Hearing Karasawa Asuka's voice, Fisher was slightly stunned and did not respond for a moment.
He thought that Asuka Karasawa suddenly became extremely smart, or was as sensitive as Heller, and thus noticed the clues on her body.
But thinking about it carefully, he felt that this was not the case.
So, he asked Karasawa Asuka,
"...Did Heller tell you that?"
Karasawa Asuka opened her mouth and replied,
"Did the Angel of Hell know about it before?"
"Um."
"It wasn't the Angel of Hell who told me, it was Margaret who told me. She said that the loom can see the existence of people in this world, but it can only not see the existence of transferred people, because transferred people are not affected by
Bound by any rules. In the loom, she saw Teacher Fisher. Maybe, she wanted to make me guard against Teacher Fisher; maybe, she wanted to use this as a foreshadowing, so that later, I and I
The chance of her leaving together will be greater..."
"So that's what happened... But even so, you still didn't leave with her in the end."
"yes..."
In fact, the more he talked with Karasawa Asuka, the more Fisher felt that she might already know something about the current situation. It might be what Mikhail told her before, or it might be something she guessed by herself.
But no matter what, Fisher felt that the next words in his mouth were a little difficult to say.
Unexpectedly, at this moment, she was the first to speak.
"Is Mr. Fisher going back to a place far away?"
"A little."
"Can we meet after that?"
"Maybe...after a long, long time."
For Fisher, this was the most affirmative answer. However, until modern times, Fisher had not found where the missing Magic Minister had gone.
The longer she stayed in the past, the more Fisher hoped that in the future she would have returned to her own world.
At this moment, how could Asuka Karasawa, who has always been tactful and reserved, fail to understand Fisher's hidden meaning?
She opened her mouth, and the words in her mouth kept brewing.
The sea breeze in front of her eyes blurred the words she was about to say. What she probably wanted to say to Fisher was:
"Teacher Fisher, can you take me with you?"
But for some reason, the words that came out of his mouth were:
"What about Angel Hell? Will she go with Mr. Fisher?"
"She...won't."
Fisher's response buried what Karasawa Asuka originally wanted to ask. Since even the Angel of Hell couldn't leave with Teacher Fisher, let alone herself?
She didn't want to ask a question that she already knew the answer to, so she suddenly hugged her knees tightly and said,
"This...ah..."
The atmosphere at this moment stagnated for a moment, but soon Fisher took up the conversation again,
"After leaving the sanctuary, I will return to the mortal world to find you. Soon, this world will become unsafe for you. Several demigods have issued a pursuit order for those who have transferred, whether it is
Anyone who transfers will become an enemy of the mythical species, which is why Michael wants to pull Mikhail up from the mortal world."
Karasawa Asuka leaned her cheek against the cardinal and asked,
"But Teacher Fisher will have to leave sooner or later, right?"
"Well, after you get settled."
She buried her head silently on the cardinal, letting the waterfall of black hair flow down, making her expression invisible in the moonlight.
"Mr. Fisher... just leave. I'm alone, that's fine."
"...Are you sure, Asuka?"
"Um."
She nodded dully, then raised her head again and said softly,
"I felt very sad when I was forced to separate from Teacher Fisher. If I meet Teacher Fisher again before the destined separation, I... I may really be reluctant to let go. By then, even if it costs me
If Teacher Scheer wants to leave, he may not be able to leave either."
Fisher was a little dumbfounded and asked,
"Really? What are you going to do?"
"Knock Teacher Fisher unconscious before tying him up?"
"..."
It's such a simple and monotonous approach. Is there something wrong with my own teaching methods? Why do I always teach students with problems in this aspect?
Well, of course this was a joke, because after asking this question, feeling Fisher's silence, Asuka Karasawa over there chuckled.
Unfortunately, Fisher, who was far away in the sanctuary at the moment, could not see her expression and could only hear her laughter.
