Whether it was death or being mutilated, she refused in her heart.
She was always calm when things happened, but at this moment, she couldn't help but feel flustered and short of breath.
Because she didn't want to die yet, and she didn't want to have to go through life and death with her newborn cub so soon.
And now, even if she is not dead, she will be separated from Zaizai.
On this night, Eliza stayed overnight and took Xiao Baituan away, saying that she would personally take care of him.
Little Baituan can no longer see his mother, nor can he drink breast milk. He can only drink formula milk powder.
When Lin Xingran thought of this, he felt short of breath and chest pain, and couldn't sleep the whole night.
"I can't really...have cancer, can I?"
Lin Xingran was lying on the bed alone, holding Zaizai's quilt tightly in his hands, and couldn't help but shed tears.
Even when she was beaten and scolded by Wu Xiuyuan as a child, she held back her tears, and she did not shed tears when she was in a car accident and gave birth to a child.
But on such a night, the tear ducts seemed to have burst their banks, and tears were pouring out like crazy!
The pillow was quickly soaked with tears and snot!
She couldn't control her emotions at all, her thin body trembled, tears flowed freely, and she was almost out of breath...
At some point, a handkerchief was stretched out.
Lin Xingran thought it was Moody, but the touch of her hand was wrong. With her eyes blurred by tears, she couldn't see clearly the appearance of the person coming, but she also knew who it was.
Instead of restraining herself, she cried even louder.
It's not that I don't want to restrain myself, it's that I can't control it.
She didn't know that her tears would become so low after becoming a mother...
And in his eyes, crying must be dirty, ugly, disgusting and sloppy...
Even a man can't stand it, right?
Just when Lin Xingran thought that Bai Junqing would be disgusted by her and leave, her cold body was hugged into his strong and warm arms.
Not to mention, after he used the dirty handkerchief, he wiped her cheek with the Yunrou wet wipes on the bedside.
While wiping, he said in the gentlest tone as if coaxing the baby: "Be good, it's okay."
Lin Xingran felt like he was hearing hallucinations, as if the person holding him in his arms was not her, but his cub.
At the end, he patted her back gently and said comfortingly: "As long as I'm here, you'll be fine."
After Lin Xingran was comforted, he calmed down and didn't care how embarrassed he was: "But Zai Zai... Zai Zai..."
"It's okay, he has milk to drink." Bai Junqing said.
"..." What else can Lin Xingran say? Xiaobai Tuan has his grandma taking care of him personally, so he will definitely not go hungry.
Bai Junqing picked up Lin Xingran and placed him on the sofa next to the bed. Then he bent down and changed the sheets and pillows.
Lin Xingran felt so embarrassed looking at her. He probably disliked her for being dirty.
Bai Junqing did not wake up Modi and other servants, changed the sheets and pillows himself, and did not leave.
Lin Xingran found it incredible. Wasn't it because of Zaizai that he slept in the same bed with her?
What's going on tonight?
Bai Junqing changed the bed, sat on the bed and looked at the little woman: "What, you want me to carry you up?"
"Uh, no..." Lin Xingran got down from the sofa, but when he got up, he felt something strange.
It's okay for her to go to her bed, but now there is a man on it, and she seems to be a concubine who wants to go there to sleep with her!
The more I think about it, the redder my face becomes, so red that it almost bleeds...
Bai Junqing turned his head and stopped looking at her, because she was always like this, pure and lustful, seducing people without knowing it.
What's more, tonight she still wears pear blossoms with tear stains and rain. I feel so pitiful when I see her, it makes me unable to control myself...
Bai Junqing turned off the big bedside lamp, leaving only the dim luminous lamp.
Lin Xingran had just approached the man, and the unique smell emanating from his body made people feel dangerous and infatuated.
Bai Junqing felt his throat was very dry, so he picked up the water glass on the bedside and drank it in one gulp.
"That'smine.
Lin Xingran wanted to say that the water cup was something she prepared every night to drink water at night.
But I heard Bai Junqing say: "You look ugly when you cry."
Lin Xingran: "Oh..."
She had never looked in the mirror when she was crying, but thinking about it with her toes, a person with both tears and a runny nose must be very ugly.
Bai Junqing continued: "Don't cry anymore."
Lin Xingran said nothing because she could control her tears in the past, but now she is so sensitive after becoming a mother.
After a while, she said: "You are very good at comforting people."
"Oh, really?" Bai Junqing raised the corners of his mouth slightly. This was the first time he heard that he could comfort people, and it came from a girl.
Others say that he is the most straight-laced man in the entire galaxy, that he does not care about women and is not approachable by women, which is outrageous...
Lin Xingran continued: "No more comfort is allowed in the future."
Bai Junqing: "..."
She chatted to death.
There was silence in the air, except for the breathing of the two people.
Lin Xingran folded his arms and fell asleep with his back to him.
This is an instinctive self-defense sleeping position.
In the first half of the night, the two of them were back to back, with the middle between them like the realm of Chu and Han.
But in the middle of the night, someone crossed the line.
Although Lin Xingran was still sleeping in her original position, lying on her side facing the wall inside, Bai Junqing approached her from behind.
His head was buried between her neck, and he smelled the fragrance of her hair and body fragrance.
He slept very well and soundly.
However, Lin Xingran finally fell asleep after being touched like this, but was woken up.
She opened her eyes in the dim environment and kept her original posture. Her body was frozen and she didn't dare to move. She just stared at the wall inside.
The walls are very white with no patterns.
But she seemed to be digging a hole in the wall.
Her plans were all disrupted and wiped out, just like the wall, no trace of texture could be found in the darkness.
She also couldn't find the trajectory of her life and didn't know where to go next.
There was a time when she thought about absconding with her cub, but if she really got cancer, all her plans would be in vain...
The night was dominated by loneliness and hesitation, which made her unable to extricate herself.
The man behind her pressed closer to her, holding her firmly in his arms.
Even at this moment, she never thought of holding on to him tightly.
Because she never thought of treating men as life-saving straw.
She didn't want to be like her mother, who had been trapped by love all her life and ended up with such a tragic end.
What's more, she has been initially diagnosed by the doctor as having a problem with her thymus gland.
I would like to ask, how many men in this world can accept such a wife?
Even if the wife is as beautiful as a flower and has a great figure, her husband still eats her outside.
What's more, she has a physical disability like hers?
Therefore, she should not touch love.
Even if she was lying on her side and was paralyzed, she would not turn around and approach Bai Junqing.
She is awake, not asleep.
He was very close, how could he not know?
But she didn't move, and neither did he.
Even though they were so close that they could lean on each other, she was still pushing him away in her own way.