The small white flowers rolled to the ground, indifferently showing a faint fragrance.
“···”
Su Yao looked at the petite figure looking at him.
"Big brother."
"It's too late to chase her now. My sister fell at the corner of the stairs. She couldn't walk fast."
Chase?
"no need."
Su Yao smiled sarcastically, "It's over now."
“···”
"If possible, I would like you to do me a favor."
"What?"
"Don't let anything happen to her on the road. Send her on her last journey."
This is how it should be, right?
Send her home, and what happens after that has nothing to do with you.
“···”
Youye didn't answer, and didn't go to take a shower either.
I just quietly decorated and cleaned up a little, and then went out.
"Crack."
After You Ye left, Su Yao sat down on the sofa and lit a cigarette.
Inhale and exhale frequently, and the mist will become thicker.
Want to laugh.
All in all, I really want to laugh.
I can't put the blame on You Ye. I simply can't think like this.
If this is the condition Youye said.
So how weak are you?
Everything is pushed around like a baby.
It would be better to say relaxed. Now I am relaxed, I no longer have to think about unnecessary things, and the endless mental internal friction has stopped.
No more acting. No more guilt.
It's a good thing.
There was no need to continue to expand her expectations for a long time, and it ended abruptly at this moment.
I don't know exactly what time it is.
"My sister was seen by a human she knew and sent home."
You Ye turned back.
This time, we didn’t get as close as before. We stopped at a distance.
He raised his eyes slightly and noticed that You Ye was deliberately avoiding his sight.
"Did you know she was coming back?"
"Youye doesn't know. Even Youye can't be as sharp as usual when her hormones are secreted. By the time she finds out that her sister has returned, it's already too late."
"That···"
Su Yao shouted loudly, "Why don't you dare to look into my eyes and answer?! What are you hiding from?!"
“···”
Youye lowered his head like a child who had done something wrong, unable to speak.
"It's okay, just sit on the edge like before."
"···May I?"
Youye made a confused sound.
"sure."
"If I don't do this, I might not be able to bear it anymore."
“···”
Watching You Ye finally step up to her side and sit on her lap like before.
"I'm sorry, big brother."
"Although Youye didn't know that her sister would turn back at first, she had time to close the door when she found her."
"Youye, it was intentional."
"It's so obvious that even an idiot like me can figure it out."
"Big brother is not an idiot..."
"Actually, you are right."
Su Yao took a deep breath and stroked You Ye's hair, "If you had stopped me at that time, if you were really determined, then I shouldn't have had sex with her when I was alone with her at night."
"That's the best time to confess."
"To say that everything is ready is nothing more than deceiving oneself and others."
"The authorities are confused and the onlookers know clearly. They are half-baked."
"Since when did I really start to treat people as tools and take people's feelings as a matter of course?"
"I expect people to remain the same when they see and know this kind of thing. It's really... that's not the way to joke."
“···”
You Ye suddenly left her body.
Then, under Su Yao's gaze, he picked up the bouquet of flowers that fell on the ground. According to common sense, this kind of thing should of course be thrown away in You Ye's hands.
But she carefully picked out the beautiful ones, the good ones, and put them into the vase on the coffee table.
"Throw it away."
"Just throw it away."
Su Yao said very calmly, "That's garbage. Just throw it in the trash can."
Put out cigarette butts.
Then look around at the traces left just now.
In fact, what does it matter?
All pain, except illness, is caused by values, which are simply illusory and unreal.
In other words, if we go back to before she came in and rely on the entry to hide this time.
What about next time?
Are you going to continue to be a despicable person and do whatever you want?
ridiculous.
"Youye."
Su Yao got up from the sofa, regardless of whether it was true or not, this time he really showed a satisfied smile.
"Go take a shower. Then, clean the house."
lost.
It doesn't mean everything is lost.
If you still want to push everything to You Ye at this time, and let her avoid his eyes just like she did just now, then you will be in a truly desperate situation.
Can enjoy the best.
You can also accept the worst.
Besides, this isn't the worst, so what's the big deal?
——
After taking a bath, I also tidied the house.
