"Then why are you practicing? Ah Rong, you have to know that many young people will have the same thoughts as you do now, but what is the fact? The fact is that no matter how hard you struggle to practice, you will eventually fall in front of the helpless fact! We are here for you
The path you have chosen is the safest. Can't you just stay in the small world and gain experience? You can continue to go out for five or ten years! As long as it's safe, that's fine."
Yan's mother's eyes were filled with tears at this time. She may be a little biased, but Yan Rong is also her child, how could she be willing to watch her child get into trouble? Many people think that they are invincible when they are young. Even if
If you are looked down upon by others, or even if your talent is far inferior to others, you will feel an inexplicable sense of self-confidence.
But what about the facts?
I don’t know how many people died on that unconventional road!
Yan's mother really didn't know why her eldest son chose this path. Wouldn't he have a good life after practicing peacefully and step by step? Isn't Yan Rong the most obedient one all the time?
"But I don't want to be an obedient child."
Yan Rong suddenly spoke, which shocked the Yan family. Everyone looked at this scene in disbelief. How could Yan Rong, with his gentle temperament, speak in such a firm tone? And with this content, what does it mean to not want to be obedient?
child?
Yan's mother glanced at her eldest son in disbelief, only to see him standing there straight. Although he said nothing, his back was straight.
"Actually, I have always felt that as a monk, we should focus on big things like cultivation and ascension. We really shouldn't waste too much time thinking about small things like family disputes. But I gradually discovered that if these things are not solved and not talked about,
I will always have this knot in my heart. So I chose to come back. Before leaving, I must resolve this matter."
"What are you talking about? Do you think I am partial to your younger siblings? Or do you think we hurt your heart by giving you your younger siblings in those ten years? Just tell us, we will change and we will make it up to you.
You tell us..."
Yan Rong's lips trembled slightly. For a moment, he even thought, how about giving up like this? We are all a family, why should we make things so clear?
But Yan Rong had made countless presets for himself before coming back, and after a brief hesitation, he still spoke.
"There are some things that hurt feelings if you say them plainly. But if you don't say them, you will hurt yourself. Father, mother, I can raise my younger siblings and honor you. But I can't stand being fooled, looked down upon, and despised."
"Who looked down on you? Who fooled you? Say it, say it! How could we look down on you? It's too late for us to love you!"
"That's it again."
"What?"
Yan's mother suspected that she had heard wrongly, but the next moment, she saw unprecedented anger on Yan Rong's face.
"I know you love me. Yanjun and Yanyan even said that they would be willing to take the knife for me if they had to! I am really touched. But the invisible look down and contempt cannot be hidden. Every time I feel sad
, I will tell myself this. Tell myself that you love me. Only in this way can I not feel so uncomfortable."
Yan's parents' lips trembled. They didn't know that Yan Rong was pretending to have so many things in his heart, and they didn't know that the child was so miserable. But why didn't the child tell him earlier? Why didn't he tell him that he wasn't feeling well earlier?
Woolen cloth?
"Did I really not say it? I said it many times. But what did I get? Perfunctory, shirk, big things turned into small things, small things turned into small things..."
My mind can't help but go back to the past few times when I finally mustered up the courage to speak out my heart.
"Father, I, I also want to go out and experience."
"Oh, you are still young, what can you do when you go out? It is better for your parents to go out and practice while they are young. You can take care of your younger brothers and sisters at home. Okay?"
"Mom, you can't teach Yanyan like this. If you do something wrong, you are doing something wrong. You can't lie."
"What are you kidding talking about? Weren't you like this when you were little? I'm not telling you, Ah Rong, why are you so stupid? This is your biological sister. Who is more important than your biological sister or others?"
"Brother, what's the use of practicing so hard? Your talent is not good. No matter how hard you practice, you will achieve nothing in the end. Why do you have to suffer like this?"
"Big brother, big brother! Do you have any more spirit stones? Mine has been used up, can you give me some?"
"I don't have any anymore..."
"You lied to me! You don't have any expenses, how could you not have any? Why don't you go to your mother to advance next month's share of spiritual stones to me? Ah? Mine? I have other uses for next month. Oh, let's
We are all a family, and what is yours is mine. What if you give me a little?"
Yan Rong is not a fool. On the contrary, he is gentle and kind-hearted by nature, and is very sensitive to other people's thoughts. It's not that he doesn't say anything, it's just because he knows that saying it will be useless.
"Mom and dad, Yanjun Yanyan, I am indeed a person with a good temper. But I have a gentle temper and don't hold grudges, so do I have to be bullied? You are my closest relatives, and even you can't look at me with a normal attitude, so what can I do?
How can I expect others to look at me like an ordinary person? Yanjun, do you think my talent is not as good as yours, so I should honestly do what a big brother should do? Honor your parents and raise your younger siblings. As for practicing or not,
Actually, it doesn’t matter? Yan Yan, will you give me some of your spiritual stones?”
Yan's father, Yan's mother, Yanjun and Yanyan fell into silence.
In fact, they felt a faint sense of embarrassment at being exposed. Yanyan even tightened her storage bag for a moment, just because the eyes of her parents, brothers and guests were looking at her.
That's why he didn't show it more openly. As for Yanjun, his face was red at this time and he looked at his elder brother in disbelief. He never knew that the elder brother who was so gentle and had no temper that made him feel unhappy,
There will be such a brave day!
"Ah Rong! Ah Rong, we know what we did was wrong, but we are blood relatives, blood is thicker than water! Don't leave yet, I know what I did was wrong, you must at least give us a chance to change."
At this time, Yan's mother had already burst into tears. No matter what, Yan Rong was her own flesh and blood, and Yan's mother was so uncomfortable that she almost fainted.
But she had a vague feeling in her heart that it was too late. This child had been disappointed so many times that he would not give them even one more chance.
Sure enough, Yan Rong gently but firmly refused.
"It's too late. I'm sorry, Mom, Dad, Yanjun, Yanyan, everything has passed. Now I just think about it and feel sorry for myself. I don't want to be so obedient."