Xia Anxin was so absent-minded that she didn't even bother to answer.
Ye Jin held a tissue in her hand and continued to wipe the corners of Xia An's lips. Their eyes inevitably touched each other. This seemingly simple action made both of them feel complicated.
The head trauma made Xia An dizzy and confused.
She frowned and squinted her eyes, and there were some overlapping images in front of her eyes. When Ye Jin's fingers inadvertently rubbed her cheek, she became even more distracted, looking at the other person's eyes without evading... I wish I could get into Ye Jin's heart,
I wish Ye Jin really belongs to me.
Ye Jin also looked at Xia An. For a moment, she wanted to hug the person in front of her into her arms.
"I'll do it myself." Xia An took the tissue from Ye Jin's hand quite naturally, but even though the corners of her mouth had been wiped clean, she still wiped it again with an indifferent expression, which seemed super redundant.
Ye Zhen collected every detail in his eyes.
Xia An lowered his head and drank the porridge in the bowl again.
Ye Jin was standing beside the bed, and her shadow happened to be reflected on her body. She glanced at the shadow falling on the back of her hand, and she was in a daze. She drank almost half of the porridge, but she was still indifferent and couldn't taste the taste.
Ye Jin stared at Xia An's profile for a long time and asked, "Are you going home for the weekend?"
The word "go home" always sounded wrong to Xia An, but she still raised her head towards Ye Jin and said, "Well, I promised to go with the little one this weekend."
"I'll pick you up when the time comes." Ye Jin tried to say.
"No need..." Xia An shook his head, the words coming out between his thin lips seemed pale and feeble, and he felt his head was getting more and more dizzy, and there was still a dull pain.
"What's wrong? Your head still hurts?"
Xia An was startled because Ye Jin seemed a little nervous.
After talking about it that day, Xia An felt that the relationship between her and Ye Jin was finally over, and Ye Jin thought so too.
Over the past month or so, they have done a great job.
It should be said that it is more appropriate to pretend to be very good, so good that everyone thinks that the other person has let go of you, and that you are just dispensable in the other person's heart.
It wasn't until tonight that the two of them tore off their masks a little bit. Rather than being free and relieved, they were more like torturing each other.
Xia An always felt that Ye Jin cared about her again, which was different from the last time they were at night. At that time, Ye Jin's concern was more like that of a friend, and they kept a distance with each other.
But tonight, there was a little more ambiguous warmth.
Is it an illusion? Xia An laughed at herself in her heart, did she have too many illusions about Ye Jin? She still felt that Ye Jin liked herself as much as she liked her.
Xia An can't help but have random thoughts, but towards Ye Jin, she no longer dares to be sentimental.
At this time, Ye Jin's sudden care and concern made Xia An's mood even more confusing. The feeling that she had never really let go started to run rampant in her heart again.
She rubbed her head, feeling depressed and uncomfortable.
"Don't move." Ye Jin took Xia An's hand and said softly, "If you feel uncomfortable, eat something and go to bed early."
Being held by Ye Jin's hand, Xia An's head suddenly filled with sadness.
She thought to herself, Ye Jin, you will only make me feel more uncomfortable. Even though I still like you, but I can only accept your kindness to me like an ordinary friend, it will make me feel even more uncomfortable.
Xia An was silent.
When you like someone but still can't feel your place in her heart, you will slowly find that being together is a disguised form of suffering.
Xia An would give up just because he couldn't stand it.
Before meeting Ye Jin, Xia An never knew that she had such an indecisive side. It seemed that as long as Ye Jin was nicer to her, she would have the urge to surrender, no matter how rational and conscientious she had made the decision before.
Just like now.
But Xia An is sensible after all, and she still wants to retain some of her pride in front of Ye Jin.
"Do you want the doctor to come over?" Ye Jin looked at Xia An's ugly face and lack of energy, and felt uneasy.
Xia An retracted his hand to prevent Ye Jin from touching it.
Ye Jin grabbed her hands and could clearly feel Xia An's resistance to her.
"Can you leave?" Xia An stared at the blank white wall and ordered Ye Jin to be kicked out without mercy. After a head injury, his mood fluctuated easily. At this time, Xia An's mind was like a ball.
It was a mess, not to mention having to face Ye Jin.
"Can you go out?! I don't want to see you, I want to be alone!" The more Xia An spoke, the more unstable her mood became, as if she was venting.
She didn't want to see Ye Jin.
Because whenever she sees Ye Jin, she will be obsessed with him, making it harder and harder to let go.
This is the first time Xia An has lost her temper with Ye Jin. After all, she likes Ye Jin so much. How can she let go of her? After saying that, Xia An also realized that her tone was harsh, especially the sentence "I don't want to see you".
