It wasn't that she was disgusted with Xia An's approach, but it was because of herself that those scenes that she once thought were pornographic and disgusting ran through her mind, making her feel conflicted.
"Are you okay?" Xia An once again saw Ye Jin absent-minded and with an ugly face. It was like she suddenly woke up from a nightmare that morning. Xia An didn't know what she was thinking of, but it looked like she was in a bad state.
Ye Jin calmed down and sighed softly, "I'm a little tired today."
I'm always working overtime, so it's weird if I'm not tired.
Xia An was in the emergency room this month as well. She heard Ye Jin's expression and voice were tired and distressed. She still put her arms around Ye Jin's waist, taking the initiative to give her a warm embrace and asking gently, "Are you dizzy?"
Xia An is considerate and warm-hearted when dealing with other people, let alone the people she likes. In front of others, Xia An is hot on the outside and cold on the inside, but now in front of Ye Jin, she
Regardless of appearance or heart, he maintains the same enthusiasm.
Who let Ye Jin break into her heart?
"Go take a shower first." Xia An looked up at Ye Jin, and then said with a faint smile, "After you take a shower, I will press it on for you to make you feel more comfortable."
While talking, Xia An still hugged Ye Jin tightly, never intending to let go. Although she didn't say it clearly, this action was enough to show that she wanted Ye Jin to stay in her room tonight.
.
However.
"Go to bed early." Ye Jin looked unnatural, her mood was low and depressed at the moment, and Xia An was too close to her.
Suddenly he became cold again.
She seemed to resent her closeness.
Xia An finally realized this problem.
Maybe she didn't care once or twice, but the more times she did it, Xia An could clearly feel Ye Jin's resistance to her, which could explain why every time she couldn't help but want to kiss Ye Jin, she could only get the other person's kiss in the end.
conflict.
is that so?
With this suspicion in mind, Xia An slowly wrapped her arms around Ye Jin's neck, and she said in an ambiguous low voice, "I want to sleep with you tonight."
As he spoke, Xia An stood on tiptoes slightly and kissed Ye Jin's lips again.
The movements were very slow and deliberately tentative.
"Don't be like this..." Ye Jin moved her head back involuntarily. As she blurted out the words, she reached out and pushed Xia An away. She could not continue.
Sure enough.
The suspicion in my mind was confirmed.
This push made Xia An feel like she was being poured cold water from head to toe. After being pushed away, she stood in front of Ye Jin in a panic, not knowing what to say.
Ye Jin saw the confusion and sadness in Xia An's eyes. At this time, she was in a worse mood than Xia An.
Suddenly, the atmosphere became extremely weird.
"Why not?" Xia An felt aggrieved and asked Ye Jin.
She really couldn't understand Ye Jin's dodges again and again.
"I'm sorry." When Ye Jin said this, she did not look directly into Xia An's eyes. She took a breath and slowly confessed, "I can't accept this now."
Can't accept it...
After Xia An heard this, her heart became colder. She never expected to get such a reply from Ye Jin. She just wanted to get some response that Ye Jin also liked her, just a little bit.
But Ye Jin was avoiding her like this.
When you finally muster up the courage to take the initiative and become bored in the other person's eyes, no one will feel comfortable.
Xia An suppressed the disappointment in her heart and pursed her lips, "I was too impulsive."
"It's not your problem, it's my problem." Ye Jin interrupted Xia An. Seeing her aggrieved and self-blaming look, she felt even more uncomfortable. She tried to comfort her, "Give me a little more time."
Xia An was stunned, saying this again.
And Ye Jin was serious, it was her problem.
Xia An felt unsure.
What is Ye Jin's unspeakable secret that he has been unwilling to tell himself? Xia An struggled for a moment, but still tried to ask, "Can I know why?"
Why?
Because I can't give you what you want like a normal person. Xia An, when you understand, you will still stay with me like this as always. Do you like me?
Ye Jin admitted that it was her selfishness that hurt Xia An. She had always had an ambiguous attitude and greedily enjoyed the warmth Xia An gave her. When the relationship between them developed to this ambiguous level, she could not give it to Xia An.
More.
This is the situation Ye Jin least wants to face.
If you like someone, you can't help but want to touch him, so she said that Xia An was right and the fault was her own.
When Xia An said "I like you" seriously, Ye Jin really wanted to take the initiative to hold her face, caress and kiss her. In this way, she could give her an answer, reassure her, and make her happy.
