When "Gu Zhenren" was blocked, I had a difficult time.
During that time, I had severe insomnia, a bad mood, and too much stress. I would bask in the evening sun every day to increase melanin secretion. Usually, I would move a small bench and sit in front of the window.
"The Little Prince", "The Ordinary World", "The Kite Runner", "The Moon and Sixpence"... almost all of these books were read during this time period.
nice!
Sometimes I hide my head and think deeply, sometimes I am moved to tears.
One day, I raised my head and suddenly discovered that my life has always been full of sunshine and beauty. Darkness and pain mostly come from the self-exile of the soul.
It's like the substitute boy has the ears of a bat monkey and suddenly feels the sounds of nature and appreciates the beauty of nature.
All difficulties are no longer difficulties.
This experience prompted me to think: Where exactly is the value of literary works reflected?
No one's life can be smooth sailing. Life is not easy. There are many hardships and twists and turns. I am very lucky to be able to see these works. When I am in pain, they are like lights in the dark, giving me strength and letting me
Break through mental confusion.
If you think about it carefully, this is actually a very romantic thing.
I don’t know how many years ago, in a place far away from where I live now, there was such a person. He or she weaved a lantern with his or her own efforts, and put his or her spirit and soul into it to serve as a light. Then
Throw it into the long river of human history and float on the river.
For those who are lucky enough to see such light, no matter he (she) is in the upper echelon, lower rung or middle rung of life, whether it is rough waves or the scenery is bright and beautiful. This light can bring a spiritual touch to him (her).
, feel the beauty in it. Either it is love, or the pursuit of dreams, or thinking about life, or the search for truth.
People are lonely, their lifespan is limited, they are very small, and the entire human race is actually very fragile. We have been living in a snail on the earth. A virus may disintegrate the entire human society. Race, culture, and region separate people from each other.
, even today when the Internet is so developed. However, such lights have overcome these obstacles.
Those who make lights, across race, religion, region, and the boundaries of time, tell others this way: I have lived, I have thought this way, and I have been moved this way. This is my light, and I especially hope that it can
Use this insignificant light to bring as much help to others as possible. Even if it is just a hint of touch, it is the greatest comfort in life.
Perhaps, this is where the value of literary works is reflected.
In fact, I had this feeling when I was writing "Gu Zhenren". When I communicated with readers, the happiest time was not when readers said which chapter they enjoyed reading, nor when discussing the settings of Gu.
But I remember a classmate said that I hope to learn from Fang Yuan's spirit of never giving up. I drew strength from "Gu Zhenren" and achieved good results in the final exam. My family was in poverty and my parents were divorced. I once
I feel like life is terrible, but I find new hope in Fang Yuan's persistence.
Our ancestors had a very clever word - it is called "seeing the wise and thinking of others".
These past creative experiences and life experiences triggered my impulse to create "".
Rather than writing a book, I would rather light a lamp.
Even if the light of this lamp is extremely weak, I still want to try my best to help some, and maybe bring some strength to my friends who have encountered a period of darkness and pain like me.
What I hope is that when we encounter difficulties in life, when we are misunderstood, despised, and disgusted by others, when we are deceived by life, when we are tortured by our own dreams, even when we commit mistakes that we find difficult to forgive ourselves.
When I make a mistake, I recall the roar of the substitute boy——
"I'm not a goldsmith."
"I'm not a genius either."
"I don't have noble blood in my body."
"I'm not a Templar."
…
"All my original memories have been erased. My current memories were all instilled by others, and they are still incomplete."
"You all know your names."
"I'm not as good as you because I don't even know my own name."
…
"We are born ordinary."
"We are ostracized and disliked."
"We have been betrayed by our loved ones."
"We're always not treated fairly."
"We have also committed sins, and we cannot forgive ourselves."
"We are spurned, exiled, wanted, and laughed at. So what?"
"Shouldn't we think about it?"
"Shouldn't we do it?"
"The reality has made us so painful, and life is so bad that we can't bear it. Only by thinking about it can we become better."
…
No matter what, you should pursue the beauty in life.
The sun is actually always there.
But do we raise our heads?
This creative concept began to sprout in the later period of "Gu Zhenren". The writing of "Renzu Biography" brought me a lot of enlightenment in life. When "Gu Zhenren" was blocked, I clearly realized this. By "",