Even the hotel where we stayed for the night seemed fake.
What is true?
What can be proved?
"Master, go to Hope Orphanage."
Xia Xianyue stopped a taxi.
Looking at the reversing scene outside the car window, he was silent.
That day... no, it was yesterday.
After witnessing the crime scene, apart from a sense of uneasiness and discomfort, I also inexplicably remembered more scenes.
A completely unrealistic picture.
Another first time?
How could something like that happen twice?
There happens to be one, perhaps in another previously unknown world.
Or do you mean turning back time?
I can't understand it at all.
Hope it's false.
But all the little clues that are strung together say, "This is real."
Before asking the question ‘Is this so’, what you want is not ‘yes’.
It seems that it is meaningless to think about it now. It has no meaning at all.
"Girl, we've arrived. It's 28 yuan."
"···Thanks."
Xia Xianyue scanned the QR code to pay and slipped out of the car.
There are some shabby welfare facilities in front of you. From here, you can see children walking around inside.
It seemed to be a public health checkup. There were medical staff measuring the blood pressure or pulse of the children lining up in the open space.
"What's wrong with you?"
When she wanted to go in, Xia Xianyue was stopped by the security guard.
“···”
Xia Xianyue searched among the children, but could not find the little girl in the picture.
"Excuse me, what can I do for you?"
The security guard frowned and said, "It is non-visiting time now, and no unauthorized persons are allowed in."
"Sorry, I'm looking for a little girl."
"The name is...Mashiro."
This feeling is very amazing.
Although they are strangers to each other, as soon as they say their names, they can recall the warm scenes of living together.
"Who are you?"
"Ah, I met Mashiro by chance, and then..."
“···”
After chatting with the security guard for a while, he called the dean for instructions.
Not long after, Xia Xianyue was allowed in.
It was a place I had never been before, but I found the meeting room easily.
"You said you know a kid named Mashiro, who is probably eleven or early twelve years old."
"But we don't have any children with that name here."
The dean looked at Xia Xianyue in confusion, "Did you look in the wrong place?"
"Ah, then, sorry, I must have found the wrong one."
Xia Xianyue was stunned for a moment, then understood immediately.
In the picture, I was already 30 years old at that time. But now I am 20 years old.
Going back ten years, Xiaobai might not even have time to be abandoned.
"What are you looking for that child for?"
"that···"
"Is your relationship not going well? Do you plan to adopt a child in the future?"
"Ha, maybe."
"Although I don't agree with young people not getting married, if you are really emotionally frustrated and want to adopt a child by yourself, you can wait and see."
"Eh?"
"Um···"
The dean stood up and said, "Should I say it's fate? Although there is no eleven or twelve-year-old Mashiro as you mentioned, we did receive an abandoned baby from the hospital last month. Now he is less than one year old, and he is also named Mashiro.
"
"Would you like to take a look? Maybe you have a special interest."
"ah···"
Xia Xianyue was stunned and said firmly, "I want to take a look."
"Haha, come with me."
The dean seemed to detect some meaning from Xia Xianyue's face.
It’s not that I can’t understand it.
In the dean's view, he might also develop into a non-marriage person who can adopt children. He is not the only young man here.
“···”
In the nursery of the orphanage, Xia Xianyue met Xiaobai.
"Ji...ji?"
He is really young and has not yet fully learned how to speak.
"She is calling her sister. She is very smart. She already knows how to call people."
The dean was translating on the side and said, "Mashiro, say good morning to my sister."
“···”
"Jiji, Sha Shang roars~ Hee hee hee."
Mashiro looked at Xia Xianyue for a long time and suddenly smiled happily.
“···”
Memories are given a sense of reality bit by bit.
Zhenbai, or Xiaobai.
At the beginning, she was the kind of person who would consider whether the other person who came to visit her would take her away or give her some benefits. If so, she would use the tenderness and innocence of a child to constantly try to occupy a little position in the other person's heart.
She usually hides her outstanding appearance and becomes inconspicuous among a lot of children. This is to protect herself.
How did you discover her?
Maybe it's some kind of connection between people who are the same as God.
That kind of atmosphere, even if she is in a crowd of people who look the same, she can still distinguish it at a glance.
But now, she is just a spotless little child, curled up in the crib, stretching her short limbs.
"Sister Ji, woo woo, wow~"
He spoke a language he didn't quite understand.
"Little...Mashiro."
"Eh? Hee hee."
It is impossible to know yourself.
But it does exist. In this orphanage, there is a being named Mashiro.
Then ten years later, I became such a novice.
