It was You Ye who had supported him to live smoothly for a long time and pushed him to hold back when he should have collapsed several times.
He kept saying that it would be great if You Ye could just become a human being.
But I really didn’t think about it. It’s great to have monsters. It’s really convenient. It would be nice to have monsters for things I don’t like.
I also sincerely hope that Yu Ye can become a ‘human being’.
There is no contradiction between the two. Despicable thoughts will come out automatically when it is convenient for you, and noble thoughts will pop up when you want to be noble.
That’s why I said——
"As long as Yuye is Yuye."
Putting the cart before the horse, with tears in her eyes, she was wrapped in a petite body.
In the past, she had always been so small that she crawled into my arms and covered her body, but now it was the other way around.
"At least the eldest brother started exchanging food with the dirty You Ye."
After hearing this sentence, I really couldn't hold it back.
The most touching words are indeed lost and found.
But apart from sleeping together and being close to each other, they did nothing else.
"Does parallel world really exist?"
Youye asked confused.
"How can I figure it out? Who knows whether it is reincarnation or time travel."
A long time ago, I would waste my brain cells on this kind of problem for no reason, but I gave up after I realized that there would be no benefit even if I knew about it.
"Also, big brother, Youye still thinks that people who make 'love games' are weird."
"Maybe not human."
"Well, occasionally there are things that You Ye can't understand. Like quantum explosions, black holes..."
Youye muttered something that Su Yao couldn't understand, and finally concluded, "But he's actually a good guy."
"Maybe."
I can understand what You Ye means.
It is precisely because of the love game that I have a second life and the present.
"Then what will big brother do next?"
The posture changed, and the petite body curled up, pressing against Su Yao's ribs, rubbing it with her hair like a kitten.
"Go back first."
"Back to the winter market. Actually, there was no need to escape from the beginning."
Why run away?
What is there to be afraid of?
Regardless of human common sense, all problems are not problems.
Whether you are a despicable person or anti-human, it doesn't matter.
people?
Sorry, from now on, I no longer intend to be a human being.
——
Xia Xianyue woke up in the hospital and said nothing.
Even if the secretary pressed him again and again, he would just say that he accidentally ran into trouble while trying to track down the information, so he jumped down.
"It's a good thing you washed up on the beach. Otherwise you-"
“···”
"Your mother has already called. You will be back soon!"
“···”
Xia Xianyue glanced at her and said, "I'm sorry for causing you trouble."
Feeling refreshed and refreshed all over.
Nowhere did I feel uncomfortable.
Xia Xianyue tried hard to recall everything, and finally an uncertain scene flashed through her mind.
After falling, I woke up and saw a small figure.
How could it be possible to escape unscathed?
At least the wounds after my fall...
No, no scratches at all. What's going on?
What can be confirmed is that the child who stayed with Ah Yao a year and a half ago was not a kind person, with the kind of attitude that led him to that place without changing his face.
It was she who saved him.
After considering the matter now, it is easy to conclude that she likes Ah Yao and regards herself as a thorn in her side.
It's probably safe for Ah Yao to stay with her.
In other words, does anyone really want to do what they are doing now? Even coming here.
Not sure.
Just walking out of the hospital, the sun was shining brightly on my body, but I felt disgusted. There was no warmth at all.
Imagine - a small figure staying with the person you like.
It's not as difficult and lonely as I imagined. It's just a joy to live together.
How could you still be deceiving yourself?
It was right from the beginning. It was not atonement at all. He had imposed possessiveness a long time ago. He desperately hoped that the person he liked would only look at himself.
As Xiao Wan said, it is a kind of bondage. Infatuation without a sense of bondage does not exist at all. At least it does not exist for me now.
Still want to hear it.
If I could see it with my own eyes, know it for myself, then... give up or something.
Why is it so narrow-minded?
He has been shaken to this extent. I have clearly said before that it doesn’t matter if I am just a friend and a tool.
Are there so many missing person notices that are really invisible? You can see them just by going out.
In other words, it is easy to contact yourself after you have escaped to a safe place. At least give yourself some information or something.
None.
What are you doing?
The same goes for walking here, standing here, and breathing the air. The lungs are obviously beating, but there is a feeling of suffocation.
