This is the only thing Zhao Xintong is satisfied with. Compared with other suitors, Yu Buzhuo is at least someone who knows how to measure and never stalks.
So, at least I was in the mood to have a conversation with him.
The Autumn Appreciation Banquet was, of course, focused on talking about mysteries and teachings; she hated this kind of formal oral conversation, but who could do the talking?
Just like when Taoist students sit and talk about Taoism, everyone is naive and young, innocent and young, and it will eventually develop into ideals about the future, and how it will be in the future... it has no practical value.
Hongye's teachers are too familiar with each other. She has heard these clichés for many years; not to mention those old teachers who teach basic Taoism, even those masters in the Tongxuan realm have nothing new.
After all, here is a professor of basic Taoism. Most of the teachers are in the Lianqiao realm, and there are only a few masters of Tongxuan. It is impossible for Taihao of Wei State to send elite monks from the sect to such a place, those who are advanced cultivators in the late Tongtian period, or those who have mastered the golden elixir.
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The basic things can be taught without distinction, but the in-depth content can only be accessed by the upper realm Tongxuan, which can only be accessed after joining Taihao; as for the core secrets of the sect, it will take time to prove your loyalty and value.
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Which sect is like this? Is it so easy to get the ability to dominate?
Therefore, the eloquent speeches of these students, parents and seniors from all over the world are very rare, and they include viewpoints and visions that are very new to them; these are things that the practitioners have proven through practice, and are not boundless.
Take it for granted.
In the past, the scale of the autumn appreciation banquet every year was very small, and it was mostly a normal visit from the elders of the students. But occasionally hearing them talk about it made her feel enlightened. It is conceivable that if the autumn appreciation banquet organized by the Taoist temple would be very important to Taoist disciples like them,
Appeal.
She knew that her aunt would go, even if it was for her sake. Ever since she was a child, her aunt had treated her like her own mother; the problem was with herself...
The same is true for Yu Buzhuo. She knows that this young master is actually a very good person. He does not have the condescending mentality of most second- and third-generation cultivators who overlook all living beings. He is sincere, which is already very difficult.
If she must find a Taoist companion, she believes that Yubu Zhuo is her best choice.
But, she just can't accept it!
She found that she was sliding in a very strange direction, because some encounters when she was young made her unable to accept the meticulous care of her relatives around her. This kind of care made her uneasy, and she just wanted to avoid and escape.
When she was in Liuyang City, she was still young and didn't understand what was happening to her. She could only suppress all the discomfort in her heart. As she grew older, this tendency became more and more obvious.
She is afraid of other people's concern!
Therefore, it may have been Taoist Xi's intention to come to Hongye Academy, but in fact, the most important thing was her own intention.
The small shelter in Liuyang City gave her a carefree childhood, but now she regards this shelter as a kind of imprisonment. Only escaping can make her feel a little more relaxed.
What happened to me? How did I become like this? Is it the sequelae of studying celestial phenomena for a long time?
Could it be that all monks who practice in this direction will end up like the Master Guan she met when she was young?
Why can't she accept other people's kindness? Is this a precursor to masochism?
She could vaguely feel that the reason why she had been unable to enter the realm was because of such a twisted mentality. In the eyes of others, she seemed so cold, mysterious, and aloof from the world, but in her heart she was...
She can guess the root cause, but can't find the key to the solution; one thing she knows very well, whether she goes back to stay in Yang and live a life of indifference like her aunt, or becomes a Taoist couple with Yu Buzhuo, staying and flying together, it will not solve the problem.
method.
So, where is the key?
This problem has troubled her for many years, but she is still too shy to speak out and can't find anyone to talk to.
Just like this, she walked through half of Hongye City and came to the small courtyard where she lived. From a distance, she saw a person sitting lazily on the stone steps in front of the courtyard, teasing the neighbor next door in a boring way.
That little flower dog.
Hongye City is a city of spiritual practice. Because there are a large number of spiritual practitioners, the urban environment here is very clean. Basically, there is no mess that is essential for a mortal city, and there are no vagrants or rogues.
She was still far away and couldn't see the person's face clearly, but for some reason, her heart couldn't stop beating.
I felt a little uneasy in my heart. It was a complex mood mixed with uneasiness, fear, and hatred. There was actually a little bit of expectation?
She always hoped that she would be brave enough to face the day when she grew up, but when that day actually came, she found that she was not as strong as she thought?
She knew that just walking there might change everything that was hard-won for her, but it seemed like there was a devil at work, and she kept walking forward uncontrollably.
She has other options. For example, if she doesn't want to see this person, she can turn to the guards at Hongye Taoist Temple. They will drive away the murderer as soon as possible, no matter who he is or how capable he is.
But she chose the most unpredictable path.
As he got closer, the man stopped teasing the dog, turned around and smiled, "Little girl, you are really a woman. If you weren't sure this is where you are, I'm afraid I wouldn't even recognize you!"
Zhao Xintong moved her steps with difficulty, but somehow she didn't turn around to escape. Then she saw the man pull out a bunch of candied haws like a magic trick.
"Take it and eat it!"
There was resistance in Zhao Xintong's eyes. She hadn't touched these children's food for many years. Now seeing this person take it out, it felt like she was standing at the banquet where the birthday gift turned into a funeral twenty years ago.
In the backpack, there were random things stuffed in his mouth.
Seeing that she didn't want to take it, the person in front of her glared, "Why, you don't like it? Isn't it time for you to eat my neck of juice before?"
Zhao Xintong's heart trembled, this evil man came to attack her again; she thought she had forgotten this feeling long ago, but when he glared, she seemed to be back in front of the poplar forest again, this evil man forced the whole family to die
The scene of walking in.
She subconsciously took the candied haws and stuffed it into her mouth... It still had that sour and sweet feeling. It was strange. She would never think about these things, but now it seemed to taste good?
Not only is it sour and sweet, but also the fear in my heart is mixed together, as if the taste has been sublimated in some way?
