First of all, I'm sorry, because not only do I have to take leave, but I also have to spread a wave of negative energy.
Today I finally ended this two-year job.
For a single person, if a group of colleagues who ate three meals together and spent more than 10 hours a day suddenly left like this, it would feel almost like falling out of love.
However, what saddens me most may not be the separation, but the indifference of the relationship after the separation, which is the process of the two sides gradually becoming alienated.
"As we travel further and further away, there are no more books. I wonder where the fish will sink when the water is vast."
This sentence has been best supported in the years after I graduated.
The five roommates who ate and slept together in college had a relationship that they thought would last forever, but now they are a bit blurry when they think about it.
Sometimes I really want to go back to my childhood. It’s not that I want to change anything. It’s just that my childhood was innocent and carefree, and that I was a teenager in the second grade who was full of vigor. But now, I’ve just experienced this few joys and sorrows.
Became so depressed.
What's also sad is that many people, namely my relatives and friends, cannot understand my feelings.
In the eyes of my relatives, I only want to go home, get married and have children, and in the eyes of my friends, I only want to start a business and make money to buy a house and a car.
I talk to them about nostalgia, feelings, and dreams, but their answers are always so rational and correct.
"What's the use of these things? If you don't have a house or a car, how will you find a partner, how will you get married, and how will you have children? You will be looked down upon by others."
They didn’t understand why I kept my junior high school uniform, they didn’t know what the Chinese language book full of graffiti meant to me, and they didn’t understand the value of me typing these words every day.
I don’t know whether it’s due to the environment I live in or the nature of society, but there is really no one around me who can resonate with me spiritually, which makes me feel even more lonely.
Hey, do I have the temperament to be the protagonist?
Okay, enough complaining, let’s talk about something serious.
Last time I said that I would start to be a two-shift beast again this month. Well, I have already placed an order for a coffee worth 120 yuan. I have to earn back the coffee money no matter what.
