross-legged on the carpet of the piano room, holding the computer and staring blankly at the chat box on the screen.
Li Wanyi's avatar is a grass. She asked specifically. Li Wanyi said that she found it on the Internet and happened to see it. She thought it looked pretty and had a lot of meaning, so she used it as her avatar.
She looked at the green grass for a while, then turned to her profile picture, which was a picture of Meow Meow.
After raising Yaya, she once thought about changing her avatar to Yaya, but she thought it would be too new and distasteful. However, the two kittens had never been photographed together and they had never met.
She tried to photoshop two cats together, but unfortunately her technique was poor and it didn’t look good after many attempts, so she gave up.
In the past, she didn't care about these, they were just avatars, so what should she care about?
At this moment, probably because she was sensitive, she suddenly thought a little too much.
The senior sister seems to be like a grass. Her family situation is not very good. She is like a grass growing in the soil. She has to go through ups and downs very early. For example, she has to work since she was a child. For example, she has been away from home and living in school since she was in junior high school.
, in addition to studying every day, I also have to calculate living expenses, whether I have enough to eat, and whether I can save more...
When it came time to take the college entrance examination, in addition to these things, she almost dropped out of school and worked.
Wei Qingfan said that the senior sister in his dream dropped out of school to work, but even so, she started from scratch and became a very wealthy boss and female entrepreneur.
Perseverance, strong and independent, soft on the outside and strong on the inside, aren't they all just like a small grass?
And it is a very beautiful grass that can bloom...
What about yourself?
It seems like a cat like this, a pet cat kept by others and waiting for others to feed it, is not even as good as a stray cat like Yaya. There is a high probability that it can catch mice, birds and other things to eat.
Survive.
If you go wandering by yourself, you will probably be like Meow Meow, and you will starve to death soon...
"pet……"
She sat there in a daze, these two words swirling in her mind.
The senior sister can work to make money, support the family, provide education for her younger brothers and sisters, and even start a business and become a boss. If it were you, what would you do?
She thought about it seriously. It seemed that she couldn't do what her senior sister knew and could do...at least she hadn't experienced it...
Compared with my senior sister, I am like a flower in a greenhouse as mentioned in the book. A little wind and rain can knock me down.
If you don’t have your parents, who are you? What can you do? Can you live on? Or am you not the same Li Miaoyu you are now?
Most of the flowers cultivated in the greenhouse are more delicate and beautiful. I am indeed very beautiful, but even in terms of beauty, I can't compare to my senior sister... at least not in terms of breasts...
There is no comparison in other aspects...
As she thought this, her heart was filled with frustration and frustration. She subconsciously pursed her lips, her cheeks slightly bulging, and she held the mouse in her hand and slowly slid it up.
There was a lot of chat content in the two days, but it was only about yesterday's content. She quickly found last night's chat history.
After the "incident" on Wei Qingfan's birthday, she and Li Wanyi were very sad at first, both hated him, and both wanted to quit and let the other person be with Wei Qingfan.
This may be regarded as a kind of common hatred.
On the way back from the capital, they talked a lot, about him and each other.
After Li Wanyi returned home, the two chatted late at night on the 19th, which once again deepened their understanding of each other. Perhaps their personalities were compatible, one was pure and kind, the other was independent and strong, and their relationship became closer.
Otherwise, if Li Wanyi wanted to buy a house, she would not directly ask her for help.
This intimacy lasted for several days and was broken last night.
——In these days, Wei Qingfan has been chatting with her for two days, and they are very clear about this. Even during the chat, part of the content is what Wei Qingfan said and did today.
This is a very subtle thought and behavior. It seems that if you don't do this, the previous behavior of saying "you should be with him" will become hypocritical.
Li Miaoyu knew that Wei Qingfan followed her senior sister home, and she could understand this behavior. It once made her feel weird. That was her boyfriend. She went to find another girl to explain and coax her, why did she feel so weird?
Is it understandable?
How can you think it is understandable?
However, she just felt it was understandable.
Because she knew very well that night, when she was doing those things with Wei Qingfan upstairs, her senior sister was watching and waiting downstairs, and how much harm she suffered.
