My brain started to move naturally, thinking, and coming to terrifying conclusions.
"Is that so?"
The girl in front of her was still smiling. It looked a little too weird in the overcast weather.
Ignore the noise around you, ignore the inspectors and teachers anxiously evacuating the crowd not far away.
It's like time stands still.
Which is it?
"Why is Yao showing such an expression?"
The clenched hand moved in his palm, as if he was considering the object.
“···”
to be honest.
Su Yao couldn't help but feel terrified.
Cold sweat broke out from his forehead, and he swallowed hard, "Who...are you?"
"I don't know who I am either."
"I don't even know what I am."
"Anyway..."
Xia Xianyue smiled and said, "Seeing Ah Yao's reaction, I probably confirmed that those strange things are true. It feels so strange... and quite annoying."
“···”
Su Yao's eyes stayed on her face, speechless.
"How could such a strange thing happen?"
"Because I've seen me die in other places, I feel guilty about dating me..."
Xia Xianyue's tone was very brisk, as if she was joking, "That's no different from moral kidnapping!"
"I don't want to believe it at all. It's such an unbelievable thing."
"But why?"
"I have never been to where I live, but I seem very familiar."
"I originally hated people like me, but suddenly I was observing me at a certain time and started to like people like me."
"I believed it at that time and I was really happy."
"But I have always been paying attention to Ah Yao. If there is such a thing...how could I not know about it."
"Ah. This series of facts is really annoying."
"The same goes for kissing. It's obviously my first time, but Ah Yao seems to be used to it."
"Even for that kind of thing, Ah Yao seems to have known for a long time how to bully me and where is the best place to start."
"Obviously this is my first time."
"It's so weird, really weird."
"That's..."
Su Yao couldn't answer.
Even if many things are deliberately pretending, are they still full of flaws in her opinion?
"Is that so?"
"Because I saw me dying miserably somewhere, and my conscience was troubled, so I thought I should help people like me to smile."
“···”
"You now..."
Su Yao looked at her and said as calmly as possible, "What do you want to say?"
"I want to say..."
"If that's all, I can pretend I don't know anything and continue to live happily. It's no big deal to act like a fool."
"But it's not right, it's completely wrong!"
"It's obviously a major event that everyone is paying attention to recently, why is it that only Ah Yao calls it a boring prank?"
"You need to block that kind of news. You don't want to see it, you don't want to hear it."
“···”
"Just like Ah Yao deliberately recorded me talking in my sleep, I also saw Ah Yao talking in my sleep. It was a completely unfamiliar name."
"···name?"
Su Yao froze on the spot and said after a while, "I don't have that habit."
"But I don't deny that the name actually exists."
Xia Xianyue smiled lightly.
"It exists. It's just like what you said."
Now that things have come to this, there is no harm in admitting it.
"Can such illusory things happen in this kind of world?"
she asked.
"Is it ethereal?"
Su Yao looked out blankly and saw the noisy crowd around him. The ambulance seemed to have arrived.
The sky is still overcast.
The cold air felt like it reached the bone marrow when it touched my face, and it was bone-chilling.
What is true and what is false?
All I can say is——
"If I send you to a mental hospital now, there is a high probability that you will get the same diagnosis as me."
"That kind of place... I don't want to go."
"Na."
Xia Xianyue stared straight at Su Yao again, "In Ah Yao's eyes, do I feel more guilty or sympathetic?"
"If you like me and really have love, can you look into my eyes?"
"Say, yes. Just love, nothing else."
"I···"
I.
What is planned is what is expected.
This is a world that will come to an end sooner or later.
compensate.
Because she died last time, I still wanted to enjoy selfish happiness regardless of it.
So I want to compensate.
Therefore, no matter what happens or what you are doing at You Ye, don’t pay attention to it.
Deliberately put this name out of my mind.
"Na."
"Ah Yao, do you really treat me as a girl?"
“···”
"In other words, it's really just used as a pillow."
“···”
I think it would be too arbitrary to say this.
The visible eye cannot help but be attracted by the translucent square frame.
【Girl who likes you】
[Character: Xia Xianyue]
[Favorability: 49]
[Description: When the illusion is shattered, I will remain suspicious of you. If no action is taken, the value will continue to decrease.]
ha.
It turns out it's just such a simple thing.
For Xia Xianyue, isn't it just a dispensable toy in this world?
Because in my own imagination, this is just a world of self-satisfaction.
After you are satisfied with yourself, it doesn't matter who is abandoned.
Therefore, it cannot be refuted.
"perhaps···"
"I can't get along with Ah Yao like before."
"Oh, it's so cold."
Xia Xianyue retracted her hands into her sleeves and squinted her eyes as if she was smiling, "I want to go live with my mother temporarily. I don't understand many things and I want to calm down."
“···”
Su Yao glanced at her and said calmly, "I will go back to where I live."
