Last night I was typing until after one o'clock, and I wrote Chapter 651 and posted it. It was almost three o'clock in the morning when I finally fell asleep. I woke up again at about eight o'clock in the morning. I couldn't fall asleep. I sat up and listened to music, and it was still in my mind.
It was rising, but there was also a sense of satisfaction in the fatigue. The last time I felt like this was probably six years ago. I finished writing the 409th chapter of August Fire in "Hidden Killing". I fell into the world like morning dew and coded one day.
After writing about 20,000 words, I was exhausted, but I felt satisfied and at peace.
It was not easy, but I know I did a good job.
It must have been in 2009, when I finished writing "Hidden Killing" at the starting point. I was worried that the major plots planned for the story were not smooth enough. The only one that was close to being completed, August Fire, was still full of flaws. So I started the book "Alienation"
At that time, I had been paying close attention to the unfolding of various clues. Now the outline of "Alienation" has been perfected, but at that time, the beginning of the book went through a lot of adjustments. Although it was precise on small branches,
But in terms of overall shaping, the book was not well done. It was a process that I was still exploring. For me, the first six episodes of "Alienation" were all failures. They were poor in small details and mid-level clues.
In terms of the self-consistency of the individual episodes, they have done almost the same thing. However, in terms of the harmony between the individual episodes and the outline, these episodes are like collage building blocks, which I don't like.
When the seventh episode appeared, I really saw the situation when the clues and outlines of these episodes were consistent. It was a natural state that I had felt when watching the works when I was in elementary school and junior high school. Only at this time did I become a person.
The author, touches and feels its contours.
During the writing of "Alienation", I experienced various problems in my life and writing itself. It is natural that the book has problems, but after experiencing that feeling, every time I look back, it is unbearable that the first six episodes of "Alienation" may have
There is nothing wrong with these six episodes in the eyes of readers, but I have always been the kind of author who says: I won’t just tell you to accept the goods, but I will give them to you.
Because of this and other awkwardness, I stopped "Alienation" and started the book "".
I wrote this book with great trepidation, not wanting the previous problems to reoccur, which was in the first half of 2011.
The book "" started with a few simple ideas. First of all, at that time, I naively thought that I would write a book with the same story as "The Hidden Killer". What are the similarities in the stories? I would write a
In an invincible person, the main character of the hidden killing is a killer who defeats cleverness with force. If the invincible is powerful, then write about a scheming dog, strategize and figure out the overall situation, and be smart enough to kill others. This is a different kind of cruelty. I think the issues I have to consider are
Much less when I was actually writing, I found that I fell into a pit.
The second idea was that I wanted to write about the protagonist shooting the emperor's head off in front of everyone in the Golden Palace. I thought of this as a fun idea, and since the beginning of the book, I have told many people about it.
past this screen.
The third intention is to rewrite the modern history of China.
The third point is actually the core of the entire book.
But modern history cannot be written, not only because the starting point stipulates that things that happened within a few years are not allowed to be written, but also because with my accumulation of knowledge, I dare not really write about modern history, even if I feel it is magnificent, thrilling, and evocative.
, I feel the deepest humiliation, the most generous death and the most tragic struggle, but I still dare not write about it. It is not something I can "joke" about.
But I can incorporate this feeling into a "fable" that belongs to me.
Isolating the Song Dynasty and separating the framework of the Wu Dynasty is not just for copying poems. It has many benefits, but the necessary one is that I want to be part of modern history, so I will never write about the Song Dynasty. Of course, the Song Dynasty and the Song Dynasty
There are some similarities in modern times, but now, these things have been blended together and cannot be separated. Because, since the Song Dynasty has been ignored, it is worth writing about the Song Dynasty.
Each of the seven episodes has its own ups and downs, foreshadowing and explosive points, and each of them is progressive. The first episode is Ning Yi's gentle vision of entering the world, and the second episode is
It is the complexity of intrigues in the small environment of the family. The third episode is about the peasant uprising. The fourth episode is about the reckless rebellion. The fifth episode is about reviewing their rebellion and looking at the big families to find the reasons. The sixth episode is about the miserable border people and the court.
The struggle, episode seven, is the struggle of the imperial court and the beginning of the war. By the end of episode seven, everything can be recovered a little bit.
What is this country like, why is it weakened and destroyed? And the protagonist can go to the Golden Palace and blow the emperor's head off. Of course, the details have been modified.
