Although Oda Shingen, an old Japanese priest, is not an easy guy to get along with, he still has some real abilities, otherwise he would not have been sent by Kato Kato to accompany them to protect the only direct descendant of their Kato family.
Although I was aware of the yang poison that was attacking my body crazily, because I was in the middle of the situation, I still retained the last trace of fantasy, thinking that I would not die and that I might still be able to rescue Zamao Xiaodao.
.However, as an outsider, Oda pointed out my condition without mercy - I would not survive the Lantern Festival.
So that means I only have less than two weeks to live.
But at this moment, I am scarred and unable to function at all. I am like a useless person. What can I do to save Zamao Xiaodao?
Thinking about it, it was precisely because Mao Tongzhen and the others expected this that they did not intensify their search efforts and find people to set up investigations everywhere. Instead, they quietly waited for the news of my death. Because in their eyes, I was already a dead person.
I didn't eat much at dinner that day. Even the Yunnan rice noodles that Katoya specially ordered, I only took a few bites and had no appetite at all.
I have never been as desperate as I was that day, feeling that all my support was gone.
No matter what, I couldn't use any energy or strength. I felt the omnipresent pressure coming from all directions and making me collapse.
After I fell into despair, my thoughts began to run wild. I even thought about using golden silkworm Gu to create a large plague, and then using these patients as threats to ask Mao Tongzhen to treat my injuries, and to kill Zamao Xiaodao and me.
Let go?
As soon as this extreme thought appeared, my heart began to wander.
Yes, I am a real Gu Master. Why should a person like me compare my skills and magic weapons with those top sect elders? Isn’t the area I am best at is Gu poison? They are the top sects.
Dana has a secret method to prevent poisons, but ordinary people do not? If I threaten the lives of these people, will Mao Tongzhen compromise?
After hastily finishing my dinner, I returned to my room and sat alone in front of the window, thinking carefully.
From the beginning, I was in an extremely violent mood. There seemed to be a voice in my heart that kept shouting: Why should I endure, why should I give in, why should I let myself become so embarrassed? How can the lives of those ordinary people be as valuable as mine?
?Even if I am going to die, I will drag tens of thousands of people to be buried with me, so that those who are plotting behind me can see that it is their suppression that caused these innocent people to lose their lives! They,
Those high-ranking officials should bear unshirkable responsibility for the deaths of these people!
Kill, kill, kill! Poison, poison, poison!
Let you idiots like me have a taste of what a fierce counterattack a little guy like me can do when forced into a desperate situation!
I sat in front of the window and thought for a while. My heart was burning with rage and rage. The pleasure of revenge came over me in waves. It felt like my blood was on fire. I wished I could go out right away and give birth to someone near Hongbin Villa.
It feels good to poison people.
At this moment, there was a knock on my door, and then Kato Aya's voice sounded outside the door: "Lu-san, can I come in?"
I was still undecided, so I muttered that it was okay. The door opened, and Katoya came in with a cup of tea and a plate of snacks.
As she walked, she said, "Lu Sang, are you worried about something? You...ah, what's wrong with your eyes?"
I was so excited that it was difficult to calm down, but I still said, "What's wrong?"
Kato Yaya put the tea cup and saucer on the table, then pulled out a mirror and handed it to me. I took it and looked inside, and saw the man in the mirror, with a ferocious face, a vicious look, and a pair of eyes.
, red and oozing blood, so strange that I didn’t even recognize it.
I rubbed my stiff and sinister face, took a deep breath, and was secretly shocked, thinking how could I become so scary? I kept rubbing my face and taking deep breaths, and I felt that my mood had calmed down a lot. Katoya also helped me sit down.
Then she sat on the bed opposite me, stared at me with her deep eyes, and said softly: "Lu Sang, are you sad?"
In front of Kato Aya's smile like the breeze, I didn't hide much. I put down the mirror in my hand, then covered my face with my hands, leaned back on the chair, took a greedy breath, felt uncomfortable, and sighed again.
, said: "Oh, my life has been wonderful enough, and it has not been in vain. I am just a little greedy and thought, if I can live forever, it would actually be good - I have too many concerns in this world, don't worry
No less.”
Katoya asked cautiously: "Lu Sang, who are there in this world that are worthy of your concern?"
Her question made me a little unprepared. I rubbed my face, smiled bitterly, thought for a while, and then started counting: "First, my parents, my family, Duoduo, Xiaoyao and my golden silkworm Gu; then
My friend Lao Xiao, as well as my friends in the south and in my hometown - of course, all the people who have helped me, such as Miss Qin-e, you."