The leather covers on the sofa have been wiped, and the coffee table has been rewritten and arranged.
The ground was mopped.
The flowers in the vase were withered and thrown away together with the new ones.
The TV was on, still playing the animal world that I was used to seeing.
The petite body fell on him and was embraced by him.
You can feel the warmth from the place of contact, from your fingertips, and then draw some of it to yourself.
The pins and needles-like headache also slowly dissipated.
Got the call again.
It was Lin Xiaowan calling.
Answered.
“···”
I thought it was an arrogant irony of being as arrogant as the first, or something else.
"Hello?"
"Su Yao, no one answered Xiao Yueyue's call, right? Aren't you two tired enough?"
“···”
"Anyway, at least come out and have dinner together tomorrow night. I'll treat you to a big dinner."
"I···"
"Needless to say, I know it's not good to disturb you two, bye!"
"beep."
The phone call was hung up unilaterally.
The animal world, the busy signal on the phone, the action of putting down the phone, the dry and exhausted sound just made.
as well as···
At some point, Yuye raised his head and looked at himself, then retracted it, put his head under his chin, and held his hand with his small hand.
Really thinking about it.
Just disappear from here, right now, immediately.
Get on a plane and go to a place where you don’t know anyone.
Throw it all away and start from scratch.
But it was rejected again.
What's the point of doing that?
No, it's also a form of escape.
No problems have been solved. They just throw away their own responsibilities and pass them on to others to deal with.
How cruel.
I have no intention of escaping. I still want to live here, at least until the dust settles.
It came to me suddenly.
"Youye."
"Tomorrow... come with me to visit the grave."
"good."
Youye responded meekly. Although he didn't quite understand the meaning, he didn't ask anything.
——
After Xia Xianyue left.
Staggering on the road, I was spotted by a female boss of the cosmetics company my mother worked with, and she was sent back by luck.
Return home.
It was empty. Xia Liangzhen had to let go and deal with a lot of things the next day after Su Yao woke up. Of course, another meaning was to leave space for young people.
“···”
This is convenient for Xia Xianyue, who is curled up on the sofa like this.
No one would say anything even if the tears washed away over and over again.
No need to turn on the lights.
Don't do anything, just curl up in place.
Start to think about it.
Everything about Youye.
I subconsciously ignored what You Ye had done to me. That was when Su Yao was still in the hospital.
I met You Ye when I asked for a certificate to attend the court.
It was she who took the initiative to find herself.
"I'm sorry for what I did to my sister before."
"That was the actor hired by You Ye, but I didn't expect something almost happened."
“···”
Very humble attitude.
"Big brother is Youye's favorite person."
"So Youye didn't want a frivolous woman to get close, so she tested it. But Youye went too far."
Plus some very sincere words to add.
Although Xia Xianyue had resentment, it melted away with two months of contact and a sincere attitude that seemed to accept her as a sister.
The main motive that can make the conflict disappear is because Xia Xianyue thought that when Su Yao was wanted, You Ye could take him out. She believed that even without relying on her mother, You Ye alone could also create public opinion. As long as the public opinion
When the fermentation comes back for public trial, everything will be over.
On the contrary, I didn't think about solving the problem itself at all, I just thought that if it was the worst outcome, then just stay with the person I like.
This made Xia Xianyue feel frustrated. When she learned that Youye only had a brother-sister relationship with Su Yao, this frustration subtly turned into a good impression.
What now?
Seeing the scene just now, my lips trembled and trembled.
What exactly is it?
Everything I said before was false. The scene of the three of them together yesterday is still vivid in my mind. Now I just feel sick.
Could it be that when they were close to each other yesterday, Youye and the person she liked were doing some little tricks, but she didn't even know it.
That's not right.
wrong.
Totally wrong.
Why do you get angry all by yourself?
It's like it's calculated.
wrong.
The flowers were ordered in advance, and I planned to pick them up when I went back with my loved one, but I felt it was inconvenient to hold the flowers halfway, so I had an idea and thought of turning back afterwards to create a little surprise for lovers.
Can anyone understand this inner thought?
Ah Yao, what do you think?