"Then it's up to Ah Yao to think about it. Anyway, I won't go back to that place for the time being."
His tone became slightly colder.
Why?
Ahhh.
If you knew those things, you wouldn't look like a qualified partner no matter what.
Let your girlfriend die and live happily with another person.
I didn’t even go to my girlfriend’s funeral.
Not only the funeral, but also the tombstone was too lazy to look at.
What a selfish person.
What a despicable existence.
"Classmate, please leave the school as soon as possible."
The inspector nearby came over to chase the students away. It was impossible to let the students stay here after a case like this happened.
Su Yao looked back at the scene where the man died, and then went back to think about everything.
What a prudent calculation.
It's not so much a careful plan, it's more that I'm self-righteous because I'm not very smart. Everything is full of flaws.
Probably when she thought everything was going well, she was connecting the dots of the illusory pictures in her mind little by little, and finally turned them into confirmable facts.
I feel so strange.
When you seriously want to tell the truth and pray that someone can share the burden with you, no one is willing to believe you before it happens.
But when I wanted to keep silent, even if I was happy for a second, the truth was automatically discovered and believed by others. Even denying it was useless.
"So."
"byebye, Ah Yao."
The girl spat out the words in vain and walked away without looking back.
Bye-Bye?
Su Yao noticed a slight feeling of hatred rising in his heart.
Looking at her retreating back, I became more and more disgusted.
she.
world.
Love games.
Own.
Everyone hates it.
They are all so unreasonable and despicable.
"Crack."
Su Yao lit a cigarette, and the slightly warm little hand she was holding just now no longer existed.
Only the smoke left conveyed less than one-tenth of the warmth just now.
"ha···"
Take a deep breath and take a deep breath of fresh, cold air.
This cycle continues, as if the brain is also frozen a little.
Let your hands be exposed to the air and come into contact with the cold. Swinging, you walk home.
——
The tenant where I live just left three days ago.
Leaving behind a mess after moving.
Torn off wallpaper, trash, plastic bags, everywhere.
'The time is very urgent, can I give you 300 yuan as compensation?'
If you are given enough money to hire a cleaner to clean the house, but you are left with dirty scenes that make the house full of strong discomfort, do you think such a person has high or low quality?
I feel like everything is full of contradictions.
"Crack."
Su Yao accidentally stepped on the empty drink can and kicked it aside.
Sitting on the sofa.
Everywhere is a mess, even messier than when I first came back here.
After smoking one cigarette, light another one.
What do you want to do?
Right.
Finally, just turn on your phone and receive the noisy news from the outside world.
[News headlines: An extremist stabbed a teacher at a private university in Dongshi this morning and also took a female student hostage...]
What just happened has been quickly reported by the media.
And the source of that guy’s extreme remarks also came out.
Just say it.
How could a guy of that caliber have such literary talent?
They are all the dogmas of the 'Saya Cult' that has been causing a lot of noise recently - said the fool.
It's just plagiarizing a certain dogmatic philosophical theory and starting to incite people's hearts.
There are still many dates to push forward.
primary school.
bank.
Even the square...
There will always be a few weird guys who step out and preach these dogmas.
The 'Shaye Cult' even established an official website using an overseas server, proudly claiming that it has more than 6,000 teachers.
So strange.
These people established this kind of cult in the name of "Youye" and others, but some people saw the right opportunity to defraud money in the name of the cult.
How stupid. How could anyone be deceived by such a low-level scam? How could anyone want to join such an organization?
Some experts analyzed and commented carefully.
[I think this organization that suddenly appeared was probably maliciously established by foreign forces.]
[All they use are extreme remarks that encourage people to develop into animalistic, violent, and unrestrained ways.]
【Friends, everyone must understand that freedom is based on rules.】
[I ask those few people to think about it. By freedom, do you mean the freedom to worry about being stabbed in the back when you go out? 】
[It is precisely because everyone abides by the law and is bound by laws and basic moral standards that people can gain true freedom. If there are no such rules, then please go to some small foreign countries and war-torn areas to see what they do on a daily basis.
How to live.]
[You people are simply too full to hold on. I advise you to turn back now. Now the official has defined you as an illegal organization. I heard from my friends that because of the frequent cases in recent days, the task force has prepared a draft to stereotype you.
For terrorist organizations and terrorists.]
[Illegal organizations and terrorist organizations are really two different things. Do you really know that? Do you really not want to die? 】
There are comments from netizens below what this expert said.
The expert who said this has been missing for more than seven days.
I followed the clues and found a solemn statement issued by the inspector.
A very simple sentence.
[The winter market will carry out anti-terrorism drills on April 1. A curfew from 21 o'clock to 7 o'clock the next day will be implemented. Citizens are requested to actively cooperate.]
It seems like things are bad.
No one mentioned the monster again, everyone's attention was attracted... No, to be more specific, everyone associated this organization with 'You Ye'.
