His heart was beating wildly, and the blood all over his body was boiling like boiling water. If Ye Hua was still alive, he would thank the heaven and the earth for missing him day and night...
If Ye Hua is still alive...
I wanted to think of Lu Yehua's charming and intoxicating beauty like a white magnolia in my mind, but strangely, what came to my mind was the same Jurchen's ugly ghost-like face, and her sad eyes.
After Xie Fu realized it, his mind suddenly exploded, he knew it!
…
In the room, Tongran Nuzhen put her hand on a rough sandstone and rubbed it gently. The surface of the sandstone was covered with scabs that had been ground into powder, and there were also some bloodshot streaks. She was so impatient that she wore the thin skin.
Hand skin like cicada wings.
The door was pushed open without warning, and there was a person standing at the door, with a vague outline in the backlight.
At the same time, Jurchen turned a blind eye and still focused on doing her own thing, as if there was nothing more important than this.
The visitor walked into the room gently, and his deep breathing, slow and long, merged with the rustling sound of scabs, disrupting the rhythm of the Tongran Jurchen, so that there was a blood streak on the palm of her hand.
At the same time, Jurchen raised her head and stared in anger, but the moment she saw the person coming, she froze, and her eyes changed from anger to surprise.
She is still alive!
Xie Fu's heart was beating wildly, and a wave of extreme joy came to his mind. The corners of his mouth could not help but smile, and at the same time, tears were already flowing from his eyes.
He was so happy that Lu Yehua was still alive, but he was so sad that Lu Yehua was like this.
His mouth moved, trying to say something, but his throat seemed to be blocked. Tears flowed down his slightly moving lips and flowed into his mouth, which was salty, sweet, sour and bitter.
When Xie Fu came to her, Tongran Jurchen looked at the face in front of her. Tears had already flooded his entire face. There were tears in the corners of his mouth, as if tears were pouring out of his mouth. It felt strange.
Ah, never seen that before.
The man came back to his senses and covered his face, leaving only his two eyes exposed. Is he afraid of scaring him, or...
"What...are you doing in here?"
Although the same Jurchen wanted to express calmness, indifference, and unfamiliarity, the emotion revealed in her trembling voice had already betrayed her.
"You...you...you..."
Fu Xie's voice was so hoarse that she couldn't form a clear word, but she suddenly took off the gray cloth that covered her head and face. There was no hair on it, like a scalp covered with mud, and her face was as ugly as a ghost. Secondly,
The first time he came into view, Xie Fu howled without any warning and burst into tears.
Tongran Jurchen's face was tense and she wanted to scold him, but she was stunned when he howled like this. Then she saw Xie Fu crying wildly.
It is said that men should not shed tears easily. She had never known that a man could cry so heartbrokenly, but his heart was filled with warmth and he did not feel sad at all.
He opened his mouth slightly, and the tears poured into his mouth along his nose and cheeks. He made a croaking sound as he cried, and said something indistinctly.
Tongran Jurchen listened to several words before vaguely hearing the word "Ye Hua". It turned out that he was calling her name. When she saw him reaching out his hand, she took the initiative to take him into her arms and said softly: "It's nothing.
"
Xie Fu suddenly made a strange noise, and howled like a wolf cub, but he cried even harder.
At this time, Lu Yehua's numb heart felt a little distressed. He hugged her tighter, and buried Xie Fu's whole face in her chest. He said with great love: "It's okay, it doesn't hurt at all."
This sentence added fuel to the fire. Xie Fu howled like thunder, which startled Lu Yehua. When he lowered his head and saw his weak and sorrowful look, he felt hurt and angry. He shouted in a cold voice: "Why are you crying? You're not allowed to cry."
cry!"
Xie Fu stopped suddenly and took a deep breath to control his emotions, but because he cried so hard just now, every breath was accompanied by a cry.
Seeing that he was like a child without a mother, Lu Yehua's heart trembled, tender love appeared in his eyes, and he gently stroked his hair.
Xie Fu lay in her arms and suddenly raised his head to look at her. He happened to meet her eyes full of tenderness and love and stared blankly.
The air where they looked at each other suddenly became hot, and Lu Yehua felt shy and guilty. Although she and Xie Fu fell in love, they could only be in a dream. Once they came out of the dream, it would become a cruel reality - two people who absolutely cannot
People walking together.
At this moment, Lu Yehua wanted to avoid his eyes, but she couldn't help but want to take a few more glances. She hadn't seen him for a long time, and wanted to take a good look at him.
Xie Fu suddenly laid his face on her chest again and hugged her tightly with his arms. This time he wanted to feel this reality, not a dream, not the disappointment and sadness after dreams again and again.
Her warm bosom burned his face, and the softness was just like her gentle heart. Everything was so real. The lover he missed so much was back.
