Chapter 567 I will grow old with him, just in different places
The alarm sound of the monitoring equipment stopped suddenly, as if to tell Su Yunjin that something was completely over.
Su Yunjin shook her head, instinctively refusing to accept the facts.
She didn't believe Jiang Ye just left like this.
Their child has just been born, and Jiang Ye's spirit is obviously getting better and better. He should get better, listen to the child calling him daddy, and watch the child grow up.
How could he just leave like that?
Su Yunjin's heart was like a razor blade, and the huge pain surrounded her in a small space. She opened her mouth wide and cried silently, as if she couldn't breathe. The tears flowed down her face and fell on the newborn baby. On Shen Yuechuan's face.
Shen Yuechuan, who had just come to this world, seemed to feel something, moved his small hands and feet, and suddenly burst into tears.
At this time, the attending doctor and several experts rushed to the ward.
After looking at the monitoring equipment, the attending doctor already knew that there was little hope. After checking, he took off his glasses and looked at the nurse seriously: "The patient has no vital signs. Time of death: October 12, 17 Point 44."
Su Yunjin suddenly realized that the doctor was announcing Jiang Ye's death.
She got up and held the doctor's hand like a life-saving driftwood: "Doctor, please don't give up. Can you save Jiang Ye, save him? Maybe he can wake up like before! We Our child has just been born, he cannot leave us like this..."
It was not a very long sentence. Su Yunjin choked and spoke intermittently for a long time, her tears flowed without any trace, and the pleading in her eyes made people feel distressed.
However, Jiang Ye no longer had any vital signs. Even if the most authoritative experts in the medical field were invited, there was nothing he could do to save his life.
The attending doctor patted Su Yunjin's hand: "Ms. Su, I'm sorry, Jiang Ye has left. My condolences."
Su Yunjin instinctively refused to listen to such words and shook her head stubbornly: "No, doctor, there must be a way. Please save him like you did before! As long as I save him, I am willing to give everything..."
The doctor had long been accustomed to seeing death in the hospital, but when facing Su Yunjin, he couldn't help but feel sympathy and comforted: "But resuscitation is of no use. Miss Su, there is an old saying in your country: There is no resurrection after death." .I feel very sorry that Jiang Ye is gone. But you still have a newborn child to take care of, so you must be strong."
Su Yunjin looked at the doctor pleadingly, and suddenly saw the helplessness and sympathy in the doctor's eyes.
She desperately realized that Jiang Ye had really left this world.
The person lying on the hospital bed who was losing body temperature was no longer Jiang Ye, but Jiang Ye's body.
Jiang Ye would never open his eyes again and look at her with tender eyes; he would never open his hands to hold her in his arms again.
He will never say again, Yunjin, I love you.
He has gone somewhere. That place, she could not reach after trekking all her life.
In an instant, Su Yunjin fell to the ground and cried loudly, as if all her strength had been drained.
The attending doctor silently placed a handkerchief on Su Yunjin's palm, and at the same time told the nurse: "Go to my office, open the letter drawer, and bring over the two letters inside."
The nurse quickly brought the things over, and the attending doctor handed them to Su Yunjin: "These are the two letters Jiang Ye gave me a few days ago. He asked me to deliver them to you after he leaves."
Su Yunjin took it with trembling hands and opened the letter Jiang Ye left for her.
At the beginning of the letter, Jiang Ye said: "Yunjin, I don't want you to see this letter. Because by the time you see this letter, I will have already left you. This is the last thing I want to happen."
Su Yunjin closed her eyes hard, but tears still came out of her eyes.
As if he expected Su Yunjin to cry, Jiang Ye continued:
"Yunjin, don't cry.
"My greatest luck in this life is to meet you, but God has made me unable to grow old with you. I have the rarest disease in the world. I'm so sorry.
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"If the Kingdom of Heaven can see the world, I will always watch you, so Yunjin, you must live strong - together with me. Promise me that when my matter is over, you will be happier day by day.
I am becoming happier and more fulfilled every day. Otherwise, I cannot feel at ease.
"Yunjin, I hope you will be safe and smooth every day without me, and I hope nothing can hurt you again.
"Yunjin, this is the last time I write your name one stroke at a time. I love you."
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With a "pop" sound, Su Yunjin's tears fell on the white letter paper, leaving a pool of water. He held the letter in his arms and held it close to his heart. Finally, he could no longer hold back and burst into tears.
Seeing this, other doctors and nurses left one after another. The attending doctor put his hand on Su Yunjin's shoulder: "I feel very sorry, just like what was said in that movie: There are always some people in this world who cannot grow old together."
After a long time, Su Yunjin raised her head and raised the corners of her tear-stained lips: "Doctor, I will grow old with him, but we will live apart."
The attending doctor was stunned for a moment, patted Su Yunjin on the shoulder, and then left the ward.
Since Su Yunjin said this, he had reason to believe that she would be strong in the face of Jiang Ye's death.
Facts have proved that the attending doctor was right.