"Isn't it cute?"
"If you have time, you can come here to play with Mashiro on the open day. I think she likes you quite a lot."
"Even if you don't have any intention of adopting, it is beneficial to just come over and play with the children and learn how to take care of them."
"What do you think? Classmate Xia."
"I···"
Xia Xianyue glanced at the small, pure and tender face, then looked at the noisy child in the distance outside the window who was being scolded for a physical examination quietly, and then back to the baby's face, which was not pretty at all.
Suddenly, a strong feeling of dizziness hit my forehead.
Want to vomit.
Feeling strongly uncomfortable.
"Classmate Xia?!"
"Jiji~hehehe."
In front of Mashiro and the dean, he fainted.
——
When Xia Xianyue woke up again, she was in the hospital.
Not long after he fainted, someone happened to call him on his cell phone. Mashiro told the person on the phone that he had fainted, so he was sent here.
"What on earth are you doing? Do you plan to go to a place like that to get some parenting training in advance?"
"That kid Su Yao really doesn't care at all."
It was Lin Xiaowan who sent her to the hospital.
There was no big problem. The doctor said that I was too tired and didn’t eat, so I suddenly fainted due to low blood sugar.
Just give some fluids and you can go back.
"It's not like that..."
Xia Xianyue responded weakly.
"What's that like?"
Lin Xiaowan poured a cup of hot water for Xia Xianyue, "Tell me honestly, did you two quarrel?"
"No...it doesn't count."
"What do you mean, it's not true! Really, I just called him over! I can't believe that he still dares to do this and that when he sees his girlfriend like this."
"Don't."
Xia Xianyue turned her head and waved her hand, "Don't call him."
"Why? Hey! Xiaoyue..."
Lin Xiaowan hesitated for a while before saying, "Is it possible that you did something wrong?"
"without."
"What on earth is that? You tell me!"
“···”
Xia Xianyue looked out the window again, staring at the ethereal blue sky in the distance. Even the sun was out now, but unfortunately there was no temperature. She still felt cold.
"Xiao Wan, do you think it is possible for people to experience two lives?"
"What nonsense are you talking about? If this were true, the world would have been in chaos. People would be everywhere buying lottery tickets. The economy would have expanded a long time ago."
"...Well, that's how it should be."
"Xiaoyue?"
"Why on earth...why do we need to know such strange things?"
Xia Xianyue's eyes began to heat up unconsciously, and they began to become hazy in the blink of an eye.
Being left alone.
One person can also play a decent guitar smoothly.
That's not a big deal.
Not all the things I recall are sad, most of them are even worthy of joy and happiness.
Those little emotions and joys are all becoming more and more real, together with the discarded parts.
But I don't care about those things.
This... compensatory love.
It is both late and false.
It's not just because I was left behind, it's because I don't want to be like this.
I don’t know anything, and then I am stupidly happy.
However, the existence that the person you like likes is not you. When you embrace each other, does it mean that what you see when you look into your eyes is not you.
Whatever is illusory is fine, really, anything is fine.
Don't care.
It didn't matter if I chose to pretend not to know myself later, because I didn't know Ah Yao either. Even if I told him at that time, I wouldn't believe it.
Don't care.
"Hey! Why are you crying all of a sudden?"
"Don't cry!"
"Good boy, don't cry. I'll scold that kid for you later!"
“···”
I want to say, it's not like that.
It's no one's fault at all.
I just feel that I can no longer freely stay with the person I like because I am an abandoned person.
So, you should leave on your own.
I don't want to be a third party.
If the person you like like this can get real happiness for a long time, instead of some compensation, then that's fine.
——
It took Lin Xiaowan a long time to comfort Xia Xianyue.
In the end, she didn't get any useful information from Xia Xianyue, so she gritted her teeth and called Su Yao on WeChat.
[Hello, the user you dialed is temporarily busy]
"What a good boy, you're just trying to refuse the call."
After calling a few more times, Lin Xiaowan gave up and left a message directly for Su Yao.
[Su Yao, I have your girlfriend in my hand. If you don’t want to be single again, please call me back quickly]
No reply.
No matter how annoyed Lin Xiaowan was, she could only buy some light breakfast and take care of her aunt who was still in the hospital for infusion. Deep down in her heart, she knew that as long as there was no big problem like cheating on the two of them, there would definitely not be much of a problem.
Cheating?
Lin Xiaowan knew what Xia Xianyue said. This guy was completely focused on Su Yao. It would be an exaggeration to say that he was in love. Not to mention cheating, there was only one male contact information on his phone, Su Yao.
