This time it was real sleep, and the quality of it was so good that I didn't even know how I got back to the apartment.
When I woke up, I was already lying in my bedroom, and Rujun was sitting by the bed, looking at me anxiously.
After I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was Rujun's face. This made me very happy, but also sad at the same time, because this night was too complicated, and there was a lot of information that I needed to digest again.
I suddenly remembered the two lives in my hands, Huang Danggui and Fa Hua, as well as the unknown Mr. Feng Ming. I stabbed him three times. Three stabs may be enough to kill a person. I don't know what this guy can do.
I can't live. If I can't live, then I will have three lives on my hands in one night.
I have no regrets about Huang Danggui at all, because he has harmed my friends more than once, and he has murderous intentions towards me. If I don't kill him, then he will definitely kill me.
After all, Fahua was a friend who fought alongside me, but in the end he also had murderous intentions towards me. If it weren't for my superior physique, he would have been dead by now.
Mr. Fengming is the one who wants to kill me. If it weren't for him, there would be no need for Fahua to die...
Although this is the case, I still feel a little trembling when I think of my hands covered with blood.
When the blood of the fierce battle faded away, what was left was my inner accountability and doubt about myself.
Am I doing it right?
Should I do this?
Do I regret it?
Rujun looked at me and asked in a low voice: "Are you awake?"
I whispered: "Yeah."
Rujun looked at me nervously, as if she was afraid that I would have any bad effects from the fierce battle just now. She asked in a low voice: "Are you thirsty? Do you want some water?"
I nodded and said, "Thank you."
Rujun smiled and handed me the water glass beside the bed and said, "Thank you for being so polite. Are you feeling uncomfortable? You are still thirsty, which means it's not a big problem."
I also smiled and said: "There's no problem, I'm still very strong, but what about you, Rujun, you didn't get hurt, did you?"
Rujun smiled and shook his head: "You are so protective of me. If I get hurt again, it will be too disrespectful to you."
I nodded, took a sip of water, and suddenly said: "Rujun, have I... changed?"
I thought about what the purple ghost said before when he asked me to swallow the seed. After swallowing this seed, my ability will improve by leaps and bounds, but the price is my kindness. Could it be that what I am doing now is because of this?
Seeds?
"Well, you are indeed a little different..." Rujun said in a low voice.
"What's different? Will you still accept me like this?" I asked nervously. The thing I'm most worried about now is that after I change, Rujun will feel differently about me and even regret being with me.
Together.
Unexpectedly, Rujun suddenly looked at the night by the window and whispered: "What can you do if you don't accept it? You must be responsible for the choices you make!"
I quickly shook my head and said: "No, Rujun, I don't want you to do things you don't like. If I can't satisfy you, then I hope you won't settle for anything anymore..."
Rujun smiled and said, "Don't worry, I'm just kidding. If you really disappoint me, I will leave without hesitation!"
Looking at Rujun's smiling face, I felt relieved. After a moment of pause, I asked again: "Rujun, I killed someone..."
Rujun said: "Well, I know, don't worry, the Xu family will handle the two corpses properly for you. In addition, their identities here were forged, so Huang Danggui is very likely to be a gangster himself, so don't worry.
The relevant departments investigated and found nothing."
I shook my head and said, "That's not what I'm worried about...but...I always feel that I killed the wrong person. Killing is not a good thing after all."
Rujun smiled and said, "Lin Yang, why did you kill Huang Danggui? Why did you kill Fahua?"
I thought about it, sighed, and said: "I killed Huang Danggui because he was ruthless and did not distinguish between good and evil, and he murdered many of my friends..."
Rujun shook his head and said, "No, you didn't get to the point. This was the reason for killing Huang Danggui. What about killing Monk Fahua? What about the three stabbings at Mr. Fengming in the end?"
I was stunned and a little confused.
Rujun continued: "Whether you kill Huang Angelica or Lotus Lotus, there is only one reason, and that is because they are going to kill you. If you don't kill them, they will kill you. There is no third possibility, so
In this case, do you have any other choice?"
I finally understood Rujun’s point, shook my head and said, “I didn’t.”
Rujun nodded and asked, "Do you still regret it now?"
I shook my head: "I don't regret it."
Only then was Rujun satisfied and whispered: "That's right. Worldly morality can only restrict worldly people. The most important thing when living in this world is not to let the people you love and the people who love you feel sad and disappointed."
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I nodded and said, "I understand, Rujun, thank you."
Rujun said: "You are so polite to me, if it weren't for the fact that you have worked so hard today, I would definitely teach you a lesson."
I smiled and suddenly asked: "Then...the Dark Fire Mysterious Pearl that I swallowed...?"
Rujun was startled and asked, "Did you hear that? But weren't you already asleep at the time?"
I shook my head and said: "I'm not asleep, I just look like I'm asleep... I already know that this Netherfire Mysterious Pearl is an important way for the King of Dragons to escape from the underground palace... so..."
"So you want to sacrifice yourself to save the yin and yang realms of these four-nine cities?" Rujun asked with a frown.
I didn't expect that Rujun had guessed all my thoughts, so I just lowered my head and said, "That's it."
Rujun smiled and said, "Do you really think you can decide the life and death of Sijiu City by yourself? Lin Yang?"
I was confused again and looked at Rujun, not knowing what to say.
Rujun sneered and said: "Lin Yang, don't take yourself too seriously. Although you have swallowed the Dark Fire Mysterious Pearl, these Forty-Nine Cities will not become what they are because of you. If that person comes out, even if you commit suicide
To destroy the Dark Fire Mysterious Pearl, he must have another way out. Even if you survive, even if the Dark Fire Mysterious Pearl grows into a towering tree, that person may not be able to completely disrupt the worlds of Yin and Yang...
Giving up one's life easily is not the behavior of a man."
I looked at Rujun and her increasingly angry face, knowing that my current choice was not the right one.
Rujun looked at me and continued: "Lin Yang, maybe you think the world will be peaceful after you commit suicide, but I want to tell you, no, after you die, others will not be any different or treat you differently.
It can have any impact on other people's world, but it will only have drastic changes on one person, and that's me."
At this point, Rujun's eyes turned slightly red, and she continued: "It doesn't matter to the people of Sijiu City that you are dead, but my world is completely different. You are not in their world.
There is no Lin Yang, but there is... and there is only one Lin Yang in my world..."
At this point, Ru Junfeng's eyes were full of anger and he said sternly: "So if you dare to hurt my only Lin Yang, I will never forgive you, never!"
Rujun's words shocked my heart, and there was no longer any reason to commit suicide.
Even if I have the Dark Fire Mysterious Pearl in my body, and even if the King of Dragons can escape from the underground palace through me, I will never commit suicide or end my own life.
Because I can't leave Rujun alone, I want to protect her and guard her. Rujun gave me this opportunity, and I absolutely can't waste it.
After these words, I will no longer feel any guilt for killing Huang Danggui and Fa Huahe, because they originally wanted my life.
If I don't take their lives, then I will die. This is a world of the jungle and the strong.
I still want to keep my own life and protect Rujun. Therefore, anyone who threatens my life or wants to kill me must die. I will always choose this multiple choice question. It’s okay.
I feel so regretful and self-blame, this is the rule of this world.