Being able to spend this night with you, I am already a happy woman. I have grown from that bright and innocent Luoyang girl to a woman.
Don't blame me for being presumptuous. You were once young, and you must have loved deeply. There are all kinds of helplessness in the world, and there are many thorns.
For fame, wealth, and beauty, how many people sacrifice their youth and even their lives. But all I want in my life is a pipa, a pot of freshly brewed wine, and a close person.
Lingjie, when our fingers intertwined and were clasped in the hot spring water, I smiled. I really had the happiest smile in so many years. You didn't see it, but I know you can feel it.
She is a beauty, a beauty who is the most beautiful in Northern Qin. They decided to marry her to be your wife. I must have heard wrong, haha, otherwise, this must be a big joke!
Marry! No. Lingjie, she can’t match you, let alone understand your heart like me.
A true lover does not need to go through any so-called trials, let alone waste precious time to understand. A true lover can be recognized at a glance even if he or she is scattered in front of thousands of troops. Whether he or she is your lifelong lover.
of bondage.
You and I are both mortals, and both have hearts that are difficult for others to understand. You and I, living in this world, have our own fetters.
Your father and mother, my Luoyang relatives, each of them affects the meaning of our lives. You and I both know that we say goodbye today, but we don’t know when we will meet again.
Lingjie, there is a story that I have never told you. The letter I sent home to Luoyang contains one of my favorite headdresses, which is also the pomegranate flower inlaid with ruby that I wore tonight.
The day I received the letter and the items, my mother's heart suddenly tightened. She told me that on the spring night when I was born in the ninth year of junior high school, she had dreamed of a Taoist priest holding a red gold staff inlaid with pomegranate flowers.
He said to her solemnly - "I want to take that girl to Lin'an!"
Lingjie, this must be funny, right? Why did his words come true and confirm my predicament today! Your wife is a gentle and quiet girl.
Have you ever known how much I envy her and how much I hate her? Why can't I stay by your pillow all my life, spend the night with you, recite poems with you, drink peach blossom wine with you, and give birth to children for you?
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Many days ago, Yang Zhai smiled brightly at me and said that she said that Yuzhang was annulled by the Nanyue Kingdom on the grounds of non-cooperation. And she was eager and curious about going to South Vietnam and marrying that useless prince.
As soon as I heard about it, I became angry and scolded her in a deep voice not to go to South Vietnam. If the prince I have never met turns out to be a most vulgar person, you will cry to the sky and not be able to return to Chang'an.
However, today, it is not Yang Zhai who is going to Lin'an, but me. Yang Zhai, who is cheerful, cheerful and loves to laugh, was ordered by her father to marry Gong Lian, the youngest son of my hateful uncle.
However, my cousin is born well and has accomplished military exploits. Yangzhai, she is luckier than me and will be happy.
By the way, Lingjie, will you laugh at me for talking too much? You looked at me quietly and greedily, hugged me on your broad shoulders, and let my red lips touch your earlobe.
Lingjie, do you know that Aunt Bai shed tears in the hall today. I know she is worried about me. I didn't want her to go to South Vietnam, but Aunt Bai had made up her mind.
She said that staying here in Chang'an without any relatives was like leaving her in an empty city, which was so empty that people were scared. If Princess Nanyun was still alive, she should be in Lin'an now. She couldn't trust me, so she wanted to Follow. Just go.
Po Li, you have never seen her before. She is really beautiful, with snowy skin, red lips, and brown pupils. Everything highlights her difference from us.
Our fathers were close friends. Po Li said that she and I were very close to each other. Now that our family has been broken up and all her relatives are dead, she is willing to set off to the distant Lin'an to seek peace of mind.
Let's go, we are both sad and frustrated, so why not have her too!
As for Qin E, it goes without saying that I must take her there. Regardless of the fact that she is from Lin'an, I can't let go just the thought of leaving her alone in a lonely palace full of ghosts.
Lingjie, if possible, do you know what I want to take away most? You pursed your lips slightly and shook your head. You said you couldn't guess. You said you wanted to know Bu Man's true thoughts.
I straightened my expression, put my hand on your solid chest, and said softly, if possible, I would like to take you away. Let’s go to Lin’an. We live in seclusion in Xiling, where celebrities from the Southern Dynasties gather. We go boating on the waves, and we watch. The children with yellow hair and gray hair gradually grow up.
Oh, Lingjie, at that moment, I felt your heavy breathing, and you hugged me tightly, very tightly, as if you wanted to rub me into your heart.
I opened my lips and bit your shoulder in addiction, and my clear tears mixed with the pain that made me suffocate slowly fell into the hot spring water. Lingjie, I love you, I really love you, how could I allow another woman I also hold your arms like this.
No. I don't want it, I can't imagine her kissing you, I can't imagine her falling on your shoulder. This imagination alone is enough to torture me endlessly in the years to come.
Your slender and well-articulated fingers gently caressed my face. They quietly stirred up my sleeping love. My lips felt its obvious warmth, and my heart and body followed it. The rhythm gradually came to life.
You are so gentle that I completely forget about the pain. I only know that our bodies are like the lingering wild butterflies in the spring breeze, and we have forgotten the brevity of life.
Until the spring gradually fades and our bodies slowly fall among the fallen flowers and fallen flowers, Lingjie, do you know what I am thinking? I have no regrets. I will depend on you in this life and die with you again.
Buman, I heard you whispering my cousin. Lingjie, you said, I listened carefully. Buman, the world is not peaceful now, and unification is an unstoppable trend.
After years of hard work, Northern Qin has now become the most powerful among the six existing countries and the country with the best hope of unifying the world. Bu Man, I love you. When the Northern Qin Iron Cavalry approaches South Vietnam, I will never let you leave me again.
I assure you that our love should be the same as our ambition, like the wild geese flying across the blue sky, the birds flying over the desolate desert north and the green south.
Princess Yuzhang, she is the wife the king ordered me to marry. I will obey the order and marry her, but my heart is only for you.
When she enters the Lin Mansion, I will write a letter and invite myself to go to Yanmen to guard the border. Guan Shanyue, Qin Shifeng, Han Shiyu, killing the enemy and serving the country are my best contributions to our love in the harsh north wind. .
You, don't wrong yourself, I can give you only this. That bronze mirror is a token of our love, that ocarina is my figure accompanying you, Buman, I love you. (To be completed.)