Chapter 199 Continuing to give consideration to the new me
Chapter 199 Continue to give thoughtfulness to the new me
Is planning to do something.
It's impossible to just wait for the ending in a dark corner, right?
That's...
This is indeed what I thought before.
It doesn't matter what happens in this world of toying with people.
【you···】
【They are not the same kind as us at all, are they? 】
【Eh? I am! I am also a person who has been taken away!】
[If you want to find someone, you have come to the wrong place. This forum is not a place for you to find someone.]
[This forum has been disbanded]
Su Yao spent a lot of time building the forum.
In the past ten years, technical reference has been used to describe Youye. Later, I finally met a few people who knew IT, so I decided to start an anonymous forum for special groups to chat.
That's it.
After being transformed, some people release their desires and become unrestrained. They think that it is like this anyway, so they might as well just let it go.
But most of them are hidden. They don’t want to be like that, but they are inevitably affected by those who do evil and have to hide somewhere.
At this time, it would be really precious if there was a place where people like this could talk to each other.
The worst thing is the first batch of people whose personal information and data are completely disclosed.
Later, it was because the congressmen realized that doing so would only have side effects. As for the monsters, it was of course better for people to know that there were "monsters" among you, but not to completely reveal the information.
It will also no longer be disclosed.
The forum established here is similar to a group chat place. Everyone except the group leader Su Yao is known, and everyone else is anonymous.
The review is very strict.
As for the guy who was kicked just now being able to come in...that's totally true.
Isn't it too childish?
Even though I found stickers online, this is a group where you can only join the group by having a face-to-face video meeting with the group owner and confirming that you are of the same type.
That's...
Xia Xianyue.
Do you think that just taking a realistic toy and decorating it on your arm can make it look real?
"Group leader, why did you let that person in just now?"
Immediately, a member asked in private message.
"Sorry, it was my negligence. Please create a new forum immediately."
Su Yao rubbed the weird hand, which could now be completely transformed into the form of a hand, but the color was emerald green and the branches were intricately intertwined. It didn't look like a normal hand.
"Crack."
Light a cigarette.
Take a deep breath.
A whole month has passed since that day when I planned to find Xia Xianyue.
After that, I completely lost contact with her.
Even now, it is impossible not to know what happened to me.
Tossing and turning.
Su Yao picked up the phone and went out.
It's night now.
I came out to see if there were any innocent people who were forcibly taken to the square and executed by those guys.
To put it bluntly, Su Yao almost knew that there were "monsters" in that illegal organization, and he helped the evildoers deliberately find monsters who were hiding and pulled them out as scapegoats.
The congressmen have not been active recently, and it is not clear what they will do next. The patrol inspectors have also been removed.
“···”
Su Yao stayed at the entrance of the alley, watching in the darkness a pair of volunteers wearing red armbands and flashing flashlights.
In other words, the winter market is weird right now.
Speaking of killings, there have been a lot less of them lately.
It's peaceful, but the whole city is full of these volunteers.
Most of the original intention of joining was to get shelter. But later on, it changed. In order to find so-called "monsters", they would just break open doors everywhere.
It can be said that the reason why the winter market has been so depressed to this extent is not only because the legislators did not come up with the simplest and most powerful solution. It is not their fault. The fact is that there are too many concerns.
But the consequence is that after all the power of order falls into this illegal but numerous illegal organization, the order becomes more chaotic and weird.
Doing bad things with just reasons... that's it.
Not entirely.
There are also people here who are serious about finding the "monster" and restoring order to the past. So it's really strange.
I didn't come out just to meddle in other people's business.
Su Yao couldn't sit idly by. The scope of Xia Xianyue's recent activities began to expand with the atmosphere of the winter market.
Last time I sent her a text message using someone else's phone.
[Please stay at home and don’t run around]
One is to tell her that she is still alive and well, and the other is not to do unnecessary things.
But obviously this person turned a deaf ear.
Speaking of which, how did this guy find the forum? He's quite capable.
"ha···"
After hesitating for a while, Su Yao dialed the familiar number.
——
After Xia Xianyue learned about Su Yao's experience, her whole body felt as if she had been struck by lightning.
