In the dark night, I stood alone on the roof of the building.
Feeling the endless night wind and listening to the sound of firecrackers all around me, on this New Year's Eve night where everyone is happy, I feel nothing but bitterness and pain in my heart.
I have had this feeling a long time ago. I don’t know exactly when it started, but in general it can be described in one sentence, that is, endless despair for the future of life!
It's so painful, so uncomfortable, I really want to escape from this hell called the world right away...
Yes, in my eyes, the human world is the real eighteen levels of Avici Hell, the most painful torture trial in the world. The reason for this realization comes from a dream last night, a serious...
The strangeness that breaks my understanding and cognition.
In the early morning, when my personal consciousness fell into sleep as usual, not long after, I heard laughter.
"Ha, haha, hahaha, hahahahaha!"
The almost distorted laughter echoed up and down in my ears. In the darkness, my consciousness was awakened. Since I was only conscious, I couldn't see anything. The only thing that caught my eyes was darkness, but even so,
Laughter still echoes in my ears as clearly as a tarsal maggot. The sound keeps laughing, keeps rising and falling, and there is nothing but laughter.
"Hahaha, hahahaha!"
until……
Until I gradually became anxious and agitated under the stimulation of laughter and even tended to collapse. I covered my ears, gritted my teeth and yelled: "That's enough! Stop laughing, don't laugh anymore!"
The laughter disappeared, and the moment I let out a ferocious roar, it suddenly disappeared. As the laughter receded and disappeared quietly, the world returned to the darkness where it first began.
Dead silence.
Plop.
"Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!"
In the darkness, my body went limp and I knelt on the ground, panting violently, but I didn't show any trace of fear or panic.
reason?
The reason comes from the absolute anomaly here. It's too dark, it's so dark, it's so dark that you almost don't have self-perception. Therefore, this place is definitely not reality, or...
This is the real reality!
Exposed to a certain sense of reality, I gradually calmed down. After the initial excitement, I gradually calmed down. Then, I said something into the darkness:
"Where is this?"
Silence, silence, silence.
No one answered me in the darkness, there was only dead silence and never-ending darkness and silence.
Faced with this outcome that was both expected and unexpected, my response was silence, a silence that was exactly the same as darkness.
The void of time passed slowly, and a century passed quietly in the blink of an eye.
Yes, you heard it right, it is a century. From the time I came to the dark space to this moment, I have been in this black world without any existence for a whole century.
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Some people may want to ask after seeing this, if you stay alone in a dark world with nothing for a hundred years, wouldn't you be lonely? Wouldn't you be lonely? Wouldn't you go crazy?
Faced with this kind of question, my answer is no, I am too lazy to be lonely, too lazy to go crazy with despair, because my life has long been at a level that is ten thousand times more miserable than falling apart and going crazy!!!
This is like asking a person who is being bitten if he or she will feel uncomfortable due to mosquito bites. It is a complete joke.
What is loneliness? What is loneliness? What is the passage of time that is enough to torture an ordinary person to the point of collapse and madness? Compared with the miserable life I have experienced so far, these are too insignificant, and my pain is far beyond
beyond the limits of human imagination!!!
Under the pain that is comparable to Lingchi every day, what does a mere century of loneliness mean? Yes, the long time of torture did not make me feel lonely, nor did it make me collapse and go crazy. On the contrary, I
Gradually I got used to it and even fell in love with this place.
reason?
There is only one reason, and that is, this is not the human world! It is a place where one can truly escape from the eighteen levels of Avici Hell.
The world is too tiring, too painful, too hopeless and too painful. As long as you are still in the world, you are destined to be controlled by fate and teased like a monkey. But you have no idea about this.
Busy and struggling under the teasing of fate, you will not realize until you reach the end of your life.
However, Dawu then realized for the first time that he was just a joke. In fact, except for a few enlightened masters and philosophers in the world who can see through the true meaning, most people cannot see through the truth. As for what is the truth? The truth is that the world is hell.
It is the Abi Infinite Karma Fire Hell that is billions of times more terrifying than any known torture!
What's even more terrifying is that here...
There is no escape!!!
So, as a century passed quietly, I spoke again in silence, and said a word towards the darkness with no direction: "Can I stay here forever?"
This time, I heard a response, and the one who answered me was the unknown being who released the laughter in the first place.
