On the second floor of Hellaire's residence, at the end of the library full of bookshelves, Fisher was leaning on the soft leather chair that perhaps Hellyer had once sat on. His back was leaning on the cushion behind him, and his head was slightly raised.
He looked at the ceiling, which looked a little dark because the light from the first floor had not spread upward.
On the table where Hellel once used to read books, but now it was empty except for a long burning candle, the Soul Completion Manual was spread out and fell to the last part that was thick at the front and thin at the back, which meant that he
I have almost finished reading everything Caleb Uzi has left.
But at this moment, the words on the page seemed to have grown legs and could not enter his eyes. Perhaps he was not reading at all but was looking at the page and thinking about other things.
Yes, he was reviewing his relationship with Heller.
Maybe he himself knew well that he did have feelings for Heller, but because he knew too little about the other person, he didn't know the details like he did with other ladies, which caused doubts and uneasiness.
Even with Infinite Power itself, Renee, the reincarnation of the Mother Goddess, Fisher has a general understanding of her situation and her character, because they have known her for a long time, and because they have had intimate conversations with her.
But only Heller seemed to have experienced so much, but Fisher still couldn't see or touch her clearly, just like she was very close to him but could never touch her.
He didn't know why she fell in love with him, but what he saw when he came here were all her longings that he didn't know whether they were true or false.
This contradiction caused Fisher to struggle a little, and it finally broke out because of the deception he had discovered earlier.
"Tap tap tap"
It was at this time that there were footsteps on the stairs where Fisher had come here before. This seemed a bit abrupt in the silence of this place, causing Fisher to immediately open his eyes and look towards the end of the library.
The black mud of the soul that stretched out from his hand also retracted into his body little by little.
He looked at the stairs, and soon saw Eliog coming up from below. She also quickly looked at the bookshelves hidden in the darkness, and then focused on the figure sitting on the back of "Baimon"
Portrait of Fisher below.
She pursed her lips, as if she wanted to say something immediately, but in the end it turned into a yawn. After she said "ouch", she neither commented on the decoration of the second floor of Heller nor mentioned "
The name "Baimon" just asked Fisher,
"What are you doing here? It's so dark."
Fisher blinked, rubbed his temples, and quickly closed the soul completion manual. He sat up and said to Eliog,
"Just thinking about something."
In the darkness, Eliog's pupils as bright as fire snakes twisted slightly in her eyes. Then she glanced at the portrait of Helaire behind him and asked,
"Thinking about Bai Meng?"
"Nothing"
Fisher said this subconsciously. Of course, the instinct of a scumbag would not mention other women in front of other women, but after saying it, he realized that it was a lie, so the expression on his face also changed.
some changes
He was really thinking about Heller just now.
Eliog held his hands and just looked at Fisher in front of him without saying anything. When Fisher raised his eyes and saw the way she looked at him, he knew that her words had been seen through, and he could only smile helplessly.
,
"I am indeed thinking about her."
"What else can you consider? Aren't the words she just left down there just to your liking? Although I do have some prejudice against her because of her demonic temperament, even I have to confirm that what she did
It’s entirely possible that things are true.”
Eliog walked closer, her bare feet stepping lightly on the carpet on the second floor of Heller, making no sound like a cat. She also walked to where Fisher was sitting.
In front of the desk, "But it seems that you are still confused and entangled."
"I don't know either, but it shouldn't be considered confused or entangled."
"You don't know, you are just confused and entangled, Fisher."
Fisher opened his mouth, and then no longer refuted. He just leaned on the soft chair behind him again. After a moment of silence, he confessed to Eliog,
"I'm just a little confused."
"What are you wondering about?"
Eliog jumped up very gracelessly and sat on Hellel's desk. Anyway, there was nothing on it except a candle.
With the not-too-bright candlelight, Fisher easily saw the brighter fireball on her tail above the table. The fireball was flickering in the darkness. It seemed that her tail was causing trouble.
Fisher was still honest with Eliog. He thought for a moment and then said,
"Both you and Emhart have said before that Hrel noticed me because he had a special purpose for me, and that's why he put that mark on me, even though I verbally denied you before.
