I am not a sentimental person, but seeing Lan Fang panicking and even looking uneasy, I vaguely understood that she might not have done it on purpose!
But this sensitive slight avoidance, even if it is just a non-contact movement, shows her inner fear and even some distrust of me. If it is Ou Xiang, even if she feels that there is a difference between men and women, she will not
Will face me so panic.
Whether I stayed for her in the first place, or I went through hardships to keep these people safe, or at least I didn't let her go hungry, this feeling exists, and she should believe me!
But there are no shoulds in this world, and nothing is absolutely taken for granted. Lan Fang's unintentional psychology at this time may be able to explain the current embarrassment.
If I can't understand, then I will definitely be the one who feels uncomfortable!
It's not that I'm particularly sensitive, but it's the human instinct for self-protection that Lan Fang started to act like this. There may not be any direct malice, but there is definitely a strong sense of defense.
Although it’s not about feelings, facing someone who has saved me and even protected me, it’s obviously very difficult to face someone who has strong caution and defense! The reason why I was shocked, look
I took it for granted a little bit!
For these people who follow me, I always think that they will face my existence and even my dedication to them. Let alone whether they can go out, as long as they have trust in me, in this environment, they will not do anything.
The hesitation should be there!
Of course, I can't ask for others to surround me. But if you follow me to survive, you even need my protection, but when you are quiet, you have distrust and even instinctive defense. This is naturally a sad thing.
I force myself not to care about it. Since something has happened unexpectedly or unpreparedly at this moment, it will be meaningless to think about it. Just like a blessing in disguise, it will indeed be disappointing and uncomfortable. But it has already happened.
I can only think about what I know is not a blessing!
Because of the simplest truth, if you can't get out of your heart, you will definitely be the one who feels uncomfortable. Regardless of whether there will be any real gains, if the lost horse keeps coming back, then the torture of this period will obviously be in vain. From another perspective, from now on
Real loss, but already with indifference, the disappointment will naturally be smaller!
But of course I am not a saint. Since there is a trace of misunderstanding in the matter, and even because of each other's subtle actions, people feel misplaced and realized at this moment. With this feeling in my heart, it is inevitable that there will be a gap in my heart in an instant. Of course, the only thing I can do is
Yes, just try not to think about it!
Even if this is the first time, when we are trapped in the rain forest, I have some thoughts at the moment. Even out of some so-called righteous indignation, I think that I have some ability and can stay and take care of her. Now it seems that it does make me feel a little bit sad.
Chill.
After all, we are really people who are in trouble together, but I didn't expect that in her heart, she was unconsciously guarded against me. This makes people feel uncomfortable, and even has some emotions that make them have uncomfortable thoughts!
"Well! It's better not to think too much! Because there are too many unknown things here,,,,,,!" I said some words, even slowly, but I slowly put them down, and with embarrassment I just stretched out my hand.
hands out.
In fact, this can only be regarded as an instinct on my part, because when I saw her feeling uncomfortable, I probably wanted to comfort her. But I seemed to have forgotten that the cordial relationship between me and her was not at all what she recognized.
The height, or the depth I know.
Sure enough, facing this unexpected embarrassment, although it was nothing, Lan Fang was naturally a little shocked. Especially when she looked at my state and the surprise and embarrassment in her eyes, she was confused for a while and naturally didn't know.
What to do.
Even though she really wanted to open her mouth to respond, she didn't know where to start. Although it was obviously not her intention, she was obviously on guard, but it was something even she admitted. If an explanation was needed at this time, it would obviously become darker and darker.
, she naturally understands this better than anyone else!
Seeing her mouth trembling but not speaking, I naturally understood in my heart that she obviously wanted to express it. But maybe because of my embarrassing reaction, she also understood her instant failure, which suddenly exposed the relationship between us.
Some alienation due to lack of communication.
Faced with this situation, I didn’t want to explain more or so-called entanglement, so I took a deep breath and said: "I really want to work with Aneng in the future. But we don’t know our current status yet.
How should we cooperate or follow them?"
Lan Fang seemed to be just nodding blankly, but I don't know what was in her mind, or whether she heard it. Looking at her, she was a little confused, and even her eye circles were a little red, which made me sigh a little, but I didn't know for the time being.
How to deal with it.
Then I looked outside, not that I didn't dare to look into Lan Fang's eyes, but because I was afraid that she would continue to be nervous or that I would think more and more. So I looked outside the hole, not even looking at her anymore, hoping
It can relieve her mood.
Of course, at this time, I seemed to have found some source in my chaotic thoughts, and found that her breathing had become thicker. I knew that if this continued, it would only make this more embarrassing. After all, she just wanted to go out, so she acted like this.
Just a little nervous.
It's not that I think for others, but I feel it's not necessary, so I said calmly: "Go and Ou Xiang, try to store as much food as possible and prepare the necessary weapons, because when you need to take action, you may not even have the chance to prepare.
No, don’t get involved in anything else!”
My voice was not loud at this time, but it was enough for Lan Fang to hear. However, Lan Fang did not respond, but her body was shaking slightly. It was obvious that she was still unable to calm down in a short time because of my reaction. It seemed that she was still very nervous.
Care about the feelings I express!
However, she understood that just now, she could work with me to break some of the previous barriers between us, and then promote the harmonious relationship between us. However, because of her instinctive avoidance, the line that already existed between us was
, seems to become more obvious.
"In fact, we don't have much time left. I have to make other preparations and try to get as much information as possible about the information here and the situation that is favorable to us. If you have nothing else to do, go out first and check the door.
If you call her in, I’ll ask her something!”
I tried my best to calm myself down. I really didn’t continue to look at her. I didn’t want to keep myself entangled. Even when I said this, I was actually making a last attempt to see if she could be with me.