Gu Ci finally asked frankly about the doubts in her heart. She had never dared to ask, but the days of constant worry made her unable to feel at ease. She also did not want to hide it anymore, because after knowing the secret, she had always been afraid that Lu Zhiyuan would suddenly leave.
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"Lu Zhiyuan, I don't know who you dreamed about when you were in the research institute. You kept talking to him. Maybe you thought it was a dream, but I heard everything you said." Gu Ci said, "I heard you and him
Arguing, hearing your anger, your sadness, I also know that you said that the curse is coming soon. From then on, I treat every day as the last day we are together. I am always best prepared for your sudden departure.
I hope you can tell me the truth, but you have never said that at such a young age, you gave all the Black Eagle property to Ji Xun. Lu Zhiyuan, I am not a fool. People all have ambitions and desires. If you really
Without worldly desires, why did you become a racing driver and attract global attention? You are born to be a dazzling person, and you also want to stand in the most dazzling place. Although the third young master and the third master are half souls, their human nature is to want to stand in the most dazzling place.
It makes sense, no matter how much you deny it, he is still you, and his thoughts are also your reflection, but you cultivated Ji Xun so early, you gave up everything long ago, you know, no matter how much you resist fate, then
It’s all just a passing cloud.”
Gu Ci was sad and heartbroken, "Why don't you tell me? Lu Zhiyuan, if one day you have to leave, I hope you can say goodbye to me properly. If there is any way to save you, I hope you tell me.
You have been unwilling to tell me. It is nothing more than using my life or Zi Yu’s life in exchange. If it is exchanged for Zi Yu’s life, I am not willing to do so. So don’t hide it too much. If it is exchanged for my life, I
I am willing, but if you are not willing, I will listen. In addition, I don’t know the reason why you refuse to tell me. Lu Zhiyuan, I am different from you. I have no memory. I can also guess, maybe my destiny in each life.
It's all very bad. You want to give me a relief, but people live for one life, and death is death. Who knows what will happen in the next life? Once your eyes are closed, everything will stop. There will always be people suffering in the world, and there will always be people who are heroic.
Die young and die alone, why can't it be me? I only want this life, not the next life. For so many years, I have been hoping that you can be honest with each other, but I haven't learned how, so I have been digesting what you want to leave by myself.
News, but today in Sansheng Temple, I figured it out, Lu Zhiyuan, since fate can't be changed, and you can't change it after so many years, why don't you be honest with us?"
Lu Zhiyuan's whole body was stiff, and he forgot about the scalding hotness of the tea for a moment. His fingers were pressed against the porcelain cup, but they were also numb. He didn't expect that Gu Ci would hear his words. From the research institute to now, she has been enduring it for several months.
Seeing his dejected expression, Gu Ci walked up to him and hugged him. Lu Zhiyuan felt a tsunami of pain in his heart. His cheek was pressed against her soft waist and abdomen. Gu Ci hugged him gently, as if to soothe him.
All unwillingness.
She had told him her wishes and thoughts openly and honestly, without hiding anything. Lu Zhiyuan closed his eyes to cover the pain in his eyes.
"I won't force you." Gu Ci's eyes turned red and she stroked his hair over and over again, "I'm just afraid of sudden separation. I just want...if someone really wants to leave, I can say goodbye properly, no matter it's you.
,still me."
Lu Zhiyuan, actually I am not that fragile and need your protection.
I can bear your leaving.
"Do you really want to know?" Lu Zhiyuan's voice was slightly hoarse.
Gu Ci lowered her head and looked into his reddish eyes, "I want to know, Lu Zhiyuan, you are not Lei Feng. You do good deeds without leaving your name. When you show kindness, you must repay it with kindness. You do good deeds silently and walk away when the matter is over. That is
Saint, I don’t want my third brother to be a saint, and I won’t be grateful to you.”
After so many years, many things have weighed on his heart, which have become scars over the years, and there is no one to talk to. Lu Zhiyuan pulled her and sat on his lap.
"That day at the research institute, I did meet the priest again. He was not a specific person, but more like... a nightmare in my heart. When the curse comes true, he will always appear and laugh at me badly. No matter how hard I try, he will never change.
I can't control your fate. Xiaoci, you don't care about the afterlife, but I do, because I know that people have afterlife, not just this life. I hope you are safe and happy, meet your beloved, and be reunited and happy in every life, instead of...
If you die young, you will always have no connection with the one you love."
Gu Ci kissed his eyes gently, "Some people's life is a hundred years, and some people's life is only thirty years. If I can fall in love with you, thirty years will be thirty years. How do you know that I don't want to
.”
"I don't want to!" Lu Zhiyuan looked away, stood up and walked to the window, his emotions fluctuated greatly, his red eyes looked like a ferocious beast that had been trapped for a thousand years, "Why don't you die well? Why do you have to die young?
, life is full of ups and downs, suffering from life to life, why can't you enjoy the happiness of a family. Xiaoci, you should not bear the responsibility for my fault. This should be my destiny. When I was selected into the temple, I should have been banned for life.
In the temple, you should not have delusions, know your mistakes and make mistakes. These punishments should have fallen on me, but they have fallen on you. I am not willing to accept it. I just want to put things right and get the fate that should belong to you."
"It doesn't matter, Lu Zhiyuan, if those bad fates were yours, I would be willing to change them."
"I don't want to!" Lu Zhiyuan growled, "Xiao Ci, I don't want to!"
But if you don’t want to, what can you do?
He was helpless.
When the punishment came, Xiao Cixiang disappeared, and the punishment that belonged to him came to Gu Ci. Gu Ci's fate was originally his, and he was going to be punished for life after life. Xiao Ci should have had a good life.
But the priest just put all the punishment on Xiaoci.
Back then, he knelt in the main hall and begged him to be kind and let Xiaoci go.
The priest asked three times, did he know he was wrong?
Lu Zhiyuan refused to admit his mistake. It is human nature to have seven emotions and six desires. Everyone is born with emotions. Why is it wrong? He did not enter the temple voluntarily. Because of his fate, he was forced to be separated from his family since he was a child. The relationship is weak. Who has asked
If he said yes or not, why would he be wrong? Why should he admit his mistake again?
But after so many years, Lu Zhiyuan knew that he was wrong.
If I had happily admitted my mistake back then, maybe everything would have been different.
There was a rare grievance and sadness in his eyes, and he looked at Gu Ci steadily with moist eyes, "Xiao Ci, I was wrong, I was really wrong."
Gu Ci felt great pain in her heart and hugged him. Lu Zhiyuan's pain for so many years seemed to have a window to vent. It turned out that her previous life was the fate she should have had.
His life was full of disasters and he died young.
Gu Ci, if this were your fate for the rest of your life, would you be willing?
