Lu Zhiyuan was a little confused. Why could Gu Ziyu see him? How could a two-year-old child recognize his father since he had never seen him since he was a child? Gu Ziyu frowned, "I fell off the horse and came back again."
Lu Zhiyuan was surprised and wanted to hug him, but found that he still couldn't touch Gu Ziyu. For fear of disturbing Gu Ci, he took Gu Ziyu out of the courtyard. Gu Ziyu sat on the steps and stroked the scar on his arm.
, the stab wound healed slowly. He was young and had poor pain tolerance. He only felt very painful and could only comfort himself.
"Do you come back often?" Lu Zhiyuan asked.
Gu Ziyu nodded, "I don't know why, but I always come back frequently. Sometimes in my dreams, sometimes I faint suddenly and come back here again."
He looked around the familiar courtyard. He had lived here for many years and was very familiar with every plant and tree here. Every time he came here, he would repeat the experience he had as a child. Once he wanted to change something or say something,
If so, he will leave immediately.
Gu Ziyu basically found the pattern.
Even if he comes back, he can only passively endure the suffering here and cannot resist. Once he resists and leaves, he feels sorry for Gu Ci and is powerless because of his weakness. Therefore, he has turned a blind eye many times and does not want to relive his childhood.
nightmare, always leave decisively.
Childhood is like a huge net, trapping his past and present lives. He has no way to change it, and he doesn't want to suffer the same hardships again. He can't do anything to save the people in the abyss. He can only escape and avoid, he can't change it.
No matter what happens, he can only watch Gu Ci suffer.
"Mom must be worried." Gu Ziyu said angrily, "We are all here, and someone must be unconscious over there. Mom must be anxious. I want to go back. Dad, what about you?"
Lu Zhiyuan looked back at the bedroom on the second floor. Gu Ci was lying there like a puppet, a walking corpse. He couldn't turn a blind eye. He wanted to do something.
He also wanted to know what happened to Gu Ci during these days.
"I can't find my way back." Lu Zhiyuan said calmly, "Ziyu, has your mother always abused you like this?"
He had seen the scars on Gu Ziyu's body. The scars accumulated over the years were permanently engraved on his skin. They could not be erased or hidden. Gu Ziyu had to suffer not only Gu Ci's abuse, but also Gu Chuyun's.
, he had to experience everything that he was not meant to experience at a young age.
"Um!"
Gu Ziyu lowered his head in frustration. Li Jiang only saw the young master sitting alone on the steps, lonely and pitiful. But he didn't see who Gu Ziyu was talking to.
"Don't blame mom!" Lu Zhiyuan reached out to touch his head. Knowing that he couldn't touch it, he still had the urge to comfort his son, "She's sick, don't blame her."
Gu Ziyu looked at Lu Zhiyuan with a confused look and suddenly smiled.
"It was indeed an accident. Mom is the one you care about most." Gu Ziyu's smile was a little weird. After his father found out about his injury, his first words were don't blame mom, she is sick.
"Am I an unexpected child?" Gu Ziyu asked straightforwardly and calmly, "You were destined to have no children. Were you surprised when you found out about my existence? I guess so. Mom only has you in her heart. You go
She went crazy, she didn't even remember that she had a son, she could hurt me arbitrarily, and you...you only have mother in your heart, and you don't love me."
Lu Zhiyuan's heart trembled, "Ziyu, you misunderstood."
"I didn't misunderstand!" Gu Ziyu said, "In other words, you don't love me enough. You saw how Gu Chuyun treated me, and you also saw how my mother treated me. You saw the scars on my body back then, those
Old wounds, you never asked me whether they hurt or not. Those scars are too old, I can still understand, you don't care at all, after all, it has been a long time. But today, how did my mother treat me, how did Gu Chuyun treat me
, you also see it in your eyes, dad, have you ever cared about me?"
Lu Zhiyuan must admit that there is a hierarchy of love. In his heart, Gu Ci must be the first. But this does not mean that he does not love Zi Yu. He also feels sorry for everything Zi Yu has suffered. This scene happened before his eyes.
What was happening below, he could only watch helplessly, unable to do anything. He was also frustrated and annoyed, but he could not say anything too sensational to Zi Yu.
"Forget it, actually I don't care either." Gu Ziyu laughed at himself, "It seems pretentious!"
The two-year-old child's voice was very tender, but his words were clear and Lu Zhiyuan was heartbroken.
He thought of Gu Ziyu stretching his head and looking reluctantly at the direction Ji Xun left. In his heart, he must be longing for Ji Xun to stay with him and take care of him. His attachment and dependence on Ji Xun was visible to the naked eye.
It was his and Gu Ci's dereliction of duty that caused Zi Yu's unfortunate childhood.
"Gu Ziyu, I feel sorry for everything that Gu Ci has suffered, and I also feel sorry for everything that has happened to you. There is no parent in the world who doesn't love their children. Xiaoci and you are the most important people in my life." Lu Zhiyuan.
