Shen Yuechuan didn't know how he left the bar. On the way back, he had a splitting headache.
If the twists and turns of his life experience were a joke played by God on him, then what about Xiao Yunyun's feelings for him?
A bigger joke?
He couldn't understand that since he was no longer allowed to live a normal life, why couldn't Xiao Yunyun be allowed to love others well and spend this life well?
It's enough to tease him, why do you want Xiao Yunyun to fall in love with him?
Looking back from when he could remember to now, Shen Yuechuan suddenly discovered that as long as it was what he wanted, not only could he never have it, but it would also harm the people around him.
When he was a child, he wanted a complete family. However, his father passed away just after he was born. As a result, Su Yunjin suffered from severe depression, and he became an orphan soon after.
Now, he wants to fall in love with Xiao Yunyun like normal people. However, the blood relationship is like a wall made of steel between them, causing them to suffer.
He asked himself that he had not done any evil in this life. Was it because he had made some mistakes in his previous life?
Back downstairs in the apartment, the driver saw Shen Yuechuan still holding his head and looked at him worriedly: "Assistant Shen, are you okay?"
Shen Yuechuan did not speak, but waved his hand to signal the driver to get off.
The driver was very worried. He hesitated for a moment and asked, "Do you want to contact Mr. Lu?"
He knew very well the relationship between Shen Yuechuan and Lu Boyan.
He believes that if something happens to Shen Yuechuan, contacting Lu Boyan is the most correct choice.
"No need." Shen Yuechuan suddenly raised his head and said solemnly, "I'm fine. It's just that I haven't had a good rest these days and my head hurts a little. You can get off work. Don't tell Mr. Lu about what happened today."
The driver didn't expect Shen Yuechuan to be uncomfortable at all, thinking that Shen Yuechuan just wanted to conceal his meeting with Qin Han, so he nodded and got out of the car.
Shen Yuechuan stayed in the car until his headache eased, then opened the door and went back to the apartment.
The apartment was the same as before. All the appliances and furniture were neatly arranged and spotless. It was so orderly that it didn't look like home, but more like a cold and rigid temporary apartment.
Shen Yuechuan suddenly remembered Xiao Yunyun's single apartment, which was much smaller than his.
He has been there several times, and each time it is different from the last time, either there are a few more scented candles, or there are a few more bouquets of flowers, or the sofa has a new cloth cover.
Each time, it looks warmer than the last time and makes people feel more at home.
He asked Xiao Yunyun: "Are you planning to renovate this place?"
"When my cousin asked me to move in, the hard furnishings of the apartment were already in place. I was only responsible for the soft furnishings." Xiao Yunyun said with a smile, "I live in my own place, so I can do whatever I like with it!"
At that time, Shen Yuechuan secretly thought, if one day he successfully abducted Xiao Yunyun to his house, how would she mess with this apartment?
Actually, Xiao Yunyun can do whatever she wants. Even if she wants to dig a swimming pool in the apartment and hold a pool party, he will immediately help her contact the construction team without any objection.
He just wants Xiao Yunyun to stay here with him - to sleep with him and wake up with him. He will never get tired of repeating this for the rest of his life.
Such a small wish cannot be realized.
Now, maybe...
As long as he goes to Xiao Yunyun and tells her that she is not the only one who has been tortured these days.
He and Xiao Yunyun will be together immediately.
However, he can't be so selfish.
Not to mention that they are brothers and sisters, ethics and law do not allow them to be together.
Just considering his current physical condition, he couldn't convince himself to confess his love to Xiao Yunyun.
After his father passed away more than 20 years ago, Su Yunjin suffered from depression and relied on drugs to survive to this day. Does he want Xiao Yunyun to experience that pain again?
Even if his disease can be cured and Xiao Yunyun doesn't have to endure the pain of losing her lover, the fact that they are brother and sister cannot be changed.
You can imagine how much gossip and criticism they have to face after getting together.
He can give Xiao Yunyun all his love, but he cannot guarantee her happiness.
What's more, Xiao Yunyun works in a hospital, and he can't imagine how much trouble the rumors will cause her in her future career.
The worst outcome is that he dies like Jiang Ye, leaving Xiao Yunyun to face everything alone.
In this case, even if he goes to hell, he will not forgive himself.
No matter how you look at it, he should not selfishly take advantage of Xiao Yunyun's feelings and trick her into being with him. This is not happiness for Xiao Yunyun, but the greatest misfortune in her life.
He should let Xiao Yunyun completely forget about him.
After making this decision, Shen Yuechuan felt that all the pain in his head was transferred to his heart, which stung him time after time.
He walked to the balcony, looked at the lights of thousands of houses within sight, and lit a cigarette.
At this time, nothing could divert his attention except tobacco and alcohol.
Xiao Yunyun, who was in the same area as Shen Yuechuan, was completely unaware that her biggest secret had been leaked. She was reading and reviewing until twelve o'clock. The sleeping pills she took half an hour ago had taken effect, and her whole body was trapped by an airtight wave.