, but in fact, from the bottom of my heart, I really can't find a suitable reason to explain her special attention and affection for me. It seems that the affection comes out of thin air and does have some kind of basis that I don't know.
"The same is true for you. When I first met you, it had only been a few days, and even your rank was higher than that of ordinary humans. I really can't think of a reason for you to have an eighteenth rank.
The devil will give it to me for the first time ever
"I have seen the power of mythical species, and I know that you who have crossed the long river of time can easily do things that ordinary people can't imagine. That's why I suspect that everything I have experienced and the feelings I thought may have been fabricated and disguised.
That’s why I felt uneasy.”
Eliog listened quietly, then smiled and said,
"I'm a little surprised. The first thing is that you actually regard yourself as a human being. The other thing is that I always thought that people like you only care about possessions and don't care about why."
At the same time, her slender tail swept across Fisher's chest little by little with her smile. Fisher didn't reach out to pull it, but his eyes swayed little by little with the fireball in the darkness, "I didn't expect that when I saw it,
He looks like he doesn't care, but it turns out that Xiao Jiujiu is always hiding in his heart. Is this the male's pretense of being strong?"
Eliog caught the little artificial but real doubt that was finally revealed in his heart, but now that he had said it, there was no chance to take it back. He just smiled helplessly and continued to ask,
"What's wrong with me still thinking I'm human?"
"No, there's nothing wrong with it. It's actually a good thing."
Eliog retracted his tail and said, "Those who cross levels later, especially humans like you who rely on completing manuals to twist the rules, can easily forget their original intentions. Once they forget where they came from,
It will also become extremely confusing where to go. Therefore, generally people who have manuals are out-and-out lunatics and a scourge. Since I was born, I have seen too many and killed too many."
Fisher swallowed his saliva and suddenly remembered the first time he met Eliog in Old Jack's tavern. That creepy shiver turned out to be not an illusion, but Eliog's actual killing.
meaning.
"As for your other question, I don't know what Baimen thinks and why she treats you like this, because she is not essentially a devil. Although I regard her act of attaching a mark to you as a robbery from her own race.
, but this is just a part of the culture of the long dynasty. As an angel, it is still unclear whether she has been infected by our culture. But Fisher, as for the reason why I gave it to you for the first time, I will tell you now.
I can tell you."
Fisher was stunned for a moment, then looked up at Eliog, who was sitting on the table slightly higher than him. He watched her laziness recede little by little again, leaving only her original heroic face looking at him seriously.
Seems to be waiting for his answer.
Although the time spent with Eliog was short, her lazy and cat-like temperament still left a deep impression on Fisher, so when her expression was particularly serious at this moment, Fisher
Er was still a little unaccustomed to it, and even his sitting position subconsciously straightened up a bit, and he asked,
"When I asked you earlier, weren't you still unwilling to tell me?"
Eliog slapped his cheek, pouted and said,
"If you ask Baimeng the same question in person, she will definitely tell you the reason, but as for whether it is true or false, no one can guarantee it. I really didn't want to tell you directly before, because I have some
I don’t want to tell you about my considerations, and I don’t want to lie to you, but now that I have thought about it, I will tell you everything I have.”
"Did I do something during this period that changed your mind?"
"No, it's just that according to my original plan, I think it's better not to tell you than to tell you."
"I thought it was because of Heller."
"" Eliog blinked, and then added, "Oh, it's also because of her. It's really unpleasant to see her crushing me."
""
After that, Eliog did not yawn again, but just thought and hesitated for a long time. Then, a question was first thrown out as she began to explain the answer. She asked Fisher,
"Fisher, do you know why I like sleeping so much?"
"Because that's your nature?"
Like a kitten who doesn't get enough sleep.
Eliog shook her tail and her head, and just denied,
"This is not my nature, Fisher. On the contrary, my choice to sleep is the result of nurture.