He said in a deep voice, "Dad loves you too. This kind of love may be different for mom, but dad is also willing to use everything he has to exchange for your safe growth."
Including his life!
This was the first time Gu Ziyu heard Lu Zhiyuan say he loved him.
He always felt that Lu Zhiyuan didn't love him!
When he first learned about his identity, Lu Zhiyuan was the third master. He had no emotions or the concept of family affection. He was indifferent to everything. After he regained his memory, although Lu Zhiyuan would develop a father-son relationship with him and maybe have feelings, but
not much!
Lu Zhiyuan has a calm mood and is decisive in dealing with things. Except for Gu Ci's matter, nothing can make him upset, so Gu Ziyu has always felt that his father does not love him.
"Ziyu, if you want to go back, you can go back." Lu Zhiyuan said, "Dad is going to stay here for a while. You go back and tell your mother that you are safe, so that she will not worry. You will not have to suffer what happened to you again."
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If Ziyu comes back repeatedly and encounters these things repeatedly, it will not be good for the child!
"What are you doing here? You can't do anything but watch." Gu Ziyu said anxiously, "If you did something and changed the direction of fate, my mother and I in that world would still be there."
Will it exist?"
Lu Zhiyuan chuckled, "Don't worry, nothing will happen."
Gu Ziyu obviously didn't believe it, but Lu Zhiyuan had already made up his mind. Nothing he said or did could change his mind. Gu Ziyu was very angry. He wanted to drag Lu Zhiyuan back with him, but he didn't know what to do.
Li Jiang came over and said, "Young master, your injury needs medicine. I will take you to a doctor."
Gu Ziyu glanced at Li Jiang, got up and went to apply medicine with Li Jiang. Lu Zhiyuan turned around and went back to the master bedroom. Gu Ci was stimulated and faintly woke up. Thinking of what she had done to Gu Ziyu, she hurriedly lifted the quilt.
, there was no time to put on shoes, so he hurried downstairs, shouting as he ran, "Zi Yu, Zi Yu..."
"Madam, the young master is applying medicine..." Konoe said.
As soon as Li Jiang gave Gu Ziyu the medicine, Gu Ci rushed in and hugged Gu Ziyu suddenly. Tears came down in clusters. He was sad and annoyed. Li Jiang quietly stepped aside. Gu Ci looked at Gu Ziyu's neck.
The red marks on it are very sad.
"Zi Yu, I'm sorry, mom lost control again, does it hurt?" Gu Ci stroked his scar, "It must hurt a lot, right?"
Gu Ziyu played the role of a two-year-old child and said cutely, "Mom, it doesn't hurt. Ziyu doesn't hurt at all. Mom doesn't cry."
He stretched out his hand to wipe away Gu Ci's tears.
Gu Ci hugged him tightly, "Li Jiang, next time I lose control, please hold Zi Yu farther away, don't let me see him."
She didn't want to hurt Zi Yu at all, but when she went crazy, she lost control so much that she couldn't control herself. In her daze, she just felt like killing and bloodthirsty. She must do something. Otherwise, she would
Going crazy, going to collapse.
Why is it that every time he loses control, Ziyu is the one who gets hurt?
Li Jiang said, "Madam, if Gu Chuyun sees that you have returned to normal, or that you have not harmed the young master, she will intensify your stimulation, and she will not let the young master go."
This is the reason why Li Jiang watched with cold eyes.
He ensured the safety of Gu Ci and Gu Ziyu to the greatest extent.
Gu Chuyun is a lunatic. After she sent someone to kill Lu Zhiyuan, how could she tolerate Lu Zhiyuan's bloodline remaining in the world? She had murderous intentions when Gu Ziyu was just born.
Just after giving birth, Gu Ci went crazy and lost control, almost killing Gu Ziyu. Gu Chuyun felt that the torture between mother and son was a good show, and she couldn't wait for the day when mother and son would kill each other.
If Gu Ci stopped going crazy and they stopped killing each other, Gu Chuyun would do it herself.
Black Eagle supported Lu Shijie and Gu Chuyun behind the scenes. They had huge connections and power. Li Jiang once thought of taking Gu Ci and Gu Ziyu to an island to live incognito, but he couldn't make it foolproof.
As for the poison on Gu Ci, he had no choice but to wait for the opportunity.
Gu Ci's mood collapsed, feeling annoyed and remorseful. Gu Ziyu looked at Lu Zhiyuan coldly.
Dad, did you see it?
You are helpless, can you change this?
If you really change, will my mother and I still be there in the future world?
Gu Ziyu was afraid that one word would change the future and their hard-won happy ending, so he had been enduring everything silently and never said a word that he shouldn't have said.
After Gu Ci's mood stabilized, he took Gu Ziyu out to relax. They were locked up in another courtyard. Gu Chuyun did not send anyone to monitor them, but Gu Ci couldn't go anywhere.
