There was also a tingling sensation like pins and needles pulling on the nerves.
"Big brother."
You Ye, who was sitting next to her, held Su Yao's hand. A warm warmth came from her white and small hand.
"fine."
Su Yao chuckled. Maybe his expression didn't look so forced.
"Crack-"
As usual, light a cigarette and decorate it.
"His, ho..."
Slowly, Su Yao felt that his brain finally began to wake up. The energy in his whole body became active again with the beating of his lungs.
What to reply to?
Or, just call him directly.
If she was willing to listen to him, she would have called back long ago.
Words without sound are the only means of communication at the moment.
【I will wait until then.】
I want this back.
But when I clicked send, a red exclamation mark appeared after the message.
Turns out he was blocked.
Put down the phone.
There is no need to think about the fact that Xia Xianyue's birthday has passed before. That kind of day can be in the lunar calendar, it can be in the national calendar, or it can be in advance.
At that time, I just wanted to make up a reason for myself to go.
And now?
Is it a real birthday, or is it just like that time. I just want to arrange myself to go there.
To be honest, a lot of ideas popped up in my head involuntarily.
For example, I recall that Xia Xianyue even raised a knife to harm herself in order to let her stay.
So, will it happen again now?
He even picked up a knife and cut himself.
Maybe. That is, if she really knows the facts clearly.
Then he is her enemy.
"Youye."
Su Yao caressed You Ye's head, "Which do you think is better, extreme hatred or extreme sadness?"
"It's not good."
You Ye answered easily.
But the answer is correct.
If both things are bad, of course there is only one way to say which one is worse, so how can the question of which one be better arise?
There's something wrong with my head.
The time displayed on the phone is June 16th, which is almost a week from the 23rd mentioned by Xia Xianyue.
And there were additional schedule reminders on the phone that were not set by myself - they were probably left by Xia Xianyue after she fell asleep.
【6.17, 10.00 am, compulsory course.】
【6.17, dinner in the evening.】
[6.18, in the morning, stay in bed; in the evening, go to the cinema and visit the night market.]
【6.19. In the morning, it’s a compulsory course, in the afternoon, it’s a compulsory course, in the evening, it’s still a compulsory course hehehe (^_)☆.】
【6.20, buy, buy, buy!】
[6.21, morning, stay in bed. Afternoon, walk the dog~ (I want to go to the pet shop, just casually say, even if you don’t want to go, it doesn’t matter, it really doesn’t matter, don’t care, really don’t care), evening, Tongli
Ancient Town Lantern Festival gogogo!(￣▽￣)／】
【6.22, not available yet.】
【6.23,(=ω｀=)meow?】
After reading it calmly, I calmly put down my phone.
"call--"
Exhale the smoke lightly, and the fresh and old overlap together.
In this way, maybe the 23rd is her real birthday.
Then, what should you do to give yourself a chance to be alone on a day like that?
Su Yao wanted to think about the meaning.
But the hand was held, and the eager warmth continued to spread.
"I'm going to college tomorrow."
I was immersed in my own thoughts for so long that I even forgot about the pair of pure eyes staring at me.
"Well. Then Youye also wants to do what Youye wants to do."
"?"
"Hehe, it's not a dangerous thing."
"So, what is it?"
"secret."
"You've reached the age where you should have secrets."
"Brother, don't talk like a father like that. It's so annoying."
"Let's set off some fireworks."
"fireworks?"
Youye raised his face curiously.
"Don't you know this? It just can... boom, fly into the air and explode."
"What is that?"
"One of the ways humans celebrate, by the way, is to fry salmon."
"It feels so fun! Youye wants to play!"
“···”
Where can I buy fireworks at night?
What's more, it's not a holiday.
What's more, the winter market has already stipulated the setting points, so no one usually does this loss-making business.
So Su Yao bought a bunch of electronic firecrackers in the supermarket.
By the way, I bought a few more salmon and dangled them in my hands.
"There is no salmon in this. Big brother is a liar."
Youye played with the electronic firecrackers, looked at them for a while as if to confirm, and then said.
"Because I want to buy this, this is all I have."
Su Yao raised the fish in his hand with a smile, "It's like exploding salmon."
"Big brother, do you want cubs?"
“···”
"Big Brother, do you want a child?"
"You don't have to keep talking, I can hear you."
Su Yao rubbed his temples, "Why do you suddenly ask this?"
"If Big Brother doesn't tell you, You Ye will never have cubs. If you don't take special measures to control them, they will all be eaten by the virus in your body."
"Would you like to eat some fish first?"
Su Yao thought for a moment and handed over the plastic bag.
"I'm not hungry yet."
Youye shook his head, his pure pupils still staring.
"Why do I have to answer you immediately when you switch from fish to this topic, but why don't you cooperate when I switch from this topic to fish?"