"In fact, there is no fundamental difference between me, Sidi, and every demon except Baimen. He has his nature, and I have mine. He needs physical desire to eat, and I need
It is a 'fight', whether it is a fight caused by myself or others. My power will invisibly cause the existence next to me to fall into inevitable competition. Even my compatriots are not immune to this. I can
And can only draw a steady stream of strength and food from it (fallen nature)
"So, even when I am sleeping, as long as they pray to me, even if I don't respond, they will be affected by my power and kill each other, let alone when I appear in person long, long ago,
The embryonic form of authority has sprouted in my body, and I am only one step away from reaching the nineteenth level. I know that only a huge war will take me to this step. But I hate this, I hate my nature, I hate it.
This endless fight started because of me.
"Call me hypocritical or call me an excuse, but I am indeed like Sidi, hating this instinct that is as simple as eating and drinking for you humans."
Eliog looked at Fisher in front of her expressionlessly, and she said calmly,
"I didn't realize this when I was first born. Instead, I worked tirelessly to satisfy my nature as if my desires were insatiable. For this reason, I used to fight against the strong and the weak everywhere. I can do my best to
I went to the ground to defeat elves and angels, and I could also use weapons and skills to defeat humans who were far inferior to me. At that time, I was immersed in the pleasure of defeating others day and night, enjoying the humbleness of others who were far inferior to me, and using the blood of their failures
Wash away my victory”
Her words echoed in the quiet library, as if the armor and weapons that had been stored in her fortress for a long time were washed clean at this moment.
"Until I sank deeper and deeper in victory, and my strength became stronger and stronger. When I was enjoying everything in the world, praising my honorable name, and admitting that the happiness was not as good as mine, I suddenly discovered that my
Nature is twisting everything else that I didn’t intend to do.”
Eliog closed her eyes. At this point, Fisher felt a hint of indescribable regret in her words.
"Under the influence of my nature, everything around me was changing, and I didn't realize at the time that this was not what I wanted until my servant killed all the servants to prove her excellence.
My followers who wanted to prove whose sacrifice was the best slaughtered their wives, children and parents and brought them to the sacrificial altar, until men and women did not hesitate to mutilate their bodies in order to court love and cut off their flesh to prove that they were better than each other,
I just realized I was uncomfortable.
"When I saw all this, my heart immediately told me that this kind of bottomless, absolute competition was not what I wanted; but my body felt overwhelmed by the constant flow of depraved nature.
When I reach the point of inescapable happiness, my body demands more from me, expecting me to follow my nature and bring the fight to more innocent creatures."
The honorable name of the Demon God Eliog has resounded throughout the world in the past, especially in the era when the myths of the past have not died out and the world has not stopped turbulent. Such a powerful and aggressive existence is bound to have many followers, countless
of enemies.
But when she realized the evil consequences of her nature, the demon god who dominated war and warrior consciousness disappeared, and was replaced by a cat-like woman who had been unknown for a long time and could only sleep.
demon.
Perhaps to this day, she is still fighting against it, but because she has become accustomed to doing so, outsiders cannot appreciate her bloody and aggressive nature.
"I have a natural rejection of foreign objects, which will even cause foreign objects to dissolve on their own. This is the real source of my fight. When I realized this, I began to fight against it endlessly. I tried
I tried countless methods to no avail, but in the end I could only put my consciousness into a deep sleep, using unconscious sleep to fight against my nature and influence.
"In this way, as long as no one comes close, there will no longer be fights caused by me. Even if the mythical war breaks out, even if the mother goddess is angry and locks our entire family underground, I will never show my face again. Even when I was
I still felt lucky when it was sealed, because being passively blocked could protect my weak will.
"But nature is nature. I can endure it, but I must overcome the pain. The pain is indescribable and difficult to restrain. Even if I endure it again and again, the flames of fighting will still burst out in my heart and will destroy me.
I was completely burned out. So, when Agares came to ask for my help, I took over the task, used my soul to leave the abyss, and went outside to hunt down the human who had completed the manual.
To relieve the hunger that has been inside me for so long with no relief.
