Chapter 118 I don’t want to be a human being anymore
When Su Yao saw Xia Xianyue again, she was no longer as noisy as she was at the beginning.
“···”
He just lowered his head like a little rabbit and occasionally peeked at Su Yao's expression.
But the moment the eyes come into contact, it will immediately lower.
What should I say?
It still feels very dreamy.
But Lin Xiaowan sent too much evidence.
We went to see Titanic together just a few days ago?
Looking for a school for a child?
Not impressed at all.
"Still think it's a dream?"
Su Yao didn't sit too close, he just pulled up a stool and sat at the window, looking outside.
Presumably leaving a silhouette in this way can reduce her pressure a little.
"Ah, no, not anymore."
Xia Xianyue's face turned red when she recalled what she thought was a dream at first, "That! I used to think it was a dream."
"Is your dream serious?"
"Woo."
Choked.
Don't know how to answer.
"Although I've known something was wrong with you for a long time, I really didn't expect that you would often have such strange dreams before."
Su Yao turned around and saw that she was staring at him. When he saw him, he immediately retracted, "Why are you so reserved? Just pretend that you are dreaming. It's okay to be bold."
“···”
Xia Xianyue felt that her cheeks were steaming.
But I felt a little sad for no reason.
"Has Auntie really passed away?"
So, I asked anyway.
Some of the facts I learned after making the phone call.
"Well, he passed away."
“···”
"A Yao, is it really that easy to forgive someone like me, and even accept a confession from someone like me?"
"It's not easy."
It can't be easy.
Su Yao smiled and said, "Although I don't know what you think now, but because of many things, I did accept it. And strictly speaking, it was not you who confessed to me."
"I said it, from now on your role will be Girlfriend A."
"Will there still be b?"
"Maybe there's also c."
"Woo..."
There were two lines of tears streaming from her eyes, and she wiped them desperately, but she couldn't wipe them away.
"Hey, hey, that's not it, is it? Isn't it just a joke?"
"I, woo, woo..."
What I wanted to say couldn't be said.
Tears kept overflowing, from choking to wailing.
Xia Liangzhen opened the door slightly and took a look, then closed the door again and did not come in.
“···”
There was no other way, so Su Yao went over and patted his head like a child.
"But, can we kiss again?"
"sure."
Isn't it just a casual encounter?
How difficult is that?
Su Yao came over and touched her casually. Just as she was about to speak, she suddenly hugged Su Yao tightly with her backhand.
"Don't you still want to do something unspeakable in the hospital when you wake up from the dream?"
"That's right, that's not true!"
"What do you want to do?"
"I, I...that."
After holding it in for a long time, he hesitated and said, "I may not be able to look directly at Ah Yao's face now!"
"What the hell?"
“···”
"You don't want to keep me bent over like this, do you?"
"Hmm... um."
"Hmm, woolen yarn, um, loosen it."
“···”
He let go and lowered his head pitifully.
It's like being a guest at a relative's house you don't know well and not knowing what to say and where to put your hands.
"Otherwise, I'll go back first and you can buffer yourself."
“···”
If Su Yao really plans to leave, it may not be a bad thing to give her time to buffer. There is no need to force her to accept everything at once.
But the corner of his clothes was pulled again.
"Don't, don't go..."
“···”
Difficult to handle.
It's really difficult.
Su Yao sighed and reached out to pinch her cheek, forcing her moist pupils to face him.
"Xiaonatsu-san."
“···”
"I have to go back and see you again in the afternoon. Then make it more interesting for me, and don't be as submissive as you are now."
"Do you know?"
"Say quickly, you know."
"I, I understand."
I felt like crying as I spoke.
"cough."
I don't know when Xia Liangzhen came in, "The doctor will be here soon. Su Yao, you haven't had breakfast yet? Go eat first."
Why does the look in your eyes feel a little bit evil?
"Oh, I won't eat in the hospital. I have to go back."
"go back?"
Xia Liangzhen didn't say anything, "If anything happens, it's okay if you're not here, I'm here."