Because of this reason, writing is very difficult. Every clue must be seen clearly, whether it is deep or shallow, long or short. Many times I write a bright clue to cover up a dark clue. I write
A plot often has to worry about many aspects. For example, for disaster relief, I have to write a drama, I have to write about aristocratic families, I have to show the core of their annexation of the land, and there are people to die, and the protagonist cannot appear too much. I also have to make the readers happy, and this part
Things should not be too detailed and must be just right.
During the writing process, many people said: "I don't see the need for this part of the plot to take so long to simmer, so the author must be lazy." There was nothing to say at the time. How could I explain it clearly? Don't say it.
Neither the readers nor the author who thinks less can explain it clearly.
I once told someone that I wanted to make a breakthrough in online writing. What exactly did I mean? A traditional novel, 300,000 words, one story to be completed, up to one million, is a super long, online novel, "" has passed three
Half of the million words are written. I have to tighten every clue in the six million words. I write something casually. I have to consider whether it will appear after dozens of chapters or even one million words. I write
It is an idea to consider whether there should be a second layer of sublimation after the first layer is exploded, or whether the third layer of meaning should even be highlighted when the book is completed. The human brain can sometimes be a bit unbearable.
I almost always praise myself after the summary of each episode. This episode was a success. It was a reminder, an encouragement, and a beating to myself. I have succeeded in so many episodes, how can I be willing to let go of them, how can I be willing to write casually. How many years?
Before Qidian split, people asked whether you can leave the banana or buy it out. I said I wanted to write "". There was another big fluctuation this year. I took the contract and renewed it directly. Why, I want to write ""
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I'm so happy that these three million words finally came together at the end of Episode 7.
These things belong to the author's ego, and are my celebrations for myself. I am somewhat proud, satisfied, and narcissistic, so please bear with me.
Then, I still have a more difficult road to go.
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Let’s talk about killing the emperor, and also talk about Ning Yi.
In recent days, many people have talked about whether it is reasonable or unreasonable to kill the emperor from the perspective of interests and the overall situation. Reading novels and taking on the role of the protagonist is like a game. I have accumulated experience points, I have accumulated equipment, and I have a base.
I want to expand, but I am reluctant to throw it away. This is common sense, especially when reading online novels, but I want to talk about Ning Yi from the spiritual core.
In his conversations with people like Lao Qin and Cheng Zhouhai, the spiritual core is actually there. Ning Yi said: "You do things for morality, and I do things for recognition." In fact, the word "identity" in this sentence is in it.
inside.
A person who does things for "identity". What is his spirit like? Throughout the ages, more than 95% of people do not read. People who read and are sensible have become members of the ruling class.
Partly, this is something determined by facts. Therefore, Confucianism says: "Establish a mind for the heaven and earth, establish a destiny for the living and the people, inherit the unique knowledge for the saints, and create peace for all generations." This is a great idea. There are so many people in this world,
I want to take on this responsibility for you, because I am a Confucian. They work for morality and justice. To save the world, they have the responsibility to do things for the common people in the world. What are the common people in the world, bastard people.
But as for "identity", I don't agree with you. To be precise, you deserve to die if you haven't reached a certain level. I have no responsibility for you. What is the core of this? Is it cold-blooded? Is it ruthless? Is it arrogance or willfulness?
neither.
In fact, it is "democracy".
The so-called democracy means that the people can make decisions for themselves.
Taking "morality" or "identity" as the core has different historical backgrounds. Before modern times, in a sense, it could only take morality as the core, because productivity has not developed to the extent that everyone can receive education.
, based on this statement, under the framework of the Wu Dynasty, it is very impossible for ordinary people to awaken to the level of being "recognized" by others. However, Ning Yi is just a person, a little colder.
He said that his spiritual core is like this. For those who have never awakened, it is already good for him to have compassion. If the Wu Dynasty is really going to perish, will he really take it very seriously?
He experienced a failure in life and came to this world. He gradually saw things that he recognized and integrated into them. He even started to do things and began to contribute his "morality" to the world. However, in the end, the good things he recognized
, Qin Siyuan was thinking about the whole world, and the soldiers of Xia Cun cried out in despair. If their value could at least be preserved, Ning Yi might continue to do things, but in the end, everything was smashed to pieces, and he was also
Added a few slaps.
Looking back at the beginning of the book, he sat by the river and looked at the failed development project. He had been successful all his life, forgetting his former friends and partners, his expectations of making the world a better place, and his wishes.
Road... These things were very pretentious at the beginning, but precious at the end. After he was reborn, they were a heavy lesson in his heart. After he was reborn, his life must be valuable.
So does he care about imperial power? Does he care about interests? Does he care about human life? He doesn’t even care about his own life!
