Chapter 125 [Youth Thinks Innocence] Suicide by Raising Again
Chapter 125, [Young Man Si Wu Xie] (Suicide)
The cafe does not face the street, but is located at the end of Yuhe Square. Outside the cafe, there is a large fence made of randomly woven fences. Next to it are two old locust trees.
In the corner near the window, a quiet woman sat with an upright posture, holding a book, and a cup of steaming coffee in her hand.
As she flipped through the pages with her fingertips, her slender eyebrows sometimes frowned and sometimes relaxed, as if all her mind was completely immersed in the world of the book.
It turns out that Xu Ziyin didn't quite understand the true meaning of the sentence "There is poetry and calligraphy in one's belly."
But when he saw Luo Xuan, he could not help but think of this poem in his mind.
Simple, quiet and elegant, not admiring prosperity, this should be her truest portrayal.
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After looking at it for a long time, Xu Ziyin was a little puzzled.
Could it be that she wasn't here for a blind date?
After all, looking at her so leisurely, it doesn't look like she's on a blind date.
Besides, if it was really a blind date, how could a man make a woman wait for so long before she shows up?
Just when Xu Ziyin was thinking about whether to come forward and say hello, he saw Luo Xuan raising her head and looking exactly where she was, and then a trace of astonishment appeared in her eyes.
Seeing this, Xu Ziyin could only bite the bullet and step forward.
Sitting down opposite Luo Xuan, Xu Ziyin smiled and said.
"Sister Xuan, good evening."
Frowning lightly, Luo Xuan was a little curious about Xu Ziyin's appearance.
"Why are you here?"
Hearing this, Xu Ziyin replied casually.
"I was just passing by and saw your car, so I came in to take a look."
"Then why don't you come over? Why are you sitting so far away?"
Hearing this, Xu Ziyin's expression suddenly froze and he could not answer.
Seeing that Luo Xuan's expression was a little unnatural, Xu Ziyin said hurriedly.
"Sister Xuan, this young man is innocent, please don't think of me in a bad way. I'm just afraid of delaying your business."
"Business? What's my business?"
"I thought you were on a blind date, so I was a little curious. After all, coffee shops are a common place for blind dates."
After hearing this, Luo Xuan suddenly felt dumbfounded, and then said helplessly.
"I just came here to sit for a while. It's not as complicated as you think."
"Well, now I'm convinced. After all, it's impossible for any gentleman to keep a beautiful lady like Sister Xuan waiting for so long."
"Okay, stop talking so much. Now that you're here, come and sit with me for a while. What would you like to drink? Sister, please."
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The cafe was very quiet, no one was making loud noises, and the occasional conversations were kept within a two-meter radius.
The man in a suit gently tapped the computer keyboard, and the young urban girl accompanied his companions and whispered interesting things about the workplace. A petty bourgeoisie sentiment spread in the venue.
After chatting, Xu Ziyin also found out the reason why Luo Xuan appeared here at this time.
Su Ke University is not far from Yuhe Square.
Luo Xuan usually comes here to relax, drink a cup of coffee, and read a book when she doesn't have classes.
The environment here is very good, plus she has a quiet personality, so this kind of place is most suitable for her.
Xu Ziyin asked after taking a sip of the slightly bitter coffee.
"Sister Xuan, why didn't my aunt ask me to come home for dinner during this time?"
After hearing this, Luo Xuan raised her eyes and glanced at Xu Ziyin strangely.
"What, you want to go to my house for dinner?"
"Haha, that's not the case. Although my aunt's craftsmanship is very good, I'm just a little worried. After all, she has been very enthusiastic towards my prospective son-in-law before, but suddenly she became cold. I was wondering if my aunt noticed something?"
"That's not true."
Luo Xuan slowly pinned the bangs that were hanging down in front of her forehead behind her head, and said softly.
"My mother often asks me to take you home for dinner these days, but I always excuse myself because I have something to do."
"Just let her know that I already have a boyfriend. It would be inappropriate for you to meet my mother often."
Xu Ziyin knew the worries in Luo Xuan's heart. She was afraid that if she saw him too much and the bond deepened, it would not end well.
Xu Ziyin replied with a hum.
"Sister Xuan, have you gone on blind dates again these days?"
"No, I no longer have any thoughts about this after attending the blind date event last time."
"I think so. Sister Xuan is simply not suitable for participating in activities like blind dates."
Hearing this, Luo Xuan glanced at Xu Ziyin strangely again, her tone a bit puzzled.
"Listen to what you say, I can only stay single for the rest of my life?"
Xu Ziyin waved his hands quickly.
"Sister Xuan, I didn't mean that. I just think that people like you are not suitable for blind dates. Strictly speaking, blind dates are equivalent to a transaction."
"We don't have to say that we are in love with each other. Even their basic interests and hobbies and views are different. We just live together because we think the other person is suitable."
"A marriage without feelings will not last long. Coupled with a series of trivial matters after marriage, it is a kind of torture for couples who cannot share the same heart to be together."
"And this kind of life is obviously not what Sister Xuan wants."
Luo Xuan was stunned for a moment, and then felt a little funny again.
"He's a little kid, but he talks in an old-fashioned way.
"You sound like you've been married."
"I've never been married, but I've watched a lot of TV dramas. Isn't it always like this on TV? Although TV dramas are made by directors and exaggerated, they are not far from reality."