After escaping from there, I didn't hear anything he said. Just being watched made me feel like my whole heart was being stabbed to pieces.
Nothing was heard.
What did Ah Yao want to say at that time?
Think back to that disgusting scene.
Can't remember.
Don't want to think about it.
But something is wrong.
"Buzz-"
The phone vibrates.
I didn't want to answer the phone, so I hung up.
Then the text message came again.
[Forget it if you two are tired, just answer the phone!]
[I have something to do in the afternoon, so I will change the time to a later time.]
[Tomorrow at seven o'clock in the evening, come to Kender and pick up the mutton in the library next to it, and I'll treat you to mutton hot pot. ]
No one knows what happened today.
Except for the person involved, everyone should act as if nothing happened. Of course it should be like this.
tomorrow?
——
Get up in the morning.
Su Yao and You Ye washed up in the bathroom side by side, then had breakfast and changed their clothes.
What we have to do today may not be of any practical significance.
If one must give one, Su Yao would call it taking off the mask.
The weather near the end of June.
It was already a bit hot at eight o'clock.
Youye was wearing a pure white sleeveless dress, and she was searching in the closet, deliberately avoiding the clothes Xia Xianyue bought for herself, and chose a blue short-sleeved dress.
From the moment he left the house, he naturally held Yu Ye’s little hand.
No need to hide, no need to pretend.
It doesn't matter whether others think it's a couple, brother and sister, or anything else, it doesn't matter.
"Master, go to Dongshi Cemetery."
Got into the taxi and sat in the back seat.
Looking at the retrograde scenery, my mood became less and less disturbing.
Because it was not a special day, the cemetery was very clean. There were no vehicles at the entrance, and taxis could stop at the nearest place.
On the way here, Su Yao bought a flower basket and paper money.
It seemed that it was the first time for You Ye to come to such a place. He looked around curiously, but after looking at Su Yao's face, he lowered his head and walked seriously. It was like a child who wanted to kick away pebbles but didn't dare.
"This is where people stay after they die."
Su Yao saw this and said directly, "To be more specific, unlike animals, if a person has a family after death, the family will definitely find a place convenient for burial."
"Lingyuan... You Ye knows about it."
Youye raised his face and looked at the densely packed tombstones on the hillside.
"If You Ye is also buried here, will Big Brother come to visit You Ye?"
"Yes, even if I only eat one meal a day, I will save money to cook you some dried fish."
"Now Youye doesn't like to eat small dried fish anymore. It's so small that it's a lot of trouble and not full. She prefers to eat salmon."
"Salmon?"
Su Yao reached out and caressed her head, "Then sprinkle the ashes into the sea, and you can eat whatever you want."
"Hehe, you don't want it, you will only be eaten by fish."
Perhaps feeling Su Yao's intention to make the atmosphere happy, You Ye finally stopped being restrained.
I paid the deposit and got an iron bucket that could store the ashes left after burning paper money.
Su Yao came here with his own will for the first time.
The tombstone of this body's mother is located in the middle and lower part of the hillside. To be honest, this position is really low. Unlike Xia Xianyue's tomb at that time, Taihu Lake cannot be seen from a distance, and there are no trees to provide shelter from the wind and rain.
It’s just that there are dense tombstones around to talk about?
Who knows.
The photo on the tombstone is black and white, always smiling.
For dead people, of course they use photos like this. Who wants to put a photo of someone who made a mistake before death on their tombstone?
"Aunt."
"There may be some problems with calling it this way, but to me, it's just right."
Su Yao squatted down and took out the paper money. You Ye cooperated and took out a lighter to light it.
Then he threw it into the iron bucket, and the smell of burning paper money came along with the temperature.
"I'm sorry that I took over your son's body. This was not my intention."
"But now it has become a matter of course that I am living as 'Su Yao', and I have no idea of returning your son's body to you after my death."
"I'm sorry. I gained some convenience by using my identity as 'Su Yao'."
"Let's treat it as equal. I have gained the right to live again, and I have experienced a lot of things accordingly."
"In the future, I will separate myself from the identity of 'Su Yao'."