He fights for people and things he agrees with. If he doesn't agree with them, he can leave. But it's hard to leave. That's the result. They all die!
In some thoughts, he wants to compromise for the sake of interests. He should find a way to ease the situation, because killing the emperor is too fierce. It must be the whole world to fight together. This is all true, and the matter is very serious! Then Ning Yi
Unite all parties, train soldiers to develop technology, and defeat the two enemies assigned to him by the Banana Devil: the Jurchens and the Mongols. After defeating them, he established a dynasty with 200 million people, including 199,900.
Nine hundred thousand people are still the kind of people who flocked to the streets to throw shit when another Qin Siyuan appeared. Do you think, in Ning Yi's heart, can this country comfort his former dreams?
I think he would prefer to listen to the cries of ordinary people who finally rushed to the enemy after the tragic deaths of their wives and children. His spirit has such a side.
In another level of spirit, for the Wu Dynasty, the Jurchens are coming, and the Mongols may also be coming. Facing these two forces, especially Genghis Khan Temujin, in Ning Yi's heart, he often thinks
Can Gong Kaishen's road turn the tide? Everything has been broken. Without the direction of recognition, what Ning Yi has to do next is very simple. Two words are the core of the entire second half.
revolution.
Innovate the old destiny. Transform the people who cannot be independent into the people who can be independent.
He originally agreed with Confucianism and was unwilling to change because it was difficult. He originally agreed with Qin Siyuan and was unwilling to change. He just wanted to cooperate and hold back the decline. In the end, everything failed. He had to do it on his own.
Doing it yourself is a completely different path from that era. If after Qin Siyuan's death, Ning Yi would pick up the pots and pots and fight again, and play innovation and exchange of interests according to their rules and systems, that would be true
I underestimated him.
Once a hero rises with his sword, another ten years of calamity will follow for the common people.
As for the common people, let me tell you a fact that no one likes to hear. Except in novels, the common people are respected. In any real history, they are just pigs and sheep. Well, just like us.
Regarding the details of Ning Yi's killing of Zhou Zhe, some things were not written in detail. For example, Ning Yi put the knife on Zhou Zhe's head, so others did not dare to come. For example, some things that happened when Ning Yi was stalling for time, in the end he
Killing Zhou Zhe... these have been briefly sketched, and may be explained later. As for the students who still don't know how Ning Yi brought the gun in, they will have to look back again.
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In the process of writing this book, there were many plots that did not conform to the aesthetics of "ordinary" people. For example, I have said more than once that if we cannot reflect on history after reading it, then its truth and
Otherwise, it is meaningless. For example, I did not portray Qin Hui as a traitor and evil person who is disgusting at first glance, but wrote about his continuous retreat process in a step-by-step "helplessness". Some people think that this kind of Qin Hui is not evil enough.
It's just to overturn his verdict, but there are reasons for this.
I said in some places, "There is always a very important issue of historical concepts that has been misunderstood by a group of people. Just like when some modern 'conscientious historical youths' reversed the case of a certain treacherous official, when others saw it, this person was so
Helpless, some people think that he is a loyal minister, and some people yell that this is a traitor to overturn the verdict. They have never been able to analyze, is it guiltless if they do bad things "out of necessity"? The reason why they think so is because they are in life.
There are also many "forces" in life. Everyone has many "forces". When they encounter the situation, they forgive themselves.
They have not thought that the real problem is that the disappearance of the bottom line of the entire society has caused people in the entire society to forgive themselves easily. In fact, I want to believe that all the traitors in history have forgiven themselves easily.
After that, he became a traitor and a traitor.
In life, there are indeed many times when one has no choice but to step back, but there is a blurred line. Once it passes, it is over. This is what history should really say."
I often cite an example that I have said many times: In 1910, patriotic youths in Chengdu took to the streets for a parade. They saw a girl wearing Hanfu upstairs and thought it was a kimono. So the crowd became excited and surrounded the place, leading the group.
The leader went up and forced mm to take off her clothes on the spot and burn them. It was just a misunderstanding, but it was nothing. The point is that after mm explained, the other party knew that she had made a mistake, but the leader insisted that mm must take off her clothes.
Take off your clothes and burn them to calm down the anger below.
They finally forced the girl to take off her clothes in the toilet, burned them in public, and celebrated the victory of the anti-Japanese march. What I want to ask you to imagine is that the organizer of such a march of thousands of people, perhaps a college student, was
He has such organizational skills in college. After leaving society, will he easily enter the political and legal institutions and become a civil servant above us? And his principles are so cheap. Let’s assume that one day he reaches Qin Hui’s position. What can he do?