How could such an incredible thing happen?
But a series of things happened next, and Su Yao was indeed missing. Things that I no longer wanted to believe became true.
Thinking back to the little girl in my memory,
Tail?
That kind of thing, decoration?
in the end···
Don't worry about anything, just make a call.
'Sorry, the phone you dialed has been switched off.'
When I heard this sentence, I remembered that Lin Xiaowan had said that Su Yao's mobile phone was broken into pieces in the house.
I hurried to Su Yao's house and found that the messy apartment was being watched.
As soon as I went there I was stopped.
"If he contacts you, please tell us immediately."
The person being inspected said this in a very serious tone.
That day, Xia Xianyue's head kept buzzing after returning from Su Yao's house.
What the hell is going on?
If I hadn't separated from Ah Yao in Dongda and came back together, wouldn't this kind of thing have happened?
"Woo..."
My heart felt like it was being held tightly by someone.
Speechless.
Tears overflowed uncontrollably.
Yeah?
is that so?
That is to say, in the large number of extra scenes, Ah Yao gets along with monsters every day. He lives a hellish life, but he only cares about his own feelings, and even lies about voluntarily quitting to live a good life alone, so that
Ah Yao is happy.
What?
It's not... it's completely like a burden, nothing is shared.
They are all oil bottles.
I want to find it, then apologize with all my strength... and then, with all my strength, say it's not like that.
At that time, I talked about leaving myself alone, but I just felt that I was redundant.
There's never a time when I don't like it, all the time.
I searched like crazy, please ask my mother, please ask Lin Xiaowan.
But I couldn't find it at all.
Su Yao seemed to have disappeared from the world and never appeared again.
I'm really close to despair.
[I have no problem. Stay at home and don’t run around, it’s very dangerous outside now]
It wasn't until she received such a message from an unknown number that Xia Xianyue knew that Su Yao was still alive.
The number that can be replied to in the past was shown to be invalid.
Can't get through even on the phone.
I don't have any free time to think about anything else, I just want to do something to help.
Therefore, in online forums, I often post to explain that not all 'monsters' are guilty. Although many people criticize me, I still have to explain it.
I didn’t cry all day long.
Xia Xianyue just gritted her teeth and felt like an idiot.
Whatever is illusory is fine.
Could it be that because of this, I am no longer myself?
Judging from the extra scenes, Ah Yao didn't want to make amends after he died. Nor did he choose to save himself ten years ago after he died.
Isn't it enough to know this?
What about some illusory parallel world?
That little girl... now is not the being who is closely related to Ah Yao in the picture at all, she is a monster.
have no idea.
Don't know anything.
Still lovers.
She is still a girlfriend, so why should she give up her identity?
Every day I try to find ways to reduce people's generalized view of all 'monsters', and I gradually become aware that there is a kind of paradise created by 'monsters' who have never been outside.
But it's too difficult to get in.
So I thought of a way to look like a monster, and successfully sneaked into two or three forums or group chats. I hope to find Su Yao there.
"Buzz."
Now, the phone suddenly rang.
Unknown number.
“···”
When I picked up the phone, I didn't expect it to be Su Yao.
Anyway, she receives more than a dozen such calls a day. The reason is most likely that Xia Xianyue was deceived in a forum before and accidentally exposed her contact information. After that, there would be inexplicable and strange harassing calls every day.
But it cannot be changed, because only Su Yao knows this number.
Everyone will be answered, even if many times what is said on the phone is uncomfortable. It must be confirmed.
"Aren't you angry now?"
Eh?
Strange, is it an auditory hallucination?
I always feel that the voice... is very familiar.
Xia Xianyue stared at the screen blankly for a while before speaking, "Ah Yao?"
"It's me."
Su Yao took out a cigarette and wanted to light it, when he suddenly saw a figure coming from a distance, and quickly got into the vending machine at the entrance of a store. Relying on the shadow, those people passed by with flashlights on the opposite side.
"Uuuu, I'm sorry..."
hiss.
Why is the sound so loud even when the receiver is only turned on?
Su Yao covered the receiver and waited for the intermittent sobbing inside to end.
