Su Jian'an was afraid of the cold, so when the weather got cold, she slept particularly peacefully, curling up in the bed like a little pet, with only one head exposed, breathing shallowly, and her pretty little face was full of peace.
Lu Boyan sat down by the bed, pushed Su Jianan's hair away from her forehead, and used the dim light to see her face clearly.
No wonder Tang Yulan persuaded her to give up the child.
The vomiting that lasted for less than half a month had exhausted her whole body. Not only had she lost weight, but her face was frighteningly pale.
The knives inserted into Lu Boyan's heart suddenly slashed sideways, leaving countless bloody wounds on his heart...
This time, she would never let Su Jianan go no matter what.
In the quiet room, the phone suddenly rang. Lu Boyan was afraid of disturbing Su Jianan, so he went outside to the balcony to pick it up.
The call was from Su Yicheng. As soon as he answered the call, he asked, "Have you found Jian An?"
"Found it." Lu Boyan said, "I will take care of her with my mother."
"At Aunt Tang's place?" Su Yicheng smiled, "No wonder, there is someone to take care of her, and I won't find her. It's the only place she can get."
After a pause, Su Yicheng got down to business: "I'm calling to tell you good news. There is news about the Hong Qing that Jian An has been looking for..."
…
After ending the call, Lu Boyan did not go back to the room immediately. Instead, he stood on the balcony and let the cold wind blow on him.
During the time Su Jianan left, there were a few moments when he was drunk, or when he woke up and was hit by the feeling of emptiness, when he hated Su Jianan extremely.
I hate why she refuses to tell the truth, and I hate that she doesn’t leave room for anything.
However, everything she did was for him. Even if she left, she never gave up helping him find Hong Qing.
But all she got for her efforts was misunderstanding and abuse.
"Ahem..."
Su Jianan's coughing sound came from the room, and Lu Boyan hurriedly walked back. Su Jianan did not wake up, maybe because she was uncomfortable, she frowned and pursed her dry lips in her sleep.
Lu Boyan poured a cup of warm water and wetted Su Jianan's lips with a cotton swab.
Tang Yulan had told him that Su Jianan should not be too hasty even if he drank water, otherwise he would vomit again.
Her lips were no longer so dry, and Su Jianan's frown gradually relaxed. Lu Boyan put down the water glass and stayed with her quietly by the bedside.
In Su Jianan's memory, she had not slept so peacefully for a long time. She did not feel uncomfortable in her sleep, let alone inexplicable uneasiness. It was like a newborn baby returning to its mother's arms, surrounded by familiar breath.
Feel at ease.
When she woke up, her energy was unprecedentedly good. She turned over and saw Lu Boyan sitting beside the bed.
Um, it must be an illusion!
This was the room he had lived in when he was a child. She missed him so much that she had this hallucination.
Su Jianan calmly looked at the electronic clock on the bedside table. It showed ten thirty, indicating that it was time to go to bed.
So she turned over and continued to sleep with her back to the "hallucination".
When I was about to fall asleep, I suddenly realized something was wrong - the hallucination just now was too real!
Su Jianan lifted up the quilt and sat up, looking at the bedside uncertainly - the light was a little hazy, making Lu Boyan's figure both illusory and real, and she reached out her hand in confusion -
If there is a sense of touch, it is not an illusion.
However, before he encountered the "hallucination", he suddenly moved. Su Jianan's back was so frightened that her whole body froze.
"Hullusion" grabbed her wrist and pulled hard, pulling her into his arms without any explanation.
The solid and warm chest, the familiar embrace and breath... Su Jianan blinked her eyes - it was really Lu Boyan!
Why is he back!
Su Jianan belatedly struggled and explained: "I... I came to see Aunt Tang today. It was a bit late when I went back. Aunt Tang asked me to stay here for one night. I didn't know you would come back. You...
…Do not think too much."
"..."
The more Lu Boyan remained silent, the more nervous Su Jianan became: "You...are you going to stay here tonight? Then I'll go to the guest room!" After a pause, he changed his words in a panic, "No, I'm going home!"
After saying that, she was about to break out of Lu Boyan's arms. Lu Boyan held her down hard: "Which home do you want to go back to? Except for going back to our home, your brother will find you wherever you go."
Su Jianan felt her back getting colder - how did Lu Boyan know that she was hiding from her brother?
Sensing Su Jianan's surprise, Lu Boyan relaxed his hold on his hand and gently held her in his arms, just like before.
Feeling Lu Boyan's long-lost tenderness, Su Jianan's first reaction was not enjoyment, but vigilance.
She said such outrageous things to him at Jiangyuan Hotel, and then returned the ring to him. She even said that the ring was meaningless and she didn't care whether he was with Han Ruoxi or not... Lu Boyan must have been completely disappointed with her.
His sudden tenderness was so abnormal.
Although I don't want to believe it, there is really only one explanation.
Su Jianan raised her head and looked at Lu Boyan: "What do you know?"
Lu Boyan said: "Your brother told me everything."
Su Jianan looked at Lu Boyan blankly, her eyes were blank for a moment, then she lowered her eyebrows and said in a low voice: "I'm sorry."
"You didn't do anything sorry for me, I'm the one who should apologize." In the darkness, Lu Boyan stared deeply at Su Jian'an, "I should always believe in you."
If he had always believed in Su Jianan, he would not have stopped looking for her during this period.
Then, when she is most uncomfortable, she does not have to bear all the pain alone.
