She felt that she had slept very deeply, as if a century had passed. When she thought she finally woke up from her dream, when she opened her eyes, she saw a blue bay window.
Still in the ward.
She was sitting on the hospital bed with her knees in her arms, staring out the window at the banana leaves swaying in the wind and making a rustling sound.
She didn't know how long she had been watching quietly like this, until a voice came from behind her——
"Yes, she is a little confused now and often sits like this for the entire afternoon, but fortunately the caesarean wound is recovering well."
"How has she been feeling these past two days?"
"...Well, it's much better than before, but it's still not stable. Also, Mr. Li came here yesterday. Now there must be someone guarding the ward at all times, and some things cannot be mentioned in front of her, which may affect her mood.
It will get out of control.”
"Mr. Li came yesterday?"
"Yes, Mr. Li means to take Miss Li home tomorrow. I heard from Mr. Li that after Miss Li is discharged from the hospital, he will send her directly back to the country."
"Well, I understand."
These conversations came one after another from a distance, and Li Xiwu couldn't hear them clearly.
But she knew that the person who asked the question was Mrs. Desing, and the other person who answered was her doctor.
She sat motionless until the ward became quiet. After a while, Mrs. Desing came over and sat down beside her, calling her: "Xiaoyou."
Li Xiwu looked sideways at Mrs. Disin.
Mrs. Disin met her unruffled eyes and said softly: "Your father wants to send you back to China."
Li Xiwu pursed her lips and didn't speak for a while.
Mrs. Disin reached out her hand and gently touched Li Xiwu's cheek: "You have lost a lot of weight this month."
The tip of Li Xiwu's nose felt sore.
Mrs. Disin coaxed her: "Be good, don't cry."
Tears rolled in Li Xiwu's eyes. She wanted to cry, but in the end she held back and did not shed tears. She heard Mrs. Disin say: "Your father is going to send you back to China. I guess he should arrange for him to
Come and take you back to the country."
The 'him' Mrs. Di Xin mentioned was Pei Jingzhou, who had not been to country T for a long time.
Because of Li Xiwu's deliberate concealment, Pei Jingzhou not only did not know that Li Xiwu almost went insane after giving birth to two children, but also did not know that Mo Zhu had passed away.
This month Li Xiwu stayed in the hospital for confinement, and only Mrs. Disin and Li Huaisheng knew about it.
However, Li Huaisheng didn't come to see Li Xiwu much this month. He was handling Mo Zhu's funeral in a low-key manner. In addition, he didn't come to see Li Xiwu because he was afraid that his emotions would affect Li Xiwu.
But Li Huaisheng used the wrong method.
Li Xiwu has been having a hard time this month. She is mildly depressed, has occasional mental disorders, and is in a bad mood. Most of the time, she is alone and quiet. Various signs have shown that she has serious problems with her mental state.
In this way, she survived for a month.
"I don't want to go back to China." Li Xiwu shook his head.
Mrs. Desing asked: "Why?"
Li Xiwu said with a heavy nasal voice: "I'm afraid to face him."
How could Mrs. Disin not understand what Li Xiwu was thinking: "Are you afraid, or do you not dare?"
Li Xiwu smiled bitterly: "What's the difference?"
"Yes." Mrs. Desing said: "You are afraid because you have no past in your heart. You dare not because you can't let go."
Li Xiwu said: "Both."
Mrs. Disin sighed: "You have to face it and you have to let it go."
Li Xiwu shook his head, and his nasal voice was heavier than before: "I can't let it go, I can't let it go, I'm sorry for those two children, I'm sorry for him, I..."
"Silly girl."
Mrs. Desing pulled her over, gently hugged her, and comforted her.
At this time, Mrs. Disin originally planned to tell Li Xiwu that the girl among the twins had been out of the incubator for several days, so that Li Xiwu could feel at ease.
I didn't tell her some time ago because I wanted to wait for her to stabilize emotionally.
Now is a great opportunity.
But at this time, the Prime Minister sent a message asking Mrs. Disin to go back as soon as possible. It was a very important matter!
As the wife of the Prime Minister, how could Mrs. Desing not know about the recent cabinet deliberations? The conflict between the two countries has become more and more intense. I am afraid there will be no peace this time.
After bidding farewell to Li Xiwu, Mrs. Desin hurried back.
In the next few days, Li Xiwu did not see Mrs. Disin again. She learned from the nurses' private discussions that country T was very unstable recently. There was probably a turmoil. She didn't know when it would break out.
Everyone is in danger, and people everywhere outside the cabinet are in panic.
There are fewer and fewer people in the hospital, and it seems that people who know the news have begun to run away.
At this time, Mrs. Disin sent someone to take Li Xiwu to a safe place. The moment he left the hospital, an explosion came from a tall building next to the hospital.
The rumbling sound was deafening.
The unknown fear grasps people's nerves like a claw, tightening them and making them tremble all over. They dare not breathe loudly and are too frightened to take a step to escape.
When I looked up, the air was filled with thick smoke.
Screams and shouts roared in the ears, and everyone was distracted and ran around. Some people knelt down to pray. Every gesture and look was full of piety.
But fate still did not let go of the pious man, and the falling building fell on him.
This scene happened to fall in Li Xiwu's eyes.
She didn't even have time to shout: Run!
That person died right in front of her eyes.
The hospital was quickly protected, and people entering and exiting were strictly screened. The explosion in the high-rise building was the first warning and provocation from the enemy. Country T decided not to sit still and wait for death, and issued orders to fight at any time.
Li Xiwu was brought home in a daze.
The moment she saw her father, all the perseverance that had held her up collapsed at that moment. She could no longer support her spiritual world and fainted.
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Around six o'clock in the morning.
When Li Xiwu woke up, her pillow was wet. She turned sideways, and the cold touch made her frown.
I've been dreaming about it for a long time.
I also dreamed a lot.
Frame after frame of past events appeared in her dream, and she once again experienced self-indulgence. Despair, pain, self-blame, and guilt all came to her mind, making her truly experience it.
Why was it so painful back then? It was so painful that Pei Jingzhou hypnotized her memory.
She always thought that although the past was tragic, she might be able to bear it.
Only now did she realize that she couldn't bear it.
In addition to pain, she had experienced too much in country T. She couldn't bear it at that time. If Pei Jingzhou hadn't hypnotized her memory later, it would be unimaginable how she would have changed now.
Will she become a psycho?
She thought, probably it would.
Li Xiwu took a deep breath to adjust her restless mind. She turned on the bedside lamp and stood up. Biazi and Youyou were sleeping soundly beside her, but Pei Jingzhou was nowhere to be seen.