"Is it done?"
"Oh, it's over."
"Just listen to me when you're done."
"Uh-huh..."
"Stop trying to find out about me. I'm living a good life."
"Then... where is Yao now?"
"Don't ask about things you shouldn't ask. Just stay at home peacefully. I've seen that your home is a relatively safe place."
"It's impossible for the congressmen to just sit idly by and watch this matter. I guess there will be big moves next. It won't be long before it's over."
“···”
"No, that's not right... Everyone is rumored that the top management has developed a device that can distinguish between ordinary humans and... monsters, and they will be inspected one by one and sent outside soon."
"At that time... what should Ah Yao do?"
"That's just a rumor. With so many people being transformed, we can't just deal with them all without saying anything."
Su Yao smiled brightly and puffed on his cigarette lightly, "Don't worry about those who are there or not, I didn't do anything bad, and I saved a lot of people."
"don't want···"
"?"
"Don't take me for a fool!"
"Ah Yao is always like this. He doesn't say anything. It was the same before. I didn't know at all... He was like a fool. He thought that Ah Yao would be fine with that monster and quit on his own initiative..."
"I don't know...I don't know what kind of life Ah Yao is living at all. Wuwu..."
“···”
"Ah Yao, I miss you. I really miss you."
"You'll be in trouble if you meet me."
"Ah Yao...are you still willing to have me?"
"As you said, haven't I said it a long time ago? Instead of letting others delay you, why don't you let me do it?"
"Then Ah Yao, just stay where you are and don't move."
"What's the meaning?"
“···”
"I found Ah Yao."
Only a moment later, Su Yao noticed that her tone became breathless.
"My lovely girlfriend said she misses you very much. She is obviously downstairs, why don't you want to come up and meet her?!"
“···”
Su Yao was stunned, this man had already come down from upstairs.
Wearing only pajamas and no shoes, she was barefoot in the cold weather.
Trotting.
Speed up again.
"Ugh, idiot!"
He hugged me tightly as if he was rushing towards me.
"How can I feel relieved with such a simple statement!"
His hands were firmly clasped on his back.
"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
“···”
"Never do that again..."
"I no longer want to be a character who just watches from the corner. I don't want to care about anything anymore... Wow."
“···”
Su Yao didn't say anything, but just put his hand on her shoulder.
"Actually, you misunderstood one thing."
"The third party does exist, and I do have feelings for her."
"Judging from what you just said, you seem to think that I had a very bad time getting along with her. The real situation is-"
Was attacked by surprise.
Suddenly A came up.
I have become more proficient in techniques than before, maybe because I recalled a lot of memories. Otherwise, such advanced skills as pressing my hand on the baby's canteen would not be possible.
"That kind of thing... you just lied and deceived me."
"I know, we all know...if it was really bad, there would be no way that A Yao would start a family with her in my inexplicable memory."
“···”
"but···"
"Ah Yao, here you go."
"It came before I knew it."
"Are you here because you're worried about what a fool like me might do?"
"This is the first time I see someone claiming to be a fool."
"Do it again."
"——"
Let me first explain that a sneak attack is a sneak attack. It shouldn’t be considered a sneak attack, right?
After Ping A finished charging up, his moist eyes stared straight at Su Yao.
"Ah Yao."
"I want to know everything and then..."
"I want to help Ah Yao, not make a vase."
"Even if...help Ah Yao find Xiao Youye back."
"Do you know what you're talking about?"
"Know."
“···”
"But I don't want to pay attention to it anymore. I don't want to think about it anymore. No matter what, I don't want to leave anymore."
"This is the love brain."
"Then Ah Yao is a scumbag. A scumbag who plays with other people's feelings. He is also a lolita control."
"Yes, even if you are not a scumbag, you cannot openly say what you want both of them."
“···”
We returned to a familiar residence together. The furnishings had not changed, and all of Su Yao’s things were there.
As soon as I put on my slippers, I was hugged.
"Fool···"
It looked like he was about to cry, and he choked with sobs in the room without turning on the lights, "When you are with your lovely girlfriend, don't talk about other women!"