"Because fish are not as important as big brother's babies."
"It will happen sooner or later, but not now."
"Okay~"
You Ye smiled lightly and said, "Then You Ye will want to spit it out of your mouth."
"Stop talking nonsense."
Holding her little hand, while talking, Su Yao had already led her to the hillside where she first exchanged food. When she came back after such a period of time, the place was no longer as dilapidated as before.
The greening is good and the roads have been re-paved.
Even the public restrooms have been newly painted. The street lights are brightly on, the trash cans are on the side, and there is no garbage scattered on the ground.
It seems that because of the bright light, no couples want to find excitement here.
Su Yao didn't come here looking for excitement.
When I got here, I remembered that there is no socket for electronic firecrackers, how can they explode?
Trance.
Take it out of the plastic bag and put it on the ground. There are two cans of beer and salmon inside.
"Brother, don't worry."
Youye seemed to have seen through Su Yao's thoughts, picked up the electronic firecracker and walked aside, then grabbed the firecracker with his tail and hung it by the street lamp.
"Kacha——"
I don’t know what You Ye did, anyway.
"Crackling——"
The electronic firecracker went off.
"whee."
She turned back and sat on the edge again, smiling as if she wanted to be praised.
“···”
Touching Youye's hair, watching her slightly squinting her eyes and rubbing her palms. Her posture was like that of a docile and well-behaved kitten. If Youye was lying on the ground at this time with her belly meowing, maybe she would really be a cat.
.
"Pi Hao——"
Opened a can of cans and drank and poured beer.
"Pi Hao——"
It seems that Youye is not limited to salmon, he also opened a can of beer like a cat.
"puff!"
Then it spurted out immediately.
"A liquid that is a hundred times more annoying than the green pepper that Yuye hates... ugh."
"Even I don't think it tastes good. Of course I hate it a hundred times."
"But You Ye feels that big brother seems to be very comfortable when he drinks it."
"Human beings sometimes seek abuse on themselves. Chili peppers are obviously very spicy. My stomach cramps when I eat them, but I just want to eat them. The same goes for wine. There is nothing praiseworthy in terms of taste or stamina, but sometimes I still want to drink some.
"
“···”
Youye was silent for a moment, and stopped eating the salmon. He just held it bloody in his hand and looked at it, "Brother, are you sad?"
"sad?"
"Crackling——"
Just as he was about to speak, the firecrackers, which had been silent for a while, started going off again.
After it finished playing tricks, Su Yao smiled and said, "Actually, it's more of a relief. The mask I've been wearing for a long time has finally been lifted, and now I can completely be myself with only a little bit left."
"Because you lose something by taking off the mask, there will certainly be negative emotions."
"But because of the meaningless mental internal friction of things that don't belong to me, it feels both unreasonable and unfair to you."
"Youye also has a mask. Youye has eaten people before."
"Are you talking about eating yourself?"
"Why is Big Brother laughing?"
"I'm sorry. Although I know it is something that should be taken seriously, it always feels a bit strange for the person involved to say, 'I have eaten people, but it was myself who ate them.'"
"Youye doesn't want to eat salmon anymore, he wants to eat big brother."
"oh."
Still drinking beer.
Maybe it’s because I want to say something more over the beer. I feel compulsive dizziness because I’m self-absorbed.
"Youye wants to eat big brother."
"So, you don't need to say it a second time, I can hear it."
"Crackling——"
The firecrackers went off again.
Stopped again.
"You Ye really wants to eat part of your big brother."
It's true that no normal couple would be interested in doing anything in such a bright place.
They, ordinary people, do not have the ability to prevent risks.
But Yu Ye does.
Therefore, when the petite body sat on his legs, Su Yao was only slightly stunned, and then accepted it.
Normally, I wouldn't do anything ridiculous here.
But after two cans of beer, it seemed like he was urging himself to obey and do something.
Just like yesterday, let things happen and see someone slip away.
"Big brother..."
"This time, Youye didn't intend to control the flow of the virus and it was swallowed up."
“···”
What is it?
It's a bit strange.
Doesn’t it mean that you have to control it in order for those things to be swallowed up? Why has it become an irony now?
It must be because my brain is so swollen that I don't even know what the petite body in front of me is saying.
——
The street lamp finally failed due to the constant voltage load.
The two suspects, one large and one small, left the scene of the crime in a swaggering manner.
After I got home and cleaned up, I didn't sleep either.
Su Yao looked at the data of those three songs again after a long absence.
After all this time, the popularity has not increased, but has declined. There are also fewer messages in the background.
There's no need to sell it.
But with this money, I might as well let the original singers and arrangers be Yu Ye and myself forever. This can be regarded as a part of the precious memory.
"Youye, compose that song."
"?"