He unconsciously raised the corners of his mouth a little, but the arc was a little heavy. He suddenly asked,
"Asuka, do you regret it?"
"Regret? Regret what?"
"At that time, I didn't leave with Margaret..."
"How come, Teacher Fisher,"
Karasawa Asuka smiled and said to Fisher,
"I feel that although it is true that Margaret wants to take me with her, her feelings for me are false; on the contrary, Mr. Fisher, your feelings for me are true...
So, even so, I still don’t feel any regrets. She wants to use your lives, Mr. Fisher, as a sacrifice and as a bridge to return to our world, and I can’t accept this.”
"but..."
"I know, Mr. Fisher. I've said it before, it really doesn't matter if I'm alone. The trick that Mr. Fisher taught me before was to use multiple ring heads put together. I tried it many times afterwards.
I succeed every time. I have a lot of this kind of magic in my body, so that even if ordinary angels and elves encounter me, there is nothing they can do. Moreover, the rules of this world have no effect on me, and even the loom cannot detect me.
It doesn't matter as long as I hide..."
"Asuka..."
"And Mr. Gelsemium seems to be fine. Mr. Mihayiner said that the cardinal he sent back to find him saw Gelsemium and the wife he longed for together, but his wife was beaten down; and Mihayin
Mr. Er is taken care of by a powerful angel like Archangel Michael, and he will be safe in the future, so it really doesn’t matter..."
"Asuka."
"And I...hey, Mr. Fisher, are you calling me?"
"...Do you still want to lie to yourself, Asuka?"
"Why?"
"Really, doesn't it matter?"
On the cold cardinal, drops of burning tears had fallen down its surface.
Looking up through the moonlight, the young, only seventeen-year-old female high school student turned out to have already burst into tears.
She kept her smile and bright expression, and even her tone was impeccable, just like she had done in front of her father and mother countless times in the past.
Even if she was kidnapped and jumped off a building, even if she was suffering from the torture of mental illness, she could deceive everyone around her without any flaws, and it should be the same this time.
It is obvious that the Cardinal cannot convey any images, and Teacher Fisher cannot see himself either.
but why...
"Why...Mr. Fisher..."
The sound of her patience was so subtle, maybe until this moment, there were some flaws in her voice.
And Fisher over there paused for a moment, with a "Sure enough" expression on his face.
"I just feel that you will be very sad now. You are always good at escaping, and I always find this, right? Otherwise, when you first came to this world, that night, I wouldn't have discovered that you were taking
Carving words on the wall with my knife...
"So, it really doesn't matter, Asuka?"
Karasawa Asuka's eyes became more and more hazy. Maybe she had been waiting for someone, even if it was anyone who would expose her lies, as long as it was not herself.
But she had never been in her mother's eyes, and her peace of mind made her feel that this was fine; but her father loved her so much, and his devotion to the Buddha was too absolute, how could he be tortured again?
She finally cried with red eyes, and even her voice made her sad and confused. She shouted to the cardinal in her arms and Teacher Fisher in the sanctuary,
"It does matter...wuwuwu...it does matter..."
"I don't want to be alone...I'm really scared...I want to go home...I don't want to be hunted down for no reason!"
"I don't want Mr. Fisher to be with the Angel of Hell, I also want... I want to be braver and tell Mr. Fisher earlier that I like you too... because... because this year I already
I'm eighteen years old and may be a bit naive, but I really think so..."
"I also want to be like other people...like Mr. Gelsemium, who has a wife he misses...like Mr. Michael, who has the cherished angel Michael...I am really envious.
..I want Teacher Fisher to take me with me and leave with me..."
She pressed her forehead firmly against the cardinal, and the enthusiasm bursting out at this moment seemed to lift the original coldness. She just said this to Fisher, word by word, as if she had been enduring it for a long time,
"I know... I know that sometimes I am really stupid... Sometimes I can't understand many things, and I will cause trouble to everyone... I know that I can't read what Teacher Fisher is saying a lot of times.