Surrounded by thoughts, he fell asleep not long after falling on the bed.
At seven o'clock the next day, Xiao Yunyun woke up on time, washed up, had some breakfast, and got on the crowded subway to go to the hospital.
He can take a taxi, but occasionally being squeezed in the morning rush hour subway, which is like a sardine can, can make her realize that there are many things more important than love.
Such as survival.
So many people can still live well without love. She can't ruin herself just because she can't be with Shen Yuechuan.
This kind of motivation is effective, and Xiao Yunyun's life returns to its original state day by day.
She thought she had finally recovered, and when she was about to give up sleeping pills, she was caught off guard by news that could shatter her soul -
This morning, as usual, she came out of the elevator carrying her bag and felt that there were many problems in her life.
For example, what to eat for lunch, take the subway or take a taxi to work?
"Beauty!"
A familiar voice came without any warning. Xiao Yunyun subconsciously looked around and saw that it was Qin Han.
She was startled: "Why are you here?"
At this point, shouldn't Young Master Qin be on his way to the company? Why is he here?
Qin Han leaned on a sports car worth 7 figures and smiled charmingly: "I'll pick you up for work."
Xiao Yunyun walked over and was about to tease Qin Han when she heard Qin Han continue: "By the way, I have some news for you."
"...What news? Xiao Yunyun suddenly felt that the news was the key point, suppressing her pounding and accelerating heartbeat, "Tell me."
"You have to be mentally prepared." Qin Han said, "This is not good news."
"..."
Qin Han hesitated again and again, but finally said it: "Shen Yuechuan has a girlfriend."
He knew that this news would bring a big blow to Xiao Yunyun.
But this is a fact. Xiao Yunyun will have to face it sooner or later. It is better to know it earlier than later.
Xiao Yunyun understood every word Qin Han said. After those words were put together into a smooth sentence, it was like someone had hit her soul hard, and her heart sank suddenly...
It's not disappointment or loss, it's just...it feels like my heart will never beat again.
At this moment, Xiao Yunyun was clearly standing in the center of the city, but she felt like she had been thrown into the barren Northern Wilderness. The cold wind and cold rain roared in, surrounding her heavily, and the monster opened its bloody mouth to devour her...
As if a century had passed, Xiao Yunyun finally found her voice and asked with difficulty: "When did it happen?"
"Just these days." Qin Han said, "I confirmed it yesterday and it is true."
Xiao Yunyun said "Oh" and tried hard to appear that she didn't care, but her red eyes betrayed her emotion.
"I'll tell you in advance so that you don't react when we meet by chance." After a pause, Qin Han asked, "How are you? Can you still go to work? Do you need me to ask for leave for you?"
"...No need." Xiao Yunyun closed her eyes hard and forced back tears, "If I don't go to work, I will think more."
Qin Han agreed very much with Xiao Yunyun's words.
No matter how she failed emotionally, Xiao Yunyun was a good and conscientious doctor professionally, and going to work could divert her attention.
Qin Han opened the car door: "Then get in the car and I'll take you there."
"Thanks."
Xiao Yunyun sat on the passenger seat and fastened her seat belt mechanically, feeling an unbearable pain like needles pricking her heart.
She was afraid that she would cry, so she had to close her eyes.
She warned herself, don't think about it, don't think about it.
However, reason cannot control thoughts at all.
What kind of girl is Shen Yuechuan's new girlfriend?
He said that he wanted to settle down. Will this girl really be Shen Yuechuan's last girlfriend and then become Shen Yuechuan's wife?
The expensive and eye-catching sports car trudged forward in the morning rush hour traffic. While waiting for the red light, Shen Yuechuan glanced at Xiao Yunyun and said, "Don't think so wildly."
Xiao Yunyun shook her head: "If Shen Yuechuan wants to get married, I can't accept it."
Qin Han hesitated for a moment and asked tentatively: "What if he really loves that girl and that girl really likes him?"
He thought Xiao Yunyun would say it, so that she would be relieved. At least Shen Yuechuan got married because of love, and at least the person who will take care of him in the future will be a good girl.
He thought that Xiao Yunyun would at least maintain such sanity.
However, Xiao Yunyun's reaction was completely beyond his expectation——
"I know I should bless him." Xiao Yunyun smiled bitterly, "But, I don't think I can do it."
Qin Han: "..." Rub!
Xiao Yunyun really couldn't do it because she really liked Shen Yuechuan.
She wanted to be with Shen Yuechuan, wanted to hug him, wanted to kiss him, wanted to do all the intimate things with him, and wanted to stay with him for the rest of her life.
But now, the person who wants to do these things with Shen Yuechuan has become another girl.
How do you ask her to sincerely send her blessings?
Qin Han couldn't help but sigh: "You are really sincere. But, so what if you don't give your blessing? On the day of Shen Yuechuan's wedding, can you still go and steal the wedding?"
