In the beginning, I was carefree, but since I met the man who changed my life, my destiny was destined to change.
I am considered one of the luckier ones among many people. I was born in a privileged family.
My family is well off, and I am the only daughter in the family.
So since childhood, I have been pampered and pampered by everyone.
I grew up carefree until I was 25 years old, when my parents arranged a blind date for me for the first time.
They hope that I can stay with them forever, or marry close to each other so that I can move around more easily.
The blind date they found for me was very good, well-matched, and had an equally well-to-do family background.
Moreover, he is polite and very handsome.
But I don't know why, I just don't like it.
Maybe it was because I watched too many romantic dramas at that time, or maybe I was dissatisfied with the marriage my parents arranged for me, which all made me feel that I had no freedom.
I didn't even have a chance to choose.
So, I ran away.
runaway.
I just don't believe that I can't meet my Mr. Right by chance like in the TV series.
Look, I used to be so stupid and innocent.
On the day I left home, it suddenly started raining heavily.
I fled in a hurry in the rain, hiding everywhere.
I have been well protected since I was a child and have never been caught in the rain.
At this moment, an umbrella suddenly appeared above my head.
Just like in an idol drama, a handsome-looking man appeared in front of me.
He held an umbrella for me, leaving all the umbrellas to me to protect me from the rain, but his whole body was exposed to the heavy rain and was soaked to the bone by the heavy rain.
That day, when I looked at him washed away by the heavy rain, my heart moved for the first time.
Maybe it was because it was raining heavily that day and the atmosphere was just right, or maybe it was because that day, all the pedestrians were hurriedly hiding from the rain, and we were the only ones who stayed where we were, or maybe it was because of his words, "Don't catch a cold, you can take this umbrella." Come on."
I hurriedly took the umbrella: "What should you do?"
He smiled nonchalantly: "I'm a man, it doesn't matter."
That smile in the rain was particularly clear and warm to me.
Since then, I've been out of control.
He and I got closer and closer, and finally he confessed to me, and I have been waiting for this opportunity.
We are together.
However, this relationship was opposed by her parents.
They won't even allow us to get married until they die.
At that time, I was very well protected and very willful.
I was so obsessed with love that I wanted to marry him, even to the point of severing ties with my parents.
My parents were still worried about me, and before leaving, they gave me half of the family property.
And I married him without hesitation. My husband was wealthy.
A simple wedding, a simple wedding dress, everything was extremely simple, but I felt very happy.
I invested all my family property in him, and he was very promising and successful.
But one day, he suddenly confessed to me that he had an ex-girlfriend before me, his first love girlfriend.
She is pregnant with his child.
At that moment, the news exploded over my head like a bolt from the blue.
He said he would take care of everything and asked me not to worry.
From that day on, I became restless, unable to feel at ease, and worried about gains and losses.
For him, I gave up everything.
Family, friends, and the future are all willing to be the woman behind him.
After severing the relationship with my parents, I no longer have any relatives around me, and even the friends I used to have no longer interact with each other.
I have so many worries that I can't find anyone to talk to.
People, it's always like this.
When there is nothing left, he will cling to the only rope that appears in front of him.
And Gu Youqian is the rope.
I know I have nothing left, the only thing I have is him.
I know that many people say that women should not only have men in their eyes and hearts, but should have relatives, friends, their own lives, and be independent.
But I gave up all these for him.
So I only have him, and I can't live without him.
I found that woman specifically and asked her to leave.
I said I could give her a lot of money, but she didn't care at all.
She also swore to me that she stayed here just for Gu Youqian, so that she could squeeze me away and become his wife when Gu Youqian became famous.
I'm angry, I'm even angry.
But I left.
I believe in him and believe that he will not abandon me.
Because I have paid so much for him, he should not and cannot abandon me.
However, it was that night that really changed my mind.
At night, he was drunk, so I took care of him all night, taking care of him from vomiting and giving him a change of clothes.
But that night, he was calling her only name.
From that moment on I knew that he didn't like me at all.
I just feel that I am better than that woman, more suitable to be his wife, and more suitable for him to have a career.
From that day on, my sense of crisis reached its highest level.
I took action.
I killed that woman, but when faced with that little child, I couldn't do anything.
Because at that time, I was already pregnant with a little life, and no matter how cruel I was, I couldn't do anything to a child.
I took the child away and gave her to a childless couple.
They seem to care and be very happy about this child. I believe they will treat this child well.
I looked at the child and touched my cheek gently: "Don't blame me, I have to think about the child in my belly and me. Just think of it as something I owe you."
But the next second, the child's little hand grabbed my finger.
From then on, I started living my life pretending not to know anything.
I became gentle and virtuous, and I became less and less like myself.
And this peaceful life lasted for more than twenty years.
It’s just that I know better than anyone else that my life over the past twenty years has not been happy at all.
Not only was it uncomfortable, it was also very depressing.
The appearance of Gu Siying broke all this.
It also saved me from nightmares.
I finally found relief, the relief that had suppressed me for more than 20 years.
I began to regret that I didn't listen to my parents and marry the man I wanted to marry. I didn't belong to the right family and even broke off the relationship with my parents.
This is the stupidest thing I've ever done.
It was also the stupidest choice I've ever made.
I spent more than 20 years with a person who didn't love me, and I was ultimately destroyed at the hands of a person who didn't love me.
If I could do it all over again, I would never run away from home that day.
I will definitely not meet him in that heavy rain.