Su Yao lowered his head blankly and saw the tail passing through his chest. It seemed to be darker than a year and a half ago.
But why?
"Wonderful night?"
“···”
Su Yao stared at the expressionless face with difficulty.
I don’t understand why the reunion... would be like this.
Youye doesn't understand either.
Why do this?
Knowing the fact that there was no way to contact him again, he accepted it. He obviously ran away and then turned back.
What's the point of doing this?
It means that he came back to transform his eldest brother's optic nerve.
That day was when Youye returned to the winter market after 465 days.
When I took a peek at the hospital, I found out that the brain nerves of the female human were already active, so I helped her wake up early.
That's right.
After meeting him, he will definitely be very happy to learn that female humans are truly resurrected.
but···
That night, the female human did wake up, but her big brother didn't come back.
Youye spent a meaningless day and night alone in this room full of what humans call memories.
For the first time, I experienced what was probably a 'sad' emotion.
Because I saw it.
Even if he is not around, the big brother is happy with the female humans.
What is the meaning of existence?
How to prove it?
If you are being observed, just leave the house.
But Youye doesn't think that if he walks out in his anthropomorphic state, he will be accepted by humans. In the final analysis, the only one who truly accepts him is his eldest brother.
In a year and a half, Youye pieced together the truth.
The so-called truth is - the perfect body is a scam.
The moment his identity as a 'human' was taken away, he was destined to have no possibility of returning. He was just getting closer to the ugly posture expected by his father who created him.
Why?
I smelled the smell of reproduction mixed with disgusting female human things on my older brother.
Even if you limit dopamine secretion, you will still feel uncomfortable.
It even led to actions that are now unreasonable.
“···”
The body starts to crave again.
Blue potion. That's not the antidote.
Just because of internal needs, drinking it will allow the body to maintain a convenient anthropomorphic state in the process of steady evolution. However, there will eventually be a tipping point.
After reaching this stage, if you take it again, it will completely collapse.
Youye has a very detailed understanding of human emotions.
Human beings are not as simple as animals to be loyal to someone. The motivation for feelings often starts from the five senses, and the brain secretes dopamine to produce excited emotions. Then it happens again.
There are many objective factors that may cause a sudden change in the relationship.
Renovation completed.
"Gudong——"
Drink the last cph4 potion again.
Things soon began to change.
Starting from the tail, a fleshy membrane is derived and gradually covers the whole body.
Then the cartilage begins to connect internally again, and becomes the final look bit by bit.
Looking at his elder brother who was completely unconscious, Youye remained indifferent.
Just a sudden thought.
If Big Brother is still willing to accept the female human being despite this, what should I do then?
But according to the knowledge written by human beings themselves, human emotions are extremely fragile and cannot withstand the test. Just like the emotions in Titanic almost do not exist in reality.
——
"%... wake up￥#?!"
Headache.
A very sharp and harsh sound was heard.
Then, I opened my eyes and saw it.
It was a dark red mass of flesh with an opening at the top and slender cilia surrounding it. The whole body was covered with blue tendons. Every time it breathed in, it exuded an odor like the juice of rotten eggs thrown into the sewer.
"ah···"
There are three such things, two of them seem to be standing, and one is very close to me, holding my hand with its slimy tentacles.
“*#*#···!”
It made a sound again, and a few small drops of juice splashed directly from the mouthparts on the top onto Su Yao's face.
"￥%...%...￥?"
Perhaps because Su Yao's face and eyes looked strange, the other two monsters also approached.
odor···
juice···
Meat dumplings···
"Don't fucking come near me!"
"Bang!"
Su Yao suddenly threw out everything he was covered with and everything he could catch next to him.
“……&&*!!!”
The thing hit the monster closest to me accurately.
The other two monsters who were about to approach quickly went over to take a look.
"Ha, hu..."
Su Yao retreated to the point where he could not retreat, breathing heavily.
Looking at the surrounding scenery.
What exactly is it?
Not just disgusting monsters...
The surrounding 'walls' are not so much walls as they are barriers composed of hanging viscera and intestines.
