But I never thought that the person who pulled me out of the abyss would be the person I hate the most.
I have hated Yun Mo since I was a child. The reason is childish and ridiculous, because she is beautiful.
In the circle of peers in Jiang City, she is always the most beautiful one. No matter where she goes, everyone's eyes will always be on her.
Just because she has a pretty face.
If she had both good character and academics, and was modest and low-key, I might not hate her so much.
But she has nothing but good looks. She easily steals everyone's attention just because she has a good-looking face. In addition, she is quite flamboyant in her behavior, which makes me very uncomfortable.
A good family background and the favor of my elder brothers have made me a simple and straightforward person. My likes and dislikes are always clearly displayed on my face.
But I never thought that one day my simplicity and straightforwardness would be taken advantage of and eventually push me into an endless abyss.
After that incident happened, I hated Yun Mo. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have suffered the insult from Li Zhijie. At the same time, I hated Yun Yao, the culprit, even more.
During that time, I thought about committing suicide countless times.
The huge sense of shame made me afraid to go out and not want to see anyone. I felt dirty and disgusting. The pain made me worse than death. Only death could free me.
So, when my mother told me that Yun Mo came to see me, my first reaction was to refuse.
She must be here to laugh at me!
I will never let her see me in such a miserable state!
But to my surprise, instead of laughing at me, she apologized to me.
At that moment, all the resentment toward her that had accumulated in my heart collapsed like a tall building that had lost its foundation.
Actually, if you think about it seriously, she hasn't done anything too excessive to me.
It was me who wanted to see her jokes and laugh at her situation. It was me who mistrusted Yun Yao. It was clearly my fault that I ended up like this, and I couldn't blame anyone else.
It's so strange, we used to be sworn enemies and we couldn't even say more than three sentences before we would start quarreling when we met.
But after my misfortune, we were able to chat about the future and ideals like friends.
That was the first time I felt like I had never understood her.
She vowed to help me, but I didn't know whether I should trust her or not.
But the strategy she mentioned was so subtle that it could not only preserve my reputation, but also bring this bastard Li Zhijie to justice.
I can't resist such temptation.
We succeeded!
Li Zhijie was sentenced to eight years in prison for robbery and wounding.
Through this incident, I finally understood what true friendship is like.
I let go of my worries and tried to trust Yun Mo and become a true friend with her.
We study together, and when we are tired, we lie in bed and discuss topics between girls, or go out to go shopping and eat.
With her company and encouragement, I gradually stepped out of Li Zhijie's shadow, and we became inseparable good friends.
And as we get along with her more and more, I feel more and more like she is like an omnipotent superman.
Faced with the ridicule and ridicule of those around her, she responded with an astonishingly beautiful report card.
Seeing her being maliciously slandered and framed, I was as anxious as an ant on a hot pot, but as the person involved, she remained calm and collected.
She is more like my life mentor than a friend, teaching me the difference between right and wrong, good and evil, and at the same time helping me solve various problems and dilemmas.
I admire her more and more, worship her, and can't live without her. Even if she makes other friends, I will be secretly jealous.
But I didn't dare let her notice.
I pretended to be friends with Xie Xia as if nothing had happened, but I didn't know if Xie Xia had seen through my thoughts and had been distant and indifferent to my advances.
I didn't care either, because I didn't really want to be friends with her anyway.
In this way, Xie Xia and I maintained a superficial relationship, studying, playing, and doing everything friends would do with Yun Mo.
Time flies so fast, and as the college entrance examination approaches, I become more and more anxious.
This anxiety does not come from grades, but from the worry of being separated from her soon.
When I think about our separation after the college entrance examination, she will have new friends, and I will slowly fade out of her life circle and be forgotten by her, I feel so anxious that I have trouble sleeping and eating.
I quietly found Xie Xia and asked her to help me improve my grades.
After the college entrance examination, I lost a lot of weight. Everyone thought I had a hard time during that time, including Yun Mo.
actually not.
I was very motivated every day when I was studying for the college entrance examination. Although I didn’t sleep more than 5 hours a day, I slept very peacefully and soundly every night.
Because every minute and every second I work hard, I am getting closer to her.
My efforts were not in vain, I was admitted to a university in Beijing as I wished.