But……
No matter how many times he took the initiative to ask why, Ye Jin never got an answer. Xia An suddenly felt a little tired. Ye Jin always said that he needed time, but Xia An thought that it was not a matter of time, but that Ye Jin did not give it.
When she had the chance, Ye Jin had no intention of letting her guard down.
Xia An looked at Ye Jin and was silent for a long time. He smiled absentmindedly and said softly, "It's okay if you don't want to answer now. Let's talk about it later..."
He actually gave in once again.
But Xia Anzhu was really telling the truth.
Did she like being too humble? Xia An laughed at herself, saying that she was too considerate of other people's feelings and sometimes would rather hold back her own discomfort.
Xia An's reasonableness made Ye Jin feel more guilty.
"It's almost twelve o'clock. I'm sleepy. You should go to bed early." After saying that, Xia An turned around and walked to the bathroom, leaving Ye Jin alone.
Ye Jin could tell that Xia An was in a worse mood.
Looking at the cold gifts on the bed, Ye Jin thought of Xia An's recent unhappy appearance. The source of Xia An's unhappiness was actually because of her. More than once, when Xia An was enthusiastic towards her, she was met with cold water.
Even if it can be understood once or twice, what about three or five times?
She just said that she couldn't accept that, and Xia An's eyes were clearly filled with sadness.
When Xia An changed into pajamas and came out of the bathroom, Ye Jin was no longer in the room. She did not stay.
Return to the room.
The second glass of red wine bottomed out, and Ye Jin was still sitting on the sofa, not sleepy at all.
Just like she rejected Yi Zhen's approach back then, she is now rejecting Xia An again.
It seems like everything is happening again.
The difference is the mood.
When Xia An couldn't give her what she wanted, she felt uncomfortable, just like how she felt now.
Sheng Ruqi often joked that she was doomed to die alone. Ye Jin always felt that it was reasonable. Sheng Ruqi got it right, so she was right.
Thinking of Sheng Ruqi's joke, Ye Jin had never been so melancholy as tonight.
Lying on the bed, Xia An was also not sleepy. She wrapped her body in a thick down quilt and stuffed her head together. Ye Jin didn't give her an answer, but she already had an answer in her heart.
She confessed her love, but Ye Jin did not accept it directly.
Xia An originally thought that whether she liked someone or not was a very simple matter, but now it seems that it is much more complicated than she thought. She felt that Ye Jin liked her, but she also felt that when she likes someone, she shouldn't be
so.
The more he thought about it, the less Xia An understood.
Why can Ye Jin treat her like a lover sometimes, but can't make their relationship go further?
"It's my problem, give me some more time." Lying on the bed alone, Xia An thought a lot. While thinking about Ye Jin's words, Yizhen's face flashed through his mind unconsciously.
Has she not let go of Yi Zhen yet?
So it takes time...
This is the worst answer, but Xia An also feels that it is the most likely.
Qi Muyi said that Ye Jin was a dedicated person, and she still misses her relationship after six years; Sheng Ruqi even said that Ye Jin gave up the idea of getting married because of Yizhen.
So much so that when Yizhen returned to China, Xia An couldn't ignore her existence.
Although Xia An doesn't know what happened between Ye Jin and Yizhen and why they broke up. But Ye Jin must have loved Yizhen very much at the beginning. Xia An still can't imagine that Ye Jin, who has always been cold and untouchable,
, what will it be like when you miss someone so much?
Just thinking about it made Xia An feel sour and uncomfortable. If she wasn't thinking about other people, why would Ye Jin refuse to truly accept herself and always hesitate.
Ye Jin is like an ice cube. Xia An originally thought that as long as she got closer, he could slowly warm her up. But now, Xia An was confused and didn't know if she could melt this ice cube.
Late at night.
The dim bedside lamp was turned off, turned on and off.
Repeatedly.
Xia An suffered from insomnia until two o'clock in the morning, tossing and turning in bed, unable to fall asleep.
The entire winter in Nancheng is spent in falling snow.
Time flies so fast, and it’s JM’s annual meeting in a blink of an eye.
Xia An met Yi Zhen in person at jm's annual dinner. She originally gave up the idea of going, but had no choice but to agree to Ye Jin.
That night, when Xia An bumped into a very drunk Yi Zhen, hugging Ye Jin with nostalgia regardless of his image. Xia An thought, was he too optimistic?
Not all past events can disappear with the wind...
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