The haze that had accumulated for many years seemed to be washed away, my mind became empty and bright, and my unfounded heart fell to the ground. I read her name: "Ye Hua."
Lu Yehua was suddenly startled and pushed Xie Fu away from her arms.
Xie Fu fell to the ground, was stunned for a moment and immediately stood up again. Before he could make any move, Lu Yehua stopped him: "Okay!"
Xie Fu looked at her cold eyes, confused for a moment, but soon smiled and said: "Ye Hua, what's wrong with you?"
"Be bold, you can also call me by my name."
Xie Fu knew in his heart that she didn't come to see him even though she was still alive. Instead, she hid in the corners of the world because she became like this. But Xie Fu wanted her to know that he didn't care at all, that he loved her heart and soul.
Not her beautiful skin.
He said nonchalantly: "Xiao Ye, I already screamed, why can't Ye Hua scream!"
"That's... that's..." Lu Yehua couldn't explain why, so he simply said coldly: "Anyway, you're not allowed to scream!"
"I have to scream!"
Seeing his face full of tears but with a rogue expression, Lu Yehua felt funny for a moment and raised his hands: "You..." But his eyes remained gentle and unchanging.
"Lu Yehua, let me tell you, I will risk my life and I want to love you." Xie Fu was very lucky to be able to tell her in reality during his lifetime, rather than in a dark space.
Lu Yehua was stunned for a moment, and there was a burst of sweet happiness in his heart, but soon he felt an indescribable sadness. He gently took off the gray cloth that wrapped his head and covered his face: "Do you still love me when I become like this?
"
Xie Fu stared at it. This was the third time he saw this face. For some reason, he felt that it was not ugly at all. At this moment, his aesthetics changed: "Not only do I want to love you, but I also want to marry you. Of course
my wife!"
These words were undoubtedly a thunderbolt that struck Lu Yehua's head. Secretly loving her was already too much and was not tolerated by the world. He actually wanted to marry her. Inexplicable fear quickly penetrated Lu Yehua's body. He said tremblingly: "You still want to marry her?"
Don’t you understand? It’s God’s punishment for me to be like this.”
Xie Fu was about to say something when he was interrupted by Lu Yehua: "You and I really bother me. When I returned to Huizhou, I thought about dying, but when I thought of you trying to save me..."
At this point, Lu Yehua glanced at Xie Fu lightly, his eyes full of sourness and helplessness: "How could I live up to your desperate efforts to save him?"
Xie Fu said softly: "Ye Hua, it's all my fault. I hurt you. I really wish I was an ugly monster and made you sick when you saw me, so that I wouldn't hurt you."
Lu Yehua smiled: "Thank you, Fu, you are still in the mood to say such funny things at this time."
"I'm happy, I'm extremely happy."
Lu Yehua lowered his eyes, avoided looking at him, and said softly: "I can't forget you. I think about you every day and every night in Huizhou. My days are like years. I am suffering while living, but I can't die. I have no way to go. I have to change."
Being like this is God's punishment for me, but it also gave me a way to survive."
Xie Fu angrily rebuked: "That's nonsense. My sin is greater than yours. Why doesn't God punish me? Why should I bully you?"
Lu Yehua asked back: "Aren't you in pain inside?"
Xie Fu was silent in response, but it was acquiescence. Of course he was in pain.
Lu Yehua said softly: "You know, this is your punishment."
Xie Fu smiled softly: "If I fall in love with you and have to endure all this pain, I am willing to do so. Ye Hua, from the beginning to the end, you are not wrong. You are just an ordinary woman who is gentle, kind, affectionate, and perseverant."
"Shut up, I'm a shameless woman."
Xie Fu said coldly: "Who said you are a shameless woman? Who is qualified to accuse you of such a crime?"
Lu Yehua faced each other in silence, and Xie Fu pointed to the sky: "Is this God, or the so-called sages who have set ethical standards? They will not live for a hundred years, and what they have experienced is just a tiny fraction of the sand in the Ganges River in this world. They
Make a decision."
Lu Yehua responded softly: "I convicted myself."
Although the voice was soft, it was deafening. Xie Fu was stunned for a moment.
Lu Yehua said softly: "In the past three years, I have also awakened and looked away. Thank you, I don't love you anymore. The fact that I became like this saved me and you."
When Xie Fu heard that she no longer loved him, he was stunned again. When he heard the second half of her sentence, he immediately understood and said with a smile: "God is not qualified to save you, and he is not qualified to save me. Only I can save you, and only I can save you."
You can save me, Ye Hua. If you think you become like this, I will dislike you, then you have misjudged me."
Hearing such tender words, Lu Yehua's heart was filled with excitement, but she was not a three-year-old child, and no man would like such an ugly monster, not to mention the beauty around him.