I can finally go to school with her again!
I was ecstatic, almost crazy with joy.
Everyone thinks it’s because I got admitted to Beijing Foreign Language School, but that’s not true. I’m not that motivated. It doesn’t matter what school I go to. I just want to continue to be with her.
I know Xie Xia has the same thoughts as me, but she is not as lucky as me.
She could obviously go to the same school as Yun Mo, but she chose to study abroad instead.
I was greatly puzzled, and at the same time secretly delighted.
Finally, Momo only has one good friend around her: me.
But my happiness did not last long. Momo soon made her first friend at Beijing University, her name was Zhong Xiaochen.
But I quickly felt relieved, because Momo just had a very ordinary friendship with Zhong Xiaochen as a classmate, and I was still her best and only good friend.
I got into trouble again.
But I wasn't too scared because Momo was there.
I have never felt like this before. I am afraid of someone of the opposite sex and want to see him at the same time. It is a very contradictory feeling.
I didn't know at that time that this feeling was called goodwill.
He always seems to be haunted, but I enjoy this feeling inexplicably.
He actually asked me to walk her dog every day, damn it!
His dog is docile and cute, nothing like him.
Although I go to his apartment every day, I actually see him very rarely. I can't help but wonder what he is doing and why he doesn't go home.
Oops, I paid so much attention to him that I even forgot about Momo’s birthday!
I blame myself and feel anxious. How could I neglect my best friend because of Shen Zhen.
I bought a replacement for Momo's birthday gift and sincerely apologized to her, but she smiled and asked me if I had a boy I liked.
Facing her clear and insightful eyes, I followed her without a trace, but what followed was fear and cowardice.
How can a person like me be worthy of him who is as bright as the moon in the sky?
Momo led me into the flower room, pointed at two pots of flowers and asked me which one I liked better.
There are two pots of Phalaenopsis. One pot has lush branches and leaves and lush flowers, but the other pot has only a solitary branch and only two or three pitiful flowers.
I chose the second pot.
Although the first pot is blooming luxuriantly, it looks ordinary. Although the second pot is withered, it has a unique sense of loneliness and coldness like frost, and has a unique beauty.
Momo told me that the two pots of flowers were grown from the same seedling.
The first pot grew very smoothly, and the flowers were fertilized with enough fertilizer and water, so they bloomed particularly luxuriantly.
The second pot was dropped, and not only the leaves were broken, but the roots were also broken in half, but in the end it survived tenaciously and grew into what it is now.
Two pots of flowers are like two completely different lives.
A flower that has not experienced setbacks is beautiful but has no soul. The pot that was thrown down grew out of stubbornness and resilience because it had suffered a disaster.
Fangfang, if it were you, which pot of flowers would you choose?
Fangfang, even if you have encountered misfortune, don’t feel inferior to yourself.
Just like this flower, falling to dust is not what it wants. As long as it strives to face the sun, beautiful flowers will bloom one day.
Fangfang, you will always be unique and irreplaceable in this world. If he despises you because of your past, it means he has no vision and is not worthy of your love.
Someone who truly loves you will like everything about you.
At that moment, I felt relieved and decided to face my emotions.
But I didn't expect him to be a coward.
I decided to listen to Momo and go to the sorority party.
Actually, I just wanted to give it a try and see if he would come to me.
Sure enough, he came, and when I saw his car parked on the side of the road, all the grievances and sadness in my heart disappeared.
Maybe he is like me and has experienced some bad things, so he doesn't want to open up easily.
I'm very sad that Frank died.
I am sad not only because Fake died, but also because he is sad.
I don't know how to comfort him. I wish I were as smart as Momo.
I stayed with him every step of the way and accompanied him wherever he wanted to go. This method was clumsy, but it was the only way I could think of to do it well.
He took me to the beach and I learned about his elder brother.
He has been feeling guilty and blaming himself for what happened to his elder brother, restraining himself, and even breaking away from his family. He tortured himself in such a stupid way in an attempt to atone for his sins.
He was going to the army and asked me to wait for him.
I told him my past and he kissed me.
That was my first kiss.
I don't know if it was his first kiss too, but I don't care.
Just like Momo said, only experienced flowers can grow into unique looks. I like all his looks.
