He was sallow and thin, and the expression on his face was full of self-blame.
Ning Youguang asked softly, "Do you often blame yourself at home?"
Xiao Qi nodded with tears in his eyes, "Yes, I think my parents love to quarrel so much because of me. When I was very young, they often quarreled. My mother often cried and told me that she became very poor in order to give birth to me.
, her waist is not good and often hurts, but her father is not considerate of her at all and feels sorry for her. She says that her father is a beast worse than a beast, messing around outside..."
The child cried so hard that he hiccupped, "If it weren't for me, they wouldn't have argued so fiercely. They would have divorced. But because of me, they couldn't divorce because their grandparents didn't allow it. I was the culprit of the quarrel between my parents.
If my mother had not given birth to me, my life would not be so painful."
Ning Youguang continued to ask, "Do your parents make a temporary truce every time you vomit?"
The child nodded.
——This is the benefit that vomiting brings to him.
Our subconscious is very cunning. When a weak person cannot achieve his goal no matter what, he will use disease to help him achieve this goal.
Xiaoqi himself did not realize that his vomiting symptoms had not been good, but it was actually because his subconscious did not want to get better.
His subconscious mind is very clear: "Vomiting is a magic weapon that can immediately make parents call a truce. It is very easy to use."
Therefore, he used it again and again.
Ning Youguang asked: "Do you think your parents love you?"
Xiaoqi answered without hesitation, "Of course, they love me very much, especially me."
"Do you want your parents to divorce, or not to divorce?" she then asked.
This time, Xiao Qi thought quietly for a long time.
Finally, he sighed deeply and said, "I didn't want them to get divorced before. I hope to have a complete family. I hope my parents won't quarrel and can get along well. However, now I feel that they are actually getting divorced."
It's good that my father can go and spend time with the people he likes, and my mother doesn't have to be sad every day because my father never comes home. Then, as soon as my father comes home, she scolds him like crazy and talks to him.
The quarrel made my father not want to go home even more. I think it would be better for them to separate. I no longer expect them to get along well like other people's parents and to be able to accompany me well together."
Ning Youguang looked at the eleven or twelve-year-old child in front of him with a feeling of sadness.
I could see that the slightly heavy expression on his face showed the vicissitudes and numbness of extreme disappointment.
"Did you do anything to stop your parents from quarreling?" she asked slowly.
"Yes." Xiao Qi nodded heavily, "Don't my parents love me very much? They usually give me whatever I want, and they also listen to what I say. Sometimes, when they are happy,
They will accompany me together and celebrate me happily. For example, if I get good grades in school, or win a prize in a competition, or perform in a show, they will come together to celebrate me and give me
Come on, I laugh so happily, so I study hard and actively participate in various activities and competitions. I hope to make my parents happy and let them get along well together, but..."
"But, sometimes they will quarrel when you are doing well, right?"
"Yes." Xiao Qi felt weak all over, "I used to get so annoyed when I heard them quarreling, but now I feel like vomiting when I hear them quarreling." 1314
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All the sadness, despair, and obscure suffering are left to the supporting characters later on.