It would be better to say that Ning Feng was asking himself questions.
【Depravity, what exactly is it?】
This problem has been brewing in Ning Feng's mind for a long time.
It has always been a confusion that he deliberately wanted to avoid, but could not completely resolve.
Does Ning Feng know everything?
no.
Even if he is good at using words to avoid topics, even if he is used to disguise his inner feelings with a changeable appearance, even if he behaves unwaveringly in front of Jiang Wan.
Is he really unafraid of falling?
Fear comes from the unknown.
But Ning Feng knew very little about corruption.
His current strength, his vision, and his environment all limit him.
Ning Feng is not an omniscient and omnipotent person.
He is human.
Is a living person.
Ning Feng is not a perfect moral model, he has various shortcomings.
He will be angry.
He is not always a nice guy, he will choose to fight back when faced with criticism and threats.
And it's not a reciprocal counterattack, but a redoubled one, striving to make the other party retaliate severely and painfully.
He will be greedy.
Although I understand the abyss of greed, I have been cautiously walking on the edge of falling.
Who is responsible for the current dilemma between the two women?
Is it fate?
No, it's him.
It was Ning Feng's own ugly possessiveness that caused all of this.
As long as they clearly cut off from one of them, the two proud and outstanding women will not be entangled anymore.
He knew what to do best, but he didn't want to.
He doesn't want to let go.
He will be afraid.
There is nothing to hide, he is afraid of death and loss.
Even more than death, he is more afraid of losing everything he has now.
He is more afraid of falling.
It's not that I'm afraid that others will fall, but that I'm afraid that I will embark on that path.
Was he really unaware of the changes in himself?
No, Ning Feng knew, but he didn't bring it up.
He is changing.
He became more and more familiar with killing, and even treated the death of others with increasing contempt.
It's just death.
It's just blood.
Even started to long for...
He gradually transformed into an inhuman existence.
And he was aware of such changes, but he couldn't resist.
He needs this power.
Even if this power comes from the abyss.
And all he can do is resist silently and stick to his heart.
Now he is a half-succubus, but he will not really step into that abyss.
He will always be him.
At least, that's what Ning Feng firmly believes.
But if one day, Ning Feng in the future makes a completely different choice than he does now...
So is he still the same person?
he does not know.
Ning Feng has been thinking.
During this period of time, he experienced many things.
I also saw all kinds of [depravity].
But the more he saw, the more confused he became.
But what is true depravity?
Is it only a traitor like Li Tianming who surrendered to the gods?
He betrayed the expectations of others and selfishly chose the most despicable path.
But does he really have nothing to shine at all?
Are all fallen people obsessed with resurrecting their families?
Perhaps, but at least in this regard, his depravity was not pure enough.
Is that physical uncleanness?
The combination with Jiang Wan allowed Ning Feng to meet the conditions for advancement.
The impact on thinking can also be regarded as a kind of degeneration.
But, is this necessarily set in stone?
Encounter the remaining legendary angel in the Hall of Judges...
His body has long since perished, his soul has long been impure, and even existence itself can become a monster.
But has he fallen?
Ning Feng doesn't think so.
Until the end, the angel still maintained himself.
He died as an angel.
The stubborn belief and the firm will in his heart kept the angel from giving up and kept fighting.
He never betrayed anyone, and he never fell.
And with such positive examples, there are also negative cases.
Also in the trial court, Ning Feng saw a complete degenerate - [Lust]
There was only one remaining soul, but she felt like a pure plague to Ning Feng.
Evil, corruption, darkness...
Her depravity was so complete that Ning Feng finally felt relieved.
This is what a fallen person in my impression should look like.
Look, this is the real degenerate!
How pure!
Then why did you still show such a relieved expression at the end?
Why shed such tears?
Why should you thank me?
It seems... your depravity is not pure enough either.
The more he came into contact with each of these things, the more confused Ning Feng became.
But at least one thing is certain.
[Depravity] This thing is disgraceful and negative.
Everyone is resisting.
Then, just when he continued to suppress the doubts in his heart and planned to think slowly...
Margaret gave Ning Feng a head-on blow.
Severely crush his arrogance.
【I don’t need anyone to save me!】
【I will not fall either!】
She resisted Ning Feng's well-intentioned "help".
