Lu Feng was stunned on the spot, one bad thought after another appeared in his mind, but he was unwilling to believe it, but he could not give himself a reasonable explanation.
After entering the house, Duoduo was lying on the table doing homework. He raised his head and glanced at Lu Feng and asked, "Isn't mom back yet?"
Lu Feng's heart tightened. He, who was always calm and calm, didn't know how to answer her. He licked his dry lips and said, "I'll give you a day off today. Go back to the house and sleep."
"Teacher will check it tomorrow." Duoduo said, looking at the notebook in his hand.
"Then go upstairs and write!" Lu Feng advised.
Duoduo went upstairs with his homework book, pencil, and eraser. As he walked on the stairs, the little guy stopped glumly and said, "I miss her."
"Okay, okay, let's go back to the house. She'll be back in a few days. You can tell her in person." Lu Feng didn't even dare to look at her expectant eyes.
When Duoduo returned to the house, Aunt Liu finished her work in the kitchen and took off her scarf to prepare to go back to the house.
"Aunt Liu, wait a moment." Lu Feng looked at her and said.
"What...what's going on?" Aunt Liu dodged a little and said, "I'm a little sleepy."
"It won't take much time." Lu Feng looked at her and asked, "Where did Jiang Xiaoyan go?"
"I... went out to play. I can hardly keep my eyes open. Let's go back to sleep first." Aunt Liu said and hurriedly walked to her bedroom.
"Stop!" Lu Feng shouted loudly and said: "I am the head of this family, what happened, I am not qualified to know? Which hospital is she in now? What happened?"
Aunt Liu's face turned pale when she heard this. The matter had reached this point and there was no point in hiding it anymore. Aunt Liu had no choice but to tell everything.
In the hospital, Jiang Xiaoyan's face turned rosy, but her eyes still lacked energy. Zhang Fengxia, who was sitting next to her, looked a little tired.
Throughout the whole day, Jiang Xiaoyan talked a lot about how the matchmaker introduced the two of them to each other, how they got married, and how she wanted to end her life more than once during the long years of torture.
But as Lu Feng changed, she seemed to see the sun rising in her own world. She thought that she would only be accompanied by happiness for the rest of her life. She never thought that the roller coaster life had just begun. As Jiang Xiaoyan herself said, she was the most beautiful woman in the world.
Lucky people are also the unluckiest people in the world.
The so-called ups and downs are nothing more than this.
Jiang Xiaoyan told Zhang Fengxia a lot about the prejudices in the village. When the family planning policy is so strict, even if they have to pay a fine, there are still people who risk their lives to give birth to a son.
Even Jiang Xiaoyan can feel that since Jiang Xiaohong gave birth to a son, her own mother has become a little impatient with her.
She began to feel panicked and insecure. She could not sleep with anxiety all night long. Sometimes she even had auditory hallucinations and always felt like someone was laughing at her from behind.
She didn't dare to face Lu Feng's parents. During the Chinese New Year last year, Jiang Xiaoyan had an emotional breakdown just because she asked a few questions about the child.
She was almost pushed to her limit. Being pregnant at this time was like the arrival of the gods in her life.
"You have persuaded me so much. You have told me about foreign countries and ideological changes. I understand them all, and I also know that they all exist, but they are too far away from me." Jiang Xiaoyan took a deep breath, her eyes were already red, and said: "
I can't pass my own test, and others' forgiveness for me is like a punishment. How can I face him? He has so many assets, but I can't give him a son and a half."
Zhang Fengxia always felt that Jiang Xiaoyan was a woman who came from the countryside and had a restricted mind. But after listening to what she said, she put herself in her shoes and thought that if she were her, she might not be as good as her.
She can't get rid of other people's prejudices against her, but what's more, she can get rid of her own prejudices against herself.
Lu Feng drove to the city hospital, ran to the front desk and asked, "Hello, I would like to ask, which ward Jiang Xiaoyan is in?"
"Who is Jiang Xiaoyan? Which department does he live in?" the nurse asked without raising her head.
"I don't know whether it's gynecology or obstetrics. She was sent here pregnant with a baby. Please help me check it out!"
The nurse flipped through the book in her hand, searched for a while and said: "Fourth floor, ward 403."
"thank you!"
After speaking, Lu Feng trotted towards the stairs. As soon as he reached the door of the ward, he heard Jiang Xiaoyan's voice inside. Lu Feng stood at the door, holding the door handle.
"What do you think I should do? How should I face him? No matter how thick-skinned I am, no matter how shameless I am, I can't just stay by his side and be a useless person!"
"He loves me, but one day he stops loving me. I have nothing and live in fear every day. Now I don't even have children. What should I do? Tell me, what should I do?"