Seeing Xu Ziyin talking eloquently, Luo Xuan couldn't help but become interested.
She closed the book, held her chin, looked at Xu Ziyin and smiled.
"Then tell me, since blind date is not suitable for me, how should I find my significant other?"
Pretending to be deep in thought for a moment, Xu Ziyin said slowly.
"We will meet each other if we are destined."
"The more you care, the person will not appear. When you don't have any urgent thoughts in this regard, your right man may appear beside you inadvertently."
Xu Ziyin's nonsense immediately made Luo Xuan roll her eyes.
"You might as well put on a beard and a coat and go to the roadside to tell people's fortunes. We'll meet each other by fate, so that makes sense."
After chatting for a while, Luo Xuan's heart became a little happy, and her thoughts couldn't help but become a little subtle. She looked quietly at the young man sitting opposite who was chatting with a wanton smile, and suddenly lowered her eyelids and asked.
"Xu Ziyin, how many times have you been in love?"
After thinking for a moment, Xu Ziyin replied truthfully.
"once."
"What about you now?"
"Already divided."
"sorry."
Luo Xuan said hurriedly and modestly.
"It's okay, breaking up is normal."
After saying yes, Luo Xuan said again.
"Then Xu Ziyin, can you tell me what it feels like to be in love?"
What does it feel like to be in love?
It's really weird for a mature woman in her thirties to ask an eighteen-year-old boy this question.
Xu Ziyin did not reply immediately, but asked instead.
"Sister Xuan, have you ever liked anyone?"
Hearing this, Luo Xuan shook her head and said softly without any hesitation.
"No, when I was young, I only knew how to study hard. When I finished reading, I realized that I was past the age of falling in love..."
Luo Xuan was interrupted by Xu Ziyin before she finished speaking.
"Sister Xuan, I think what you said is wrong."
"Who stipulates that falling in love is only the right of young people?"
"The pursuit of happiness is everyone's lifelong dream. There is no age range for this kind of thing. As long as you are alive and have a breath, your heart will never stop beating. Since the heartbeat is still there, then the heartbeat will still be there."
"When I met that person, I saw the right person, and naturally I developed unprovoked feelings for him. He was a childhood sweetheart when I was young, mature and stable in middle age, and warm and ordinary in old age."
"With different ages, the feeling of falling in love will naturally be different."
Luo Xuan usually teaches students. Today, when she listened to Xu Ziyin talk about love at length in front of her, Luo Xuan suddenly found it very interesting.
Then she saw Xu Ziyin pick up the book in her hand and said softly.
"Sister Xuan, don't you want to know what your love feels like?"
"You like reading very much. When you are with a man, he makes you feel like you are reading a book. Then that is the feeling of love you want."
While talking, Xu Ziyin took a peek at the name on the book.
[Worry-Relief Grocery Store]
"The Worry-Free Grocery Store" is a novel written by the Japanese writer Keigo Higashino.
As a parallel time and space, this world still retains many characters that Xu Ziyin was familiar with in his previous life. Similarly, many characters that he was familiar with have disappeared in the long river of history.
I just don’t know if this author, who is also named Higashino Keigo, is the one I was familiar with in my previous life, or if he just has the same name.
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Is it the same as reading a book?
Hearing this, Luo Xuan felt a little complicated.
She likes reading very much, and this habit has long been integrated into her bones.
But can there really be a man in this world who makes him feel the same as reading a book?
Luo Xuan didn't dare to think about it, but she knew clearly that if such a person really existed, she would probably like him very much.
She glanced at Xu Ziyin, then smiled lightly.
"Xu Ziyin, you are so eloquent, it seems you are very popular with little girls."
After hearing this compliment, Xu Ziyin did not show a proud expression but instead sighed quietly.
"Why are you sighing? Am I right?"
Leaning closer and closing the distance slightly, Xu Ziyin shook his head.
"Sister Xuan, it's undeniable that what you said is the truth, it's just a pity that it came out of your mouth."
"What's the pity?"
Luo Xuan felt that she could hardly catch Xu Ziyin's thinking.
"It's a pity for you."
"Pity me?"
Looking at the night scene outside the glass showcase, the streets were fresh and natural after the rain. Pedestrians passed by in twos and threes and disappeared in the shadow of the sight. Xu Ziyin said leisurely.
"Sister Xuan, they like me, but I don't like them, although it's not as perfect as two people liking each other."
"But compared to you, they don't even have anyone they like, but they are much luckier."
After saying this, Luo Xuan was shocked.
She stared blankly at the sultry young man in front of her with her little mouth open, and suddenly felt extremely bitter in her heart.
yes.
Compared to me, they don't even have anyone they like, so they are indeed much luckier.
She stared blankly at Xu Ziyin's slightly distressed expression, and then turned her head in a panic, following Xu Ziyin's gaze just now, and focused her gaze on the passers-by outside the window.
For some reason, during today's conversation with Xu Ziyin, he seemed to be able to see through her own heart. This was a feeling she had never experienced with other members of the opposite sex in more than thirty years of life.
She couldn't tell what kind of emotion it was.
I just feel that it would be great if the young man in front of me could be more than ten years older.
(Second update.)
(Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu The editor doesn't recommend it, saying that I haven't read enough, so I'm crying~)