Xia An is more afraid of the cold than most people. He shivered when he went out. It was only six o'clock and the night was getting dark. "Grandma, are you feeling better?"
It was freezing cold, and when he opened his mouth to speak, his hot and cold breaths alternated, creating a white mist. Soon, it dissipated into the air without a trace.
"I'm recovering well, but I still need to be hospitalized for a while." Ye Jin replied. After a while, she saw that Xia An's nose was turning red from the cold. It turned out that some people are so afraid of the cold.
"That's good." After hearing what Ye Jin said, Xia An sighed in relief. No matter what, she still blamed herself for this matter, thinking that they had deceived the old lady for so long, "Grandma, she must be angry.
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While saying these words, Xia An kept looking straight ahead, seemingly walking seriously, but in fact she was absent-minded. She was thinking that after today, she would completely put aside her ambiguous relationship with Ye Jin.
Hearing Xia An's self-reproaching tone, Ye Jin turned to look at her again, "It's okay, I will explain."
Xia An just hummed "Yeah" softly, remained silent, and walked forward in a muffled voice.
The two of them only chatted a few words along the way, which seemed boring.
A lot of things have happened recently, and both Xia An and Ye Jin feel a little depressed and heavy. When they get along together, they talk very little, but it can be seen that both of them are pretending to be worried.
Ye Jin's peripheral vision lingered on Xia An for a while. He still remembered that when he first met Xia An, she loved to smile no matter at night or in the hospital. She seemed to be able to put on a free and bright smile in any situation. But
Xia An has changed a bit now. He doesn't always put a smile on his face, especially when he is in front of him. Ye Jin knows clearly that this has nothing to do with him.
"What do you want to eat?"
"Whatever." Ye Jin had no intention of eating, not to mention that she had already eaten some when she was in the ward. But just now Xia An asked to have dinner together, and she agreed without thinking.
During these ten difficult days, when she was exhausted mentally and physically, Xia An silently stayed by her side. Ye Jin found that she longed for Xia An's company in her heart, even if he just stood quietly beside her.
So, was she really willing to let go of Xia An and continue to live alone? Ye Jin gradually realized that her answer seemed to be shifting towards "reluctant".
Xia An was very familiar with the hospital area. Since Ye Jin said it was casual, the two of them found a clean small restaurant near the hospital to spend some time.
"What do you want?" Xia An was about to push the menu to Ye Jin as soon as he sat down at the dining table.
"I've eaten it," Ye Jin said.
Xia An's hand holding the menu froze, remembering their previous conversation in the corridor, "Didn't you say you didn't eat?"
I have eaten, but I want to eat with you.
Ye Jin did not say such thoughtful words to Xia An. In the final analysis, she still did not let go of the burden in her heart and loved someone without any distractions.
Although Ye Jin didn't say it out loud, Xia An could feel that she wanted to eat with him.
It is indeed Mr. Ye's characteristic to never speak his mind. He can guess some things by himself, but to understand a person, you can't just rely on guessing like this, right?
There has always been a distance between her and Ye Jin, maybe because their personalities don't match, or maybe she is simply not the right person for Ye Jin. Ye Jin doesn't want to say more to her, and it's hard for her to get close to her. In Ye Jin's heart, it's all about time.
The longer time goes by, the better you can understand a person, but with Ye Jin, Xia An feels the opposite is true. The longer time goes by, the stranger she feels Ye Jin becomes.
Xia An tried her best not to think too much. No matter what, she thought about it. She and Ye Jin were not suitable. This was the answer.
On Valentine's Day, Xia An was determined to make it clear to Ye Jin, but the old lady's sudden situation completely disrupted their position.
Xia An is persistent in doing things, but that doesn't mean that she will stick to everything until the end, just like when she compromised with Ye Jin's request for a fake marriage, because she understood that it was her best choice at the time.
Probably when love comes, it is inevitable that people will be impulsive and lose their minds, as if they can really give up the whole world for one person.
At the beginning, when Xia An felt that Ye Jin also had a crush on her, it was exactly like this. An ambiguous look, a simple word of concern, and a slightly intimate gesture could make her overjoyed and unable to calm down for a long time.
It seems that whether the other person likes or dislikes him or her can determine the lightness or darkness of his own world.
Now that Xia An is facing all this, she is much calmer. She will no longer have her thoughts completely confused because of Ye Jin's little approach and concern.
Xia An's experiences from childhood to adulthood have destined Xia An to be more realistic than her peers. She is willing to love someone deeply, but at the same time, she will not be reduced to a state of collapse just because of the lack of love.
Ye Jin didn't know that in terms of emotional rationality, Xia An was no less rational than her. When it came to making choices, Xia An was even more free and decisive than her.
Xia An glanced at the menu briefly and ordered a small portion of fresh meat wontons.
The restaurant is a little noisy, but it doesn't affect the conversation.
"Actually, I have something to tell you." After ordering the meal, Xia An said to Ye Jin truthfully.
Perhaps it was because of the scandal with Yizhen that day that Ye Jin was thinking about how to explain it later so that Xia An could believe it.
However, what Xia An said next was something Ye Jin had never thought of.
"Since grandma already knows about our affairs." Xia An paused for a moment, stared into Ye Jin's eyes, and then said, "... let's get divorced."