Su Yunjin suppressed the pain, calmly informed her friends about Jiang Ye's death, held a memorial service for Jiang Ye, and then let Jiang Ye sleep underground on a sunny day.
There is no friend who would not comfort Su Yunjin, but Su Yunjin always pretends to be strong and replies: "I can hold on."
"Do you need us to help you take care of the child?" said the friend, "Yunjin, you have just given birth and are very weak, and you have suffered such a big blow. We are worried..."
"Don't worry." Su Yunjin interrupted her friend, "When Jiang Ye was admitted to the intensive care unit, I had already expected this day. Although it is difficult to accept, I will always pass this hurdle. The child is now mine
For the greatest moral support, let him stay with me, there will be no problem."
Su Yunjin thought she could grit her teeth and get through it, and her friends all believed and supported her, but the reality was that it was much more difficult than she imagined.
Because Su Hongyuan picked this opportunity, he constantly harassed and attacked Su Yunjin, and even used all his connections to ask the hospital and friends in the study abroad circle to urge Su Yunjin to pay off the debt.
Not only did Su Yunjin have to accept the fact that Jiang Ye passed away, she also had to take care of a newborn child, and at the same time she had to face a huge debt.
She was able to bear all these, but what made her collapse was that after the house expired, she was kicked out of the apartment by her landlord. The cash in her hand could not even pay the rent of the cheapest slum housing.
She could only take her child to and from various friends' houses.
Newborn Shen Yuechuan is unnervingly sensible. Except when he is hungry, he rarely cries. He sleeps all night and most of the day. Occasionally, when he opens his eyes, he just slides his black eyes around. Look at the ceiling.
The more he behaves like this, the more depressed Su Yunjin becomes. She would rather the child cries and makes a fuss and upsets her than stay silent with her newborn child.
Because the more silent she was, the more desperate she felt like exploding.
When Su Yunjin noticed something was wrong with herself, she realized that she was beginning to hallucinate.
She always felt that Jiang Ye was still alive. When she heard the sound of opening the door, she would subconsciously raise her head, look over with a smile, and call out: "Jiang Ye."
But what I see are often friends coming back from get off work.
In the middle of the night, she always felt that Jiang Ye was beside her. Or maybe she was curled up in Jiang Ye's arms peacefully like before.
But when I reached out and touched the surroundings, all I could touch was the cold air.
She always felt Jiang Ye calling her, so she happily responded.
But all she received in response was endless emptiness.
Su Yunjin felt desperate and depressed. Finally one day, she slapped Shen Yuechuan who was looking at the ceiling quietly. Shen Yuechuan looked at her and burst into tears.
She woke up from a dream, cried and picked up Shen Yuechuan, but she couldn't coax the child.
When my friend came back from get off work, he saw mother and son crying together, and asked quickly: "Yunjin, what's wrong?"
Su Yunjin handed the child to her friend, rushed into the bathroom and washed her face with cold water.
When she raised her head, she saw herself in the mirror, with a yellow complexion, messy hair, and dull pupils...
This is not Su Yunjin. He is clearly someone she doesn't recognize.
How could the normal Su Yunjin do something to a child?
Su Yunjin confessed the situation to her friend and chatted with a psychology friend for two hours. The friend told her seriously: "Yunjin, you are suffering from depression."
To make matters worse, Su Hongyuan approached Su Yunjin at this time and asked Su Yunjin to return to China to meet Mr. Cui, who had always been obsessed with Su Yunjin.
Naturally, Su Yunjin would not agree, but Su Hongyuan inquired about her depression and threatened: "If you don't reply, I will apply to the court to raise the child by myself."
"Why do you!" Su Yunjin was emotional, "I am his biological mother, you have nothing to do with him!"
"Just because you suffer from depression, you may end your own life at any time, and you are even more likely to end that child's life!" Su Hongyuan looked confident, "Also, you are penniless now! That child and I are related by blood. This is an uncle-nephew relationship. If I use some of my connections, do you think the court will award me temporary custody of the child?"
Su Yunjin believed that Su Hongyuan could do such a thing, and in order to conceal the child she had given birth to from Mr. Cui, once the child fell into Su Hongyuan's hands, there was no telling where the child would be sent.
But if Shen Yuechuan stayed by her side, he would always be in danger. She didn't know if one day he would deal a heavier blow to the child, or to herself.
When Jiang Ye left, Su Yunjin was not so desperate.
At that time, her life and the world she saw were all gray, and she thought of death countless times.
Finally, she decided to give up Shen Yuechuan.
Since she couldn't take good care of Shen Yuechuan, and might endanger the child's life at any time, Su Hongyuan was also eyeing the child, so why not take a gamble, maybe the child would have a better life.
At that time, Su Yunjin had already decided to put down Shen Yuechuan and end her own life.
Therefore, she did not leave many clues on Shen Yuechuan. She just stated that his biological mother was from City A and asked kind passers-by to send this abandoned child to an orphanage.
