"...I think back then, in order to film a scene well and to maintain my popularity, I would go on a series of special performances. I would often not go home for months or months, and I would not be able to stay even for a meal even if I went back once in a while. Now,
Think about it, why bother? Why should I work so hard? There is no freedom at all."
"But you realized your dream and did everything you wanted to do." Ning Youguang said.
"You're right." Xia Youqing nodded, "But recently I always feel like I owe you. I feel that some of what I got was at the expense of you and Yiyi's childhood happiness. I feel like I'm not a person.
A good mother is not a good wife."
It was rare that after living two lifetimes, she finally saw her mother begin to reflect on her own problems.
"No matter how regretful you feel now, the past cannot be changed, nor can it be repeated." A smile appeared on Ning Youguang's face, "What you have to do now is to cherish, enjoy every present, and do the best you can."
Live up to your own self.”
Xia Youqing looked gloomy, "What you said is right, but I can't do it."
"Then think about it this way." Ning Youguang's eyes turned slightly, "Actually, the first half of your life and the present are just different states at different stages of your life. You were brave and unfailing when you were running, but now you are crossing a mountain.
The calmness and calmness after crossing the river are all the song of life and worth celebrating."
Xia Youqing was finally comforted.
Feeling better, she regained her energy and continued, "I turned down many of the jobs that came to me this year. The ones I accepted were all on business trips and had to be back and forth within a week. I will go now. Thank you."
My uncle’s company is in ruins.”
Ning Youguang listened quietly.
"But I found that there were many places where I couldn't intervene. I wanted to help him, but I couldn't do much." Xia Youqing felt melancholy again, "I also invited a few of my former friends out for afternoon tea.
I found that I didn’t know what they knew, and I wasn’t interested in what they were interested in. I still found it boring and boring. Now I don’t know if there’s something wrong with my mentality or something.
Problem."
"What's so confusing about this?" Ning Youguang said, "You live in different circles, and your understanding will naturally be different. Uncle Xie has no place for you to intervene, and it's not because you have never participated before."
"I have thought about what you said." Xia Youqing said sadly, "But I just feel that there are always things that are not good and that I don't like."
"For example, my friends are still showing off how many times they have been in love. It seems that the more times they have been in love, the more proud they are. Why are they saying this? Do they want to prove that they are attractive? What is there to prove? Who can be attractive?
Can they compare to me? But have I said half a word about these? I think they are really good..." Xia Youqing said gloomily, "But they don't mean any harm, it's just that I don't like to hear what they say.
It's not fun to be together, and there's nothing fun about afternoon tea like this. And your Uncle Xie, you are so fat, but you still eat meat and drink alcohol every day, and you don't want to lose weight, so you drag him to work out with me.
I just know how to paddle.”
Ning Youguang sighed inwardly. She felt that her mother should just continue to work in the entertainment industry and keep busy with work.
Don't sit idle at home, picky and dissatisfied with this, it's just idle!
"Where's Uncle Xie?"
She interrupted her mother's complaint.
"I went out for a run." Xia Youqing said.
"Aren't you going to exercise?" Ning Youguang said, "It's raining outside, is this still called paddling?"
"The past two days have been okay." Xia Youqing said, "He just moves around when he's in the mood. When he's not in the mood, he doesn't even go to the gym."
"Oh, that means Uncle Xie doesn't like sports." Ning Youguang was speechless, "Just like you like sports but don't like doing housework, it's the same thing. Everyone has a different personality and likes different things. You have to let people follow the rules.
You've gone your own way, and you're still not satisfied when others don't do what you want. Is there anyone so overbearing?!"
"I'm doing this for his own good." Xia Youqing sat up straight, "If you eat too much and exercise too much, how can he get better?"
"Uncle Xie has been coming here for so many years, and no one has ever said anything bad about him." Ning Youguang glanced at the opposite side and realized that Grandma Xie and Shi Wangyue were no longer around at some point, so he couldn't help but start talking.
, "Besides, the 'good' and 'bad' of others are actually in your eyes. Which side of them you choose to see and which side to think about will result in a different mentality when you face them. You now
When you spend more time at home and are closer to Uncle Xie, there are more conflicts and frictions. Under the interference of emotions, it is not easy for people to see more comprehensive and complete things."
Xia Youqing was told by Ning Youguang that he didn't know what to say for a moment.
Ning Youguang looked at Xia Youqing's stunned expression and said, "If you want to live a good life with Uncle Xie for the rest of your life, quickly take back your prejudice, arrogance, and self-righteousness."
"There is nothing in this world that can be overdrawn unconditionally, especially love." Her voice sank slightly, "Uncle Xie has a good temper, and he is willing to listen to you in everything. Please put yourself in your shoes."
“Hey, if he doesn’t like you here or there every day, do you think you can live with him?”
"No." Xia Youqing shook his head in confusion, "But what can I do to make him displeased?"
Ning Youguang's eyes became sharp, "Are you sure there is nothing wrong with you?"
Xia Youqing responded in silence.
Ning Youguang said, "If you are not sure, be more tolerant of the people around you, otherwise you will not only have no friends, but also no lovers."
"It's not that I'm intolerant." Xia Youqing's face turned blue and white.
Ning Youguang said, "Then you think you are very tolerant?"
"No." Xia Youqing shook his head.
"Either you are tolerant or you are not." Ning Youguang said in a condensed voice, "There is no middle ground. All middle grounds are paradoxes and escapes."
Xia Youqing was completely shocked.
Ning Youguang continued to eat cherries, letting her sit silently.
Xia Youqing looked at her daughter's calm and calm expression, and the expression on her face changed several times.
After a long while, she continued to think carefully and asked, "Are you dissatisfied with me?"
Ning Youguang glanced at her lightly, "No."
"Then why do you have such an attitude now?" Xia Youqing's momentum softened.
"Because I don't want you to ruin your happiness." Ning Youguang said.
"I'm just telling you, I don't do this in front of others."