I said this out of politeness, but Kato Aya's dark eyes suddenly became hazy, as if he was a little shy, and he said cautiously: "Lu Sang, you saved Qin E's life.
Moreover, you are the person Yuan Er entrusted to you before his death, and you are his most trusted friend. It is what I should do to help you."
The yin and yang are harmonious. When I heard Kato Aya's words with a weird accent, the anger in my heart was being relieved little by little, and I seemed to feel much more relaxed all over.
Although she had some misunderstandings about the relationship between Haraji and I, I did not intend to clarify. Many things have different positions, so there is no absolute right or wrong. After chatting for a while, Katoya suddenly blushed and asked
Me: "Lu Sang, don't you have a girl in your heart that you are particularly reluctant to let go of? How many times have you been in love?"
When I heard and then looked at the beautiful and pure girl in front of me, I couldn't help but feel shaken. However, when I thought about my illness, I couldn't help but feel sad and recalled it with a wry smile.
Before Xiaomei, I had been in two relationships. The first one was my first love. At that time, I just came out to work and fell in love with a girl named Jiang Ying. I fell in love with her out of nowhere, but I didn’t understand anything at that time.
, couldn't give the girl the happiness she wanted, and ended up with someone else; after that, she became debauched, playing with flowers as the coworker said, but it didn't last long, and it's not enough to describe. The real second paragraph is a comparison.
I have a girl who is two years older than me. She taught me a lot and had deep feelings for me. However, she was hurt even more deeply. From then on, I became somewhat restrained. Later, I met Xiaomei again...
I am a very reserved person, and I don’t like to express my emotions at will. I do more than talk, so even people on the street have never heard what I said. But on this night when I am about to die, facing
An exotic girl as beautiful as the moon, as bright as water, but I feel like a talkative person, slowly summarizing and telling the story of my youth.
When I talk about this, I don't have the sorrow and sadness I felt at that time, only a touch of regret and a deep sense of gratitude.
I inexplicably want to thank those friends who have left traces in my life. It is they who have made my short life more colorful. The faces are either clear or blurred, and the faces are either strong or intense.
The indifferent past, now seems to have turned into a gentle sigh.
After talking about my emotional experience, my interest did not diminish. I also talked about my friends, Lao Jiang, A Gen, Yang Yu, Ma Haibo, A Pei, Kong Yang and other workers I had known during my working years... They were all ordinary people.
, but gave me so much care and warmth; when I talked about the teachers who taught me earnestly, the friends who played all day long, and the many old friends when I was a child - when I talked about these, I suddenly felt that I had just
I felt very guilty about that decision.
If a person, because of the injustice he has suffered, vents his private anger on innocent people, those innocent people like the friends I know. Then, what is the difference between this kind of behavior and that of an animal?
Everything I did was not for those in high positions, but for the ordinary friends around me, and for the beauty and kindness in the world. How could I get lost?
By the end of the story, my forehead felt hot, but my back felt chilly.
I looked at the beautiful woman in front of me, looked at the elegant scenery outside the window, and thought about my ordinary yet extraordinary life. I sighed in my heart and said that if I die now, then let me die. My heart is at peace, so why bother? I am worthy of it.
Heart, even if it dies, there is nothing to regret...
It has been a long time since a man as strong as me has spoken like this. At the moment of my death, in front of this woman who could understand the world I was talking about, I spoke endlessly like a child.
I talked a lot. Later, I couldn’t even remember what I was talking about. I only remember that I spoke less and less, and my mind became increasingly dizzy.
Because of the invasion of yang poison, I began to become confused, and I felt that the woman in front of me began to become blurry. One moment, she became my first love, another moment, she became Xiaomei, and for a moment, she seemed to have become Xiao Heitian, Chi Limei, and
Xuerui...and the little demon?
Or something else...
In short, many of the women I had seen in my life appeared one after another, and I felt so dizzy that I felt like I was going to die.
Finally, I seemed to see Huang Fei in front of me, with tears streaming down her face, her teeth biting her red lips, full of infinite temptation. The high fever made my blood boil and my breathing became difficult. Looking at the beauty, I couldn't help but
I remembered that Huang Fei and I spent a crazy night in the house at Xinjiekou in our county. All the passion and inappropriateness came to my mind.
I took a deep breath, fearing that I would frighten the beauty in front of me, but my eyes were fixed on those delicate red lips.
The owner of the red lips spoke, and she seemed to be asking me: "Do you like me?"
I was so burned that I lost consciousness and said in a voice that was almost like a moan: "I like..."
Immediately afterwards, I felt that my lips were tightly blocked by the same fiery warmth, as passionate as fire.