Chapter 968 Diffusion of light and fog in the world (2)
"Young girls are like each other:
On the ninth day of the Lunar New Year, we set off for the expedition. As usual, everyone left a letter to be sent back after the sacrifice. I spent the rest of my life alone and had no worries. Thinking of the quarrel the day before, I left this letter..."
The time may have been in the first month of the year a year ago. The place was in Zhang Village. Under the dim light at night, an old man with an unshaven beard licked the tip of his brush with his tongue and wrote these words: "The rest of my life is lonely, and...
With the phrase "no worries", I feel that I am extraordinarily free and unrestrained, so awesome.
"...I joined the army for sixteen years, killed seventeen people, became a captain at twenty, and spent half my life in the army... However, in the thirteenth year of Jinghan, before the Xia Village incident, no one knew that Meng Lang's glitz and glamor in this life were all false..."
His calligraphy is vigorous and wild, and it doesn't look bad. From the time he joined the army at the age of 16, he began to recall every moment of his life, and then to Xia Cun's transformation. He held his head and struggled for a moment, and murmured: "Who the hell is interested in reading this?"
These……"
Then I crossed out these words with a black line to indicate that they were deleted, and I didn’t take any paper to rewrite them, and then opened a new line at the end.
"... Yu Shiliu joined the army and spent half his life in the army. After joining the Chinese army, he may have something to write down in his military strategy. However, as a friend, he felt that he was a despicable person and was not worth mentioning. My sister was born in a noble family, smart, smart, and well-educated.
, I have been able to get to know my sister for several years, which is a great blessing for me in this life..."
"Are you praising her too much..." the old man muttered as he wrote this. The process of his acquaintance with the woman was not an ordinary one. When the Chinese army withdrew from Xiaocang River, he walked in the second half
, temporarily took over the task of escorting the families of several scholars. This woman was among them, and she also picked up two children who were not walking fast, which made the exhausted man even more worried. He was attacked several times on the road, but he saved her.
He slapped her twice on the face a few times, and she also blocked a knife for him when he was in danger. The injury slowed him down even more.
Later, the whole journey was filled with curses and bickering. The only one who could push the once well-educated and stingy woman to this point was herself. None of the stupid kids she taught were as good as herself.
"hey-hey……"
"... Yongqing's plan to go on an expedition is full of dangers, and Yu and his brotherhood cannot stay out of it. On this long trip, he went out of Sichuan Fourth Road, passed Jiange, and went deep into the enemy's hinterland. He narrowly escaped death. I had a quarrel with my sister the day before yesterday, and I really didn't want to be here.
Sometimes I have troubled others, but in my whole life, I was able to win the favor of my sister. This feeling is engraved in my heart. However, I am not a good match. If this letter is sent, we may be brothers and sisters separated by worlds, but the love between brothers and sisters can be learned from heaven and earth.
"
"... I am a Chinese soldier. This is because for more than ten years, the Jurchens have become very cruel and bullied China, and the Wu Dynasty has been ignorant and difficult to cheer up. For more than ten years, no one in the world has died, and the survivors are also in purgatory. Among them
The miserable situation is difficult to describe. Our brothers and sisters are experiencing troubled times, which is a great misfortune in life. However, it is useless to complain, so we have to sacrifice our lives for it."
"...I am about to go on an expedition, and you are the only one who is keeping my heart in mind. If I cannot come back after my departure, I should take good care of myself in the future..."
His notes were scrawled, and he was writing faster and faster up to this point. He also added a lot of words asking people to find a knowledgeable and reasonable scholar to live a good life. He had to stop writing. There were only a few scratches on the two pieces of letter paper, and the drawings were a mess. He read it again.
Again, I felt that various words did not convey the meaning. For example, I said "I am alone in my life and have no worries" at the beginning.
It's a bit effeminate, and so is the blessing in the second half. Wouldn't it seem insincere?
Before I started writing, I only planned to scribble a few sentences. After scratching out a few paragraphs, I also thought about polishing it and copying it over again after finishing it. After writing it, I felt a little tired. The expedition was about to start, and he had been busy these two days.
I visited my home and drank a lot of wine in the evening. At this time, I felt sleepy and simply ignored it. I folded the paper and stuffed it into the envelope.
The best thing of course is not to send it out.
he thought to himself.