The courtyard was also very large, and Gu Ci took Gu Ziyu for a quiet walk.
"Ziyu, I'm sorry."
Gu Ziyu actually doesn't remember much about what happened when he was two years old. He was too young at that time. By the time he could remember, his mother was already a madman. She was so crazy that she barely had any waking time.
He didn't know that when he was two or three years old, his mother only lost control occasionally. When she was awake, she knew what she had done and loved him very much. Gu Ziyu also returned to his two-year-old self for the first time.
The last few times he came here, Gu Ci was already dead.
Gu Ziyu could feel Gu Ci's pain. He loved Gu Ci very much and wanted to tell Gu Ci that her father was following them. She could see her father when she turned around, so she must not be sad.
But he didn't dare!
He is really afraid that it will change the trajectory of his destiny.
"Mom, it doesn't hurt."
Gu Ci hugged him and sat on the stone pier. How could it not hurt? There were scars all over his body. He would burst into tears every time he fell. How could these scars not hurt?
How could his son be sensible at such a young age? Gu Ci blamed herself even more.
If she died, Ziyu would not be hurt again.
She kissed Gu Ziyu's cheek, "Mom loves you!"
Gu Ziyu opened his eyes wide. This was the first time he heard Gu Ci say she loved him. It was Gu Ci in this life who said she loved him. This memory had long been blurred and he couldn't remember it. Gu Ziyu's eyes were filled with tears.
He turned red instantly, and his big black and white eyes were filled with tears.
Within a day, his father said he loved him, and his mother said she loved him too.
He is not an orphan.
"Ziyu also loves his mother, very much, very much." Gu Ziyu suddenly let go of the harm Gu Ci had caused him. In this memory that happened but he couldn't remember, his mother loved him so much.
He saw that her eyes were full of pain.
"As long as mother is gone, our Ziyu will not suffer." Gu Ci said. She also didn't expect that Gu Ziyu was not a two-year-old soul, so she said goodbye to Gu Ziyu, "Ziyu, you want to
Remember, mom loves you very much."
Lu Zhiyuan was a little panicked. What was she going to do?
Gu Ziyu was also a little panicked, Mom, what are you going to do?
"Let's go, mom will take you for a walk!" Gu Ci took Gu Zi for a walk up Yushan Mountain. This villa was built halfway up the mountain. The entire mountain was Lu Zhiyuan's private property. The mountain was full of maples and oaks, and there were also
There are many big banyan trees. This is a specially maintained mountain. It is especially beautiful in winter. The mountains and plains are red with a little bit of yellow and green, like a colorful oil painting.
Lu Zhiyuan followed their mother and son all the time, and Li Jiang and the guards also followed behind them. Lu Zhiyuan also specially checked the guards, and the number remained unchanged. After his death, his guards also loyally guarded Gu Ci and Ziyu.
Gu Ci took Ziyu to climb the mountain. Li Jiang and the Guards were also talking about it. Lu Zhiyuan also knew that this was the first time Gu Ci took Ziyu out to climb the mountain after giving birth to Ziyu.
This is the first time Gu Ci has gone out in the past few years.
She usually stays in the other courtyard and never leaves the house, not even the master bedroom.
The sunshine in winter is particularly good, a little warm in the cold, and the wind in the mountains is not cold. Gu Ci seemed to be in a good mood and took many photos of Gu Ziyu. Li Jiang said, "Madam, I will help you and Xiao
Master, please take a group photo!"
Gu Ci stroked the scar on her face and lowered her head in humiliation, "No need."
Gu Ziyu felt distressed and sore when she saw it. Her mother didn't leave a single photo, except for the photo when she registered her marriage. She was worried about the scars on her face.
When Gu Zi met his mother who was the most beautiful woman in this world, he felt even more sorry for her.
He was also sensible enough not to poke Gu Ci's sore spots, and obediently posed in various poses for Gu Ci to take photos of him.
The two wandered in the mountains for a long time until they returned to the courtyard in the evening.
Lu Zhiyuan remembered that Ji Xun was coming to burn the mountain tonight, and frowned. Gu Ziyu never mentioned that the other courtyard was burned down. Did this happen? Gu Ci left when Ziyu was six years old, so he must have
He won't die in Ji Xun's hands.
After Gu Ci returned to the other courtyard, she asked the chef to go to cultivate immortality first. She wanted to cook for Gu Ziyu. She had been silent in the past few years, and there were scars on her face. She was very scary when she was expressionless, and the servants did not dare to disobey her.
Gu Ci made a sumptuous meal. Her cooking skills were not very good, but Gu Ziyu ate happily.
This should be the only warm and beautiful memory that Gu Ziyu has in this life. Because he was so young, he actually forgot about it.
But no one expected that Gu Ci, who had finished the meal with Gu Ziyu, committed suicide by taking sleeping pills in the room.