In other words, she knew that the senior sister had been greatly hurt by this, but it was difficult to understand and imagine how severe it was.
Some things are different if you have not experienced them personally.
However, it must be a higher level of trauma than what I have experienced, and it is also more difficult to bear.
The senior sister saw her going upstairs with him... The whole night, from nine o'clock in the evening to eleven o'clock the next morning, for more than twelve hours, she stood downstairs...
What would she have been thinking about for such a long time? What kind of suffering and pain she had experienced in her heart...
Moreover, he came to see himself first, and then went to coax the senior sister. He also went back to his own home... Therefore, during those few days in the county, he could go to see the senior sister and coax the senior sister. This is "
"Normal" choice... When he returned to the capital, didn't he also come to his own home?
In the next few days, didn’t he still send himself messages and call himself every day?
However, the senior sister went to Xiamen, and he never called him again.
He sent a message but didn't call.
He used to make phone calls...
She waited until last night before sending a message to Li Wanyi to ask her if Wei Qingfan had gone to Xiamen.
She guessed that it must be, but she also expected that it wasn't. She was expecting him because she was busy with work and had no time to make phone calls, so she could only send messages. She didn't forget about Miaomiao after having a senior sister.
However, yes...he just had a senior, so he forgot about Miaomiao.
The senior sister told her the truth, saying that he stood downstairs in the dormitory all night and did not leave until noon the next day...
It is not difficult to guess what the senior is thinking. The big bad guy deliberately mentioned them to each other. Therefore, even if he knew that telling this matter might make him feel bad, the senior could only say it, because if he was from that
When the big bad guy learns about this, he will have a deeper estrangement from her...
The senior sister is not at fault in this matter, she is a victim and a deceiver just like him;
She also wanted to withdraw voluntarily and let herself be with the big bad guy... She was so hurt that she never thought about retaliating against anyone. She just wanted to hide and lick her wounds silently...
Li Miaoyu is clear about these ideas and principles.
But I just feel uncomfortable!
Last night, when she fell asleep, she could still see Wei Qingfan standing downstairs in her senior's dormitory, waiting for the girl he liked to forgive him...
He doesn't remember himself.
He said to himself that it is okay as long as Miaomiao is not Wanwan, then he will definitely tell his senior sister that it is okay as long as Wanwan is not Miaomiao... He will definitely say so...
Is this what he really thinks?
Of course Li Wanyi, who is more sensible and powerful, is more popular than Li Miaoyu, who is more willful and useless... This is a normal thing...
When Wei Qingfan was staying with her senior at home, she thought this was understandable. Although she didn't understand why she thought this way, she comforted herself by saying that this would prove her determination and that she really wanted to break up with Wei Qingfan.
, and I really hope and bless him and his senior sister to be together...
But, but... it's just that he went to Xiamen to find his senior sister. After school started, he was only a few miles away from him, while he was thousands of miles away from his senior sister. He would have to cross half of China. In other places, this is a lot.
There are many countries away... So now that the senior sister returns to school, it is normal for him to go to see her senior sister...
Then why can’t I understand and accept it?
Is it because he stood downstairs all night?
She couldn't understand it, but she could clearly feel that she felt very uncomfortable, wanted to cry, and missed him...but she also hated him, didn't want to care about him, and never wanted to see him again.
She even thought about suspending school, never returning to the capital, never seeing him again, and making him unable to find her in school...
If that happens, will he be anxious? Will he fly over to find him immediately like he did to his senior sister?
Will you stand downstairs in your home all night?
She thought about it like this, and her tears couldn't stop falling.
After crying for a while, she wiped away her tears and told herself to be strong... Senior sister would not cry like this... I am not trying to compare with Senior sister, I don't want him anymore, I don't care about him...
However, life will go on without Wei Qingfan... Before I met him, I was very happy every day. Now I just go back to life without him, and I can still be very happy...
She persuaded herself in her mind, closed the computer, stood up, went to the bathroom to wash her face, and smiled in the mirror.
She tried hard to make the smile in the mirror bright and happy. She laughed several times. Finally satisfied, she patted her face again, then left the bathroom and came to the study.
She found the ink stick and inkstone, poured some water, and grinded the ink by herself very seriously. She used to use ink, but now it was different. She had to meditate. She had heard someone say that grinding the ink was a process of meditation.