That night, I dreamed again of the scene on the transfer from Xiaocanghe a few years ago. They ran all the way, supporting each other to move forward in the heavy rain and mud. Later, she became a teacher in Hedeng, and he served in the General Staff.
After such a deliberate search, they met again a few months later. He greeted her in the crowd, and then introduced to others: "This is my sister." The woman holding the book had a knowledgeable smile on her face.
Only when there are no other people around and they get along in private, she will tear off that mask and criticize him for being rude and frivolous with dissatisfaction.
…
The letters were put into the cabinet along with a large pile of suicide notes, and locked in a dark and quiet place. About a year and a half passed. In May, the letters were taken out, and someone checked against them.
List: "Hey, why is this letter for..."
The letter circulated for two days and was sent to an office not far from Zhang Village. Due to the tense wartime situation, a woman named Yong Jinrou who was seconded here received the letter. There was also Li Shishi in the office,
Yuan Jin'er and others were there. Seeing the style of the letter, they understood what it was and fell silent.
In May, when the Southwest War ended in victory, the Chinese army held several celebration activities, but the real atmosphere here was not impassioned cheers. In the busy work and aftermath, the people in the entire force had to endure,
There was also countless bad news and consequent crying.
People have seen too many such cries these days.
Of course, it makes people feel a little strange that Yong Jinrou received this letter, and it also makes people feel a bit lucky. In the past few years, as Yong Jinnian's sister, Yong Jinrou, who is well-educated and sensible, has had some overt or covert influence in the military.
There were many suitors, but at least on the surface, she did not accept anyone's pursuit. There were more or less rumors secretly, but they were rumors after all. Maybe it was just one of her admirers who sent a suicide note after the martyr died in battle.
Unilateral behavior.
——In this way, at least one less person will be harmed.
They saw Yong Jinrou tear open the envelope expressionlessly and take out two pieces of messy letter paper with ink. After a while, they saw tears falling down, Yong Jinrou's body shaking, Yuan Jin'er closed the door,
When Shishi went to support her, a hoarse cry finally came out of her throat...
They didn't know who wrote the suicide note, or which man had won Yong Jinrou's favor before, but two days later, they had a guess.
Zhuo Yongqing, who came back from Changsha to report on his duties, built a small mourning hall for his dead brother after returning to Zhangcun: This kind of private memorial ceremony has been kept simple in the Chinese army in recent years, and can only be held for one day at most, as a memorial to Mao.
Yishan, Hou Wu, Hou Yuanyong and others rushed back one after another.
The sacrifice was made by Qu Qing.
Before the decisive battle in Tanzhou, they were caught in an encounter. Qu Qing wore Zhuo Yongqing's armor, which was quite conspicuous. They encountered successive attacks from the enemy. During the fight, Qu Qing fell while holding an enemy general.
They fell to their death on the cliff together.
Yong Jinrou went to the mourning hall to pay homage to Qu Qing and shed many tears.
…
The sun and moon alternate, and the water flows leisurely.
In this May, Yong Jinrou became one of the many people crying in Zhang Village. This was also one of the countless tragedies experienced by the Chinese Army.
At this time, her brother Yong Jinnian had gone to Chengdu to prepare for some new things that were about to start. Jin'er, Yunzhu, Shishi and others came over to comfort her, and Zhuo Yongqing also came over to chat with her about Qu Qing - in fact
In the past, she often comforted people, but when things really came to pass, she realized that such comfort was not of much use.
In the first three days, she cried the most, and then she had to pack her mind and continue her work outside and her life. From Xiaocanghe to now, the Chinese Army often encountered various bad news, but people did not dwell on it.
Qualifications.
After that, I only shed tears occasionally. When the past memories come up in my heart, the sadness will really come up and the tears will flow out. The world seems unreal, just like after someone dies, the whole world is also destroyed.
Something was torn away abruptly, and the hole in my heart could no longer be filled.
She is not a young girl. A long time ago, she once had a short marriage ordered by her parents. The other party was a weak scholar who died soon after the marriage. At that time, she just felt at a loss, but she was not as depressed as she is now.
Dig away a piece, leaving a dark, empty feeling.
She got up very early every morning, and would sit up in the dark before dawn. Sometimes she would find a large patch of wetness on her pillow. Qu Qing was a hateful man, and the complacency with which he wrote the letter made her want to do it in front of him.