"that is···"
"Some people may want you to be here more than me staying here."
"!"
Xia Xianyue lowered her head in silence, not daring to say anything. She just felt her cheeks getting hotter and hotter.
"It's okay, I'll come every day."
"Go back and catch up on your sleep first."
"I know, so does Auntie."
Su Yao smiled heartily and left.
Return home.
The moment he opened the door, Su Yao saw Youye sleeping on the coffee table. There was also a copy of the twenty-four words of text lying beside him.
"This little deer was completely unaware of the dangers lurking in the water..."
Animal World is still playing.
"Big brother?"
When Su Yao went over to turn off the TV, You Ye also woke up, rubbing his eyes in a daze.
"Have you been waiting for me?"
"Well, Youye wants to wait for big brother to sleep together."
"You don't have to wait for me anymore, just go to bed when you feel sleepy."
Su Yao touched her hair and said, "Go brush your teeth and wash your face and get ready for breakfast."
"Okay~"
Youye wandered towards the bathroom.
Then he washes up like a child who just woke up. Except for the tail on his back, he is really no different from humans.
go to school···
I don’t know. I can’t think about it now. Let’s wait.
Su Yao took out small dried fish and the like from the safe and helped You Ye wash them, and then took out dried noodles to cook some noodles.
He is not a tough guy, and he is still sleepy after staying up all night.
So after eating, I got ready to go to bed and catch up on my sleep until noon before going over to see Xia Xianyue. This time I took You Ye with me.
"Big brother."
Youye also climbed into bed.
"Do you want to catch up on your sleep too?"
"No."
Youye shook his head, as if hesitating, "I'm sorry, big brother, actually Youye lied."
"lie?"
Su Yao frowned, "What lie?"
"That sister is resurrected, big brother must be very happy, right?"
"But that was actually just Youye forcibly activating my sister's life characteristics. My sister now seems to be dull, with only the IQ of a human cub and some instinctive reactions."
"You Ye thought about it for a long time and felt that you can't deceive your elder brother."
"But Youye can definitely let that sister learn slowly, and eventually she can be the same as before."
"Wait a minute, you said you forcibly activated her life characteristics. Now she should be in a daze, looking like a child of how old?"
"Hmm... Because such a sister can only be regarded as a brand new creature in a sense. Only the body is the same."
Youye also twitched his tail, lowered his head and said, "What Youye thought was that it would be great if my sister could be resurrected. But I also thought carefully about it. If the eldest brother died, Youye would resurrect him like this, like that
The big brother is no longer the big brother. You Ye will not feel happy."
“···”
After sorting it out in his mind for a while, Su Yao understood.
"That is to say, when you rescued her, your idea was that as long as she survived, you didn't care about anything else?"
"I'm sorry, big brother, Youye knows I was wrong."
"What's wrong with this?"
Whether it's the motivation or the final result, or whether it's because I feel like I did something wrong and tell the truth.
"If you hadn't done this, maybe she would really be dead."
"But luckily, she did not become a child with an IQ of only a few years old. Although some of her memories are missing, she can still remember most of them."
"And you didn't want to hide it from your elder brother, so you came to confess."
Su Yao touched her head and said, "There is nothing wrong. On the contrary, as I said before, you did the right thing."
"?"
You Ye asked in confusion, "Didn't that sister really turn into a human cub with an IQ of only a few years old?"
"No, she is still her."
"How strange."
"What's weird?"
"Youye has transformed completely dead mice before, but after they were resurrected, they became clumsy, even their limbs became uncoordinated, and they couldn't do anything except instinct."
"There is also a little bird. After being forcibly activated, it forgot to even fly. It could only walk on the ground, and was later eaten by You Ye."
"Youye thought that sister would be like the little mouse and the little bird."
"Who knows?"
Su Yao looked at the ceiling and said, "Maybe she was not completely dead in the first place, just because your treatment methods are much better than humans."
I can’t tell you how many things there are. Who can explain this kind of thing clearly?
If Xia Xianyue was really dead, it would be like a computer that broke down and had its battery removed, then replaced with a new one and was forcibly activated.