The same goes for the quilt that was thrown out just now. It was just flesh and blood spread out on a flat surface.
"vomit."
I couldn't help but feel like vomiting and felt dizzy.
Start to recall the last scene before losing consciousness.
Yuye?
'I'm sorry, big brother.'
What is it...
Su Yao suppressed his nausea and looked at the monster trying to get closer to him.
The smell is still so unpleasant.
The monster that was hit by him stayed still a little far away, as if it was looking at him.
Apart from the unpleasant smell and the unbearable slimy touch of the approaching monster, it just pulled him back to the hospital bed.
“@##···”
Su Yao still couldn't understand what they were saying.
But gradually, Su Yao calmed down and began to try to understand the situation.
Su Yao has seen this posture before.
Although it is different from what I saw back then, the outline...is the same as Yuya's monster posture.
It was written in the note left by Youye's father.
Originally, his vision was supposed to be transformed, but after his rebirth, he did not experience the visual impairment problem he said.
Now this is...
Did Youye transform himself?
reason?
Not sure.
But the reason why it happened now must be that there was some kind of problem with my body.
If this was a hospital, then the person who was closest to me just now, who was most worried about me, and who was hit by me frantically with objects should be...
Su Yao was lying on a bed of dark red meat pieces composed of various internal organs, and was pushed out by the monsters.
Probably for a checkup.
Su Yao didn't say anything, just stared at the ceiling. He thought about it for a moment, then turned around to find the person he hit.
But I don’t know when I was given a sedative or something.
The whole person couldn't move, and as soon as his consciousness woke up, it became blurry again.
···
Fortunately, the sun is still the sun.
Therefore, we can know that after three days, Su Yao can communicate with the monsters.
"#曜,%#hungry%?"
"It's okay now."
As long as you endure it and listen carefully to the harsh sound, you can distinguish the out-of-tune pronunciation. You can barely understand the meaning.
If you really don’t know, just say um or don’t say anything.
As for eating, the food they bring over now is very difficult to swallow. To be precise, not only the taste, but also the smell is like a rotting corpse.
Now I know that the monster staying next to me is Xia Xianyue.
Because she was the one who stayed the longest, even though she was a bit disgusting, through the length of the cilia attached to her mouthparts and the bulges on the flesh, she could be barely recognized among the monsters.
“%#%···”
“···”
Su Yao was slightly distracted and didn't know what she said.
The only thing he could do was to hug her, who looked like an ugly and disgusting monster, and hold her against his chest.
It's no big deal.
What if it’s the person you truly love, even if it’s a monster?
Yes, it is true that it will be difficult to accept at first.
But in fact, no one becomes a monster, it's just something wrong with themselves. Even if it does become like this, so what?
I just want to know why You Ye did this?
Su Yao considered reading the file on the first night.
But finally gave up.
He didn't believe that Youye would never show up again. It was impossible for Youye to do this without any reason.
Every day after everyone leaves, he will look for entries while waiting for You Ye to appear.
But I never waited.
After another week, Su Yao was discharged from the hospital.
Su Yao had no external injuries. At least the hospital did not detect any external injuries.
The answer he gave was that he suddenly fainted for some reason and then went to the hospital.
There is no abnormality in the body.
Without telling anyone that he has vision problems, no one can know what kind of hell Su Yao is looking at now.
“%#%#···”
"Where is my #&%&heart..."
"%##￥￥Go..."
“···”
The only uncomfortable thing is that when there are too many people gathered around him, Su Yao cannot hear the content clearly when talking at the same time. Therefore, he remains silent.
"I'm a little sleepy. I'll go back to my room and take a nap for a while."
Su Yao could only answer at the minimum level and escape in a way that would not attract attention as much as possible.
Work happens to be fine during the holidays.
The university asked Xia Xianyue to ask for leave.
That···
When will these days end?
——
As a normal person.
"I always feel that Su Yao is a little cold towards people now... It's like he's just trying to cope."
"No?"
"No? You made the cake yesterday and we ate it together. He just took two bites and said nothing."
“···”
"I'm not saying that I have any doubts, I'm just saying that you won't reach the boredom stage so soon, right? It was obviously the love stage before."