He scolded him severely in front of him. The vernacular he learned from Ning Yi was extremely stupid. He also recalled his experiences on the battlefield. When he wrote the suicide note, did he think that he would die? I probably didn't think about it seriously.
She hugged the pillow in the dark and kept cursing.
He also deliberately mentioned "the quarrel the day before yesterday...". The day before yesterday when he wrote the letter was now the day before one and a half years ago. He gave Zhuo Yongqing a narrow escape opinion, and then he felt bad about it and wanted to follow suit.
.
"It might be dangerous... there's nothing we can do about it." She remembered what he said at that time, but she didn't stop him. She was just suddenly confused by the news, and then in a panic, she hinted that he should leave before leaving.
, decide the names of the two.
He refused. In her opinion, he was almost complacent. After the clumsy hint and clumsy rejection, she became angry and did not take the initiative to reconcile with him. Before leaving, the other party kept in touch with various friends every day, drank, and made bold promises.
It was hopeless, so she couldn't get close.
"idiot……"
It was the early morning and the noisy dusk again. Yong Jinrou worked and lived day by day, seemingly just like everyone else. Soon after, another suitor who had survived the battlefield came to find her and gave her things and even...
The person who proposed marriage: "...I thought about it at that time. If I can come back alive, I will definitely marry you!" She refused one by one.
If the story ends here, it will still be an ordinary tragedy among the millions of tragedies experienced by the Chinese army.
On the fifth day of June, when she was getting off work, she saw a dusty old man carrying a parcel on the side road in front of Zhang Village, spitting with several familiar military aunts:
"...Hahahahahaha, how could I die? Nonsense... I was holding that bastard and fell down. I took off my armor and walked along the water... I don't know how far I walked, hahahaha... The village
I don’t know how enthusiastic the people here are. Knowing that I am a member of the Huaxia Army, several families want to marry their daughters to me... Of course they are the eldest daughter of the Yellow Flower, tsk tsk, one of them will take care of me all day long... I, Qu Qing, am a gentleman.
Ah, right..."
Yong Jinrou stood there and looked at it for a long time, tears falling down again. Shishi and others were accompanying her. On the other side of the road, Zhuo Yongqing and others who seemed to have heard the news were also running over. Qu Qing waved to the other side.
After saying hello, an aunt pointed behind him, and Qu Qing turned around and saw Yong Jinrou approaching.
"Hey, sister..."
With a snap, Yong Jinrou slapped Qu Qing in the face. The sound of the slap was clear and crisp. The mouths of the aunts on the side turned into round shapes. They didn't know whether to advise or not. Teachers waved behind them.
, mouthing: "It's okay, it's okay, it's okay..."
"...Why are you hitting me!" After being slapped, Qu Qing held the opponent's hand. He also beat Yong Jinrou a few years ago, but now he naturally couldn't fight back.
"...You're not dead..." Yong Jinrou had tears on her face and her voice was choked with sobs. Qu Qing opened his mouth: "Yes, I'm not dead!"
"——You didn't send any suicide note!" Yong Jinrou cried loudly and kicked Qu Qing in the calf.
"...Ah? Send a suicide note...a suicide note?" Qu Qing probably realized what happened, and his face turned a rare red, "Um...I'm not dead. I didn't send it. You...
No, is it Zhuo Yongqing, the bastard, who said I was dead..."
Zhuo Yongqing had already run over, and he flew up to kick Qu Qing: "You're not fucking dead -" but because he saw the hands of Qu Qing and Yong Jinrou, the kick missed.
Mao Yishan also ran over and kicked Zhuo Yongqing out: "You fucking lied to me, haha——"
Zhuo Yongqing wiped away tears and got up from the ground. The two brothers reunited. They were originally going to hug each other and even wrestle for a while, but then they both noticed the hands held in the air by Qu Qing and Yong Jinrou...
In the setting sun, everyone's eyes suddenly became lively. Yong Jinrou shed tears, and Qu Qing blushed slightly at first, but then he decided not to let go of his hand in the air.
…
"...Two people finally decided to get married."
On June 15th, Li Shishi finally met Ning Yi in Chengdu and told him about this interesting incident.
This is the only story she knows that turned into a comedy among the countless tragedies the Huaxia Army has experienced recently...