What should we insist on? And what about ourselves? What can we insist on?
We always talk about China's five thousand years of history and lament that it is so magnificent. In this land, so many heroes and sons and daughters have emerged in large numbers, and such a splendid culture has been established. However, at the same time, so many treacherous ministers have appeared.
, Bad guys, aren’t they Han? In fact, each of us has Qin Hui and Yue Fei in our body at the same time. Many times, you grit your teeth and become Yue Fei, take a step back and become Qin Hui. If you ignore it,
These often become pigs and sheep. And when we feel honored and glorious for the achievements of our ancestors, we can also look at ourselves to see if we have the qualifications to stand with them.
I have recorded such an incident. Not long after I opened the book, because of my admiration for revolutionary history, a young man came over and said that they had only achieved results by luck. That they had taken the wrong path and that they had not left a good legacy for themselves.
society, saying that their efforts are meaningless, it can now be said that since the dark environment of China's modern history, after generations of humiliation and bloodshed and sacrifice, countless people have searched and struggled, and finally, a group of people have built a future.
They built it with full hope, but then they may have encountered detours and failures. They faced such difficult situations and went through such arduous efforts. In the end, the descendants who stayed behind complained in front of the computer that what they left behind was not good enough, and then denied them
s hard work.
Many people have become pigs and sheep again.
There are allusions in this book. The main thing is just allusions to human nature and killing people. Some people once disliked my behavior. Why do you want to kill people? The people are innocent. The people are not guilty. To the people, you don’t care.
Even scolding is powerless, because the people are ignorant, which is the law of human nature. Some people may not know what killing people means, which means people's "bad nature". When I say this, I'm afraid it's not just one or two people who don't like it.
One thing I want to clarify is that people's ignorance is a law of human nature and a weakness of human nature, but in the beginning, people did not use human weakness in this way. During the May 4th Movement, the nation was facing enlightenment. Lu Xun and other generations wrote "Human Weakness",
The purpose of writing "bad nature" is not to curse people. Rather, after identifying human limitations, I hope to arouse vigilance, revolution, innovation, improvement, and enable the people to become independent.
Nowadays, the weaknesses of human nature are used by people to excuse themselves. I am despicable. This is human nature. I am timid. This is human nature. I am tactful and dishonest. This is also human nature. In fact, in the evil capitalist society, human nature is truly respected.
The only weakness is probably greed. "Greed is good." No one says that fear of death is good and fear of death is bad, but it is understandable.
Therefore, there are insinuations of humanity in the book, some killing people, some deliberately, and more casually, because that is the normal state of society. But those who care about this, just like the people who have gradually disliked Lu Xun over the years, also
This is probably because people deny the need for self-innovation.
But I still hope that one day we will become better people. Because many of the things written in the book are also my weaknesses.
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I always hope to avoid writing too serious or too abstract things. I am writing so much here because the end of the seventh episode is really very important. If the above proposition is extended, there will be a lot of things, but let’s stop there.
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As usual, I can say that the following article will of course not be so serious, but there will be a lot of core elements mixed in. Some people can see it, and some people can't, so just enjoy the plot. As of now, updates are intermittent.
, the results are good, but the reputation is different. This is understandable. Most of the online articles have one theme, and the interfaces of five or six themes have been transferred continuously. Life articles, business war articles, martial arts articles, officialdom articles, war articles...etc.
Wait, in the future, it will become a farming article and a hegemony article. A reader is tested by so many subjects in a row, and will be filtered a lot. Some people will say that the first part is good, some people will say it is in the middle, and some people like the later part. Everyone has their own preferences, which is normal.
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Before this book, some people said that Banana is not good at big scenes, but trying to write a magnificent era, this is my big scene. There are comments on success and failure, but I often don't like that kind of argument. Banana has not done that before.
I have written about big scenes, so Banana is not good at big scenes, so Banana should avoid big scenes. This kind of logic is very unpromising and not fluent. It is not what a real book writer should accept, and it is not what a real reviewer should accept.
given to me.
I have never written about war before. I know many people’s definition of war, how to place cavalry, how to release bows and arrows, how to use spears, what tactics versus what tactics... I have also read many such books, but
I was not touched at all. I didn’t read the book to become a military scientist, nor did I want to gain a sense of professional superiority from the virtual chatter on the Internet. When I was a child, I read a set of enlightenment stories about the history of China’s modern Anti-Japanese War.