It's all the same thing.
If you want to say one sentence among these thousands of comments, it's not like this, I'm afraid you will immediately be shouted at that this man is a walking 500,000 yuan, arrest him. No one will listen to the second half of the sentence, this is not the case, the 'monster' is another
Something happened.
‘Youye’ didn’t say anything from beginning to end. It was as if he disappeared out of thin air.
Finished reading.
Really bad.
The little girl who will become more and more cute later because she is blocking her and exchanging food with her does not exist. The future ten years later does not exist either.
Neither do the two lovely children.
Now, even the girlfriend who died and came back to life does not exist.
"Tsk."
Su Yao smacked his lips.
Speaking of which, hanging is a method of death that I have never tried before.
If you hang the rope on the chandelier, and people go up... the height will be about the same.
Very peaceful.
Very peaceful.
Mentally...very stable and normal.
There is no rope at home that is suitable for hanging.
If you want to look for it, you can definitely find a replacement.
But why look for it?
Why do you have to die?
After death, go back to the past and hide it again?
You can't hide it, there's no need to lie.
If it's known, it's not a big deal.
Said.
'I will protect you.'
That time I couldn't let her live smoothly.
What now?
Is there an obsession that she must survive?
Then you shouldn't feel any guilt when you left Yu Ye long ago, and you shouldn't have any unnecessary thoughts when you see her dead ten years later.
Ask again.
Is the obsession really just as simple as wanting her to live smoothly?
Being rejected is one thing.
It's another thing to just watch things unfold without saying anything.
What?
I always thought that if I was used to being chased after me, I would start thinking about hanging myself at the slightest contradiction, like a fool.
Do you really think you are gold?
Can't.
"call--"
Su Yao took a deep breath and clicked on WeChat.
Make a call.
[The number you dialed is currently unavailable]
It's normal that I can't calm down now and don't want to talk to myself.
So I sent a message instead.
[I don’t know how much you know]
[But there is no doubt that you are wrong about one thing]
[If it was just guilt and sympathy, I would never do this]
【I am very sure and sure...】
[Starting from a certain period of time, I must really love you]
Very strange psychology.
If Xia Xianyue didn't know anything before and felt selfish, just smiling for one more day would be complete and satisfying.
So now we are facing real people.
What is real now is real.
The world is no longer illusory.
It seems like everything has a temperature.
The food you eat also becomes more flavorful.
Waiting for the reply with anxiety.
This is the first time.
Even if my phone vibrates, I will pay attention to it. But none of them will reply.
Since I don't have to go to class anymore, I have been staying at home and waiting.
Replied.
【Then why did you leave me alone?】
【···】
[I'm sorry, Ah Yao, my mind is very messed up right now]
【Can we wait for a while before talking? 】
asshole.
Why should I leave you alone? I also want to know why there is such a multiple-choice question before me.
【Now, I will never give up on anyone.】
This is the only answer I got after going through all this. Nothing must be given up, and you shouldn't give up on your own.
Even if it is despicable and disgusting, you must say it yourself.
[The truth is that I care about you, and I also love You Ye.]
【No one can give up.】
[Even if it is such a unilateral and despicable idea, I will realize it]
[Same as I said before, rather than letting anyone delay you, it’s better to be me, even if it’s me.]
A strong possessive desire arises instantly.
It broke out together with what I had endured when I heard she was getting married.
It doesn't matter if it's despicable.
No one can do it but yourself.
It doesn't matter if there is no reply, I will go there and find it myself. It doesn't matter if I use feelings that cannot be replaced by numbers to force me, it doesn't matter.
This has been thought of for a long time.
If you can see the real her without loading files, then start from now...
"beep--"
Putting on her shoes, Su Yao called Xia Liangzhen.
"Wow——"
The curtain on the balcony suddenly shook, and an inexplicable figure appeared outside.
"Hello? Su Yao?"
The call was connected instantly.
Su Yao looked at the little figure that appeared at an untimely time and didn't reply a word. Only the pure white dress in his sight was fluttering in the evening breeze.
"Wonderful night?"
It really took a long time before I could hesitate to make a sound.
"Youye? What is that?"
The petite body repeated it in confusion, and then slowly stepped over, the tail behind it also swaying and rising.
"That doesn't matter."
"The human being who was said to be very nice by No. 16 feels really friendly when I smell it like this."
"But I'm sorry, you need to undergo transformation and become one of us."
"Pah——"
The tail hit Su Yao's neck at a speed that was invisible to the naked eye, and his consciousness disappeared instantly.
"Hello? Su Yao? Why don't you speak?"
"Did you call me to ask about - kataka."
The cell phone that was making noisy sounds was instantly hit by the tail and became fragmented. There was no more sound.
In the dim space, only a petite figure was left, curling up the unconscious person with its tail, jumping lightly, and disappeared into the dark night.