Today is the third day after the injury. My knee is swollen to the most uncomfortable level. I can’t think about the plot at all, so let’s talk about something else today.
If the update is discontinued next, I will talk about some messy things instead, so that readers who click on it will gain something...
The first thing I want to talk about is how I got into coding.
Many people on Zhihu, Weibo and private messages ask if the author needs talent.
In fact, I think it is necessary. This talent is not innate, but is determined by the environment in which you grow up.
When I was a child, my father was a doctor in a military hospital and my mother was a nurse. Because they had to be on duty, they often locked me at home alone.
The most outrageous thing is that they locked me up and even hid the cable TV cable.
There were no computers at that time, so the only entertainment was reading alone.
When I was a child, my favorite was Harry Potter, because it was the first story that allowed me to immerse myself in a certain world.
I also want to write such an immersive story, but I guess it will be difficult.
Later, the relationship between my parents broke up, and they would have a small quarrel every three days, and a big quarrel every five days. Sometimes the whole family would go for a walk, and they would suddenly say, "If I don't divorce you tomorrow, I will be your grandson."
Then I went home in anger, and I could only shut up and follow behind, not daring to speak.
These two are not people with high emotional intelligence. When others make them angry, they often take it out on me.
The experience during that period made me very emotionally sensitive, and I was cautious not to provoke anyone.
Later, my father gambled, and the family became even more nervous.
I was very autistic at that time and wanted to escape reality, so I would become addicted to playing games and reading novels.
It's the kind of extreme addiction where you don't care about anything.
But at that time, I couldn’t afford to go to an Internet cafe with only dime pocket money on a Friday, so I could only read books with my classmates.
From the first year of junior high school to the second year of high school, during the five years, I basically didn’t attend a single class, and all I did was read novels.
The first online novel I read was Zichuan, which I rented from the same table, and then there were the Legend of Xiaobing, The Story of Grace, and many more.
It was very popular at that time and almost everyone had seen it.
When I entered high school and became a boarder, and had living expenses, I started renting and buying books by myself, and then bought a martial arts version of Legend of the Ancients every half month.
I was still very poor in high school, with living expenses of 200 yuan a month. I spent money on reading, and I had to save money on food.
I, Xu Daoming, and Li Junjie, three fellow sufferers, only have to pay 1 yuan and 50 cents a day for food. We eat pickles and drink porridge in the cafeteria, which costs 50 cents a bowl but with unlimited refills.
I didn't feel that it was very painful at that time. Anyway, I came here in a daze and read novels when I had time.
So I will eventually enter the industry. From two aspects, on the one hand, the strange childhood experience gave me some empathy, and on the other hand, I read a lot of online articles, which can be regarded as completing the basic accumulation.
As for how I finally started writing by coincidence, that is another story.
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During the summer vacation before my senior year of high school, when I came home for vacation, my mother told me that my father had committed suicide.
I was confused and didn't feel anything at all. I just didn't know how to respond to this matter, so I didn't cry or anything.
At that time, because of his gambling, the house and the car were sold. I had saved 4,500 in New Year's money for more than ten years, and the funds I planned to use to fly away and leave this home were gone...
They were all used to pay off debts.
So when I heard the news, I didn’t know whether it was good news or bad news...
Then my mother said: suicide attempt.
I:……
However, I talk about this matter lightly now, and I don’t feel anything at all. At that time, I was still a little stimulated.
So I started studying hard in my senior year of high school.
Many people have seen the following story on Zhihu, sleeping four and a half hours a day.
I go back to the dormitory around 9pm, and do math problems with a flashlight under the quilt until 12pm.
I got up at 4:30 in the morning and memorized history and politics under the street lights.
Anyway, during that time, I was completely self-disciplined and didn’t read any novels.
When I entered the class in the third year of high school, I was ranked third from the bottom in the grade. There were more than 2,500 students in the grade. When I took the college entrance examination, there were 122 students and I scored 535, which was not bad.
My class teacher, Shi Qingyan, persuaded me to repeat the studies. He said that if I could study like this in one year, I wouldn’t be able to take the Tsinghua University entrance examination after another year of study.
But I feel that my learning talent is really not that good, and it’s basically over, so I didn’t waste time.
After the college entrance examination, I went to Luoyang to set up a stall in Zhouwangcheng Square as a tutor, saying that I could teach high school students a quick learning method. However, I stalled for five days and didn’t receive a single order, so I went home dejected.
The reality is so cruel.
I want to tell my readers this little episode that even if you, like me, didn’t study hard before your senior year of high school, it’s not too late to work hard for a year.
These experiences should be the reason why I like to write about the suffering and paranoia of small people.
I am such a small person, I have experienced some things, and I am willing to risk my life.
So someone asked me, if I could travel back in time to the first sequence of stories, who would I want to be?
I usually say Chen Wudi because everyone is so familiar with this character.
I'm afraid that if I say something else, you won't know or remember it.
But if asked in private, I would say that I want to be Zhang Yuge, and nothing else, I just think he is awesome.
That’s all for today, my legs are starting to hurt again.