Chapter 13 My heart is wandering, why are my thoughts wandering?
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I don’t know how many days have passed. From the day Zhao Xiaomei returned to Yuyi Town, her life once again returned to the discipline of discipline.
During the day, she would listen to Mr. Fan's lectures in her room, and there would be no one around her except the reading boys and the servants who only flattered her. Without Mr. Fan's permission, Zhao Xiaomei would not even be able to see her brother.
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Even if the day-long study is over, she can't rest in peace. No matter where she goes, there will always be one or two slaves by her side - when she goes to have a meal, they will be by her side to urge her to pay attention to her appearance; when she goes to visit Zhao Kuo, they will
They stood guard outside the door so that they could always tell them about the two brothers and sisters, whether good or bad; they never left even when they were dancing and writing in the house.
One day, Mr. Fan and Mr. Zhao Wei were in a good mood and agreed that the little sister would go out with the servants to buy wine, meat, cloth, spices and other daily necessities. Just when the little sister thought she could finally walk out of the house, she didn’t know that she was only
If you can sit in a sedan chair, you can just do what you are told and don't have to do it yourself.
No matter where she goes, there is always someone to protect her from the wind and rain. Even if she faces the harshest blow, it will only be punishment from her elders.
Such days must be very happy and happy, right?
"It's not like this!" Zhao Xiaomei said to herself more than once: "Why do I have to be like this?"
Such doubts echoed in the little girl's heart more frequently when she met her future husband's family. This was also the time when she saw her destiny most clearly - the two young masters who came all the way from Woye Town.
Yi and General Tong actually came here to get married.
And Zhao Xiaomei's fate seems to have been secretly decided by others since she was born. Like Yao Caiwei, the daughter of the Yao family, she will marry the Tong family brothers as a symbol of the friendship between Yuyi Town and Woye Town, and the little sister has never even seen the Tong family.
His eldest brother Tong Yao.
From that moment on, Zhao Xiaomei knew that she was no different from the refugees and refugees huddled on the street corner. They were all puppets at the mercy of fate. But the younger sister was a little luckier. She had a brother who truly loved and cared for her.
, there are many real friends, and there is an object of true admiration.
There is still hope in her heart, but she is not as brave as anyone else, and she can't think of any way to break the status quo. No matter what she does, it seems that there will be no good results for herself and Yuyi Town.
She is too weak, as if the "teaching" she has received since childhood was just for today: to achieve her weakness, to develop her habit of relying on others, and to make an originally free soul voluntarily become a prisoner of fate.
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Even Zhao Kuo didn't dare to go beyond his father's wishes, and Zhao Xiaomei naturally didn't dare to make any decisions. She didn't even dare to have any evil thoughts, because once she had such thoughts, she knew that she would only be in more pain.
"Just sit back and wait for death. At least it won't hurt anyone except myself... For the safety of Yuyi Town, the daughter of the Zhao family should come forward."
This seemingly great sentence, full of meaning of self-sacrifice for the sake of justice, lingered in that extremely weak heart. In fact, Zhao Xiaomei knew very well that this was at best a kind of superb self-comfort.
After the Tong family left, she watched the moonlight getting dimmer and dimmer every night, and the autumn wind becoming more and more bleak day by day. Gradually, she became so sad that she forgot the time, leaving her no time to take care of her makeup and clothes. She seemed to be getting used to everything.
I don’t want to live a life where I don’t look forward to anything.
As long as it was not necessary to leave the room, she refused to take a step outside. In the eyes of others, they would only think that this was caused by the fear in the heart of the girl to be married, and they would never care about what she was thinking.
Not long after the days of laziness and decadence, one day, a boy suddenly brought a piece of news. He ran all the way from the gate of Zhao Mansion shouting: "A smile is dead! A smile is dead!" with a loud voice.
It had to spread throughout the Zhao family.
The little sister had not seen such a big battle for a long time. So, she took some beautiful clothes that she had not touched for a few days, dressed up casually, and quietly walked out.
What the little sister never expected was that Bai Feng and Lou Jinghua were talking in detail in the yard outside the house. When the little sister saw this, she immediately closed the door, leaving only a small gap, and then panicked.
Zhang Di ran back to the dressing table and smeared various colored powders on his face almost frantically.
She didn't know why she did this, maybe it was because of the shame of being ashamed of herself. In short, she had to dress up very well before she could go out.
After a while, Zhao Xiaomei finally walked out openly. She aimed at the two people over there, walked straight over, and asked: "Have you seen Mr. Bai, have you seen Sister Lou... Why are you two here today? I heard
It was that smile that caused death, so I guess Sister Lou also got her silver back, right?"
"Although I only got back three thousand taels, it's enough..." Lou Jinghua smiled sadly, then patted her little sister's head lovingly and replied: "I heard that our little sister is getting married.
?It’s such a good thing.”
"You...you all know?" the younger sister said in fear.
"Yes, your father is about to discuss with General Yao how to hold a wedding banquet!" Lou Jinghua said: "Poor me, my family is in ruins and heavily in debt. Even if I want to marry, no one dares to marry me."
"Then...were you talking about me just now?" The younger sister stared at her eyes and turned to the daughter of the Lou family in front of her, then to Bai Feng, looking very nervous.
"Miss Zhao, I was just asking Miss Lou if there was any plot against her along the way." Bai Feng responded, "Also, please allow me to wish Miss Zhao a happy marriage."
"You...what are you talking about! Who dares you to say that? I'm not married yet!" After the little sister said this, she turned around and returned to the house angrily. No one knew the exact reason, maybe even Zhao Xiaomei herself.
can not say it clearly.
Seeing that Zhao Xiaomei was angry with him, Bai Feng felt helpless. Maybe even Lou Jinghua saw some clues from it, so she also teased: "Bai Shaoxia, you are really 'caring'!"
Bai Feng said with a smile: "Miss Lou, we are going to say goodbye. I hope that no matter whether Mr. Zhao sends the remaining seven thousand taels as promised or not, you will not give up. You will never give up if you grovel and beg others to get it.
It will be more secure than what you earn with your own sweat and blood."
"Thank you, Young Master Bai, you are a real hero! If you have any difficulties in the future, please come to our Lou family. Even if our Lou family becomes poor and homeless in the future, this little girl will never forget your kindness." Lou Jinghua dialogued
Feng's admiration was beyond words, and he always nodded slightly, lowered his eyebrows in flattery, and tried his best to express all the appropriate good intentions in front of the other party.
Saying goodbye to the daughter of the Lou family, Bai Feng turned around and planned to sneak into the place where Zhao Kuo was under house arrest. However, there were four guards standing in front of the door of the room, and it was a sunny day, so the guards were very tight.
It's not bad, but you can't blatantly go up to the roof.
So, he could only knock on Zhao Xiaomei's door in the name of apology, hoping to ask for help.