You can feel the meaning of the calligraphy...
Who said that?
She stood there, thinking dreamily that her mother had said this to her, her grandfather had said this, Wei Qingfan had also said this... But he was just parroting it, not knowing where he got it from, and just showing it off to herself.
, his handwriting is so ugly...
As she thought this, the corners of her mouth could not help but curve up, revealing a sweet and playful smile.
This smile bloomed, bright and bright, sweet and pure, and then it bloomed and then withered, turning into an aggrieved and sad expression.
She bit her lip, sniffed, then wiped away her tears, lowered her head and continued grinding carefully.
After grinding an inkstone, she tried the ink and found that it was thick enough. So she took a brush and spread out the rice paper and began to write.
She did not copy the copybook because the copybook at home did not contain what she wanted to write and there was no way to copy it.
My grandfather loved Wang Xianzhi's calligraphy very much. She was influenced by her grandfather and copied most of Wang Xianzhi's calligraphy. Unfortunately, not many of Wang Xianzhi's copybooks have survived, and she didn't learn enough about it. She was embarrassed to say that she was Wang Xianzhi.
I don’t know if it was her second or third year of high school, but she hasn’t practiced calligraphy seriously for several years, but her calligraphy skills since childhood are still there. Her handwriting is not as good as before, but it is still beautiful:
It's as white as snow on the mountain and as bright as the moon in the clouds. I heard that you had two opinions, so I came to resolve it.
Today's drinking party, Ming Dan's ditch water head. Coyotes are on the ditch, the ditch water flows east and west.
Desolate and desolate, there is no need to cry when getting married. I wish to have the person of my heart and never be apart until we grow old together.
A bamboo pole is like a bird, and a fish tail is like a stick! A man cares about his spirit, so why use money and a knife!
This is "Baitou Yin" by Zhuo Wenjun. It is said that Sima Xiangru wanted to take a concubine, so Zhuo Wenjun composed this "Baitou Yin" to Sima Xiangru, expressing his intention to cut off the relationship and never get entangled.
Some people also say that "Baitou Yin" is a forgery by later generations. Li Miaoyu doesn't know the truth and doesn't care. She likes "Baitou Yin", she just likes the story and the poem.
Xiao Miaomiao, who was still a little girl at that time, felt that the Zhuo Wenjun in this story, the Zhuo Wenjun who wrote "White Head Song", was so... so... so handsome! So cool!
It was a style that shocked her young heart.
However, whether in history or in stories, it seems that Zhuo Wenjun and Sima Xiangru are together again...
Perhaps, "Baitou Yin" is not an attitude and style, but a method and process?
It is said that along with this song "Baitou Yin" were sent to Sima Xiangru's hands, there were also "Huiyuan Lang" and "Farewell Book".
It's a pity that I don't remember...
She stood in front of the desk, silently dazed for a while, then put down the pen, rolled up the paper with smooth and beautiful handwriting on the desk, drew a handsome arc in the air, and threw it into the trash can.
It seemed that he had thrown all his worries into the trash can along with the piece of paper. After taking a deep breath, Li Miaoyu walked out of the study, went to the living room, then to the piano room, and finally to the bedroom, where he finally found his cell phone.
"Hello~"
She dialed her mother's phone number and said in a soft and sweet voice, "Mom, I want to go out and play."
"Where to go?"
"Xiamen."
"Why go to Xiamen?"
"Find someone."
"Who?"
"Oh, don't worry about it so much. I'm ready to leave."
"Yourself?"
"Yes, I will take a taxi to the airport, then fly to Xiamen, and then someone will pick me up. Don't worry, I will call you at any time."
"Okay, then you have to pay attention to safety and report to mother that you are safe at any time... Do you still have money on you?"
"have."
"Then you must remember to report to mom that you are safe at any time."
"Well, okay, thank you, mom."
After hanging up the phone, Li Miaoyu packed his luggage, said goodbye to Miaomiao seriously, then dragged his suitcase to the airport, and flew from the airport to Xiamen.
After landing, she dialed Li Wanyi's phone number.
It's obviously a matter between three people, why should the bad guy decide it alone?