No matter what, I can't be as mature and charming as the Angel of Hell..."
"I really don't want to let go...even if it's like the Angel of Hell...or anyone else, I don't want to give up...because...because, after coming to this world, I really feel
A little bit of happiness..."
Among the waves and flowers, her fingers and toes clenched hard into the sand, using the earth as the support for her cathartic courage...
"But...but..."
"But... I know that many things can't be done just how I think... I can't... If I told myself that nothing mattered before, I was deceiving myself... Could it be that now?
Tell yourself...I can get whatever I want, doesn't this mean I'm deceiving myself?"
"I can't...because of my feelings for Teacher Fisher, because...because of my uneasiness, let Teacher Fisher stay in a place that doesn't belong to you like this!"
"If this goes on, even if Teacher Fisher cares about me... and stays by my side very much, every minute, every second, every day, every month... if this goes on... ugh.
..I will really blame myself..."
Fisher's eyes in the distance moved slightly. Perhaps until this moment, he could barely notice the gentle soul of Asuka Karasawa hidden in her body.
Many times, the gentler and more sensible people are, the less obvious they are.
When you stay by her side, over time, you will become accustomed to her silent dedication.
Because I am not used to expressing my emotions, everything I experience is regarded as smooth sailing; because I do not know how to express my emotions, everything I give is taken for granted.
Perhaps the more crying a child is, the more likely he is to be fed, because with this as his impression, he will be happy whenever one of his few advantages is discovered; and the more honest and well-behaved a child is, the more helpless he will be.
, because with this as the foundation of his impression, he will become frustrated whenever one of the few shortcomings is discovered.
"Asuka..."
At this moment, Fisher couldn't even interrupt if he wanted to. This originally extremely smart and sensitive girl actually knew everything he wanted to say.
"Besides, Teacher Fisher also said it... we will always have a chance to meet again... at that time, there won't be so much guilt and so many shackles... At that time,
I have become very mature...so, even if it is the Angel of Hell, I will defeat her...I will not let her go..."
Asuka Karasawa covered her eyes, pressing them like a spring, trying to stop the tears from flowing down.
"Mr. Fisher... My past was not happy... My family was not complete... I have discovered that these are destined and cannot be changed... If I want to make up for it, I can only make up for it in the next life.
..Only in the next life, can I have a harmonious pair of parents who love each other..."
This is the cruel truth that Margaret herself told that day.
She told Karasawa Asuka so honestly that the answer she pursued so hard, even deceiving herself for so long, and even being betrayed, was that she wanted to pursue it.
She is no longer anyone's child except her mother who originally didn't love her.
"But... I still have other things that I can... pursue... These are not destined by God, nor can others help me..."
"Mr. Fisher taught me real magic and walked this precious journey with me, but in the next journey, I will really be the only one..."
At this moment, the thinnest bird in the nest shakily walked to the edge of the nest, stuck out his head, and looked at the "high cliff" below the nest with his eyes.
It is such a high and dangerous world!
It is such a beautiful and vibrant road!
The thin bird that had lost its original care finally looked back at the nest that was staring at her coldly, perhaps with hesitation in its eyes.
Of course she is faced with a choice: should she continue to stay in this nest that has never been gentle and beg for food from others who originally did not love her, or should she take risks and fly high into the future or be destroyed?
The thin bird, after looking back over and over again and pausing for a moment, finally declined the temptation of the nest, spread its wings, and flew out of the nest with great difficulty.
Staring at the dark night sky and accompanied by the eternal waves lapping at the shore, Asuka Karasawa finally raised her head with tears streaming down her face.
She looked up at the stars, then painfully but decisively squeezed out a warm smile.
she said,
"Teacher Fisher, in the future, our paths may cross again."
In the nest, the rest of the loved chicks scrambled to poke their heads out, hoping to see the weakest bird smashed to pieces and dying without a burial place.
But what caught his eye was her back, stumbling and flying further and further away.