Ji Xun looked at Jiang Junlin, the light in his eyes extinguished little by little, and he felt the pain of a broken jar, "I'm afraid that one day you will be disappointed with me, tired of me, and always want to grab something, want to give yourself a bargaining chip
Become more, I don’t want to destroy the Jida, I just want... I just want to let the Jida do something, and then I can help you, and you will always feel that I am a valuable person."
really!
Jiang Junlin was speechless, and Ji Xun lowered his head. Peeling oneself off was always the most painful thing, especially when he knew it was a wrong path, "I knew it was a road of no return, but I still did it."
, I can't resist my own desires, and I can't control my own fears. I make mistakes again and again, and I let you down. Brother, I am a very bad person, and I hate such suspicions."
Ji Xuan didn't even bother to make excuses for himself. Anyway, it was the worst ending and he couldn't find any excuses.
Jiang Junlin put his warm palm against his cold face, "What did my brother do to make you have such fear? Or did I say something unintentionally to make you worry about gain and loss like this?"
Ji Xuan didn't dare to look at him and could only shake his head.
Jiang Junlin also felt something, "It was during the years when we first met again that my brother was so cruel, so you were always afraid, right?"
Ji Xun finally nodded honestly, feeling sad, "You have been giving me a sense of security these past few years. It's because I have so many desires that I can't satisfy. My greed is endless, but I dare not tell you, for fear that you would think I'm greedy."
"My brother didn't do well enough, so you are always afraid." Jiang Junlin said softly, "My brother doesn't blame Xiaoxuan, so don't be sad, okay?"
He rarely coaxed Ji Xun, and Ji Xun felt even more uncomfortable. He had done something wrong, and he still wanted his brother to coax him.
"I didn't mean to come to Haicheng to celebrate the New Year alone and be miserable." Ji Xuan explained, finally raising his head and looking at Jiang Junlin, "I didn't mean to drink and hurt myself."
"Brother knows." Jiang Junlin didn't think that Ji Xuan came to Haicheng on purpose to commit misfortune. "You were afraid of facing these things, so you took the initiative to escape and wanted to give each other a space to calm down."
But celebrating the New Year alone is really too deserted.
He is such a contradiction, afraid and eager at the same time.
Jiang Junlin looked into his eyes. He had always liked Ji Xuan's eyes. In fact, he liked them very much when he was young. "We met when we were young, so I have always known what kind of person you are. I was the one who left you behind."
It's my fault that I didn't take care of your mood. Brother, I apologize to you. After we reunited, if I had known that I would fall in love with you, I would never have used you, left you, or dealt with you. But I can't turn back time, and I can't predict the future.
Those things that happened and the harm caused to you, I didn't discover it in time, and I still blindly accepted your efforts, it's also my brother's fault, can you forgive me?"
The corners of Ji Xun's eyes were getting red, and all the sounds were stuck in his throat. He could only shake his head gently. Jiang Junlin smiled bitterly, "You have complained so deeply that you are still unwilling to forgive? Then..."
"No!" Ji Xun was afraid that he would say something, so he said hoarsely, "I didn't blame you."
Jiang Junlin gently wiped his eyes with his thumb, wiped away his tears, and sighed distressedly, "Why are you so good?"
"I really didn't blame you." Ji Xuan knew that after what he did, it would be very pale to explain, but he really didn't complain at all, "I forced it in the first place."
"No!" Jiang Junlin coaxed Ji Xuan to speak his mind, "You never forced me."
Jiang Junlin never knew that in Ji Xun's heart, he actually felt that it was because he had been forcing it that it blossomed. When they first met in Wujiazhou, he really didn't like Ji Xun, and his first impression of Ji Xun was not good in his heart.
Insidious, cunning, and a liar, he didn't like such a young man. Later, the two of them were together through life and death, and he gradually changed his view of Ji Xun. True friendship can be seen best in times of adversity, and he gradually developed a little friendship. But if he said he liked him, then
It must be impossible.
After the reunion, he did not deny that he was stunned by the first sight, but it was far from the level of lust. It was the extreme tug-of-war between the two of them that gradually caused unplanned deviations.
He knew clearly that he shouldn't be provoked, but he insisted on going his own way.
To put it nicely, he used the trick to his advantage, but to put it harshly, it was his deliberate guidance. Ji Xun had never dominated their relationship. The deeper and deeper ending was the result of his single-handed control. How could Ji Xun force it?
If he hadn't intentionally indulged, no matter how much value Ji Xun gave him, he would have abandoned him ruthlessly. If it were another person, not Ji Xun, would he also fall prey to this beauty trap?
How can it be!
"Little fool, it turns out that's what you think."