I told Ye Jin, but she felt equally uncomfortable.
Faced with Xia An's anxiety, Ye Jin remained silent for a moment, and then whispered softly, "I won't disturb you, you have a good rest." Have you ever lowered your attitude to care about someone, even if the other person yelled at you?
With.
The doctor also said that Xia An's current condition requires peace of mind and rest in order to recover quickly.
Xia An turned his head and didn't answer.
Ye Jin glanced at Xia An again, and when she turned to leave the ward, she heard Xia An call to her muffledly from behind.
"Mr. Ye."
Ye Jin stopped. They had been together for so long, and Xia An still called her just these two words.
"Let's go through the divorce procedures in the past two days." Xia An lowered his eyes and said persistently.
It's divorce again.
Ye Jin directly refuted Xia An, "Let's talk about it later."
"after?"
"The doctor asked you to calm down and recuperate now, and don't think about anything."
Xia An naturally has a sense of control over her own situation. She doesn't think that her divorce from Ye Jin is such a complicated and nerve-wracking matter. It was just a fake marriage from the beginning, "It's just a matter of signing."
"I don't have time recently."
Xia An then looked up at Ye Jin and asked, "Didn't you say you had time?"
"Something happened temporarily." Ye Jin answered vaguely but concisely. Xia An's current state is not calm enough and not suitable for thinking too much. Ye Jin is afraid that being here will prevent Xia An from resting peacefully and cause her mood swings. "
You have a good rest, I'm going out first."
"Why……"
The door was closed and Ye Jin's figure disappeared from sight.
Xia An was lying on the hospital bed out of boredom, looking at the incandescent lights on the ceiling.
Time passed little by little.
Ye Jin sat on the bench outside the ward and did not leave. Xia An finally lost his temper with her, but her mood was not as heavy as before.
Because she could feel it, Xia An still cared about her.
It was right for Xia An to lose his temper with her. Ye Jin thought about everything that happened tonight, and a rare smile appeared on the corner of her mouth, just because she thought about Xia An's firm love.
Do people have to go through something to understand which choice is more in line with their hearts?
Just like Ye Jin now, after getting rid of the idea of deceiving herself and others, she soberly realized that what she was filled with in her heart was actually Xia An.
Ye Jin decided to be honest with Xia An, starting from this night.
No matter what the outcome was, there were some things she wanted to say clearly to Xia An, and she also wanted to know Xia An's innermost thoughts, instead of ending things like this where the two of them didn't understand each other.
After all, I still can’t let go...
Ye Jin turned her head and looked in the direction of the ward, and finally had the answer.
Xia An said that being with her was tiring, and Ye Jin calmly thought about it. Xia An only felt tired. She really made the girl suffer too much, and she also owed too much initiative and response.
Ye Jin had never had high hopes for love, let alone actively pursue it. But this time, she wanted to try and fight for it without thinking about the consequences.
Whether it's a game or not, she wants to cherish the people she has met now.
It rained in the evening, with occasional thunder.
Xia An closed his eyes and let himself disappear into the darkness. His mood was still difficult to calm down. However, due to the injury and the sleeping effect of the painkillers, Xia An still fell into a deep sleep after a while while listening to the patter of rain.
Xia An woke up once during the night.
She didn't know what time it was, but when she opened her eyes, they were blinded by blinding whiteness. When she turned around, she was still alone in the huge ward.
Feeling that her mouth was dry, Xia An struggled to stand up and reached for the water glass beside her. Unexpectedly, she failed to grasp it firmly and instead dropped the water glass, spilling water all over the floor.
Xia An stared at the wet ground and sighed.
"Don't move, I'll pour it for you." Ye Jin heard the movement in the ward and pushed the door open and came in.
Seeing Ye Jin's figure again, Xia An thought she was dreaming. After a second or two, she touched her phone and saw that it was already late at night. She stared at Ye Jin's back as he was pouring water for herself, thinking in her heart
Unforgettable taste.
After adding some cold water to the hot water, Ye Jin handed the disposable water cup to Xia An.
"...You haven't left yet?" Xia An looked at Ye Jin in disbelief. She had lost her temper and asked Ye Jin to leave, but Ye Jin just waited outside the ward instead of leaving?
Ye Jin looked into Xia An's eyes for a moment and then replied, "I'm not worried about you being here alone. You always need someone to accompany you."
The word "Don't worry" touched Xia An's heart again.
Ye Jin, what on earth are you thinking? If this continues, Xia An feels that he should be too sentimental again.