"When I have time, I will bring this body to burn paper money for you.
"in addition--"
Su Yao patted You Ye on the shoulder, "This is my current lover."
“···”
Paper money is burning.
When the wind blows, the smoke automatically disperses to the side, as if the owner of the tombstone really wants to listen.
Su Yao naturally started to talk about his own origins.
In the blur, he always felt that the photo on the tombstone was somewhat similar to someone in his memory.
That's not right either.
Memory is not something that can be divided into folders very finely. Isn't it normal to have a familiar feeling about one's own mother if they are mixed together?
After leaving the cemetery, Su Yao took You Ye back home.
Nothing to do.
Playing with his cell phone, he tried to call Xia Xianyue.
"Hello, the number you dialed is temporarily unavailable."
The answer I got was a natural one.
Stop thinking about it.
Su Yao took You Ye to the university again.
Winter University is still very open-minded. If you are a student of Winter University on weekends, you only need to register when you bring your family members to visit.
"Wow, you are Su Yao who made a lot of noise on the Internet some time ago, right?"
"Is this your sister? She's so cute!"
“···”
It’s been a long time since I’ve been to the university, and I never thought I’d be stopped by people asking questions enthusiastically.
"Classmate Su Yao, let me interview you. I heard that you lived in a mental hospital for two months."
"Xia Xianyue, the invisible campus beauty of Dongda University at that time, is also your current girlfriend."
"Can you tell her apart during that time?"
“···”
Feel bored.
"Go away and don't hang around big brother."
Before Su Yao said anything, You Ye puffed up her cheeks, pulled Su Yao angrily and left.
A few people were left looking at each other.
"Let's go to the water park."
Su Yao touched Youye's head and smiled knowingly.
In a paradise full of water, put on shorts.
Youye also put on a childish swimsuit.
Water surfing.
Waiting like an idiot in the pool for the man-made waves to hit.
"This wave is so silly. It might as well be a little whale blowing water."
You night floated in the waves.
There are quite a few silly facilities.
For example, a large bucket stores water on top. When it is full, it will be turned over to pour out water. A large group of people are looking eagerly below, waiting to be soaked.
Silly indeed.
After rafting and surfing, Su Yao took You Ye to have something to eat.
There are VIP private rooms here, which are also waterbed rooms that provide rest. They are quite good at doing business.
While resting here.
"Brother, can this Youye be removed?"
"Can."
"Yeah!"
Youye also naturally took off the pure white lining that had always made her feel uncomfortable. In this way, the pudding on the red panda was clearly visible under the wet clothes.
"Youye, are there cameras here?"
"?"
Youye looked around and shook his head.
Then he climbed onto the water bed where Su Yao was lying with some hesitation.
"Brother, don't you hate Youye's body?"
"Uh-"
You can clearly feel Yuye's petite body trembling through the light touch of her swimsuit.
——
"Brother, Youye is hungry and wants to eat salmon."
After coming out of the water park, Youye's stomach kept growling.
There wasn't much food here that she could eat. She only ate a little just now. It used up her energy, so it's normal to be hungry now.
But the most important thing is that the little hands holding each other are holding back energetically.
When he looked at himself again, he would not dodge as cautiously as before.
Intentions, at least for You Ye, and for myself, are better to be simply proven with actions than empty words lacking exact and true words.
About the agreement about Lin Xiaowan’s banquet.
After Su Yao returned home, he took advantage of the night to eat the dried fish that had been emptied out of stock, and also replied to the letter.
[Thank you for the invitation, but I’m afraid I won’t be able to come tonight. Let’s get together again in two days. 】
【At that time, there are some things I want to tell you.】
'bite.'
It took only ten seconds for me to reply.
[What's going on? The wedding day is about to be announced? Why are you two so secretive? They even told me that if you go, she will go, and if you don't go, she won't go. It's just not telling me
This best friend takes it seriously...]
Lin Xiaowan replied a few words, but Su Yao behind him didn't even look.
Just after a while, the phone buzzed and vibrated again.
Not WeChat.
It was a text message from Xia Xianyue.
【6.23 is my birthday, that night, I will be the only one at home.】