The body is still there, and the parts inside have only been repaired rather than replaced, so she has only lost some data and has not been replaced.
Perhaps this explanation makes sense.
"Then if Youye finds his father's body and forcibly activates him, will he be successful?"
"Do you know where your father's tomb is?"
"Yeah! I can smell it."
"Do you want to revive him?"
"I think that way You Ye can verify some problems and have a greater chance of returning to the original form."
“···”
Su Yao felt it was unrealistic from the bottom of his heart, but if a person's consciousness really remains in the body and has not dissipated, it is not impossible to restart the computer.
Not right either.
Although Xia Xianyue was declared dead by the hospital, it might just be a death declared due to insufficient modern medical standards and not a real death.
And the scientist has been dead for so long, which is a more 'real' death.
But that doesn’t mean that restarting as you said is impossible.
"Let's talk about this matter... in a few days."
But Su Yao must consider that if he does this, if he is discovered by someone who is staring at the scientist, will he be targeted as a result?
After all, the notes he left behind revealed that there was a larger organization besides the exploding laboratory.
It’s just that no one knows about the existence of Yuya in anthropomorphic form. There must be people in the world who are looking for Yuya in monster form.
If you get along with that person, risks may arise.
But if you use loading to avoid risks, you are always constrained by the randomness of the "love game" and the unknown number of times limit.
It would be funny if it simply disappeared because of risk aversion.
It was also for this reason that the bodies of the two people were just buried underground without reading the files to find a more secure way to dispose of them.
"Also, big brother, You Ye disposed of the bodies of those two people."
You Ye suddenly said something again.
"Disposed of it?"
Su Yao was stunned.
"Well, Youye knows that Big Brother buried them in the soil because he didn't want to be discovered by other humans, but Youye feels that if they don't disappear completely, it might still bring trouble to Big Brother."
"So I improved the strong alkali and strong acid, and paired it with some corrosive digestive liquid that You Ye had, and within half an hour they turned into inorganic substances and decomposed in the field. There was no smell or trace.
Even You Ye can't smell any smell or see any traces."
“···”
Seeing the expression asking for credit, Su Yao paused for a moment.
This is undoubtedly a good thing for myself, and the risk has completely disappeared.
Yuye's motivation also comes from the way he dealt with them by burying them in the soil, and the thought of letting them disappear forever. It is a pure motivation.
but.
A child, disposing of two corpses?
He keeps saying that he wants to educate Yuye to become a human being, but Yuye or Passive does such a thing out of good intentions.
But I know.
There is no way I can do those things on my own. A lot of them.
It's just like using Youye as a tool.
Su Yao does not regret killing them.
But I really started to regret bringing You Ye with me.
This shouldn't be something to laugh about.
It shouldn't be Yu Ye's job to finish it off.
Is it okay to not let You Ye kill them and let her watch her kill them and then help finish them off?
Very strange.
"Youye."
"?"
"Do you think Big Brother did the right thing by killing them?"
"Well! It just takes too long for the body of a living thing to decay naturally, especially the bones. These are all written in human knowledge. As long as they still exist, they may be discovered by other humans, and there will be risks. In human knowledge
I said risk control——”
"Don't talk yet, listen to me carefully."
Su Yao was no longer sleepy at this time. He sat up straight and looked at You Ye, "What big brother did was wrong."
"They really deserve to die."
"But in the human world, fellow humans are not qualified to judge other people. Even if you hate someone very much, you have no right to kill him."
"Why?"
Youye showed a very confused expression, "But didn't they also kill that sister? Youye has seen fights between humans before, and some were hit like Youye but could not be resurrected."
"Yes, it is true that some people will kill other people, but it is definitely not the majority of people, just a small number of people who don't care whether they can survive in human society."
"There are rules called 'laws' in the human world. If humans do anything that violates the rules, there will be a specialized department to try them and finally convict them. The punishment will be determined based on the crime."
"Normally, people who kill other humans are sentenced to death."