Pressing my heart tightly, I suppressed all negative emotions.
You shouldn't think so.
What will happen if you show up and meet? It's just putting the person you like in a dilemma, and maybe you will feel the same as you do now.
In my own words - I had already made the decision to atone for my sins no matter what.
So.
"Please help me book the earliest flight back."
"I miss my home a little bit."
Finally, I took a look around the streets where my favorite people have been.
It doesn't matter.
Anything is accepted.
This should be like this from beginning to end, as long as the person you like is living well, then you can do whatever you want.
Feeling uncomfortable?
That's right, that's what you deserve.
It's just repaying the debt from ten years ago. No, it's not repayment at all, and it can never be repaid.
Everything is just because the person who wants to atone for his sins puts himself in a position that he shouldn't be in.
To have any emotion about this is despicable.
"Buzz-"
The phone rang.
When I saw it was an unknown number, the first thought that came to my mind was Ah Yao.
But he immediately denied it.
It's just because I changed my mobile phone card and new mobile phone when I came here, so no matter who called, it was an unknown number.
Maybe the secretary told her family about her affairs, and my mother called.
Sorry, I don't want to answer it now. Just now, I want to be alone for a while.
Shut down.
Take a nap and then prepare to board the flight. I’m really tired.
——
"Hello, the phone you dialed has been turned off."
After calling for the third time, I heard this prompt.
Su Yao scratched his head and looked at You Ye.
"I don't know."
Youye shook his head and said, "Youye really saw her sister leaving the hospital. There seemed to be nothing unusual except that she was a little depressed."
"That's not what I'm talking about."
"I think it's a little bit awkward to make a phone call in front of you..."
Awkward.
Although I was overcome with strong emotions last night, I still feel no regrets during the day. In other words, I always feel like I am getting back together with my mistress in front of my girlfriend.
"It doesn't matter even if my eldest brother has sex with my sister in front of Yu Ye."
“···”
"But Yu Ye will make it impossible for my sister to conceive."
"What the hell is that?"
Su Yao rubbed You Ye's head in confusion, sighed, and stopped calling.
Maybe it would be better to leave it until everything is settled.
To say timid——
Maybe he was more timid in Xia Xianyue than here in Youye.
As I said before, I sometimes feel like "The only one who belongs to me in this world is Youye" towards Youye.
But for Xia Xianyue, it's the opposite. There will always be times when I think that I'm just deceiving her under the guise of 'Su Yao'.
It's just that it would be a kind of self-deception to directly treat oneself as a complete 'Su Yao' by merging memories.
In short, I don’t plan to hesitate any longer.
Su Yao put away her phone and smiled heartily at You Ye.
"Go to sleep, it's time to set out in the evening."
Um.
Just sleep.
Last night we basically talked all night long and didn't sleep all night. We didn't do anything, just chat.
I couldn't sleep because I was a little excited.
He even took out his mobile phone to watch the MOBA game live broadcast, and together with Youye, he pointed out the teams that had set off from China and were blocked by foreign players.
To be honest, if it were Yu Ye, she wouldn't need five professional players at all. She could win the world championship by controlling five computers by herself.
Su Yao didn't care whether You slept or not, he was really sleepy anyway.
"Big brother is so tight..."
"?!What kind of line is this?!"
"Well, You Ye said that big brother hugged you too tightly~"
"I can't help it, now when I close my eyes, there are vines."
"Youye won't turn into a vine."
"Hmm... it would be better to tie it up?"
"Hehehe, don't touch Youye's little panda, it's so itchy... ugh."
"...No more touching, so Yuye, please don't get your tail behind my back, okay? It's a little chilly."
"But it's warm, isn't it?"
“···”
"...Big brother is lying, little panda, so weird."
"——"
When the tail is entangled, there is a "pop" disconnection in the head.
Since I have decided not to be a human being, I have nothing to worry about.
Even the snow-white curtains shine brightly and shine brightly in the daytime.
There is no reason to suppress extra emotions.
To worry about this and that, and to make the people you cherish become equally scrupulous, is not called noble at all. It can even be called despicable.
Of course, even if you don't worry about anything, it doesn't count. It's just that - at least it can further confirm your determination.