"Go back, I'm fine by myself. I know all the nurses on duty here." Xia An's tone was much calmer than at the beginning. She was not coddled. She had not dealt with many things alone since she was a child.
Just at this moment, Aunt Zhou called.
It was said that Ye Wan woke up and didn't see her mother crying. Since Xia An rarely returned to Ye's house, the little one has become particularly sensitive.
"Wanwan, be good, don't cry..." Ye Jin coaxed the child across the phone, not very good at it.
After listening to a few words, Xia An vaguely guessed the situation. She stretched out her hand towards Ye Jin and asked her for her mobile phone with her eyes.
Ye Jin understood.
"Baby, why are you crying again?" Xia An cheered up and said to the other end of the phone with a smile.
As soon as she heard Xia An's voice, Ye Wan screamed aggrievedly, "Little mommy——"
"Baby, stop crying," Xia An comforted Ye Wan, glanced at Ye Jin again, and said, "Mom will go home to be with you soon..."
"Is the little mommy with her mother?"
"Mommy, I'm busy these days, so I can go home to spend time with my baby on weekends, okay?" Xia An really couldn't be cruel to Ye Wan, so she just ignored her.
"Okay..." Ye Wan finally stopped crying.
"Go back quickly, the baby is still waiting for you." After hanging up the phone, Xia An handed the phone back to Ye Jin and said lightly.
"Call me if you need anything."
Xia An lowered his head, feeling very confused. It took a long time before he softly said "Yeah".
"Go to bed early, I'll come back tomorrow."
"You have no responsibility to take care of me." Xia An said to Ye Jin desperately.
Ye Jin didn't argue with Xia An, but said, "Sleep well."
Xia An said nothing more.
After Ye Jin left, Xia An couldn't sleep. She stared in a daze at the drops of medicine dripping bit by bit, and then slowly dripped into her body along the small infusion tube.
She was injured. Why was Ye Jin so concerned? Or was she just like herself, unable to let go at all? Xia An couldn't control her thoughts, but she had no confidence that she would have such an important position in Ye Jin's heart. If
Ye Jin really cares about her enough, and their relationship will not become what it is now.
Xia An tried hard not to think about it anymore.
That night, Ye Jin, like Xia An, also suffered from insomnia.
After only two days of rest, Xia An returned to work on Friday and continued to work. The colleagues in the department knew that she had just recovered from her injury and took great care of her.
But she couldn't care about the night side for the time being.
In this state, I really can't drink.
It's not that Xia An doesn't know how to take care of herself. When she drank until she vomited at night, it was because of the pressure of reality. At that time, she really felt that she was about to be forced into a situation with no way out.
Then I met Ye Jin.
Xia An was very grateful to Ye Jin, and he still is to this day.
When it was time to get off work, Xia An had just finished changing her clothes when she heard someone calling her name, "Xia An, your friend is here."
Xia An saw Ye Jin from a distance.
She is wearing a dark brown long windbreaker, with a tall and slender figure. No matter where she is, her mature and capable temperament is enough to stand out. Even though Ye Jin is always silent and unsmiling, she still gives people a stunning and high-profile feeling.
Ye Jin walked towards Xia An first, "Why are you going to work today?"
"It's not a serious injury. Are you here to see grandma?" Xia An, who was wearing flat shoes, lost a lot of momentum in front of Ye Jin. Despite asking like this, Xia An didn't think it was a coincidence that she met Ye Jin.
In recent days, Ye Jin has been visiting her.
"Well, together?"
Xia An thought about it and nodded. She also planned to visit the old lady. Speaking of which, she hadn't been there for several days.
After staying in the hospital for more than a month, the old lady's mental state improved a lot. She only sighed occasionally, especially when she saw Ye Jin and Xia An appearing together.
When the situation becomes more stable, Ye Jin still plans to take the old lady home to recuperate.
After having dinner with the old lady, they chatted for a while before the two left.
In the evening, the twilight is getting thick.
Ye Jin and Xia An walked side by side and spoke very little.
Wasn't this the case before? Xia An thought, she had never seen anyone like Ye Jin. It sounded cold, but in reality, he was boring. But now, Xia An would not try his best to talk to her.
The setting sun reflected on Xia An's face. After a casual glance, Ye Jin never left her eyes. She broke the silence and said, "Let's go home for dinner tonight. The baby is still waiting for us."
Tonight? Xia An remembered that today was Friday, "Didn't I say we would go on the weekend?"
"Tomorrow is the weekend, so it's just right to go home tonight." Ye Jin explained. She looked into the distance and added, "The little guy came back from kindergarten today and clamored to see you, saying that he misses you...