The floor-to-ceiling windows on the balcony were half open, and the cool evening breeze was blowing, and a few clothes were swaying on the clothes drying pole.
"You go in first and do whatever you want, I forgot to buy something."
"Then let me go together!"
"No need, I'll be back soon."
Su Yao didn't care about Xia Xianyue's reaction behind him, turned around and returned to the elevator.
It just so happens that no one is using it yet, so get in and press the '1' button.
After waiting anxiously for the descent, I reached the first floor and rushed out quickly.
It was close to 0 o'clock. At this time, there was almost no one downstairs, and there were not many cars passing by on the road.
"ha···"
"call···"
Su Yao just ran desperately to the back of the building. Behind this were various wholesale shops, which usually closed around seven o'clock in the evening.
There are no street lights here, and if it weren't for the intersection, you wouldn't be able to see anything.
Nowhere.
We've arrived behind the building, but can't find the entry.
Why?
Is it because of the Xia Xianyue?
If it were her, then she would be here now, working hard to create an environment where we could meet.
jealous?
What to say, you should also consider your own feelings after not receiving any news at all for a year and a half, right? How can you be so willful?
I don't feel any blame. But it's been a long time since I showed up. No matter what, at least give me a chance to talk.
[I met an acquaintance, it may take a while before I can come back]
【Okay~(cute bear expression)】
Sent a message to Xia Xianyue.
Maybe she's a little confused now, but Su Yao doesn't have time to care about that.
It would be really ridiculous to miss You Ye in such a funny way, or to regard this grand affair as an illusion.
Just say... at least meet and say something.
So, Su Yao returned downstairs and drove to the hillside where he and Youye met for the first time.
If it was You Ye, he would definitely be paying attention to his actions, and he would definitely know the meaning of going there.
If that's the case, then you're willing to come out, right?
We haven’t seen each other for a year and a half. Has Yu Ye grown up now?
So what have you been through, and what have you experienced?
At that time——
There are many, many things to ask. Although you cannot answer some core questions yourself, if you meet and communicate in person, you will definitely be able to find opportunities to resolve them.
I've known for a long time that Youye is a good boy, right?
"Ha, hoo——"
A person climbed up the hillside tiredly. It seemed that the hillside had recently begun to be tidied up in response to the cultural and creative city. There was no more garbage, and all the old street lights that were not working were replaced with new ones. There were even new pavilions.
No one is up here.
No matter what, you can meet here. There is no one else here except yourself.
It doesn’t matter if you can’t find the entry.
"Youye."
"Now that I'm back and I'm here, there's no need to play hide-and-seek with my big brother, right?"
Are you too far away to hear me?
"Yuye!"
Try turning up the volume.
"I know you're back. Now that you're back, come out!"
"It's nothing to avoid seeing each other when you come back!"
“···”
"You must be looking for me when you come back, right? Otherwise, what are you doing here?"
"You didn't give me a chance to talk even if it was a topic about a year and a half ago, right?! If you want to answer or communicate, at least come out!"
“···”
strangeness.
Feel very strange.
I'm shouting here like a clown, but there's still nothing around me.
"~"
Sitting on the bench in the pavilion again, I inexplicably blew the sound of Where the Stars Are.
The three songs that Su Yao composed and uploaded together at that time have not been sold or put on the shelves until now, and they are allowed to be played online for free.
Now I have become very good at playing it, because for a year and a half, I always used it to entertain myself during the most difficult nights.
Why don't you come out?
Su Yao thought of something.
"If it becomes like that again, there is no need to worry because of that appearance."
"No matter what you are, aren't you still Yuye?"
"Now that things have happened, do you think that your elder brother hates you just because of that kind of thing?"
“···”
There were only two illusory lights around, and there were no entries in the darkness.
Why?
"Crack."
Su Yao lit a cigarette, and the mist made her eyes feel uncomfortable.
After all, can she really hear him talking here?
I mean, did she leave from the moment I saw her entry? For some reason.
To this day, I still vividly remember the scene before I lost consciousness.
Ahhh.
Is that so?
That is to say, I have given up since I came back and saw myself and Xia Xianyue together.
What if not?
Give up Xia Xianyue by yourself?
Are you here to respond to Yuye's confession a year and a half ago? It's not like that.
I just stubbornly want to see her. As for what I want to say after seeing her, I haven’t thought about it. In other words, I have already made my choice of what I want to say.
"right."
"I chose her, but I can't give up on her. It would be so pitiful to break up with her at this time."
"It's not..."
"Per se, I probably like her a little bit. I never thought about responding to you and accepting you."
"If you come back because you want to get this answer, and you don't want to see me because you saw the answer in advance, that's normal."
"I'm just saying, isn't it possible for us to be lovers, even simple things like meeting and talking to each other?"
I don’t know.
I couldn't understand what Youye was thinking, and I even wanted to think that what I saw before opening the door was just an illusion.
It's okay if it's just an illusion.
After realizing this, Su Yao suddenly realized that he had subconsciously rejected You Ye.