"This kind of rule is so weird. Then if the eldest brother is harmed by someone else and Youye gets rid of that human being, will he also be sentenced to death?"
"Depending on the situation, there is a case of self-defense."
"justifiable defense?"
You Ye was even more confused.
"In short, it is not the right thing to deal with them privately. This is a wrong example, big brother, and cannot be regarded as something worthy of boasting."
"If you violate the rules, you will be ostracized from the human world."
"What a strange rule, Youye still doesn't understand it."
"I will go into detail later, but you must remember that in the human world, you must not kill anyone unless your life is being endangered. If you do that, you will definitely be rejected by the entire human circle.
.”
"If you do something like this, you will definitely be punished."
"And big brother just used your ability to avoid punishment. This is absolutely wrong."
Su Yao got up from the bed and walked to the wall.
"Big brother has done something wrong and needs to be punished and reflect on it just like you."
Although this is completely child's play compared to real punishment.
But it must be done.
Leading by example is always more effective than words.
Of course, I just stood upside down by the wall and struggled to support myself.
Use this situation to simply tell Youye that this is not the right thing to do.
"Then You Ye also did something wrong and will be punished as well."
As a result, You Ye was also beside Su Yao, imitating him and leaning against the wall while standing on his head.
A very funny situation.
Did Youye do something wrong?
In fact, no, what she did consciously was whether she kept the girl alive, saved Xia Xianyue, or disposed of the body.
Almost everything brings positive feedback.
The only thing wrong was that she didn't refute any of her guardian's requests, she just carried them out faithfully.
That's right.
But Su Yao thought that what she wanted to create was definitely not a being who would do whatever she was told, even if she killed someone, she would not blink an eye.
Therefore, he must treat this matter carefully.
"ha···"
After standing on his head to the point of exhaustion, Su Yao saw that Youye didn't feel anything at all and waved her hand to indicate that it was over.
Compared with this completely unequal punishment, Su Yao had to break down his motives and tell You Ye why he did what he did.
And why is it right in terms of ethics but wrong in terms of rules?
"That is to say, even if you hate Yu Ye, you have to be patient. So that you won't be ostracized by the human world for breaking the rules?"
"That way, Youye won't want to integrate into the human world anymore."
"Why?"
"If another human kills his elder brother, Youye will definitely get rid of him very angry."
"Generally speaking, no one will come specifically to kill me, and I will not have any thoughts of killing anyone."
"Brother, Youye doesn't want to be a human anymore. It's so complicated. Youye thinks it's simpler in the animal world where the weak and the strong eat each other."
"Have you forgotten why you want to blend in with humans?"
"Because big brother said we need to find proof of its existence."
"Yes, you are the king of the animal world. Do you find it interesting?"
"Hmm..."
Youye shook his head.
"Don't think human rules are complicated. Do you know how many humans there are in the world?"
"More than 8 billion."
"Are there any other creatures in such numbers?"
"Ant."
“···”
"In short, human beings are indeed complex, but precisely because they are completely different from the animal world, they can become leaders on the earth."
"Moreover, don't you want to gain other companions who recognize you? There are many interesting things in the human world, just like the animal world you like to see, that is the scene created by humans."
“···”
"Youye, you are still young now. Although your learning ability is really strong, there are many things that you won't understand if you just know them and don't practice them."
Su Yao caressed You Ye's smooth hair, "As for me, the only thing I can do is to help you truly understand the meaning of some things and understand why people are human. By then you will know why big brother wants you to integrate into humans.
.”
"I may have said a bit too much. It doesn't matter if you don't understand it now. You will gradually understand it later."
"Oh, Youye understands."
Youye twitched his tail and said happily, "By the way, big brother, when Youye just brushed his teeth, he accidentally touched his big brother's toothbrush into the toilet and broke it, but Youye patted it a few times and it was fine again.
Well. It’s that little red light that’s flashing, does that mean the battery is low?”
"toilet?"
Su Yao was stunned.
Then Yigulu got up and rushed into the bathroom, rinsing his mouth desperately against the faucet.