Margaret saw that as resisting corruption.
So...am I a symbol of depravity?
Ning Feng didn't understand.
Fell into deep confusion.
And the woman who usually likes to be a teacher and likes to instill some strange ideas while explaining is not around either.
So in confusion, Ning Feng turned his attention to Xilin.
He doesn't mind showing her his confusion, just like what he said before, he is willing to live more truthfully in front of her.
But in fact, Ning Feng didn't hold out much hope.
He didn't think he could get the answer.
This request for help can actually be seen as a sign of weakness.
Xilin has always felt that Ning Feng is a gentle and gentle person who is suitable to talk to.
A haven that is good at soothing the soul.
At this moment, he didn't want to think about anything, he just wanted to seek a moment of peace with her.
Never mind his depravity.
It doesn’t matter whether he saves or not.
Go to hell.
He didn't want to think about those things anymore.
"Degenerate? This question is really sudden."
Xilin's fingers that stopped because of Ning Feng's question continued to knead after four or five seconds, pressing between his eyebrows.
He felt the difference in Ning Feng's mood, but he did not ask why, but spoke softly:
"The definition of this kind of thing is too broad, and I can't give you an answer."
Sure enough, Shirin had no way to explain.
"Really? That's true..."
He didn't feel disappointed, but felt relieved in his heart. Ning Feng opened his eyes and slowly closed them after looking at Shilin.
"This issue still needs to be clarified later..."
It seems that you can only rely on yourself to think.
However, Ning Feng also miscalculated.
Because, after thinking for a while, Shirin gave another answer.
Her answer.
"However, I can talk about other things, which may be helpful to your thinking."
Her face was stained with a little pink, but she did not look away, but looked down at Ning Feng, who had her eyes closed.
"do you know?"
"The me now is very different from the me I used to be."
Lost in memories, Shirin recalled the long time of nearly three hundred years that she had experienced.
"When I was young, I was a quiet child and didn't want to play with other people."
"Afterwards, my relatives left me very early, and their departure made me become more introverted."
He even hid by himself and practiced silently...
Someone said: "Those who live in isolation are either wild beasts or gods."
Shireen is neither.
She is just simply afraid of strangers.
"Later I felt that this was not enough, and gradually I got in touch with other people, and there was some improvement."
At least, although I'm not good at it in my heart, I don't see any abnormality in appearance.
It is enough to be able to cope with most situations.
Shireen prefers an empty library to a crowd, where she can calm down more.
Having said this, she gently poked Ning Feng's cheek with her finger.
"For me, before I met you, I never thought that I would become what I am now."
"To care so much about a person, a man...a man younger than myself."
A man who quickly breaks into his heart and then acts recklessly, leaving a deep impression and unwilling to leave.
Thinking of that unreliable prophecy, Shirin's face had a strange expression.
【"You will fall hopelessly in love with a man who is weaker than you."】
Now, is it considered accomplished?
Have you reached the point of no return?
Shireen doesn't know, but she can still figure out her own heart.
She doesn't want to lose him.
Whether it is the commandments of elves or the reserve of immortality, they are all false.
What's the reason?
Are there any other possibilities?
Shirin's heart told her clearly:
【You, like him.】
There is no other reason.
With a gentle smile and no confusion, Shilin's fingertips slid down Ning Feng's cheek and gently touched the tip of her nose.
Shirin smiled somewhat self-deprecatingly and continued:
"I'm not making fun of myself. I used to be very reluctant to interact with others."
"I don't like either eyes or words, let alone physical contact."
"I actually hate the kind of women who can easily be hugged and hugged, and then their hands can be relaxed."
No, you're not...
Ning Feng opened his eyes, but could only see darkness.
"I……"
Xilin covered Ning Feng's eyes with her hands.
"But now, it doesn't matter, because I did become that woman."
"Because I really do like you."
Blocking his sight, Shireen finally said those words.
No more escaping.
While blocking Ning Feng's sight, she raised her hand to pull up the hair hanging down by her ears.
"Look, if we say this is depravity..."
Shireen doesn't have a definition of depravity, but she has her own answer.
Shirin chuckled lightly, with a shy look on her face, but no more hesitation.
She slowly bent down and kissed Ning Feng's lips gently.