He is just guilty, he is just blaming himself, he is a compassionate and righteous man, but these are too heavy, and it is too painful for him to carry them.
Lu Yehua smiled slightly: "If you take a good look at me like this, do you still love me?" Even she couldn't witness it, and she would never believe it.
Xie Fu smiled: "Who says I don't love you? I love you so much and will love you forever." After saying that, he kissed her face gently.
His kiss was so gentle and delicate that Lu Yehua's heart suddenly fell. But when Fu Xie kissed her on the lips, fear struck again. As if she had just woken up from a dream, she slapped Fu Xie on the spot.
Snap!
Looking at her cold and inviolable eyes, Xie Fu smiled: "You are still so steadfast and pure, and you are only willing to be in that dark space. Speaking of which, this is also the way I kiss you in reality, and you are a little resistant.
It’s understandable if you’re not used to it.”
Lu Yehua said coldly: "Shut up!"
"Then I'll shut up."
Xie Fu looked at her eyes, her nose, her mouth, and her ears with a slight smile, as if every part of her face was so beautiful and worthy of careful appreciation.
Lu Yehua looked a little scared, afraid that he really didn't care, afraid that this man would go on a road of no return for her, that his wife and children would be separated because of such an ugly creature like her, and that he would have no place in the world.
She loved him so much, so how could she let him suffer this again? In the past three years or so, he had finally gotten through it and all his previous efforts had been wasted.
It has become meaningless for her to hide in the corners of the earth for more than three years.
Under Xie Fu's gentle gaze, Lu Yehua suddenly lifted up the hem of his robe, revealing two equally ugly legs with no flat spots: "Look carefully, not only my face, but my whole body is covered with this
Look."
The scene of her wailing in the fire immediately appeared in Xie Fu's mind. His heart was cut by a knife, but he said with a smile: "Well done, that's what I meant. I have been thinking about you since the first time I met you."
It’s your legs.”
Seeing the frivolous and greedy look on Xie Fu's face, Lu Yehua couldn't react for a moment, but Xie Fu suddenly lay down and kissed her ankle.
Lu Yehua was so frightened that he shrank his legs, but his feet were caught by Xie Fu. He raised his head and looked at her with a wicked smile. This sight made Lu Yehua feel weak and weak.
Lu Yehua wanted to glare back, but facing his gentle smile, he felt that any awe-inspiring look would be taken away by him.
Unknowingly, Fu Xie had taken off her shoes and socks. A sour smell made Lu Yehua feel extremely embarrassed. Ever since she was burned by the fire, one day
If she doesn't take a shower, her body will emit this sour and unpleasant smell, especially her feet hidden in the soles of her shoes and socks.
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Xie Fu gently kissed her on the instep, as if he loved her as the most precious treasure in the world.
Shocked, moved, distressed, reluctant... all kinds of emotions were rolling in Lu Yehua's heart. She stared at Xie Fu fiercely, trying to find a flaw in him. He was restraining his disguise, but what she saw was...
There are no flaws.
By this time, he had kissed her on her knees, right on her thighs that no one had ever touched before. However, this place was no longer the pure white holy land on the top of the snow, but had become an ugly place of decay.
Lu Yehua trembled his hands and shouted in his heart, if you want to kiss, just kiss my hand, my hand looks better.
She slowly stretched out her blood-red palm towards Xie Fu, but Xie Fu seemed to have no idea. He was expressing love and was focused and could not be distracted.
Xie Fu looked up at her and smiled. Lu Yehua understood his meaning from his eyes. He wanted to break the indestructible barrier and make her mentally prepared. In that dark space, he did just that.
of.
Fear quickly spread throughout his body, stronger than ever before. Lu Yehua blurted out in shock: "No!"
However, Xie Fu had already reached the city gate, and fear suddenly broke out. Lu Yehua waved his palms like crazy and slapped Xie Fu on him.
Xie Fu was hit by several palms and fell to the ground. Only then did Lu Yehua still have some sense. He withdrew his palm force, which could kill someone, and cursed in anger: "You beast, do you know what you are doing?"
Lu Yehua's expression was so gloomy that his ugly face became even more terrifying. His cold eyes gave off a biting chill, and his icy aura could freeze a person to death.
Xie Fu stood up, patted his chest, and looked at this face with a smile: "It's so light, is it flirting?"
Lu Yehua slowly raised his hand, his blood-red hand glowing red, and the aura of the devil's hand full of warning. Finally, he pointed toward the door: "Get out of here."
Xie Fu can understand him so well. He is someone who has experienced such entangled and contradictory feelings. When encountering such a thing, you should not let people have a choice. No matter what choice you make, it will be wrong.
The best way to solve a problem is to have no choice.
What Xie Fu has to do now is to leave Lu Yehua with no choice and let fate happen.