If calculated according to the time in the book...
She herself didn't know if the child in her belly would have a chance to be born.
Now she actually doesn't know anything about her future, she just wants to give herself a little hope.
Now that I know some of the truth, I can no longer reconcile with Shen Juan.
She seemed to have no chance to respond to Shen Juan's kindness and emotions.
It's better to just keep making mistakes like now...
Chi Yang thought like this.
The road is long, Shen Juan should adapt to life without her as soon as possible...
In fact, she was not ignorant of the matter, she was just selectively escaping from the outcome that was already determined in the book.
She has a childlike mind and has never been a mother, let alone one who is not ready to be one.
But she is not happy in the real world.
Everyone said that she had a good family background and had so much money in her family, so what else could she be unhappy about?
But all she wants is her parents' company.
In the original world, she had never experienced the love between her parents, but she had experienced it here.
People are greedy. Once they experience its goodness, they will never let go.
She sometimes thought that if she had a child, she would be like Chi's father and Chi's mother, who would take great care of the child, cherish it in every possible way, teach him everything she knew about human relations, and hold him hand in hand through the spring and summer. With autumn and winter.
She wants her children to be like her and have a taste of parental affection.
But Chi Yang didn't know if his child would have a chance to come to this world.
If so, she doesn't know if the child's father can make up for her own share of the emotion.
But according to what Shen Juan said before, this possibility should be ruled out...
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Chi Yang woke up in a daze, with no memory of when he fell asleep. He felt a little thirsty, so he called the maid to pour him a glass of water.
She has become more and more lazy these days, and won't do it herself if she can't.
The maid didn't respond for a long time, but the tea was indeed handed to her.
Chi Yang raised his eyes and saw Shen Juan, whom he hadn't seen for several days.
There are some surprises and some surprises.
Even Chi Yang himself couldn't understand his true inner thoughts.
While thinking about Shen Juan not to come back again, they broke up like this, and at the same time thinking about why Shen Juan didn't come to him again. Did he not love him anymore?
It was only now when he looked at Shen Juan in front of him that Chi Yang realized that he actually wanted Shen Juan to come.
"Aren't you thirsty? Drink quickly?"
Shen Juan said.
At Shen Juan's urging, Chi Yang took the teacup and drank the water.
After drinking the tea, Chiyang handed the tea cup back to Shen Juan without saying anything.
Shen Juan sighed softly, "Are you still angry? I know I was wrong..."
"If you want to keep this child, let's go back to Yanzhou. Where is the hidden miracle doctor, we still have a chance..."
Shen Juan just stood there, lowered his head, and said what he wanted to say.
Chi Yang stretched out his hand and held Shen Juan's finger, saying "hmm" softly, which was regarded as agreeing to Shen Juan's proposal.
It's just that I already knew the answer in my heart, so I just said this to give Shen Juan a result.
"If...if I don't live until the child grows up, will you be kind to it, will you love it very much?" Chi Yang raised his eyes to look at Shen Juan and asked softly.
Shen Juan leaned down, looked straight at Chi Yang, and said every word with great seriousness: "As long as you live, it will live. If you live, I will treat it well and love it well..."