Maybe it’s because we’ve been apart for a long time and the knot in our hearts has been completely lifted.
Xia Xianyue let go completely, closed the door, and took the initiative to greet her.
When Su Yao's weird-colored arm was exposed, he gently touched it.
"It's not Ah Yao's hand that touches it, it feels weird..."
"Want to hear the story of this hand? It can be considered a friend of mine."
"It's a little scary...but I want to hear it."
“···”
The story of number 16.
And about Su Yao’s biggest knot, his own story.
It sounds strange to say it, but I remembered it after being transformed.
From the beginning, it was nothing that became ‘Su Yao’. It was ‘Su Yao’ who failed to survive in this world, and that’s why Su Yao in another world came into existence.
It's not A-B, it's B-A-B. That's the order.
Su Yao told her everything.
Including the novel written in the past based on real experiences, and then telling her again that it was true.
Love games too.
It's nothing to hide.
"Wow, are they all true?"
She burst into tears for no apparent reason.
Occasionally, I can't help but comment, "It sounds like something I would do..."
Occasionally I would retort, "I'm not the kind of person who would commit suicide... not like that! I'm definitely not the kind of girl who acts like a yandere."
"Right?"
"Hey, Ah Yao doesn't think I'm a troublesome girlfriend, right?"
"...You use the baby cafeteria to attack my conscience like this. It's hard for me to answer."
"Humph."
She was so angry that she oppressed Su Yao's conscience even more, "I'm not the kind of troublesome girlfriend. I won't give my boyfriend the slightest sense of restraint. Otherwise, I won't let my boyfriend talk about other women.
angry."
"This...it's hard for me to answer."
"You're already doing this kind of thing with others, and you don't even want to praise your lovely girlfriend even if you lie?"
"Sure enough, I'm not as green as before."
"Wow! Why, why is this happening suddenly!"
Xia Xianyue's cheeks turned red instantly.
"Anyway..."
Su Yao said helplessly, "Although it's not detailed, this is my experience."
"If it's true..."
Xia Xianyue also calmed down, "What kind of idiot came up with this kind of game! It's really too much!"
"...Not entirely."
Su Yao sighed, remembering the scene of him being hit to death in the first place, "Without it, I would have died long ago. By the way, when you came to me when you first knew I was dead, you would definitely burp together."
"Then Ah Yao still wants to thank it?"
"Who knows?"
“···”
“It’s really weird...”
After a moment of silence, Xia Xianyue asked in an incomprehensible tone, "Am I still the same person now?"
"Who can understand things like souls and memories? But to put it bluntly, we are all the bodies of people who occupy this timeline or world, and we are not aborigines."
"Is that so... This seems to mean that A Yao and I are both real, hee hee."
"Don't you feel a little guilty about your Aboriginal self?"
"I can't understand that kind of thing at all, but if it were me... I would be very satisfied now."
“···”
Listening to her serious words, Su Yao couldn't refute.
"Na."
"Ah Yao, if the current me dies, will you still love me the same when you meet the new me?"
"I don't think there will be any changes simply by turning back time."
"fool."
Xia Xianyue poked Su Yao's face, "I mean, if I were in another world and couldn't remember these things, what would you do to me?"
"...Now, I have no intention of letting things continue to develop as I did at the beginning."
"It must be painful to die alone, right?"
"It's okay. By the way, I actually forgot to tell you something."
Su Yao took a picture of her baby's cafeteria, chuckled and said, "I became calm for a while with the picture of you on the chandelier. It's not just me who is in pain, I think you are in pain too."
"Well, really, can this kind of thing be joked about?"
"Feel sorry···"
"But it seems like I can't hold it back now?"
Her white fingers were wandering.
"...After all, too frequent use will produce immunity."
"Stop imagining my strange appearance in your mind."
Xia Xianyue climbed up, lightly straddling Su Yao's abdomen, and used her legs to support her own weight, with a strand of hair hanging on her face.
Those twinkling pupils were slightly moist, "Can you... treat me more gently?"
Treat me as I am now with more cherishment.
Then, if something happens and I die, there will be a new me to meet Ah Yao.