"Maybe... Ah Yao is just a little tired recently or something."
While talking to Lin Xiaowan on the phone, Xia Xianyue could only answer absentmindedly.
As the person closest to him, she certainly knows Su Yao's recent changes better than anyone else.
Speaking of being cold, Su Yao was not unwilling to get close to him. He also chatted as usual.
But that's it...
It seems a little forced.
We also slept together. Since we didn’t suffer any trauma and the doctor said it was nothing serious, we wanted to be gentle as usual.
I thought that by doing this, I could return to the harmonious atmosphere before.
But it was always rejected.
How to say?
It's not about desire or anything, it's just that I feel like the person I like is preoccupied with something, and I don't want to talk to myself at all.
I wanted to work hard in my own way, but was completely rejected. Sleeping together, but it seems like there is an invisible wall between them. Like this.
It was clear that before being hospitalized, they were moving, living together, and preparing to get married.
Why is it like this now?
I didn’t want to cry, I just thought about how I should try my best to play the role of a newlywed wife today.
——
For Su Yao, of course he knew what Xia Xianyue was doing when he stayed close to him and actively touched himself with his tentacles for several nights.
I'm really sorry.
Even if you say to yourself in your heart, this is your girlfriend, Xia Xianyue. Her body is not a monster.
But the slimy touch of the cilia, the actual shadow of the fleshy mass, and the unbearable smell all made it impossible to have xy.
It's the same thing tonight.
We were lying on the bed together. After turning off the lights, we could only see the outline of the surrounding scenery.
In fact, I'm almost used to it, houses and walls made of visceral fragments and intestines.
"#曜···"
"Um?"
He noticed that Xia Xianyue, who was nestled next to her, was even closer than in the past few days. She was even trembling slightly.
"Don't you like me anymore?"
“···”
Su Yao was silent for a moment and sighed, "Is it because of the past few days?"
“···”
She didn't speak, just buried her face deeper.
"Just don't laugh when you tell the truth."
"the truth?"
"The truth is that it may be due to sequelae. I'm not very good now."
"Ah? Why don't you tell the doctor?"
"There should be no problem. I feel like I'm slowly recovering."
"Go to the doctor tomorrow morning..."
"I told you not to use it. It's just a mental disorder."
Su Yao turned to her side and kissed the floating cilia.
"What are %#'s #@ eyes?"
Immediately afterwards, the piece of meat came close to the face.
It doesn't matter.
Just get used to it.
"That%#···"
“Kang#training···”
"%%#%Baby..."
"What?"
She didn't understand what it meant, but she had already slipped into the quilt. No outline of any fleshy mass could be seen from the outside.
Thanks to this, Su Yao can hold his breath and think about what she looks like in human form. This is barely normal.
When will it end?
This goes on.
···
I don't know if it was because she was holding me tightly, but after finishing everything, I obviously felt that she was holding me harder than usual, as if I was satisfied with something. I felt relieved.
Although it is an excuse, it still gives a reasonable explanation.
It would be correct to say that he was in a trance.
I almost thought it was an illusion.
【A mixture of madness and distortion】
[Character: Youye]
[Favorability: 100]
[Description: I feel very close to you]
Su Yao got up from the bed gently, put on her clothes, walked out of the bedroom, and closed the door behind her.
Youye is in the living room.
The TV was on, showing the silent animal world.
In this twisted world, she is the only one who looks like a normal person. She has a round face like an egg and delicate facial features. She is still wearing a pure white dress.
"After more than a year, do you still like to see the animal world?"
Su Yao sat next to her and watched the TV together. Although the TV looked strange in Su Yao's eyes, the picture could still be seen clearly.
"Why doesn't Big Brother hate Youye?"
"Why hate?"
"Youye modified the big brother's vision without authorization, and then allowed the big brother to live like this until now. If it were an ordinary human being, there would be a 90% chance of collapse."
"But big brother is not an ordinary person. However, I still want to know why he did this."
"Human knowledge says that human emotions are motivated by the five senses, prompting the brain to secrete dopamine to produce excited emotions. There are many humans in the human world who have relationships like big brothers and sisters. Once the other person does not meet the original standard of the five senses,
This causes dopamine to no longer be secreted."