Su Jianan's eyes suddenly turned red.
In the past half month, severe morning sickness tortured her so much that she couldn't sleep at night, and even basic food and drink became a problem. But she didn't cry. For the sake of her child, she was willing to endure no matter how much pain she suffered.
In the face of unbridled insults and misunderstandings on the Internet, she can only comfort herself by saying that those who don’t know are not guilty.
As for whether she and Lu Boyan can be together again, she admitted that she was lucky, but it could only depend on God's arrangement.
She was burdened with misunderstandings and tremendous pain. She never thought that Lu Boyan would know everything so early.
At this moment, Lu Boyan looked at her with such eyes, and all the grievances she had suffered for many days suddenly came to her heart, like the primer of a firework being ignited, exploding in her heart.
She finally no longer had to hide everything and no longer had to bear the pain she shouldn't have to bear. She suddenly wanted to throw herself into Lu Boyan's arms and cry.
Lu Boyan hugged Su Jianan into his arms: "Don't cry, leave the rest to me, you won't have to be threatened by anyone anymore."
"But Kangruicheng has you..."
Lu Boyan kissed Su Jian'an and stopped her from talking: "If I dare to keep those so-called evidences, I will be sure to explain them clearly to the police. Do you know why Kang Ruicheng didn't use these things to threaten me to divorce you?"
Su Jianan was stunned and slowly understood: "Because Kang Ruicheng knows that these things may not threaten you."
But she was different. For things that looked like criminal evidence, she didn't know Lu Boyan's situation at the time. She only knew that the evidence was detrimental to Lu Boyan and could not be seen by the police.
She started to panic, which was like biting Kang Ruicheng's fishhook. This was exactly what Kang Ruicheng wanted. She would agree to all the requests Kang Ruicheng made without hesitation.
And Kang Ruicheng probably didn't think about breaking them up completely. He just wanted to see Lu Boyan in pain and let him taste the feeling of the person he loved most leaving him.
Su Jianan felt extremely regretful. If she had known Kang Ruicheng was so cunning, she would have discussed it with Lu Boyan.
She covered her face: "I'm sorry..."
The truth is that the information may not threaten Lu Boyan. Su Jianan doesn't know whether she is helping Lu Boyan or making unnecessary sacrifices to cause trouble for Lu Boyan.
"You are not wrong." Lu Boyan said, "You were calm enough under the circumstances at that time. If that information is exposed, I can't guarantee that it will have no negative impact on me."
"..." Su Jianan knew that Lu Boyan was just comforting her.
Lu Boyan changed the topic: "How did you and Yunyun hide this from me when we were in the hospital? How could the hospital let you make fake charges?"
"It's actually very simple." Su Jian'an honestly explained the "committing process", "At that time, Yunyun had a friend who was unexpectedly pregnant, but she didn't want a child, and she didn't want to leave a record of having an abortion, so Yunyun took me with her.
Go pay the registration fee, but in fact the person lying on the operating table is Yunyun’s friend. Anyway, the doctor who performed the operation doesn’t know who Su Jianan is. The words you heard were said by the doctor to Yunyun’s friend..."
Lu Boyan suddenly remembered that he forced Su Jianan to almost fall down the stairs at the fire escape of Jiangyuan Hotel, and that she was almost pushed down by Han Ruoxi in the shopping mall.
After two accidents, he didn't know whether to say they were lucky or the child was lucky.
But maybe, this child will never have a chance with them in the end.
"Jian An, we..."
As soon as Lu Boyan spoke, Su Jianan suddenly covered her mouth, got out of bed and rushed to the bathroom, holding on to the sink and vomited.
Her eyes were red from vomiting and she couldn't speak. Lu Boyan took a glass of warm water to rinse her mouth and then took her back to bed.
She didn't dare to lie down, so she took a few pillows and sat on the bed, her face looking worse than when she just woke up.
Lu Boyan took off her coat that was hanging aside and put it on her shoulders. He pondered for a long time before speaking: "Jian An, there is something we need to talk about."
He looked solemn and hesitated to speak. Su Jianan immediately understood what he wanted to say, pulled the quilt and lay down: "I want to sleep." In fact, she didn't feel sleepy at all, but she could only close her eyes and escape.
"Jian An," Lu Boyan continued after a long pause, "you should listen to the doctor."
No matter how tightly she closed her eyes, she couldn't resist the surging tears. Su Jianan huddled in the bed with her back to Lu Boyan, her shoulders twitching, but in the end she couldn't suppress it anymore, and she vented all her grievances with tears.
Lu Boyan hugged her: "It's not your fault, Jian An, you don't need to blame yourself."
This is his and Su Jianan's first child, why would he give it up?
But he couldn't bear to see Su Jianan suffer like this.
You can still have children in the future, but your body is like this. The doctor can't guarantee how long Su Jian'an can endure such torture. He can't let Su Jian'an take risks.
Su Jianan pushed Lu Boyan hard: "Why do you also say such things?!"
The children were on her body, and she could feel their fresh life and their growing growth. However, the doctor and her family told her to give up these two children.
It is the lives of two children, not two stones on the roadside.
"We are doing this for your own good." Lu Boyan tried his best to calm Su Jian'an's emotions, "Jian An, we can still have children in the future. This time you listen to us and go for surgery."
Su Jianan suddenly remembered something and pushed Lu Boyan away violently: "We are divorced, I don't need to listen to what you say."
If you ask her to give up the child, she won't listen.