"No, you can't stay here forever." Different from the distorted laughter at the beginning, this time, the voice was very calm, and he decisively rejected me with a tone that was so calm that there was no emotion.
When I heard the reply, fear appeared on my face, and I immediately bit the bullet and screamed: "Then I will commit suicide when I go back! No matter what, I don't want to stay in the world anymore!"
"Suicide? You said you want to commit suicide? Hehe, hehe, hehehe..."
There was no reason, no reason. When I heard my rather exciting statement of suicide, my voice laughed. I chuckled leisurely and in a mocking tone. I thought the laughter would last for a long time, but after just a moment of laughter, the laughter suddenly stopped.
Instead, there was a series of cold responses: "Do you think you can escape from the human world by committing suicide? Do you think you can escape this hell of karma? Your idea is too naive."
"You, what do you mean?" After hearing this, my face changed again, and I asked nervously with confusion on my face, but the unknown existence hidden in the darkness seemed to have expected that I would ask this question, and did not ask.
Hesitation said again: "Through a century of observation, I have now
I can see your pain. Your hatred for the human world even outweighs the torture of time. At the same time, you are also one of the few rare beings who can find that the human world is the real hell. There is nothing wrong. The human world is indeed hell, the most painful and painful place in the three thousand worlds.
Despair is the darkest and even the most unsolvable fire of karma
In purgatory, only the most sinful people will fall into the human world. As long as there is less karma on the body, the ending will not be in the human world, the Avici Hell, which even animals don’t want to go to. So you should understand that the human world is the purification of karma??
????????????
? In this place, no one can escape from the human world unless the sins and karma all over your body are washed away. Even if you commit suicide, your soul after death will still reincarnate into the human world and continue to endure the unfinished pain and torture of the previous life.
You can't escape, you can never escape!"
The voice was so cold and ruthless, and the words were so despairing. When I heard this, my body began to tremble, and tears filled my eyes involuntarily. Pain! Pain! Pain! The unimaginable despair and pain seemed to wrap me deeply in the ocean.
I didn't even have a chance to struggle
Yes, but I am not willing to give in. I am still not willing to give in. With tears streaming down my face, I asked tremblingly: "If that's the case, then let me disappear, completely destroy my soul, and let my soul fly away! As long as you can
Escape from this world, I would rather die and disappear forever! Please, please!"
"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu"
Silence, a long silent silence. Ever since I cried and sobbed, the unknown existence hidden in the darkness chose to be silent and not speak out. It just let me cry and plead, and I myself was driven by increasingly intense emotions.
From crying to laughing, from laughing to crying, to the end
He suddenly stood up and cursed: "But even so, why does fate have to torture me alone? Why does it have to deliberately target me? We are all in hell, but the suffering I have suffered far exceeds that of others! Why? Why?
People are born with no shortage of food, clothing and food. Why?
Why are some people born extremely smart and sociable, and why are some people born with great luck and everything goes smoothly? But why am I the only one who lacks food, clothing, and speech? What’s even more unexplainable is that I have a rough fate.
Nothing goes smoothly! Even the manuscript is frequently blocked over and over again.
The result of frequent book closures is that there are fewer and fewer readers. Although this time I didn’t read this book again, no one subscribed to it this time. The number of subscribers is far less than the first time I wrote a book. As a result, I can’t even eat now.
It's amazing! Why? Why does fate treat me like this? Why? Why..."
In the darkness, I raised my head and roared with my flaws broken, my eyes were blood red and I went crazy during the collapse. At this moment, I turned into a ghost. I roared like an evil Shura ghost who hates all humans in the world. Because of my hatred,
It’s so deep! My body
Ripples appeared, and there were spatial fluctuations that only Earth-bound spirits could have. In this horrifying fluctuation, which was completely composed of overwhelming anger and hatred, my eyes began to bleed! A large amount of bright red blood turned from red to black.
Thunder appeared in the originally dead and dark space, and a hurricane emerged, sweeping and tumbling amidst the extreme roars and shocking laughter I released, and then...
Cluck, cluck.
Cracks appeared in the black space, and cracks appeared out of thin air like a mirror that couldn't bear the huge pressure. As for me...
"Fate has tortured me for too long. From birth to now, I have never been lucky even once. Even the ordinary life of most people is a luxury hope for me. I have had enough. I want revenge! Revenge.
The whole world, die, you are all going to die, everyone is going to die!"
