I know that these words may be cruel to Lu Xiaohong.
I don't even know why I suddenly thought so much and had doubts about our relationship.
Maybe it’s because I saw my father’s devotion to my mother, maybe it’s because I saw Xia Xiaobei’s stubborn caution and enthusiasm for Gu Xiwen, maybe it’s because I saw the flirting between Dongzi and Lian Ruowei
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None of this seems to be seen in Lu Xiaohong and I.
But I have to admit that he is very good to me. Every day, as long as I am not asleep, he will wait for me quietly. He will not go back to his room until I go back to the bedroom.
When we were in southern Yunnan, he had been silently protecting me from behind, telling me to be careful, and was more worried about my safety than his own.
When Lian Ruowei expressed that she liked him, he drew a clear line without any hesitation and did not give Lian Ruowei any hope.
When Shi Xian mentioned the position of the Venerable Heavenly Master, Lu Xiaohong replied without hesitation that what he wanted more was to be with me. For my sake, he would not take over his father's position.
It would be a lie to say that I am not impressed. As a boyfriend, Lu Xiaohong is impeccable.
But I always feel that there is something inexplicable between me and Lu Xiaohong, like moonlight, which can be seen but cannot be touched.
Lu Xiaohong slowly let go of my hand.
"It's very late. I went back to sleep first. I made an appointment with Professor He. I have to send my father to the hospital for a checkup early tomorrow morning." I stood up and said softly: "You should also go to bed early."
The heartless words were spoken by myself, but the moment he let go of my hand, I felt a dull pain in my heart.
"Ling'er, I can't accompany you and Uncle Xiao to the hospital tomorrow. I received a notice from above that I have to go to Kyoto early tomorrow morning." Lu Xiaohong's hoarse voice sounded behind me.
I stopped and didn't look back at him. My throat seemed to be strangled, and I couldn't make a sound for a while.
Lu Xiaohong behind him was also quiet and did not make any sound.
"Be safe on the road, don't worry about my father's medical treatment, and Dongzi and the others." I finally found my voice.
As soon as I finished speaking, tears also flowed out. I didn’t even know what I was feeling sad about.
Lu Xiaohong didn't speak anymore, and I didn't look back, but I could feel his eyes falling on me.
"Ling'er, when I come back from Kyoto, let's talk about our affairs, okay?" Lu Xiaohong said.
I nodded slightly, raised my feet and ran towards the house.
Sean saw me walking back and followed me quickly.
I ran back to the bedroom in one breath, lay down on the bed, buried my head in the pillow, and let tears pour out.
My mood was so low that it felt like black, depressing water could flow out of my whole body.
Sean gently leaned his head over and cupped my face.
As if I had found a life-saving straw, I turned over and hugged Sean's neck, burying my head in his soft hair, letting my tears wet his hair bit by bit.
It wasn’t that I was complaining for nothing. The moment Lu Xiaohong let go of my hand, I suddenly saw clearly the thoughts I had hidden in my heart that I didn’t want to face.
Since I was a child, I have been regarded as an unlucky person. Except for my fourth uncle and my grandpa's family, few people treat me well.
I am more afraid of losing than gaining.
Whether it's my father's love for my mother, Xia Xiaobei's passion for Gu Xiwen, or Dongzi and Lian Ruowei's flirting, there is nothing between me and Lu Xiaohong.
Our relationship is too bland, so bland that it makes people feel unreal.
Compared with Li Yueyue's determination and Long San's no-turn-back attitude, my love for Lu Xiaohong seems too pale.
Except for the hurried meeting and departure in Cuilongshan, Lu Xiaohong and I only got along for half a year. We seemed to come together naturally and hold hands naturally. Everything seemed so natural and so incredible.
Lu Xiaohong and I are together because of Li Yueyue and Long San, but we are separated by Li Yueyue and Long San.
I know clearly that I am not Li Yueyue, nor am I Long San. I am not as lively and cheerful as Li Yueyue, nor am I as free and unrestrained as Long San.
No matter what I do, I always like to think wildly, am not good at talking, and don’t know how to deal with people.
I want to do everything well, but I always can't do anything well.
I'm not cute like this.
After hearing my father talk about the twists and turns between me and Lu Xiaohong, I felt more and more that it was not me that he fell in love with, but Li Yueyue and Long San in my memory.
This makes me feel dangerous, and I feel that our relationship is like a fortress built on the beach. I don’t know when the big waves will hit, and the sand castle will be taken away by the waves, leaving not even a grain of sand left.
Maybe it was because I was so tired these days, but at some point, I fell asleep with my arms around Sean's neck.
When I opened my eyes, it was already bright. I forgot to close the window glass before going to bed last night. The breeze gently blew the gauze curtain of the bay window, swaying gently like water waves.
Sean didn't know when he fell back on the floor.
Hearing my movement, Sean opened his eyes and looked at me with his dark, moist eyes. When he saw me opening my eyes, he stood up and walked to the bed, leaned over and licked my face.
I rubbed Sean's head, took my phone and looked at the time. I found that it was already half past six, so I quickly got up and washed up.
When I looked in the mirror, I saw that my eyes were a little red and swollen, but fortunately they were not severe. I used my palms to gather some qi and apply it on my eyes, and it was no longer visible.
After cleaning myself up, I went downstairs and saw that Luo Yue had already prepared breakfast. Everyone had already gotten up and was eating breakfast around the table.
Lu Xiaohong was not seen.
"Daughter, you're up, come and try the xiaolongbao made by Luo Yue, it's delicious!" Dad waved to me and pulled the drawer of xiaolongbao originally placed in front of Hao Jingde in front of him with his arms.
Protect him and make a gesture so that no one can fight against him.
"Okay!" I walked over and sat next to my father. I glanced at Luo Yue with some embarrassment and said, "Everyone is up and why don't you call me."
"Brother Lu told me when he left in the morning that you slept late last night and asked me not to call you too early." Luo Yue said with a smile.
"When did he leave?" I asked casually.
"He set off around five o'clock. He drove there by himself. He asked me to tell you that he would be back in five days at most!" Luo Yue smiled and winked at me, with a somewhat ambiguous smile on her face.
I pretended to say "hmm" unintentionally, lowered my head and started eating breakfast.
Dad quickly pushed the basket of xiaolongbao that he snatched from Hao Jingde in front of me as if it were a treasure.
After breakfast, it was already 7:30, and the appointment time with Professor He was at 8:30. Qian Zhiqi was also worried about Xu Wenying's health and wanted to take her to the hospital for a thorough examination.
Fortunately, there are two cars in the garage, enough for all of us to go to the hospital.
Unexpectedly, in the hospital, I met a friend from many years ago. This chapter has been completed!