The days of waiting are difficult, but fortunately, I can often help him take care of Brother Shen.
Brother Shen looks a lot like him. Every time I see Brother Shen, my thoughts are comforted a little bit.
I met the old man of the Shen family.
He liked me very much and always asked people to bring me delicious food and fun. I reciprocated the favor and often used my rest time to play chess and fish with him.
The fishing process was very boring, but I had a great time because the old man would tell me about Shen Zhen when I was a child.
It was completely different from what I remembered. When he was a child, Shen Zhen was very cute and cute, and he was so beautiful that he was often mistaken for a little girl.
The change occurred in the year Shen Zhen's mother passed away.
Father Shen and Mother Shen had an arranged marriage. Before marrying Mother Shen, Father Shen actually had his first girlfriend, but they were forced to separate due to various reasons.
After marriage, because she and Shen's father were separated in two places for a long time and their relationship was not reciprocated, Shen's mother gradually suffered from depression and eventually committed suicide.
After Shen's mother died, Shen's father accidentally got together with his first girlfriend.
At that time, Shen Zhen had not yet gotten over the pain of his mother's death, and accidentally learned the true identity of his stepmother. He concluded that his mother's death was caused by Shen's father and stepmother, and then Shen Chen was injured and fell into coma. This series of events would be unbearable even for adults, let alone the young Shen Zhen.
Hatred, self-blame, guilt, all kinds of emotions eventually evolved into young people's deviance.
After learning about Shen Zhen's past, I felt very sad. I secretly went to the place where he served to see him.
He has become much darker, but his body has become much stronger, and his eyes have become firm and steady, like a real man.
He acted very calmly regarding my arrival, which made me feel disappointed and aggrieved.
After being separated for so long, doesn’t he miss me?
After all his comrades left, he pressed me against the wall and kissed me as if he had changed.
We lingered for a long time, my lips were swollen from his kisses, but I felt extremely sweet in my heart.
"Little fat girl, I miss you so much."
He lazily nestled in my arms and said, "At that moment, all my waiting and longing were worth it."
"Shen Zhen, let's get married."
He didn't expect that I would propose to him. He was stunned for a long time, so long that my hand holding the ring became numb.
"no."
He rejected me and I cried.
He hugged me and coaxed, "A man should do this kind of thing, little silly girl."
He wove a ring out of dogtail grass and knelt down in front of his comrades to propose to me.
We held a simple engagement ceremony in the army, without flowers or cake, but with warm applause and blessings.
A year later, I became pregnant, and my family scolded me severely, and then they stopped helping me organize my wedding.
Seven months later, Shen Zhenrong and I became parents and welcomed our first daughter.
My daughter's eyes and nose are like his, and her mouth and chin are like mine.
My daughter inherited my gluttony and stuffed everything she caught into her mouth without giving me any peace of mind.
Shen Zhen spends most of his time in the army, so I can only often take my children to play with Momo. Momo's little edamame is one year older than my Tangtang, and the two children are very playful.
Shen Zhen performed very well in the army and had a lot of room for promotion, but he chose to retire and opened a restaurant nearby outside Beijing.
After graduation, I chose to stay in school for graduate school, and now I work as a teaching assistant in the Chinese Department outside Beijing.
We bought a big house near Beijing, decorated it the way I liked, and lived a warm life as a family of three.
When Tangtang was two and a half years old, her sister Tiantian was born.
Compared to Shen Zhen and I, Tiantian is more like her uncle Shen Chen.
When Tangtang was one year old, Shen Chen woke up. After more than a year of nursing, he is now just like a normal person.
The Shen family regards me as a lucky star, thinking that I have the appearance of a prosperous family and have brought blessings to the Shen family.
In fact, they don't know that this blessing was brought to me by Momo.
She is my salvation.
I really want to arrange a baby kiss for my daughter and Momo’s little edamame, so that Momo and I can stay in love forever.
But Momo didn't want to, saying she didn't want to put more constraints on the children prematurely.
I respect Momo's thoughts.
Anyway, I have three daughters.
Yes, I'm pregnant again, six and a half months later, and it's still a daughter.
I believe that in the future there will always be a daughter who can win over Ling Weiqing or Ling Weian and become Momo's daughter-in-law!