Even if the determination is despicable.
[Omit 2000 words here]
It's probably because You Ye is too weak.
cough.
That is to say, because he was too weak and his tentacles were paly, in a sense, he happened to inspire a different kind of protective desire.
To put it more bluntly, it means having an sadistic mentality. Of course, this is just a mentality, not actual abuse.
If having to continue listening to ‘Dah-me’ is considered abuse, then just pretend you haven’t heard it.
When we set out in the evening, the night was fine again.
Even the girl's certificate has been repaired.
weak?
"Brother, it's time to go~"
Seeing Youye coming to life at night, I really don't know how I should say this when I feel like I've been drained.
"This is... again"
When we arrived at the coast, we saw the tamed big guy from a distance and didn't know what to say.
The ‘ship’ going home this time is a whale.
"The swordfish around here seem to know that Youye is a liar and won't really mate with them, so they don't come here anymore."
"But whales can also run very fast."
“···”
The so-called running fast means that behind the whale's butt are some various marine creatures that are chasing it, such as groups of sharks.
Needless to say, this behemoth can swim really fast.
But here comes the problem, this thing will dive underwater when trying to escape.
breathe?
don’t worry.
"Big brother, just bite Yuye's tail~"
"?"
"Hey, the whale is going to dive, big brother."
"Varied--!"
"Guluulu——"
Before he finished speaking, he fell into the cold sea water.
Nothing can be seen.
But soon something warm swam into his mouth. I don’t know how You Ye did it, but oxygen was indeed being pumped into his lungs.
And hypothermia is not a problem at all, as the temperature transmitted from the tail is enough to maintain a constant temperature. It is not wrapped by the tail, so this time it grabs Yu Ye's red panda and clings to it, all thanks to her being fixed on the whale's back.
Let it roll.
What is it?
I don't know when, I felt the tail in my mouth twitching, and there was some sweet liquid.
But as the whale swam desperately, his brain was swung back and forth and he had no time to think. He could only suck Yu Ye's tail tightly.
"ha···"
"Huh...ah."
By the time we got ashore, I couldn't say a word.
Stimulate.
It's really exciting.
It was so exciting that I wanted to stand up immediately, put Youye on the ground and spank her little butt hard.
“···”
However, when his breathing stabilized a little, Su Yao found that Youye's face was unusually bright red and he was lying on the ground panting.
"Yuye?"
"!"
Su Yao wanted to reach out and touch it, but You Ye got up in an instant.
Go ahead.
"Brother, let's find a place to dry our clothes first."
"?"
"Speaking of which, Yuye, did you pee just now?"
"Youye didn't pee!"
"That's strange. I always felt something sweet in my mouth just now. Is it something that the whale blowhole sprays?"
“···”
I didn’t think too much about it.
I just feel that Yu Ye has become a little more coquettish now, and indeed more like a girl in some aspects. Is there also shyness?
Back to the hot spring where I stayed.
The clothes are not rotten, but it is just soaked by the sea water. It is not a big deal. Just wait for the clothes to dry while soaking in the hot springs.
The old mattress that was left in the abandoned forest hut was still there, just like this, it was heated by a fire, and another day and night passed.
To Su Yao's surprise, everything was intact when he returned to the place where he lived.
Not right either.
It shouldn't have been so clean when I left.
It looked spotless as if someone had come in to clean it later.
"Sister has been here."
Youye sniffed it and came to a conclusion.
"I guess so."
Look around the room.
Nothing has changed, the things are still the same. TV, cabinets. Bedroom, bed, balcony...
The only things that have changed are people.
"A little hungry."
"If you are doing small fish..."
Su Yao went to the refrigerator. The electricity was always on. The ingredients inside were not bad.
"Youye, if you are hungry, eat the dried fish first. I will also make some... Youye?"
Su Yao took out the bag from the freezer and turned to look at You Ye. She was still looking at the ajar door of the bedroom.
“···”
Su Yao watched silently, Youye pushed the bedroom door open with light steps.
I started to recall what Yuye said after entering the house.
My heart also began to scream unsatisfactorily.
There was a person lying on the bed in the bedroom. The bright moonlight shone on her sideways snow-white cheeks.