Fisher swallowed his saliva. He suddenly remembered the previous record and summoning method of Eliog in King Solomon's scroll, and finally understood the true meaning of "call but not answer" in the text. He couldn't help but wonder.
road,
"Was Saint Nali affected by your instinct at that time? Why didn't I feel it at all?"
Eliog smiled slightly and said,
"No, because I had already eaten and drank enough at that time. Don't forget, when I left the Southern Continent, the humans there and the creatures of other races were fighting for their homeland. When I woke up, I learned from there
Enough food, although it also accelerated the process and intensity of the war there in a sense, but when I arrived in Sainte-Neali to officially start the mission of Agares, I had already started the second time to overcome my nature.
reincarnation
"Fisher, you have to know that the process of overcoming instinct is a painful cycle for a warrior. It is even more so for me. I can't see the end. I can only endure it again and again, be presumptuous and repeat it again and again."
Struggling in relief after going wild. Of course, what happened to Saint-Nali has nothing to do with me. In addition to the factor of my patience, there is another reason why I met you on Snake Head Street."
Her bright eyes swept across the darkness and saw Fisher directly at the table, causing him to murmur,
"I?"
"Ah, you Fisher, do you know why Sidi is so in love with Barbatos?"
Eliog looked downstairs blankly, as if the temperature was dropping a little bit, and she explained to herself,
"Because after meeting Barbatos, Sidi's uncontrollable instinct was finally restrained. He no longer had to obtain food in that despicable way, no longer fought against his instincts and gained freedom. Of course, he could
It is explained by the so-called 'love', but he is only at the fifteenth level. Of course, that kind of weak instinct can be overcome in this way. But I don't have any hope for myself, because my instinct is so strong that I don't think it exists.
Can accommodate my existence
"But you are different, Fisher. After knowing that you have the completion manual, and knowing that you used that chaotic power to lock my soul (the process of binding her), my inner nature gradually awakened step by step.
Subconsciously affecting the people around me, that is, you. I didn't think there was anything wrong with it at the time. Anyway, at first I thought that you and other people who had completed the manual were the same, and I even wanted to let you do it on your own.
Cause fights, you are full of rejection anyway
"However, I gradually discovered that you will not be affected by my nature, not even at all, and this characteristic is not only for you, but also allows me to not affect anyone because of my nature when I am around you.
It can completely accommodate me, allowing my fighting nature to diminish without making me feel hungry. Even if I haven’t received any of my fallen nature, I still won’t feel pain.”
Fisher's pupils narrowed little by little, looking at Eliog who was sitting on the table looking at him, and then heard her next words,
"You are very special to me. Even in terms of your existence, this is the first time I have learned about this kind of pleasure. But at the time, I didn't realize that this was your specialness. I just felt that it was wonderful to be around you.
It was very comfortable, and even at certain moments at that time, I wanted to stay by your side, leaving Agares and other things behind. Until the flesh and blood of that guy (Erwind)
The chaos creation came to your door, and I realized that you might be in danger, so I had to leave you.
"So, my decision at that time may have been reckless, but it was not arbitrary. You may say that I have no emotions, or that I am utilitarian, but at that time, I did do it for the comfort and relaxation when I was around you.
And give you everything”
That was the case at the time, but maybe before that, the cat also had to determine whether it liked the smell of this person.
Having said this, Eliog also looked a little embarrassed. Even in the darkness of the library, Fisher could clearly see a little unnatural pink rising on her wheat-colored face.
color.
Then, she secretly glanced at Fisher like a cat that had done something bad, then pouted and said harshly,
"Is there anything wrong with paying attention to you because of these external objects? Don't tell me that when you did that kind of thing with me, you were attracted to me because you understood my inner self, not just my appearance. And I feel that the effect should be the same.
not bad?"
In fact, Fisher was not thinking about this at all. Instead, he was thinking that it might be because Eliog had no experience in this area. If that was the case, it would be perfectly fine if a bad angel like Hellel acted for this purpose.
There is no need to be like Eliog, who made thousands of tricks to assist Fisher and made Fisher obsessed with her. She foolishly gave it to Fisher when he asked for it.