"The emotion caused by Youye should be called 'jealousy' in human knowledge."
“···”
"Judging from the results, Yu Ye failed to understand human emotions. Even if the sister becomes what Yu Ye should be, the big brother will still have xy."
"Although Youye has become the only human being, she is envious of her sister who is now in the eyes of her eldest brother. It is impossible to understand in theory, but in essence it is understandable."
"Now Youye seems to really understand the meaning of inferiority complex."
"I'm sorry, big brother, You Ye did such a thing."
"At least you are back."
Su Yao reached out and touched her head, "...listen to me, Youye."
"I know, you probably like me because I am the first human being who is willing to come into contact with you."
"But is there another possibility?"
"Are you just jealous that she took up the time you and I were spending together?"
"Love is not the only relationship between people, there are many others."
"You are still young, and there are still many things worth knowing and experiencing in the human world."
"Big brother won't ignore you just because you are in love with her. It doesn't even matter if you live together. Just like before, I just want you to try to recognize her."
“···”
You Ye stared straight at Su Yao and suddenly smiled, "What does You Ye look like now?"
"Grown a little taller..."
Su Yao took another look and said, "The difference is... why is the hair all white?"
"Is the current Yuye and the current sister cuter than Yuye?"
"Well."
"It must be disgusting for me to be forced to live with such an ugly creature."
"Not really."
"If it weren't for the fact that my eldest brother was visually impaired due to the transformation, the number of times he and his sister would have mated now would be 7."
"Youye, you——"
Halfway through the words, I suddenly realized that my consciousness began to fade again. It was clear that I had not been stabbed.
odor?
It smells like flowers, what is it...
"呲——"
Su Yao bit her tongue and tried to cheer up, but it was of no use.
"Youye can never coexist with humans."
"The purpose of Yuye's creation is not coexistence."
"Youye has no interest in the human world anymore and will not come back."
"Brother, please forget about Yu Ye from now on and live happily like other humans with your sister, so that there won't be any trouble."
"Wonderful night?"
The fragrance of flowers becomes more and more charming, and even if you bite your tongue until the flesh is bloody, you can't resist it.
Why do rare reunions end up like this again and again?
Really, is there no room for communication?
——
Morning.
Su Yao woke up very early.
The wall is no longer a twisted piece of flesh, it is just a wall attached to the wall panel. Everything has returned to its original state.
The hands of the wall clock are ticking.
Su Yao looked out of the balcony. The floor-to-ceiling windows were still half open, and the sky outside was just getting bright.
Still can't come to a conclusion.
Are lovers the only relationships in the world? If you can't respond, you can't be the same as before.
Not sure.
Su Yao didn't know whether to regard You Ye's feelings as love.
What does it mean to not be interested in the human world? Inability to coexist.
Just because of this kind of thing.
Rather than transforming yourself, this is called willfulness, right?
I didn't want to think about how to respond anymore, I just remembered that before Yu Ye expressed her love feelings, I was still the guardian.
How can any guardian in the world take it as a matter of course to fall asleep after seeing their child showing that kind of expression?
“···”
so.
Su Yao took the fruit knife to the bathroom, locked the door, and turned on the faucet.
"Puff——"
A simple and clear stab to the heart.
Not only do I simply want to read the file, but I also hope that You Ye will simply smell the scent and come back.
But with his fatal wound, it was probably too late.
【You are dead】
【Current node:20150415.06.03】
Time strangely returned to a little time before Su Yao committed suicide.
Su Yao looked at the time before committing suicide. It was one minute past six.
How strange.
But I was not allowed to go back at this time.
Then look for it now?
Peering into the bedroom, another sleeping figure seemed to be talking in his sleep.
Su Yao's mind began to become confused and swollen.
Back to the gentle little bed between the two of them.
"...Ah Yao?"
Awakened by the silence, Xia Xianyue opened her eyes in a daze.
"It's still early, keep sleeping."
"Hmm~"
He saw her smiling brightly and then burying her head in her chest.