Hearing these two words, Ye Jin's expression stiffened. Even though they were fake marriages, when she heard Xia An say these words, her heart seemed to be blocked by a stone and it was difficult to accept it.
"No." Ye Jin's first reaction was to refuse. It seemed that he gave the answer before he even thought about it. He didn't even think about the reason for his answer.
Regardless of whether she wants to face it actively or not, Ye Jin's feelings for Xia An have already been based on the contract. This cannot be denied. So when Xia An filed for divorce, how could she remain indifferent?
The subconscious response is precisely the most authentic representation of the inner reaction.
"Why?" Xia An is now in a calmer mood than Ye Jin.
Xia An had been brewing this matter for a long time, and had made enough mental preparations before speaking. But for Ye Jin, this matter came too suddenly.
"The contract period hasn't expired yet, it was agreed to be two years."
Xia An also considered this statement, "We faked the marriage to make grandma happy. Now that grandma knows, it's no longer necessary. Besides, grandma won't want to see me again."
Ye Jin was silent, and then whispered, "What about Wan Wan?"
Thinking of the little one, how could Xia An feel so comfortable? She looked at Ye Jin and said, "We shouldn't have had a fake marriage from the beginning. We can lie to her for a while, but we can't lie to her for a lifetime."
Ye Jin's mood became increasingly heavy.
"I know the little one may not be able to accept it, but she will know sooner or later. We can take it slow." Xia An said, holding a spoon in her hand but not taking a bite, "Mr. Ye..."
Now every time Xia An calls her "Mr. Ye", Ye Jin feels uncomfortable.
"If you think about the little one, you shouldn't lie to her. She needs a truly complete family, not like what we have now." Xia An said, remembering Ye Jin's statement about non-marriage and other people's opinions.
Ye Jin and Yi Zhen were told that they were entangled. After thinking for a while, Xia An took a breath and said, "I know that I am an outsider and I am not qualified to say something. If you still can't forget her, why not
Reunited? I think that as long as two people have each other in their hearts, everything else is not a big problem. I can see that she still cares about you..."
Even though she was fully prepared, Xia An still felt painful and uncomfortable when she spoke the second half of the story. She admitted that her beloved was in love with someone else. She didn't know how she had the courage to say it.
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It was still about the matter with Yi Zhen. Ye Jin listened to Xia An's talk and went off track. It turned out that she was still thinking wildly. She interrupted Xia An and said, "She and I have ended a long time ago. How can you believe it?"
Xia An was silent. Regardless of whether Ye Jin had let go of Yizhen or not, she didn't want to speculate too much anymore. She came to Ye Jin today not to cut things off and make things more confusing, but to tell Ye Jin her answer.
Ye Jin looked at Xia An's face for a while and said, "You are angry with me."
At this moment, Ye Jin wanted to hear Xia An answer yes. She wanted to see Xia An lose his temper with her, express her inner dissatisfaction, and act unreasonably, she didn't care.
But Cheyenne didn't.
Xia An solemnly shook her head. If there was a possibility of anger when she said those words in the study last time, then now she is facing Ye Jin rationally and dealing with the relationship between them.
"During this period, I calmed down and thought about it for a long time. We are really not suitable for each other. I was too impulsive before and I didn't think about it well, which troubled you." Xia An held the glass of water in the palm of his hand, obviously
The warm water in the cup had cooled down, but she was still holding it in her hand uneasily, "Just pretend, just pretend nothing happened."
Xia An felt it was a bit ridiculous. She and Ye Jin had never confirmed their relationship and were officially together, but now they expressed their feelings about breaking up.
I was too impulsive, didn't think things through, and just pretended that nothing had happened...
Xia An's words hit Ye Jin's heart, causing a dull pain, but Xia An's relieved expression made these words even sharper.
Ye Jin stared straight at Xia An, her mood was indescribable. She didn't believe that this was what Xia An was thinking, or in other words, she didn't want to believe that this was what Xia An was thinking.
Staring at each other, the two of them looked calm and silent on their faces, but they were suffering in their hearts.
Pretending, holding on.
Ye Jin looked at Xia An and said in a soft voice, "Don't be angry with me."
Mixed with a feeling of humility, it is a disguised form of retention.
When she really faced this moment, Ye Jin knew very clearly that she couldn't let go of Xia An in her heart. Maybe she had known it for a long time, but she had never faced it head on.
Ye Jin just said such a short sentence. Xia An admitted that she was a little shaken in her heart, but she still calmed down rationally. She smiled and said softly, "Since we feel tired when we are together, why do we have to force it?"
Xia An felt that Ye Jin was not relaxed when facing her, she could feel it personally.
Ye Jin stopped talking. She knew that Xia An's words were not words of anger. Being with her felt very tiring, and over time it became a kind of torture. Yizhen also said the same thing back then.
Maybe, I am really more suitable for one person.
There was another moment of silence.
"I will find a way to pay off the money I owe you as soon as possible." Xia An said again.
You are still a student, how can you think of a solution? Going to a nightclub to accompany you drinking again? Ye Jin remembered the first time she met Xia An. She thought for a moment and said, "I don't agree with the divorce."
The author has something to say: Lao Ye: I am too southern.