It has lasted for a year and a half, and I don't know where Yuye has been active. If he had already lifted the restrictions of the anthropomorphic state, he would be in contact with human life without any scruples.
With her appearance and IQ, she has no shortage of friends. You can think so, right? She is actually living a good life outside.
It's just that I am a little bit special, and then I want to come back to see myself and get some kind of response.
I left because I knew I wouldn't get a response. It was a very considerate approach.
So considerate that it's hard to accept.
"At least come out and meet."
Yu himself thinks so. But it may be redundant for You Ye. It's also unfair to Xia Xianyue.
“···”
With a cigarette hanging, Su Yao looked at the lonely city under the hillside, with occasional car lights passing by.
He suddenly thought that the reason why Xia Xianyue woke up suddenly was because Youye had done something? He happened to appear at this time.
Maybe, very likely.
But it must not be a puppet. If it were a puppet, it would be impossible to know the name of the game that was irrelevant ten years ago.
There's no way Yuye wouldn't come out to meet because of the puppet.
"Buzz."
Message received.
【When will Ah Yao come back? Sleepy zzz~】
I was really stunned for a long time, and then I felt relieved.
【Come back soon】
What are you doing?
Not necessary.
"call."
Su Yao took a deep breath and looked around again, but still found no entry.
"Youye."
"If you think this is enough, then big brother has nothing to say."
I want to say that if you need anything, you can contact me, but I don't think that's the case.
"I owe you a lot of things, but I'm basically just an ordinary human being and can't do anything."
"I do have a lot to say."
"But if you don't want to see me, then don't. It'll be okay."
"only···"
"I sincerely hope you can find the life you want after you leave."
Maybe there are still entanglements in my heart, but let's bury them deep in my heart now.
If this is the ending, if this is the thought, if this is the case.
Then why should I distort and insist on ruining a beautiful day for another important person?
All I can say is, I'm sorry, big brother can't cover everything.
After stubbing out the cigarette butt, Su Yao walked down the stairs again.
My thoughts are clear, but my steps cannot become as light as what I want in my heart.
“···”
I just sat in the driver's seat expressionlessly, turned the key, and felt the vibration of the engine.
Such an expression is not flattering.
So I put on a pleasant and refreshing smile.
I just suddenly met my non-existent friend A and reminisced about old times for a while. I went back and bought some snacks like plums and cigarettes.
My eyes are always darting towards dark places where I can easily hide. This is really dangerous. I can't find anything, I can't see anything.
Return home.
I saw Xia Xianyue sitting on the corner of the sofa, hugging the pillow, her head tilted slightly, and fell asleep.
That's because I was delayed for more than two hours as I had made an appointment to come back right away.
Can I just ignore her for the time being and just do whatever I want?
Just as I thought just now, I will use the opportunity of archiving to create a node, and keep going back and forth until I find You Ye.
But that's not necessary.
Looking at this sleeping face, Su Yao really calmed down. This is the life of ordinary people. She also really exists and is really waiting for her to come back.
How many thoughts did you suppress before you could only send a message in a subtle and obedient manner?
"Feel sorry."
“···”
There was no response because she was already asleep.
He didn't even know that he was being picked up and put on the bed. He just frowned slightly, perhaps subconsciously pulling off the quilt covering his body.
Su Yao didn't sleep and returned to the living room. Only then did she have the opportunity to see the cat tail placed on the coffee table.
That should be the cloth wrapped in the tail that was once replaced by Yu Ye. Now it is placed on the coffee table for some reason. It is very clean.
Su Yao went to the closet and looked. The other one she left for You Ye to replace a year and a half ago was still there. This was indeed what she put here. It was not an illusion.
Can't say anything.
There is no one to talk to.
I opened the refrigerator and found that the dried fish had also been tampered with. It was fresh dried fish that was replaced every once in a while. The bag had a small opening.
"Crack."
I moved to the balcony, leaned on the railing, and stared silently at the pitch black outside. Today there were not only no stars, but also no aircraft.
"If that's the case, big brother is going to sleep."
Talk softly to yourself.
Who knows if You Ye can hear it?
It doesn’t matter, I’m telling it to myself anyway.
Just pretend you can hear it, and then.
“···”
Until the third cigarette is extinguished.
"Wow——"
Completely close the floor-to-ceiling windows on the balcony that have not been closed for a year and a half, and return to the house.
"Good night."
If this is the case, then I can only give this answer.
Then he took off his coat and curled up on the bed. He held his significant other in his arms.
It was also unconscious. As soon as he got close to her, he naturally put his hands on his back. It was as if he was using himself as a pillow. She was being relied on.
This is a feeling I’ve heard someone say and I’m actually experiencing it now.
If you think about it again, it is not a good thing to worry too much about gains and losses. Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery. Knowing that you are back today is a gift from God, but you do not want to meet, it is indeed a blow.
But today is not just you, there are other gifts that should be cherished. Therefore, no matter how you cherish today as a gift, cherishing the present is what you should do.
so--
Go to sleep, and when you wake up and see her bright smiling face next to you, all the suppressed and negative emotions will disappear.