Cao Cao actually envied Fei Qian, a bit like he envied Yuan Shao before.
Although Cao Cao was reluctant to admit it, this mentality was like his own shadow under the sun. No matter how bright the sun was, there was always a small area that was still a shadow.
Ordinary people may think that Cao Cao's starting point is quite high, but he knows that in fact, he has always been labeled as a eunuch in the minds of those nobles, and this feeling has been tormenting him.
Cao Cao sometimes even felt an inexplicable feeling of loneliness late at night, as if he was the only one left in the world, and everything and everyone seemed far away from him.
Cao Cao didn't know when this inexplicable feeling of loneliness began to appear. Maybe it started when he watched his best friend being killed in front of him...
Cao Cao's real friend is not Yuan Shao, but Song Qi.
Sometimes Cao Cao would also think that if Song Qi had not died, there would have been no progress, let alone Dong Zhuo...
One peck and one drink, it's like destiny.
When Emperor Ling of the Han Dynasty ordered the execution of the Song family, did you ever think that one day the Han Dynasty would reach this point?
In the fourth year of Jianning, Song Qi's sister Song became the queen, so En and the Song family became the new in-laws. Song Qi's father, Song Feng, was appointed as Zhijinwu, and he was not granted the title of Marquis of his hometown.
Song Qi himself was also named Jian Qianghou.
The following year, the first year of Xiping, Song Qi married the Cao family and married the daughter of Cao Chi, the official in charge of Peiguo, the captain of Changshui. It was precisely because of this marriage that Cao Cao met Song Qi.
The two of them were of similar age and status, one was a relative and the other was a eunuch, the eldest did not laugh at the second, and they were related by marriage, so over time they got to know each other and became close friends.
Unfortunately, good times did not last long, beauties age quickly, and beauties age slowly. Five or six years later, Queen Song's appearance gradually declined and she was no longer favored. Not only did the other concubines in the harem frame her, but Wang Fu, the official at the time, had Song killed.
The queen's aunt was also afraid of being punished for this, so she also slandered Emperor Ling of the Han Dynasty, and Emperor Ling of the Han Dynasty believed it.
Soon after, she was deposed as the empress of the Song family and was thrown into the cold palace. Empress Song died of excessive sadness and illness. The Song family was also implicated. Song Qi, his father and brothers were executed together and their bodies were abandoned outside the city.
Now Cao Cao can no longer remember Song Qi's appearance, but he still remembers the look in Song Qi's eyes before that moment, the look of helplessness and injustice...
From then on, the image of the Han Dynasty emperor, who was originally a wise, powerful and noble emperor, began to have cracks in Cao Cao's heart.
Sometimes Cao Cao would also think that if he was not born into a family of eunuchs, but into a noble family like Yuan Shao, or even an ordinary noble family without being as prominent as Yuan Shao, he would definitely do better than Yuan Shao.
The better!
But there are no ifs in life.
In the first year of Zhongping, Wang Fen, Chen Yi, Xiang Kai, Xu You, Zhou Jing and others, sons of the late Grand Tutor Chen Fan, planned to establish the Marquis of Hefei and depose the Ling Emperor due to the ban of the party, and found Cao Cao.
After thinking it over, I refused.
From then on, a once passionate young man died, and Cao Cao truly entered adulthood through obscurity and patience. Although he was somewhat disappointed with the Emperor of Han, he still chose to maintain the authority of the Emperor of Han as much as possible...
But now the emperor and the court that Cao Cao served before seem to be on the verge of being destroyed, and it is Yuan Shao, whom he envies, or the Yuan family that destroys them all...
Cao Cao was defeated again.
The things he devoted himself to safeguarding, the integrity in his heart, and the majesty of the court, all no longer existed.
The statue of the Han Emperor fell from the high altar and smashed to pieces on the ground.
But what really broke Cao Cao's heart was Lu Boshe's death.
It's not that Cao Cao has never killed people. He has been on the battlefield, killed Yellow Turbans, administered counties, and killed powerful people. But before that, those he fought and killed were all robbers, robbers, and lawless powerful people.
Cao Cao has a clear conscience.
But everything changed from that night.
What a bloody night it was. Cao Cao could never forget Lu Boshe’s wide eyes and complicated indescribable emotions before he died...
Lu Boshe's hot blood still seems to remain on his hands and can never be washed away.
A big mistake has been made that is irreversible and cannot be turned back.
Cao Cao knew that he was no longer an innocent person, and he could no longer say that he was upright, because his hands were stained with the blood of innocent people, and the corpses of innocent people lay under his feet.
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This sometimes made him wake up from his dreams and find that he was sweating profusely...
Cao Cao really envied Fei Qian. At least Fei Qian had the status of being a member of the Qingliu noble family, and he also had a pair of hands that were not stained with the blood of innocent people. He even had Fei Qian's inference ability that was even sharper than him...
Cao Cao felt that if he wanted to achieve a great career in the future, he would definitely recruit people like Fei Qian, but now that he had no power and no territory, speaking out rashly might be a bit unsightly, so Cao Cao has been patiently enduring it.
, did not discuss this matter with Fei Qian.
Cao Cao wanted to wait until the petition for the leadership was over. If he succeeded, he would naturally be rewarded, at least as a county governor. It would be a better reason and time to invite Fei Qian then.
Thinking of what Fei Qian said that day, Cao Cao was still very distressed, because the scene that happened during the oath of alliance really made him feel a little chilled. This was a group of so-called elites of the Han Dynasty who received the salary of the Han Dynasty!
Fortunately, there is also Bao Xin.
As long as there are more people like Bao Xin, there will still be hope for the big man!
Although Cao Cao himself had a speculative mentality and brought a group of newly recruited soldiers who had not yet fought in battle and had little training, others were different. Most of the county guards brought these two soldiers.
The county soldiers who suppressed the Yellow Turbans had combat experience. As long as everyone worked together, they still had a certain advantage in numbers. Moreover, as long as the Yuan brothers acted quickly and sent troops in time to cut off Dong Zhuo's retreat to Chang'an, this crusade would be a success.
In Dong Zhuo's battle, the hope of victory is still very high.
So Cao Cao wrote a letter yesterday and asked Yuan Shao to rush to deliver it to Yuan Shao. Cao Cao hoped that Yuan Shao could use his identity as the leader of the alliance to dispatch the soldiers and horses in Suanzao, and suggested that Yuan Shao lead the troops from Hedong and along the
On the north bank of the Yellow River, the weather is still quite cold and it is in the dry season. We can go straight to Tongguan and cut off Dong Zhuo's return.
I hope Yuan Shao can receive the letter soon and take action soon...
It's getting late now, so I wonder what happened when Bao Xin went to discuss with Qiao Mao and Yuan Yi, the two prefects?
Just as Cao Cao was muttering, he saw Bao Xin walking into the tent from the outside with his eyebrows furrowed and his lips tightly pursed, and his heart sank...