And Su Yao...
Although Lin Xiaowan didn't know everything about it, he followed Xia Xianyue and observed it for about a year.
It’s hard to say either.
Judging from the last time we met, I always felt that Su Yao was not as dull as I had seen before. It could even be said that he was a little more at ease. However, Lin Xiaowan had never heard of rumors that Su Yao had been with anyone of the opposite sex.
Later, because of his performance at that dinner party, he used his contacts and gossip to ask questions. Most of them didn't even know that such a person was in class together. The few who knew about it all said the same thing, "You mean Su Yao? He..."
·I’m always alone. It feels so gloomy.”
after.
"I don't really want to go home just yet."
"Is it okay to stay at your place?"
"ah?"
Although he really didn't understand what the problem was between these two people, Lin Xiaowan could only nod silently when he saw his best friend's gloomy look.
The problem...seems a bit serious?
Could it be that that boy really cheated?
Becoming more and more suspicious.
Same thing the next day.
"today···"
"I don't really want to go to class."
Not even going to university.
"You still don't want to say what happened?"
"Did that kid cheat on you?"
"If so, I'll find someone to break his legs right now! You bitch!"
"No... Ah Yao is not that kind of person."
“···”
After getting angry and getting a calm response, Lin Xiaowan was even more confused, "I said, aunt, if this isn't the case, then it's not a big problem. If anything happens, you two should meet and talk about it!"
"You can't just hide and not see each other all day long, right? I look so worried! You two have finally achieved success, and you were still talking about planning to get married before. Why is this... ugh!"
“···”
Xia Xianyue huddled in bed and said lifelessly, "I want to... stay alone for a while."
"Really! Don't say anything!"
“···”
"Okay, okay, then you just stay here and don't run around."
In the end, Lin Xiaowan had no choice but to leave her at home and go out by himself.
OK.
Since there is no news from Xia Xianyue, then go to Su Yao and ask.
As a result, I looked for Su Yao at school and found that this guy didn't come either.
Lin Xiaowan has always been a hard worker, doing whatever he says and doing everything well.
The university couldn't find Su Yao, so they simply waited for the two required classes in the morning to finish and went straight to where Su Yao lived.
Very strange.
The door is unlocked.
"Su Yao, are you here?"
"Dong dong."
Tried knocking on the door, but no one answered.
“···”
"Dong dong."
I knocked a few more times, but still no response.
"No matter what, I came right in!"
Lin Xiaowan stepped into the house.
"Ah, it's so messy."
From the looks of it, she probably knew that the previous tenant had done it.
Room..
I knocked on the door, but no one answered, and I didn't see anyone when I went in.
I knocked on the door in the bathroom, but no one answered.
No one was found hiding inside.
Open the door, no one is there.
···
There's no one anywhere.
"Isn't this kid too defensive?"
Or did you just leave the door open after the last tenant left?
Really lack of quality.
[Hello, the user you dialed is temporarily busy]
Called and still no one answered.
etc.
When Lin Xiaowan turned around, he suddenly found fragments of something behind the door.
The glass looked sparkling in the afterglow of the sun.
Close the door.
What I saw was a broken mobile phone that had been swept to the corner. The glass just now was probably from the mobile phone screen.
There were traces of cigarette ash on the empty drink cans on the coffee table, which proved that Su Yao had indeed come back.
"Did Xiaoyue do something to make Su Yao very angry?"
No way?
But after smashing the phone like this, I have to think of Su Yao's angry look.
No no.
It's impossible for Xiaoyue to do that kind of thing, there must be some misunderstanding.
Or...
Does this guy have any hidden characteristics, such as domestic violence?
——
The twisted facts Lin Xiaowan had in mind to defend Xia Xianyue were shattered in the afternoon.
[Now, the inspector has announced a set of missing persons notices]
[The following are all people suspected of being brainwashed by extremist organizations that have been committing rampant crimes recently]
[Please note that the people on the list are quite dangerous. Citizens are asked not to approach without authorization after witnessing them. You should stay as far away as possible and call the inspector hotline]
[Anyone who provides valid clues will be awarded a one-time reward of 100,000 yuan.]
[In addition, starting from 8 o'clock tomorrow, no one will be allowed in or out of the winter market unless necessary. Anti-terrorism drills are about to begin. Citizens who have stayed behind are also asked to cooperate with the officials to carry out the drills. Citizens whose work income is affected by the drills will be charged on a daily basis.
200 yuan as subsidy.】
The first person in the photo above is obviously Su Yao.