"That's it, your unfinished song. Take it out and finish it today."
"Hmm."
You Ye's face showed a rare blush, and then nodded again.
It was an original song about a lonely You Ye working with some animals that eventually died at the beach. It was also a semi-finished song that I read in You Ye’s memory when I became a ‘god’.
It is destined not to be a popular work, and it is also just a small pleasure for two people.
The next day.
When she woke up, she was in bed. It seemed that she was dragged in by You Ye after she fell asleep last night. Su Yao's body almost changed its position, leaning sideways. But You Ye was better, no matter what, she always put her head
Just lay on your chest and sleep soundly. This is unbeatable.
"If I step on this road, I will always see you."
"Buzz-"
"Tirelessly, waiting there——"
“···”
Su Yao found the mobile phone next to the pillow.
The caller is Xia Liangzhen.
"Woo..."
"Big brother?"
Youye was also awakened by the movement, stood up and rubbed his eyes.
"Go on to sleep, it's still early."
Su Yao raised the phone in his hand and went out. But You Ye really curled up again, rolled around twice in his arms, closed his eyes and fell asleep again.
“···”
Get on the phone.
"Su Yao, what happened between you and Xiaoyue?"
Different seeking tone. Even a little harsh.
Maybe she already knew?
“···”
Su Yao sighed softly and reached for a cigarette from his trouser pocket, but found that there was nothing in his pocket. He was only wearing his underpants.
As a last resort, I sat on the sofa and stared at my reflection on the TV, "Something happened."
"Oh, I found out after I called her yesterday."
"This is not the best way to pretend."
"I don't know what's going on with you young people. But if you have anything to say, it's fine."
“···”
"Never do anything you regret, don't be like me."
“···”
Su Yao realized that maybe Xia Xianyue didn't say anything at all. Xia Liang was really naive and thought it was just a slightly serious quarrel. She didn't realize the seriousness of the matter at all.
"The 24th is Xiaoyue's real birthday."
"I won't be able to come back until that day. In short, I will hand over my daughter to you before that day."
"I do want to make it up to you."
"But who should I help with the matter between you? Who should I enlighten? Or you can only solve it on your own."
"I won't ask any unnecessary questions. I just want to see that you two are fine."
"This is considered Auntie's request, okay?"
Because I don't know anything.
Is that why you use such a contradictory and indeed pleading tone?
Why not ask?
If asked——
"Then, I'll leave it to you. Also, don't forget to go to the hospital for a re-examination. Although you seem to be fine now, it won't work if there are any problems that haven't been detected. The credibility of those doctors is too low.
Now, let me handle the matters at hand in the past few days and then take you to a psychiatrist approved by me. It just so happens that she recently returned to China."
“···”
Xia Liang really seemed to put her in the position of an elder, and talked a lot.
Finally, I got tired of talking and hung up the phone.
Su Yao said nothing because she didn't ask anything.
What is it?
That is to say, because I feel that it is best to return the responsibility to Xia Liangzhen over the phone first, drag her into this ugly situation, and let her scold herself first. That way... maybe she will be lighter and stronger.
Able to live comfortably.
Why should we pretend to care about ourselves?
Because it's written on the schedule, there is a class today.
So Su Yao made breakfast after washing up, and also set a portion for You Ye.
"You Ye can't have breakfast."
"Just drink a glass of hot milk."
Seeing Youye actually taking the cup that was not prepared for her, but for herself, she drank it.
"This... I remember it doesn't taste good to you, right?"
"Now you are used to the level of hot milk."
"So, why don't you have breakfast?"
"It will smell fishy when you talk after eating this."
"?"
Su Yao was stunned, "Are you going out?"
"Hehe, secret."
"Big brother will go to college, and Youye will have his own things to do later."
"Yeah?"
Su Yao shook his head and didn't ask any more questions.
The dishes and chopsticks were soaking in the pool. Youye said she would clean them later, but Su Yao didn't refuse and looked at the time, which was nearly nine-thirty.
Let's go out first.
"Big brother."
He was stopped by a soft voice.
It's not that he doesn't understand her expectations.
So I responded naturally. While enjoying the soft touch, I felt better.
"Be careful on the road."
Like a wife, she sways her tail and hands and shows a very bright smile.
“···”
Su Yao went out.
I think, no matter what, even if things are forced forward by external forces, I will never deviate from the right track. I will definitely continue along this path.
This is how people should be.
Cry when you are in pain, lament when you are helpless, feel anxious before gaining, and be calm after losing.
Calmly and without reservation, face the marshmallow-like clouds outside, shining brightly in the sunlight.
"morning."
“···”
Was called by a familiar voice.
Su Yao subconsciously raised his face, and then was stunned.
That face was completely different from what I expected, with an extremely brilliant smile.