Mr. Dong lit a cigarette, took two puffs, and then said: "An Yi, you don't want to get married, and I have no desire to start a family, so I think we should not consider this matter."
"I have already thought it through. To me, this means making sacrifices for the revolutionary work. What does sacrifice mean? You don't need me to teach you anymore, right?"
"But you don't have to make this kind of sacrifice now." Mr. Dong reluctantly resisted.
"You... this person, go back on your word..."
An Yi was so angry that she ran back to the back room and threw the sweater she had knitted for Mr. Dong on the floor. Then she felt upset and stepped on it a few more times.
She felt extremely aggrieved. She had made such a big sacrifice and had to compromise to marry this guy named Dong. However, this guy not only didn't appreciate it, but also seemed to have suffered a big loss.
Am I an old girl who can't get married? An Yi couldn't help but cry as she thought about it.
When Mr. Dong heard her crying, he knew that he was in big trouble. He hurried in and said with a sorry smile: "An Yi, don't be like this. It's not that I don't agree. What I mean is that we should think about it carefully. After all, marriage is
Life Events."
"Dong, you are so picky, how can I not be worthy of you?" An Yi said, wiping away her tears.
"No, no, I didn't say you weren't worthy of me. It was me who wasn't worthy of you. Really. For you, I'm a bit old." Mr. Dong said sincerely.
"What are you old for? You are only thirty-five years old, seven years older than me. I admit it. Anyway, we are not getting married for male and female love, but for work needs." An Yi stopped choking and said.
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"Don't you really think I'm old? Every time I look in the mirror, I feel like a little old man." Mr. Dong is telling the truth.
"Why are you old? You are old mentally, plus you are usually unkempt and slovenly." An Yi scolded.
Mr. Dong had no intention of cleaning himself up. He even deliberately cleaned up before An Yi came. Even so, he failed in An Yi's eyes.
The living conditions in the base area are far inferior to those in Shanghai. The cadres and soldiers there are completely different from the underground party members. Although the clothes have been mended and worn for many years, they must be clean and the people are very energetic.
But An Yi overlooked one point. Comrades who work underground in enemy-occupied areas are often emotionally depressed, and people's mentality will inevitably have a vicissitude.
The most draining thing about underground work is not energy and youth, but a person's psychology. Often after a few years, a person will feel as if he has lived for decades and has experienced many vicissitudes of life.
In Mr. Dong's eyes, An Yi still looks like a 20-year-old girl, who is really incompatible with him.
Of course, the most important thing is that he was not mentally prepared to get married at all. He sent the message but was forced by An Yi to send it. He thought that his superiors would not agree at all, but he did not expect that his superiors approved their marriage application at an unprecedented speed.
"An Yi, I think so. If the two of us simply get together just for work, it may destroy me and destroy you." Mr. Dong explained calmly.
"Now that things have reached this stage, what do you think we should do?" An Yi asked.
"We can try to fall in love first, just like those young men and women nowadays, fall in love freely for a period of time. If we fall in love for a period of time, both of us feel that we are in love and are willing to stay with each other for a lifetime, then we will get married."
Mr. Dong’s point of view is reasonable and not excessive at all. It’s not about not getting married, it’s about falling in love first.
"We submitted the application and our superiors have approved it. We are not getting married. Isn't this child's play? How can we explain it to the organization?" An Yi said.
Mr. Dong believes that the organization can definitely understand the situation they are currently facing and will not interfere too much in their choice of a suitable lifestyle.
Faced with this question, whether to get married or not, the two of them were actually very entangled and in a dilemma.
Mr. Dong wanted to delay the marriage and not rush to get married. In fact, An Yi insisted on it. Speaking of fear of marriage, An Yi was more serious than him. In any case, marriage is a very important thing for a woman.
thing.
An Yi originally wanted to break through this level with a fearless spirit of sacrifice, just like sacrificing his life to blow up a bunker on the battlefield, but he didn't care about the outcome.
Since Mr. Dong proposed to fall in love for a while, of course she was also willing. After all, she had never really been in love.
When she was in school in Hankou, she once had a boy she liked very much. The boy also liked her very much. However, both of them were busy with the student movement at the time, so they did not tell the truth. Later, the Kuomintang clarified the party activities.
She escaped, but the boy was killed by the Kuomintang.
This incident has been a pain in her heart for many years, and it is also one of the reasons why she refuses to fall in love or even marry. Whenever someone expresses love to her, that handsome and talkative boy will appear in front of her eyes.
That face that she was particularly fascinated by.
"The superiors only approved us to be together, but they didn't say we must get married immediately," Mr. Dong said.
"Okay, I agree with you. Old Dong, you really don't like me, do you? If so, just say it directly and I won't care." An Yi looked at Mr. Dong suspiciously.
said.
"Where are you thinking? How can I look down on you? I don't know how good I am. I really feel that I am not worthy of you." Mr. Dong said with a bitter smile.
"Since we work together, let's not talk about whether we are worthy or not. I know that you are the most respected old underground person in the headquarters. The head of the headquarters often praises you. In the base area, many people regard you as an unknown person.
Hero." An Yi said.
"What kind of hero am I? Those comrades who sacrificed their lives for the revolution are the real heroes. I am just an ordinary soldier." Mr. Dong said with some embarrassment.
"Old Dong, what does it feel like to love someone?" An Yi believes that she has only had brief interactions with the opposite sex, which cannot be called love, and her emotional experience is too poor.
"This...it's hard to say, but it's unforgettable. A successful love is a God-given marriage for a person, but an unsuccessful love can destroy most of a person." Mr. Dong sighed.
"So, you have also experienced the torture of love?" An Yi said with a smile.
"Torture? That's right." Mr. Dong said with a bitter smile.
"Then can you tell me about your love?" An Yi said.
"Why do you want to hear this?" Mr. Dong couldn't help himself.
"I've never been in love before. I want to know what falling in love is like." An Yi said, lowering her head in embarrassment.
"You've never been in love?" Mr. Dong asked a little surprised.
It is said that all young men and women in the new era should have been in love, especially for a girl as outstanding and beautiful as An Yi. It would be impossible for no one to pursue her.
"I dated a boy before, but I can't say it was love. Anyway, we both liked each other a little bit." An Yi said openly.
"Then where is he now?"
"Sacrificed during the April 12 Massacre." An Yi said sadly.
Mr. Dong sighed, in the April 12th Massacre, too many comrades died, and countless outstanding young people fell under the enemy's butcher's knife.
"These blood debts will have to be settled with the Kuomintang in the future," Mr. Dong said bitterly.
"By the way, where is your love interest?" An Yi asked.
"She studied in England with me, but she stayed. I insisted on returning to China to join the revolution, and we separated." Mr. Dong said calmly.
"Oh, you guys should have a good relationship foundation. She must be very sad if we break up like this?" An Yi asked after thinking about it.
"I was really sad at the time, but I will forget about it later. Time is the best healing medicine." Mr. Dong said with a wry smile.
"Are you feeling particularly uncomfortable when she refuses to come back with you?" An Yi asked.
"Really not. I really didn't feel that bad at the time. My heart had already flown back to my motherland. I felt that returning to my country to join the revolution was my only mission. I could leave things like love behind. But many years have passed, but in my dreams
Her shadow often appears." Mr. Dong sighed.
"Do you still think about her often?" An Yi asked with complicated emotions.
"No, I'm not thinking about her, I just often recall that period of time as a way of remembering my lost youth." Mr. Dong said with a gloomy expression.