Zhang Fengxia grabbed her hand and couldn't answer her question. Two family members complement each other. When one party becomes too strong, the other party will naturally be uneasy and afraid of losing. Coupled with the environment in which Jiang Xiaoyan grew up and her psychological problems,
Now that she has been forced, she is about to collapse.
Lu Feng loosened his hand when he was about to open the door. He sat on the bench beside him in a depressed mood. For such a long time, he seemed to be obsessed with making money. His company grew bigger and bigger, and the people under him
There are more and more.
But she seems to lack concern for Jiang Xiaoyan, and Lu Feng can also feel it. She really doesn't want to have so much money. Firstly, she likes to be ordinary and just have enough money to spend. Secondly, the more money she has, the more money she has.
The more she feels, the more inferior she feels.
Life is a matter of two people. What is needed is not only closeness between hearts, but more importantly, the same social status, so there will be more common words.
Lu Feng thought about it carefully and found that he didn't seem to care about her feelings. Every time he came back from a business trip, she would always talk to him about trivial things, such as what happened to Duoduo, how about a dog running over one day, and when.
It's windy, when will it rain?
This kind of thing that busy people wouldn't even notice in the eyes of busy people is the whole of her life. How lonely a person would pay attention to it in such detail.
Lu Feng wanted to go in and say sorry to her, but he knew that Jiang Xiaoyan could not face herself now. Her emotions were already on the verge of collapse. Going in hastily would only make things worse.
In the room, Zhang Fengxia slowly calmed her down. Lu Feng was also sitting outside blankly. The clock on the wall had already pointed to eleven o'clock in the evening.
Lu Feng stood up, took a deep breath, and decided to go home first. Maybe he should give her a little more time and space to breathe.
In the ward, Jiang Xiaoyan's eyes were red, she looked at Zhang Fengxia and said, "I really can't live anymore. It's too torture. It's more uncomfortable than killing me. Just leave me alone, okay?"
"What are you talking about? What will happen to Duoduo if you die? What will happen to your parents?" Zhang Fengxia hurriedly persuaded.
"We have Xiaohong at home, and my mother even thinks I'm embarrassed. When Lu Feng first got rich, he often mentioned me to people. Now she doesn't even want to talk about me. She just talks about Xiaohong. I'm not taken seriously at home. Why?
When I’m alive, I cook a lot and eat delicious food, but I eat less.”
"What about Duoduo? She will become an orphan, don't think about it!"
"Duoduo is not my child in the first place. He is so rich that he can find any kind of stepmother. No one needs me. I have always needed others. I need him to support me. I need Duoduo to be my child. I
I need that home." Jiang Xiaoyan choked up her words and said: "I...I really can't live anymore, please leave me alone, please, really beg you!"
"It's okay if I kowtow to you. Leave me alone. You are an elite who has returned from studying abroad. Why are you spending time with me, a woman who ran away from the countryside?"
"Stop talking nonsense, it's just a child. He doesn't know anything yet." Zhang Fengxia was anxious and subconsciously said: "It's just a child, I will bear it for you!"
"Will you give birth to me?" Jiang Xiaoyan seemed to have grasped the life-saving straw in her life. She suddenly sat up from the bed, stared at Zhang Fengxia closely, and asked: "Can you really give birth to me?"
Zhang Fengxia didn't expect that she would take her words of comfort to her seriously, but at this point, she had no choice but to bite the bullet and said: "I'll give birth to you. When I was studying abroad, people there were open to giving birth and having fun."
Similar."
"In this way, she is also his child. When this child grows up and my body recovers, I can have another child." Jiang Xiaoyan muttered to herself.
As long as she can be with Lu Feng, as long as there is a reason to convince herself, she will not give up, even if this matter is ridiculous, but only she and Zhang Fengxia know about it.
"Is it still too late? I am now three months pregnant." Jiang Xiaoyan asked uneasily: "Will it be discovered?"
"No...it's okay. If you tell me to go abroad to get pregnant when the time comes, he won't know." Zhang Fengxia felt her face stiffen.
"You will help me, right?" Jiang Xiaoyan looked at her, her eyes full of expectation, and she had no choice.
Zhang Fengxia had thought about it a lot before, but she didn't expect that the relationship between herself and Lu Feng would proceed in this way. This thing was so absurd that people couldn't believe it, but it actually happened.
She took a deep breath. Up to this point in her life, perhaps it was fate, whether she liked it or loved it, it was all an attempt.
"You like him, right?" Jiang Xiaoyan asked.
"Don't talk nonsense!"
"I'm not blind, I can see it." Jiang Xiaoyan laughed, she grabbed Zhang Fengxia's hand and said: "You are very good, you are a good person, you have a good personality, your education, family background, and appearance are all very good. As a woman
, you can be said to be perfect. Sometimes I feel ashamed when I compare myself with you."
"It's not as much as you said. Please promise me first that you won't seek life and death."