Lin Weinan was wearing a white hospital gown, with an oxygen tube in his nose, his eyes were empty and numb, and he looked at the ceiling as pale as white paper with a numb face.
He is twenty years old, a sophomore at Yue Province 985 Polytechnic University. He is 1.82 meters tall, a member of the basketball team, and has a girlfriend who is pretty and has a gentle personality.
Now, he has an additional label - lung cancer is in the advanced stage and has metastasized widely.
The doctor said there was no point in surgery.
And the effect of radiotherapy and chemotherapy on him was not obvious.
Although his parents always wanted to hide it from him.
But after secretly overhearing the doctor's instructions, he already knew that his time was running out.
Along with the countdown to life, there is also the pain that penetrates into the bone marrow, and the unstoppable cough that is about to cough up the lungs.
And that suffocating feeling.
Once again, he was choked with thick phlegm in his trachea and unable to breathe. If he hadn't coughed it up at the last moment, he would have died long ago.
But coughing it out is of no use, it’s just a matter of a few more days or a few days later.
Sometimes, Lin Weinan thought that he would just die like this, why should he suffer such torture?
But sometimes, he was afraid of dying like this.
He is only nineteen years old.
He would draw a line about the best period of other people's lives.
He was really unwilling.
But there is no use being unwilling.
Cancer, or lung cancer, a terminal disease in the world!
Lin Weinan knew that his family had given everything they had to him.
He tilted his head slightly and saw his old father, who was very tired and dozing next to him.
In Lin Weinan's impression, his father was very young, with black hair, a serious smile, and always scolded him.
When he was rebellious, he often talked back to him.
But now, the father who was once young in his memory had a lot of gray hair unknowingly growing out of his head, and many wrinkles appeared on his face.
Even when he was dozing off, his brows were furrowed.
Because Lin Weinan almost choked to death last time.
Lin Weinan's father watched over him from morning to night.
I sleep for less than three hours every day.
He has been living like this for two weeks.
Lin Weinan was afraid that before he died, his father would die first.
He told him many times to rest, but Lin Weinan's father always said yes, and when Lin Weinan woke up in the middle of the night, he could see his concerned eyes.
When he thought of this, Lin Weinan's eyes couldn't help but flow down.
"Can't cry!"
Lin Weinan forced himself not to cry.
Because if his mother sees it, she will cry even harder.
Although Lin Weinan knew that behind the scenes he couldn't see, his mother who liked to joke with him and had a great sense of humor often cried.
She is not here now.
Either he went to get food or he humbled himself and borrowed money.
"It's better to die! I won't drag others down!" When Lin Weinan thought of this, he felt determined to die again.
It's a pity. Who does his good girlfriend Xu Huana wear as a wedding dress?
After he was diagnosed with cancer, he ruthlessly told Xu Huana that he had made his neighbor's daughter pregnant in his hometown and now he had to go back to deal with it.
Xu Huana slapped Lin Weinan and left crying.
Lin Weinan was ruthless enough to delete her WeChat account and blocked her phone number.
"She should hate me very much! It's okay to hate me! That's good! Maybe many years after I die, she will occasionally think of me and think of me as a [cheating] person. That's good." Lin Weinan was weak.
I thought to myself, with a wry smile on my face, and suddenly I couldn't stop coughing violently, "Cough cough cough cough..."
The violent coughing sound woke up Lin Weinan's father.
His eyes hadn't been opened yet, but he had already stood up, leaned towards him, and muttered, "Nanzi, what's wrong?"
At this time, Lin Weinan's father opened his eyes just a slit.
Seeing this scene, Lin Weinan felt a little sad. He suppressed his cough and said as calmly as possible, "It's okay...cough cough cough cough..."
Before he finished speaking, there was another continuous coughing sound.
Lin Weinan's father quickly patted his back to make him feel as comfortable as possible.
A figure rushed in from outside the room.
It was Lin Weinan's mother, whose hair was oily and haggard. Looking at Lin Weinan's current state, she couldn't stop her tears from falling again.
She loves to cry now, not like she used to laugh.
Lin Weinan coughed for a while and then managed to recover.
The oxygen tube continued to deliver pure oxygen to his respiratory system, which made him feel slightly better.
He said to his parents, "I'm fine, you don't have to worry."
Lin Weinan's parents didn't look good, but they still said, "That's good. That's good!"
Is it really good?
At this moment, a doctor in a white coat walked in from the door.
Lin Weinan's family all know him, and he is his attending doctor.
Next to the doctor, there was a middle-aged woman also wearing a white coat.
Lin Weinan's attending doctor was heard saying to the family, "That's it."
"The person next to me is a researcher from [Xuanhu Medical Technology Company]."
"Their company has developed a broad-spectrum anti-cancer drug, which is now undergoing clinical trials. It can effectively inhibit the replication and growth of cancer cells and cause them to wither. However, clinical verification is still needed."
"They came here this time to ask you if you want to participate in this clinical trial? Clinical trials have certain risks."
"How is this clinical experiment done? Doctor, we don't understand either. Can you introduce it to us?" Lin Weinan's parents looked at each other, their eyes full of doubts and worries, and Lin's father asked.
"This kind of clinical trial will recruit experimenters, that is, cancer patients who meet their conditions. These cancer patients will be divided into two groups, one group will take experimental drugs, and the other group will take placebo drugs." Lin Weinan's attending physician
said.
"What are placebo drugs?" Mother Lin asked.
"It's just drugs like vitamins that have no effect on cancer." Lin Weinan's attending doctor said.
"Since it's an experiment, why do we still need to take these useless drugs? Isn't this harmful to people?" Mother Lin said with an unhappy face.
"This is for clinical experimental comparison." Lin Weinan's attending doctor said with a wry smile.
Father Lin, Mother Lin, and Lin Weinan were all silent after hearing this.
When Lin Weinan's attending doctor saw this, he thought it would be better to persuade him. He sighed secretly and said, "Mr. Lin, Mrs. Lin, you should know that in this situation, there is nothing we can do."
"This broad-spectrum anti-cancer drug developed by Xuanhu Medical Technology Company has shown very good results in animal experiments. If you want to give it a try, you can join it. Maybe, maybe, there will be a glimmer of hope." Lin Weinan's attending doctor said.