The memories of the past are so painful that Gao Jinyan wouldn't want to mention them if she could, but time waits for no one, Rong Qi is still in the hospital bed, and she hasn't come out yet.
"Xiao Jian, you should have studied more things and saved more people in the capital, but now you only stay in the small cloud city. Only the capital can give you a place to display your talents. Xiao Jian
Jane, have you forgotten my mother's expectations for you?"
"It is precisely because I have not forgotten that I have been unable to face you and Uncle Gao for so many years." Gu Jian finally couldn't help it, and the emotions she had been suppressing burst out. She stretched out her hands, her hands trembling violently: "Look
Are we there yet? This is what you call coming out. If it were so easy, why would I wait until now?"
Gu Jian raised her head and looked at the sky.
"I thought I was already very powerful. I could keep my grandpa and you by my side. Even if my mother left, I could still be strong. But when I stood in front of the operating table with blood on my hands, no matter what,
When I couldn't wake her up in any way, I realized that I was so small and cowardly!"
"At that time, my mother had already missed the best opportunity for treatment. The doctor said that even the most powerful doctors only have a 10% success rate, and even if they are successful, there will still be a series of complications. My dad said
It doesn't matter if you leave her, at least you don't have to suffer anymore, so why do you have to torture yourself?"
"You don't understand. It's not what you said at all. If it weren't for the substitution during the operation, it would have failed. It was me. I killed her..."
Gu Jian finally couldn't help but broke down and cried,
"No, you're not! You came back as soon as possible. That incident had nothing to do with you. No one blames you." Gao Jinyan painfully grabbed Gu Jian's shoulders and repeated it over and over again.
But Gu Jian seemed to be trapped in a loop, unable to break free from the memories.
She looked at her hands as if she had returned to the scene that day. Her hands were covered in blood. Everyone told her that it was too late. Even the machine was reminding her of the final result...
"Xiao Jian, listen to me. There were no accidents during the operation. What's more, even if the operation was successful, it would just make her suffer for a while. It was my father and I. We didn't find anything wrong with my mother. We missed it.
The best time for treatment has nothing to do with you."
"No, it's not! You don't know at all!" Gu Jian cried until she was shaking: "If I had gone there earlier, or if I hadn't changed the attending doctor midway..."
"You also said, that's only if, not to mention, without you, the operation would never have been completed!"
"No...it's not..." Gu Jian shook her head. She couldn't listen to anything now.
Gao Jinyan didn't understand until this moment why Song Ye was so repelled by him talking about this matter.
At the beginning, he was also in great pain, but he did not blame all the mistakes on himself like Gu Jian did.
He only focused on comforting his father and dealing with the funeral, but he forgot that Gu Jian was the one who suffered the most harm in the process.
Gao Jinyan touched something in his arms.
He didn't want to use this deceptive method, but seeing Gu Jian's eyes blank and blaming herself, he really didn't know what method he should use to calm her down!
Seeing that Gu Jian seemed to be falling deeper into fear, Gao Jinyan finally chose to compromise.
"Xiao Jian, please calm down first. Actually, when you come here this time, I have something else to bring."
Gu Jian burst into tears, still unable to break free from the pain of memories.
Upon seeing this, Gao Jinyan took out the recording pen and turned on the recording.
"Little Jane, do you still remember my voice?"
A familiar voice sounded, as gentle as ever.
Gu Jian froze on the spot, staring blankly at Gao Jinyan. It wasn't until he nodded that he finally came back to his senses...
After Gu Jian and Gao Jinyan talked, Gu Jian locked herself in the room and never came out. No matter who knocked on the door, she could never get any response.
Gao Jinyan, the only one who knew the truth, remained motionless. He sat quietly in the living room, as if he was punishing himself, waiting for the final result. No matter how Song Ye asked him, he never spoke, as if his soul was also connected.
Was locked up in that room.
What's strange is that Mr. Gu didn't say anything, he just told Aunt Wu to heat up the food so that Gu Jian wouldn't have anything to eat when she came out.
Fu Yan saw that Mr. Gu didn't say anything and stopped knocking on the door, but the bad feeling in his heart became stronger.
All day, night and the entire morning, the villa was surprisingly quiet.
Fu Yan jumped out of the window of the guest room and quietly lay down from the backyard to Gu Jian's window, wanting to see how she was doing.
When he passed by, he saw Gu Jian sitting on the bedside, holding something like a recording pen in his hand, staring blankly.
He was hesitating whether to go in when he saw Gu Jian pressing the switch of the recorder.
"Xiao Jane, do you still remember my voice? I don't know when this recorder will be in your hands, but it is enough for you to receive it. In fact, I have a premonition that I will never be able to see you again. I don't
I know whether it’s true or not, but the only thing that’s certain is that you will definitely blame yourself if you can’t see me. So I prepared this recording in advance for Jin Yan to give it to you.”
"The physical condition is not something we can decide. If it could have been discovered earlier, I would have wanted to spend more time with you and Jin Yan, and even wanted to see you get married and have children and be happy. But none of us expected that this would happen.
Do you remember that when I first saw you, I thought this child was like an angel? I have never seen such a beautiful little girl. Later, when I met you fighting those gangsters, I discovered that you were not an angel, but
She is a heroine who punishes rape and eliminates evil. If I were not weak, I would really like to practice martial arts like you and defeat those bad guys..."
The voice coming out of the recorder is as gentle as water, like time flowing quietly, soothing people's inner irritability.
Fu Yan guessed that the voice should belong to Gao Jinyan's mother.
But if Gao Jinyan had such a thing, why did he wait until today, three years later, to take it out?
He looked up at the sky, but there were still no stars twinkling.
Such a night is really depressing and dull.
Fu Yan was sitting outside the window, listening to the voice coming from the recorder. It was as if she had been here all along, talking about their past memories in a long and steady stream, without mentioning her illness or Gu Jian's condition.
, just recalling the past that was already precious to her.
It wasn't until the end that the woman's voice gradually became quieter and it was a bit laborious to speak, and she chuckled.
"Look, I obviously have so many things to say to you, but now it seems that I don't even have this chance. Xiao Jane, for me, you are also the most precious treasure in the world. I am very lucky to be able to meet you in my lifetime.
No matter when it comes to you, you are my pride. I hope that one day you can realize your dream, stand at the top of the world's art, and let your blind biological father see that our little Jane is the best in this world.
The most powerful."
"Of course, I also have some regrets. It's been so long and I haven't heard you call me teacher. Alas, but I won't call you if you don't call me, because I want to be your teacher more than you...
Forget it, I know you have me in your heart anyway, that’s enough!"