"For demons, the process of overcoming their nature is difficult, right?"
Eliog was slightly startled when he heard this, and then nodded without hesitation.
"That's true! It is the most powerful and invincible enemy I have ever encountered since I was born. I can think of strategies and methods to deal with any opponent, even those with a higher rank than me, but only
I was really at a loss when it came to it alone, so I could only hide and pass the time by sleeping. I don’t know how Sidi did it, but he and Barbatos are indeed the only two successful demons in the dynasty."
Sidi and Barbatos?
Fisher vaguely felt that their ability to overcome the devil's nature might be related to the subhuman nymphomaniac. Otherwise, he would not have helped Fisher like this. He would not even side with Barbatos and chose to be neutral.
"The experience of Sidi and Barbatos cannot be imitated, because their natures are completely different from mine. Even the nature of the demon behind the same door will be different. It's only when I'm around you that I feel a little hope.
.I began to think, 'It's not bad to live like this'. You are running around outside, and I am sleeping and waiting for you at home."
Fisher was a little bit dumbfounded when he heard this. Recalling the days in Sainte-Neale, it was like raising an oversized fat cat at home, eating a lot, not working and only sleeping. This would be outrageous for anyone.
It's comfortable, isn't it?
"When you hear it, you do feel quite comfortable."
Eliog began to feel embarrassed as she spoke. She touched her head and her face began to turn red again.
"You can't even think about it? And even if you want me to do something, I can learn it, as long as it's not the same as before. Moreover, at that time, I really felt that it would be good to have a little devil with you. Isn't it about those people outside who have no brains and
You little sane devil, I mean, it’s not a bad thing to be the child between you and me.”
Fisher opened his mouth, raised his head and looked at Eliog, who was sitting on the table only a few feet away from him.
Under the gaze of Heller's painting behind him, and a little bit of saltpeter smell outlined, Fisher swallowed uncontrollably.
Eliog's tail swayed behind him, and the atmosphere suddenly became silent. But invisibly, the distance between them became a little closer when they looked at each other.
But when Fisher's hand on the table was gently placed on her thigh, Eliog suddenly trembled, as if she was frightened, and she quickly backed away with a slight blush.
A short distance away, he reached out and scratched his cheek and forced a smile,
"But I'm just a soul now, and my body is also a mythical species. I can't produce children. You should know this?"
"I know."
Fisher said this, but he still didn't put his hand down from her thigh. He looked at his hand and asked suddenly,
"I'm just a little curious, why do I have the ability to make you stop your true nature? Does it come from completing the manual? Or is it that I have some special nature? More than one person has said this about me before.
I can even read more than one supplementary manual.”
"Who knows, but for demons, the person who can solve the existence of nature may only be special to them, just like Sidi and Barbatos. None of us expected at the time, those two and each other
Beings who are incomparable by nature can actually alleviate their mutual nature. This kind of thing is something that can only happen but cannot be sought. Your appearance at that time was indeed like a God-given opportunity to me."
Eliog looked at Fisher in front of him and seemed to be unable to find anything special about him, so he shook his head and said,
"It's just that I wasn't sure at that time whether it was a trick of fate, because you appeared when I was sealed, not to mention that our compatibility was so good, but I had to face the need to return to the seal to be with you.
In fact, the fact that it does not belong to me may be due to the long-term suppression of nature. Even when Baimen appeared and I just saw everything she left behind, I actually thought about you and that free person who is not sealed.
Maybe it's the right choice to be with a guy who is bound. At least she should not care about the other ladies around you as much as I do, or even better than me. Maybe she still doesn't care about me?
"But my nature tells me that I don't want to do this, I don't want to admit defeat like this."
Eliog's eyes were still bright, but the fire contained in them was more than just the fire in his eyes, as if he wanted to ignite the surrounding environment.
She took a breath of hot breath, then gently stretched out her hand to grab Fisher's collar, lowered her head and got closer to him, until her hard horns touched Fisher's forehead, and the tips of their noses touched.
"This time, even with you by my side, I don't want to overcome my nature."
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