Wow!!!
The black space was shattered, and was forcibly shaken into crumbs by my excessive hatred. As the black space turned into crumbs, my body, which was immersed in sleep in reality, suddenly trembled and my breath wandered away.
Yes, I am dying. My body is about to gradually disintegrate and collapse because it cannot withstand the mutation and violence of my soul. Soon, my body will be squeezed to death by the violent soul, but this is exactly what I need most.
I hope so, even though I will die, I will be made of anger
However, my overwhelming hatred can guarantee that I will not go to the underworld or enter reincarnation after death, so that I can completely get rid of my fate and escape from the human world in disguise. From now on, I will no longer have to endure pain. Not only that, but only in this way, can I take revenge and massacre.
The way all sentient beings respond to fate!
You are all going to die, no one can live!!!
Boom!
The thunder resounded again, and the hurricane swept across again. The only difference was that if the initial thunderous hurricane only existed in the black space, then as the black space turned into powder, this time, the thunder appeared in the real space! There was no wind or rain.
Lightning and thunder suddenly appeared in the night sky. For a moment, thousands of terrifying and ferocious lightnings intertwined and shuttled through the clouds.
It was so vast that it even enveloped the entire city! At this moment, people were awakened by the thunder, and everyone who was immersed in their sleep was frightened by the dense lightning that appeared out of thin air at midnight. Faced with this completely illogical abnormality in the sky,
People looked up at the sky and trembled, feeling as if the end of the world was approaching and were collectively horrified. This is the description, and it is also true!
At this moment, looking at my body that has been bleeding from seven holes and is about to die, I have already lost my human form in anger and have a vicious and fierce smile on my face. Soon, soon, as long as the only body that can bind my soul is completely dead, then
I will be able to break free and then I will kill, kill everything I see
Any living being, since I am in pain, then I will let the whole world suffer with me! And now I have the ability to destroy everything, because now I am only a soul in the literal sense, and the actual me has long been far beyond
It has reached the category of spirit bodies, and its actual strength is even more than ten thousand times that of the earthbound spirit!!!
Break away from the shackles, you must break away from the shackles. As long as you break away from the shackles of the physical body, everyone will die, and no one in the whole world can survive!!!
"Die! Die quickly, die quickly!!!"
Just when I was staring at the distorted body and laughing wildly, in the thunder, I heard the voice again, that mysterious voice that had been hiding its figure. The voice was currently muttering in a low voice:
"Has the soul turned into a ghost while still alive? It's rare, it's really rare. Not only does the soul transform into a ghost while alive, but the soul even reaches the point of destroying the world. This is infinitely close to the rules. This level is also
It is true that you can easily exterminate the human race. You are very special, very, very special."
"It's a pity..."
"No matter how much hate you have, no matter how angry you are, you still can't change anything."
After muttering a slightly surprised sentence, the voice disappeared again, and then something unexpected happened.
"Woo, ow!"
It was like being drained of all physical energy in an instant. As the owner of the voice stopped talking to himself, the next moment, I felt restrained. I, who was so powerful due to hatred that I could not resist, was suddenly forcibly suppressed by some unknown force. With the suppression,
As the power grew stronger, my wild laughter disappeared and was replaced by sobs
, at the same time, the black space that I had just forcibly shattered was restored. With the perfect recovery of the black space, I myself also returned to normal. I have returned to the appearance and form when I first came to the dark space. I am still the same person.
, he is still the sad existence that is struggling in the world and being played by fate.
Next…
"Huh? I, I, this is what I am?"
Just when I was dumbfounded and talking to myself, a voice came out again in the darkness:
"Go back, go back to the place that belongs to you, and then live your life in pain and torture. Although your fate is bumpy, I believe that one day your karma will be completely cleansed. At that time, you will be free from
This hell on earth is like this.”
This was the last sound I heard. As the sound stopped and became silent, I woke up.
Until now, I don’t know if last night was a dream? I am doubtful, but I know that I am still being played by fate and am still trapped in the torture of years of painful collapse. However, it is precisely because I think of that day yesterday.
The evening show was an absurd and bizarre dream. On the edge of the roof, I finally stopped moving and held my feet back at the last moment when I was about to jump.
You are right, maybe I will spend my whole life in pain and despair, but as long as there is hope, I believe that one day I will wash away my karma and finally escape from this painful hell called the human world.