There are six books in total, all of which describe wars, including tunnel warfare and mine warfare. Each and every person in the book is written about, and I was moved by it. Even now, when I recall the plot in the book, my blood still boils.
I can no longer find that set of books. Now that I think about it, they are just more formal enlightenment books. I may not be able to feel it when I read it now, but the picture of the war has been in my heart since I was in elementary school.
Keep it, until I am thirty years old, I can still use my way to reproduce it with another kind of content. This is the transmission of thinking.
So when I describe the war, I describe Xue Changgong, Mao Yishan, Qu Qing, Yuwen Feidu, Chen Fan, Yue Fei... Only when these people come alive in the hearts of readers, as Genghis Khan, Zhamuhe
, Chi Laowen, Zong Han, and Zong Wang come alive in the hearts of readers, and only then can people truly see their confrontation in the wilderness, mountains and forests, and see their tenacity and cry when every drop of blood is spilled.
Just as only when we become familiar with Mao Zedong, Liu Bocheng, Deng Xiaoping, Peng Dehuai, Zhu De, and many figures large and small in the Red Army, will we finally see the vigorous army of one million people crossing the river.
These are all things to be written about in the second half of the book.
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During the writing process of this book, I received support from many people. Each of my editors did their best for me. Changtian, Starfish, Black Tea, Qingshan, Sansheng... some of them are still at the starting point, and some have already
I went to a new place, and the discontinuity of this book gave them all a headache, but every time I updated it, they arranged recommendations for me. I was very grateful, and sometimes I even said that it might be discontinued.
Please don’t push it again, so as not to deduct the bonus. The book is not finished yet, but at this memorable moment when the first half is finished, I also want to say thank you and apologize.
Even if I am not the editor, there are some editors who have given opinions and help on this book. For example, Wu Dao often discusses the plot with me, and Zhou Tong's words when he died: "If there are heroes in the world, why not meet them here?"
", it was written by him. Not long ago, he also said: "The chapter where you kill the emperor can be called 'The dragons have no leader, good luck'." I was worried about how to name this chapter at the time, so I can use it conveniently.
I once wanted to finish the first half of the book before I turned thirty, but the plan has been postponed. It has been half a year since I turned thirty. Looking back at this half of the book, it is considered exhausting. Some people say that bananas like to be lazy.
In fact, on any occasion, I dare to say with confidence that I am one of the people who works hardest at Qidian.com and I am one of the people who spends the longest time on Qidian. There are also people who doubt that this is the case. Banana
How do I remember the plot? If it were me, I would have to look back every time I started writing. In fact, the content of this book is always in my mind, bothering my spirit, consuming my brain power, and preventing me from sleeping.
How can I forget even a little bit?
I spent almost all of my twenties writing books. When I write this, looking back, I have never been lazy, and I have put in my best efforts. It is within my current ability, and even if I only have this half a book now, it will not be enough.
It was enough to comfort me throughout my twenties.
But many times, there is really no excuse for discontinuation. Following this intermittent book, I know the hard work of all readers, whether they have reached this point or have not read it halfway, I think I have to thank you for your support.
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Next, we may still have entanglements for several years. Thinking about it, I really have to wipe a lot of sweat for you.
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One thing that needs to be said is that online articles are undergoing inspection recently. This book has been revised a few days ago, and a few chapters have been deleted. Although it should not be affected, there are still two platform accounts announced here.
WeChat public platform: angjiao1130.
Sina Weibo:Angry Banana-Starting Point
I won’t say much on it, but when necessary, I may see some information. I hope friends on WeChat or Weibo will pay attention and save it.
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This is a very complacent, narcissistic, and random summary. Thank you for reading this.
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At the end of the Wu Dynasty, the years were turbulent, the world was in chaos, Jin and Liao were fighting each other, the situation was turbulent, and a hundred years of humiliation finally saw the first light of the end. Emperor Tianzuo, Wanyan Aguda, Wu Qimai, Genghis Khan Temujin, Jamu
He, Chi Laowen, Mu Huali, Borhu, Borshu, Qin Hui, Yue Fei, Li Gang, Zhong Shidao, Tang Ke, Wu Min, Geng Nanzhong, Zhang Bangchang, the contest between loyal ministers and treacherous ministers, the game between heroes and heroes
, Hulu went south, millions of cavalry knocked on Yanmen, the country fell, the lives were in ruins, the humiliation and struggle of a country and nation for hundreds of years, the cries, shouts and sorrow of the forerunners...
Let’s go back to the previous preview. Well, I’ve written it here. (To be continued.)
ps: There will be a small chapter later, the finale of the entire first half.